episode_0148

‘State that everything your parents say is lies and that you have been abused by your parents for the past 19 years.’

abuse.

The stronger the tone, the stronger the feeling of rejection.

Was what my parents did to me over the past 19 years abusive?

… I think that depending on the person, the expression abuse may be used.

So what do I think?

My parents have definitely given me a hard time over the past ten years.

They entrusted me with all kinds of household chores, let me earn their living expenses, and took advantage of my hard-earned part-time salary for their own self-interest.

but… .

‘Yerin ah… .’

‘I love you, my daughter.’

He didn’t hate me emotionally.

He often told me that he loved me, and I think he did.

“Okay… , it’s not abuse… .”

Isn’t there a slightly weaker expression? ? Otherwise, is there a way to get rid of MS Planning without disturbing mom and dad?

‘But if we can’t overturn public opinion… ?’

Then, only Brother Planning will be buried in the ground again.

“Ha… , iced coffee… .”

It feels like someone is whispering in my ear.

Between Brothers Planning and Parents… , who to save and who to kill.

And I… .

“I don’t like it… .”

I didn’t want to choose both.

To be precise… , I couldn’t choose between the two.

Brothers Planning and Kang Hyeong-man.

They are the benefactors who saved my life from the bottom.

parents.

Even though I hate it… , These are the people who gave birth to me.

They are the ones I had hoped for so much in my past life… .

‘My daughter… , our love… , I think it’s so pretty… . Such a lovely baby came out of my womb… .’

‘my love… , pretty baby… . I am your mother. Please take care of me in the future.’

‘Yerin, we are still lacking a lot, but… , I’ll do my best. My daughter Yerin, dad and mom love you so much.’

‘Honey, our Yerin… , raise it well. The most precious thing in the world… , happily without any worries… .’

‘yes… To my daughter, the prettiest girl in the world… , I will definitely do that… !’

I don’t think the love they showed me was fake.

They must be… , He truly loved me.

As I had to choose between the two, my stomach began to twist and my head began to fill with more and more anguish.

So in the end I… .

“… … I can’t choose. I can’t do it.”

I whispered to myself and stood up.

abuse? What my father and mother did to me was not abuse.

If I said something negative about my father and mother at the press conference, there was a possibility that public criticism would be directed at them.

Therefore, I wanted to find a way to take care of both my siblings and my parents.

Go out to Director Jeong who is waiting outside… , I was going to ask them to think about that method together.

It was then.

Ugh-.

“… … !”

Suddenly, my cell phone rang, as if to catch me getting up from my seat.

When I saw the short vibration, it seemed to be a message.

I picked up the phone, wondering if there was someone… .

[president]

[I’m very busy right now, so I couldn’t contact you directly. sorry. You must have been very surprised… , I always trust your choices.]

“… … .”

It was only Kang Hyeong-man who sent me a message.

As soon as I saw his message, I couldn’t take my breath away.

They went to the police station because of me… , his words of trusting me broke the dam in my heart and flooded my emotions.

“Hmm… .”

… I actually knew I couldn’t choose both.

I pretended to save everyone and subtly tried to choose my parents over my siblings.

A bitch like an asshole, a bitch like a beast, a bitch without grace.

How can that be?

The boss and the Brothers Planning family have done so much for you, but you can betray them.

“Well, that’s not it… .”

What are you talking about?

No matter how good you are, is water thicker than blood?

Are you going to abandon the parents who gave you birth?

The two people who always told you they loved you?

why? Will I live as an ‘orphan’ again like in my previous life?

“… … !”

While confusion and conflict continued to arise in my head, I stopped at the word ‘orphan’.

okay… .

If I throw away my father and mother, I become an ‘orphan’ again.

“Ugh… , hmm… .”

As soon as I thought of that, I picked up the phone and made a call as if I was possessed.

[mom]

I knew this wasn’t the right answer, but… , Like a moth jumping into a bonfire, I couldn’t control my actions right now.

I don’t want to be an orphan again.

I don’t want to lose my parents’ love.

If the mom or dad who answered the phone said they did something wrong to me… .

If you tell me you still love me… .

I was going to choose two people no matter what was on the other side.

[…] hello?]

“… Why did you do that to me?”

[…] Yerin.]

My mom and dad sometimes had a tendency to embrace me even more and tell me that they loved me when I showed up strong.

Coupled with this desire and the anger that my father and mother had once again stabbed me in the back, I raised my voice and shouted at my mother.

“You know how much I like the people at Brother Planning. You also said you wanted to become an idol here. But why did you do that, why!!”

Quickly tell me a reason that I can understand.

… And tell me you love me

Then I will forgive you again. I’ll pass it over again.

but… .

[that is… , your maternal uncle… .]

“… … What?”

[It’s a long story, but your uncle had an accident… .]

When my mother hesitated and told me why she had joined MS Planning, I had no choice but to freeze for a moment.

“… You betrayed me because of that scoundrel?”

