episode_0087

“With me… , let’s sleep together?”

Nod.

When Seo Yu-jin nodded in response to my question in confusion, I said with a blank face.

“Eujin, didn’t you say you couldn’t share a room with anyone? I think I’ve definitely heard that before… .”

In the past, when she first came to Naaah’s dormitory, Seo Yu-jin was a B-class participant, not an A-class participant who used a private room.

When I saw a B-class room with two people sharing… .

‘… ‘I can’t share a room with anyone.’

I remember Seo Yu-jin saying that.

But why did he suddenly come to me and ask me to sleep with him… .

When I asked this question, Seo Yu-jin lowered her head with a despondent expression and said,

“… Since last night, I can’t sleep when I’m alone. Yesterday too… , I slept with my mom.”

“… … .”

“Perhaps… , why not? If you feel uncomfortable sleeping with someone else… .”

“No, that’s not it.”

After being reborn as Haye-rin, I spent the last 19 years sleeping between my father and mother every night.

Sleeping with someone else wasn’t uncomfortable at all.

I thought about this for a while and then… .

“Okay, come in, Eugene.”

“… Okay, thank you.”

I brought her into my room.

“I was just about to sleep. Lie down next to me. Let’s sleep together.”

“… Yes.”

The bed in the Class A room was quite large for a single person to sleep on, so it was big enough for two people to sleep on it.

but… .

Kuuk.

… As expected, it was unavoidable that the room was a bit cramped for the two of us.

To help my child, who must have been having a hard time since yesterday, sleep comfortably at night, I lowered myself to the end of the bed.

however… .

Pook.

“… Eugene?”

My efforts were in vain as Seo Yu-jin came straight into my arms as soon as she lay down on the bed.

“Ah… , am I too attached… .”

“… … .”

… No, this is not a given level, but almost a given level.

Body to body is in close contact with each other and there is no place that does not touch. As I froze in embarrassment, Seo Yu-jin looked up at me again with bewildered eyes and asked.

“… Fall, will I lose?”

“… … .”

Seo Yu-jin, who said that, looked like a cat getting wet in the rain.

shit… , this guy Seo Yujin… , the character changed so much in an instant.

But that… , I wonder if it made my heart even weaker.

What if a stray cat, who was always bitching at me, one day turned to me with sad eyes and blood all over it… , Is there anyone who can’t play Nyanjup?

“… No, just relax.”

“… … .”

Kkooook.

I couldn’t help but nod, so Seo Yu-jin pretended not to be Seo Yu-jin and came closer to me.

I patted Seo Yujin’s head.

“Did you have a hard time sleeping like that?”

“… … Yes.”

“… Yes, it was very difficult.”

“… … .”

This was a consolation that I honestly did not think much about.

however… .

Drip.

“… Eugene?”

“… Huh.”

Suddenly, Seo Yu-jin, who was being stroked by me, shed tears… .

Pook.

… He buried his face in my chest.

“… I’m sorry. If I had listened to my sister when she gave me advice in the bathroom, this wouldn’t have happened… , hmm… .”

“… … .”

I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut at Seo Yu-jin’s words.

To be honest, this wasn’t Seo Yu-jin’s fault.

She was actually rude to the other contestants… No, it was right to treat him rudely.

The problem was that the production team added more flesh to the story, but it was Seo Yu-jin who provided the excuse.

“But… , but… Wow… . I… , I didn’t do anything as bad as what appeared on that broadcast… .”

“I know, I know everything.”

“Well, everyone says I’m a bitch who should be killed… , ugh… , flaw… , Just fall off the roof and die… .”

“… … .”

… As expected, I read the comments.

Even I didn’t read it because I was afraid I would be shocked… , Comments directed at Seo Yu-jin… , I guess she read it herself.

Anyone can see that she is a rich girl… , Seo Yu-jin was someone who could clearly see that she had lived a life without any significant hardships.

There was no way she could maintain her sanity even after being hit on her entire body by the harsh, malicious intent directed at her.

“ times, the company said that if it were necessary, I would leave… , uh, my mom and dad told me that if I don’t become an idol, that’s it… They tell me not to get hurt… .”

“… … .”

“I… , black… Wow… , Ah, I really want to become an idol… . Because it was a dream… .”

ah.

“Well, but if I run away from here… , I don’t think I’ll ever be an idol again… , I somehow came back… , I’m more scared than I thought… , ugh… .”

Seo Yu-jin put her face on my chest and sobbed and trembled.

In addition to the excessive criticism from the public and the uncomfortable gaze of other contestants toward Seo Yu-jin, no one came close to her today, and everyone rejected her nomination during team selection.

surely… , Today’s event was difficult for Seo Yu-jin, who was at most 17 years old and didn’t even know much about the world, to handle alone.