[Shit, what a betrayal! Yerin, we… .]

“… It’s a betrayal because you hit me in the back.”

At best, that bully betrayed me for the settlement money… ?

I was about to abandon the Brothers Project and choose these two people.

That’s how much I valued these two people.

The thought that these two people were not like that chilled my heart, which had been filled with excitement.

When my tone became cold, my dad took the phone and spoke to me instead.

[Yerin… , I’m really sorry. But this is a family affair… .]

“… I am also part of our family.”

How many times are you trying to get away with it under the excuse of family?

My father, probably feeling impatient as my cold heart did not warm up easily, shouted as if using a special move.

but… .

[of course! Our Yerin is the daughter that both father and mother love the most in the world!]

“… … .”

This time, hearing the words “I love you” didn’t stir my heart.

And at that moment… .

[huh? You know! Dad and Mom are what our Yerin loves the most!]

‘Yerin, we are still lacking a lot, but… , I’ll do my best. My daughter Yerin, dad and mom love you so much.’

I realized that the way my dad said I love him back then and the way he says I love him now are different.

‘ah.’

changed.

My dad may have truly loved me before, but he doesn’t love me like he did then.

Since when?

Since when did my dad change?

Maybe it was a very long time ago. It’s just that I didn’t realize it until now.

… No, it’s not that I didn’t realize it, it’s that I was ignoring the truth.

Jeokjeok, Jeokjeok-.

In response, I spoke in a dazed voice that sounded like something breaking.

“… Weird. I don’t feel anything.”

[…] … uh?]

“Even if I hear dad and mom say I love them… , It’s nothing.”

Grumble.

Before I knew it, tears were flowing from my eyes.

Damn it.

The sound of something breaking also continued.

“You said you loved me… . You said it was more important than anything else… .”

[Yerin… .]

“You said you would raise me with more respect for me than anything else… . But why… , Why why… !”

I suddenly became agitated and shouted at them.

“I’ve worked hard for the past 19 years because I wanted to be loved by my dad and mom! But why don’t my dad and mom love me?!”

[…] What are you talking about. Dad and Mom say they love Yerin… ?]

“… lie. Think about what you’ve done to me… . There’s no way you could do this to someone you love… ? I may have known it before, but these two people don’t love me… .”

Only then did I admit it.

What my parents have been whispering to me until now, that they love me, is not the truth.

I might not know it from the past, but my current father and mother don’t love me.

Damn it!

It was my heart that was breaking.

My heart felt like it was broken into pieces and thrown away around me.

And what filled that empty space was… .

“… I hate you.”

It was deep resentment and anger.

As I got rid of the illusion of love, my deep resentment turned towards my parents.

“… I hate my father and mother for not being able to keep their promises. I hate my father and mother who only saw me as a use, not as a daughter.”

[…] Yerin.]

“… I hate my father and mother for making me an orphan again.”

Just because you gave birth doesn’t mean you are a parent.

At some point, my father and mother stopped loving me and did not fulfill their responsibilities.

… I just ignored it and for a long time I was an orphan again.

The moment you admit it… , everything has changed.

Tiring.

[Locked characteristics are temporarily unlocked!]

“… I can’t forgive… I can’t forgive you guys.”

[Yerin? What are you talking about… ! Yerin! Yerin, sleep… !]

Hold.

I hung up the phone with those words.

Before I knew it, my face was covered with tears.

Have I shed so many tears that my eyes have become strange?

My khaki pants looked gray.

It wasn’t just the pants.

When I was a fool who believed my parents loved me, the world was colorful… , It was very dark now.

“… Is it because of the newly temporarily released characteristics?”

So, I opened the status window and shouted to myself.

The status window, which usually appears blue, appeared pitch black today.

[Characteristic: Extreme Demon – Your resentment has reached the sky. Imprint your anger on unbelievers, apostates, your enemies, your adversaries, and everything else that stands in your way.]

[Characteristic effect: Opening of the Ten Thousand Demon Hall – All undisclosed Heavenly Demon Divine skills can be used depending on the situation. All of your humanity stats are temporarily invalidated.]

“… … .”

Something like that happened just recently, and I felt strangely calm.

Does this mean that humanity stats are invalidated?

I felt as if I was controlling the character ‘Ha Ye-rin’ in the game.

So I walked lightly, opened the door, and went out.

“Ah, Miss Yerin. Did you come out? … Anyway, it would be hard to get rid of it. I guess you didn’t hear what I just said… .”

And then he spoke as if notifying Director Jeong, who was waiting right in front of him.

“I will hold a press conference.”

“… … Yes?”

I repeated it clearly to Director Jeong, who tilted his head and had a blank expression on his face.

“We will hold a press conference.”

I should have done this a long time ago, but I was a stupid bitch, so I hesitated and lost a lot.

“Right tomorrow. Please bring in as many reporters as possible.”

Now all I could think about was setting it all right and stepping on them all.