Even though my heart is wet with her tears… , I gently gave my arms to her.

It was then.

[The status window will be upgraded!]

“… … ?”

While stroking Seo Yu-jin’s head, I couldn’t help but be startled by the sudden text in the status window.

That’s right… , Suddenly the status window is upgraded… ?

Have you ever experienced anything like this in your life?

[You can now check ‘status abnormalities’ through the status window.]

‘Status abnormality… ?’

I don’t know what it is, but the reason for this change is probably because of Seo Yu-jin in front of me.

So, for the first time in a long time, I opened Seo Yujin’s status window.

and… .

“… … … .”

… I had no choice but to freeze for a moment.

[Status: Severe depression, extreme anxiety disorder, nervous breakdown.]

This was because her condition was much more serious than expected.

‘It’s not just depression or just anxiety disorder… , severe depression, severe anxiety disorder… . And even a nervous breakdown… .’

this… , Isn’t it dangerous?

Seo Yu-jin’s thorny path has only just begun today.

Even now, because our cell phones have been confiscated, we can’t check the public’s reaction… , people must be throwing stones and cursing at Seo Yu-jin.

It was clear that the suffering and pain that Seo Yu-jin would experience in the future would be so cruel that it could not be compared to today.

But it’s already like this… .

If this goes on until later, Seo Yu-jin can’t withstand people’s criticism… , if you make an extreme choice… .

… … .

“… … Phew.”

If the person in my arms right now makes that choice… , it was clear that I would never sleep comfortably for the rest of my life.

So I… , not only for Seo Yu-jin but also for me… , I decided to take care of Seo Yu-jin’s mental health using the Heavenly Demon Hwanhok that I had saved.

but… .

‘… But I tried using Heavenly Demon Illusion on Eugene before and failed. If it happens again this time… ?’

Just before using Heavenly Demon Illusion, I remembered how I had previously failed to cast Heavenly Demon Illusion on Seo Yu-jin.

So I decided to take a more careful approach than before.

Because the Heavenly Demon Hwan is activated through my emotions… . More honestly… , revealing my honest feelings.

“Yujin.”

“Huhhh… , … Yes?”

“… This incident is definitely your fault.”

“… … !”

As soon as she heard those words, Seo Yu-jin’s eyes grew big and trembled like aspen trees.

**

“Eujin… , my daughter… , If you don’t want to go, you don’t have to go to film. Mom and Dad… , I’ll solve everything… .”

“… … .”

After personally dropping off Seo Yu-jin on the set of Naaah this morning… , her parents said in a friendly voice.

You don’t have to go.

but… .

“It’s okay, Mom and Dad. … I’m not a kid anymore either. I will do well and come back.”

Seo Yu-jin answered her parents in a brave voice.

It seemed like if she showed even the slightest hint of distress, her father and mother would force her not to go to the filming set.

and… .

If I leave Naaa like this… Because I felt like I would never dream of becoming an idol again.

Rather than give up my dream of becoming an idol like this, I thought it would be better to hit it myself, even if it was scary.

but… .

‘… sorry. ‘I refuse.’

‘… ‘I refuse.’

‘Well, I refuse.’

‘… sorry.’

After all the contestants rejected her nomination… , the thought of wanting to run away arose again.

I was scared.

I missed my mom and dad.

Every time I feel people’s eyes… , I felt like I was remembering the comments I saw last night.

I’d rather die.

Get off the rooftop.

Words that make me shiver just thinking about them… , it felt like people were shouting at her.

And the moment I thought that Seo Yu-jin wouldn’t be able to endure… .

‘… I will nominate contestant Seo Yu-jin.’

As if shining a light, Ha Ye-rin extended a helping hand towards her.

Ha Ye-rin always thought of Seo Yu-jin as a competitor and a mountain she wanted to overcome.

But the moment Ha Ye-rin reached out to the lonely and scared Seo Yu-jin… .

She became Seo Yu-jin’s companion.

Seo Yu-jin felt like her anxiety was going away when she was with Ha Ye-rin… , I couldn’t let go of her hand.

In this difficult week of filming Naaah… , I thought Ha Ye-rin would be her support.

however… .

“… This incident is definitely your fault.”

“… … !”

I can’t believe Haye-rin said this… .

“Uh, sister… .”

Of course, Seo Yu-jin thought that this was largely her fault.

But Ha Ye-rin, the only person here who took my side, said that… For some reason, tears welled up in my eyes due to an inexplicable sense of betrayal.

But then… .

“But you didn’t do anything wrong to be having such a hard time right now.”

Ha Ye-rin continued speaking in a tone that seemed to suggest that the speaker listen to the end of the Korean language.

Sreuk-.

The hand stroking Seo Yu-jin’s head had already moved to her cheek.

Ha Ye-rin’s hand lightly grasping Seo Yu-jin’s cheek… , It was cold but warm.

“So don’t suffer because of mistakes you didn’t make.”

“… … .”

The warmth that started on her cheeks soon spread to her entire body.

At that time, Seo Yu-jin had the illusion that a light was shining behind Ha Ye-rin.

Right now at this moment… , Ha Ye-rin seemed like a savior.

And that savior… , it’s not your fault… , that was what he was saying.

Since she said that… , Seo Yu-jin truly felt as if her sins were washed away.

“I sincerely apologize to the people you treated rudely later. If they forgive… , with that, your fault disappears.”

“… … .”

“Ignore all other malicious comments people make toward you. If it’s hard to ignore… .”

Pook.

Ha Ye-rin held Seo Yu-jin’s face in her chest and whispered in her ear.

“Hold in your arms like this. Then I will cover your ears.”

ah.

Thump thump.

At that moment, the tinnitus that passed through Seo Yu-jin’s ears began to bravely chase away the negative thoughts in her head.

Seo Yu-jin confirmed where the tinnitus came from.

Thump thump.

… It was her heartbeat.

Why is my heart beating so loud right now?

Seo Yu-jin didn’t know the reason, but… .

‘What do you know?’

Seo Yu-jin just feels like this moment… , It was so warm and comfortable.

Come on.

In order to feel more of that warmth and comfort, Seo Yu-jin murmured while tightly hugging Ha Ye-rin’s back.

“… I’m sorry.”

“What?”

“… I was also rude to my sister. … I’m sorry.”

When Seo Yu-jin looked like a kindergartener who was embarrassed to apologize, Ha Ye-rin responded with a small smile.

“I forgive you.”

How can the simple word of forgiveness be so reassuring and so heartbreaking?

Wow.

“… Then you won’t hate me?”

“Then. Why do I hate you?”

“… Thank you.”

Hayerin’s words were warm… , Hayerin’s body was warmer.

And Ha Ye-rin’s body warmed Seo Yu-jin’s body as well.

Seo Yu-jin hugged Ha Ye-rin and whispered without realizing it, intoxicated by the ecstatic sensation.

“… And I love you.”

“Yes, I’m Eugene too… , hmm? What?”

“… Ah.”

Seo Yu-jin, who came to her senses after hearing Ha Ye-rin’s embarrassed voice, hastily made an excuse.

“Oh, no… , At that moment, I felt like my sister was like my mother… , Ma, it was a mistake.”

“Ah… , I see.”

Mistake.

This was clearly a mistake. A mistake made because Ha Ye-rin’s arms reminded me of my mother.

no… Actually, if I were to be honest, I feel different from my mom, but anyway… !

Why do you suddenly make a mistake and make the atmosphere strange?

Seo Yu-jin slapped her mouth a couple of times.

Fortunately, though, Ha Ye-rin nodded as if she understood.

“You can make mistakes when speaking… But Eugene. You don’t plan on sleeping like this all night, do you? … Sister, I’m feeling a bit frustrated… .”

“… Ah.”

When Ha Ye-rin said she was frustrated, Seo Yu-jin was surprised and let go of her strong hold on Ha Ye-rin.

‘I was planning to sleep in it all night… .’

Then, feeling regretful, he carefully asked Ha Ye-rin.

“Then, sister… , we can’t just hold hands and sleep… ?”

“… … .”

Ha Ye-rin was startled by Seo Yu-jin’s strange tone of voice, but then nodded.

“… Yes.”

“Hehe.”

chin.

As soon as permission was given, Seo Yu-jin held Ha Ye-rin’s hand and clasped it.

Ha Ye-rin looked embarrassed for a moment when she saw that, but then smiled and said.

“The random thoughts are gone now, right?”

“… Yes, sister.”

The negative thoughts didn’t disappear at all, but… , Seo Yu-jin was at least as comfortable as this moment.

“Then let’s go to sleep quickly. Because we have to work hard tomorrow too.”

“… Yes, sister. Good night.”

“Okay.”

Come on.

So, Seo Yu-jin held Ha Ye-rin’s hand tightly and closed her eyes.

Compared to yesterday… , it was a really quiet night.

She soon fell into a comfortable sleep.

And just before going to sleep, I prayed to myself.

‘Tomorrow too… , In the future… , I wish it was as warm as it is now.’

of course… .

However, her wish was broken the very next day.