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『Fisherman’s Month – 15th (Evening)』

“Ah… … Is this my room?”

Before I knew it, I had lost consciousness and woke up in my dorm.

The sunset is setting, and as I look at the sky turning dark blue, I feel that it is already evening.

“You’re naked… ”

The bloody clothes were washed and neatly folded in a basket, and I got out of the blanket without any underwear.

The equipment was also neatly organized and placed on the wall.

“The scar is gone… Did Clarice treat you?”

–Squeak…

[You’re awake. Alex♥]

[Really… Do you know how long you’ve been sleeping?]

The door opened, and Clarice and Mel came in.

“Kkeuch… … ♡”

The two people came in, and in an instant, the inside was filled with a breathtakingly sweet smell, and I felt my penis, which was completely naked, slightly swell.

“Have you been sleeping that long? These two people have no shame… ”

[Hey… Rather, Alex… Did you get an erection?]

[Is that an erection? Puheup♥ It’s small. Yours is♥]

“This is… !”

Two people with the corners of their mouths slightly raised.

When I tried to say something to the two sexually harassing people… The incident in the forest suddenly came to mind.

Clarice and Mel’s strike that annihilated the high orcs and the orc hordes… I couldn’t be sure that the overwhelming difference in skill would only be directed at monsters.

Even at that time, I was the only one who was able to maintain my sanity, so I have no right to say anything to those two…

[But thank you for your hard work today! Alex also worked hard… We finished the report, so don’t worry!]

[You must be tired, so take a rest. Because I used my magic to do the washing and maintenance]

These were two people who encouraged me when I was depressed… Those words of sympathy felt like a dagger, piercing my heart.

“I’m sorry. Clarisse, Mel… You put the party in danger because of me again… ”

As the leader and vanguard, I have to protect the rear row… After defeating an orc, you lose strength…

Instead, he ended up being protected by the two people he was supposed to protect.

Moreover, I was unable to fulfill my duty as a leader and instead of being grateful, I ended up harboring fear and a sense of inferiority… I felt pathetic and pathetic about myself.

[Don’t worry. Alex. No matter what anyone says or what happens, the leader is Alex, right?]

[Okay, Alex. Just do better next time~]

Nevertheless, they both worried about me. I don’t even have the courage to face you…

This will remain in my head for the rest of my life and cause pain… I can’t just cover it up.

Even for the sake of the two people who support me and comfort me…

“I’m really, really sorry! I will work harder and work hard to ensure that something like this never happens again. I will never let you be in danger again because of my helplessness. Definitely!”

I bow my head and sincerely apologize.

Because we are colleagues… Colleagues should help and help each other.

If I’m weak like this on my own, I’ll only become an obstacle to others.

[Alex too… We have a close relationship since we were kids♥ We don’t get angry about that♥]

[That’s right. Neither Clarice nor I had any trouble because of Alex. Don’t worry~]

Smiling brightly, the two came to the side of the bed where I was lying, sat on either side of me, and whispered sweetly.

Hot breath, voluptuous body, big dick… … ? My bodies touch.

Well, but… Since when did Clarice and Mel have such strong bodies? ?

With the blessings of the goddess… … Did you say that?

“I have one thing to ask you guys… ”

I bring out a question I have been harboring inside.

“The reason I became stronger… Goddess, because of your blessings… It was right?”

[yes that’s right… ! We were able to achieve true enlightenment only after receiving the goddess’ blessings ♥ Has Alex finally become interested in ‘blessings’ too!? Is that so!?]

Clarice’s eyes sparkled, and she thrust out her large breasts.

[Your thoughts have already reached that point ♥ That’s right. We have been blessed and become stronger than anyone else ♥ The same goes for you ♥ If you receive the blessings of the Goddess, just as much as we… Maybe it can become stronger than us]

Mel pressed her big buttocks against mine and sent her hot breath.

[That method… It’s right there♥]

The two people’s fingers pointed to a single potion on the desk.

A potion bottle with ‘Blessing’ written on it. My reflection is reflected in the flowing liquid.

“If you accept that, I too… … Can you become stronger?”

[yes! yes!! It will definitely be so ♥ The Goddess is great and absolute… There’s nothing he can’t do♥]

[The goddess will change both your weakness and your helplessness♥]

Moonlight embroidered in the dark blue night sky. The expressions of the two reflected in that light.

The evil smile on the corners of my mouth and the lustful eyes are watching me closely to see what I will do next and what I will say.

“I… I am… ”

Slowly reaching out for the ‘blessing’. If I can rely on that to become stronger… …

Shouldn’t I have become stronger through my own efforts…?

Am I driven to the point where I pursue strength so much?

Answer your own questions, answer yourself… Soon the outstretched hand stopped in midair.

[Alex… ? What’s wrong. ‘Blessing’? I can become stronger… !]

[Are you still worried? No need to worry. It’s a goddess… ! Great Mother Goddess!]

The two voices rise. Urging and fretting.

But I eventually gave up…

“Sorry… Let me think about it a little more. Becoming strong with the goddess’s blessing is not because of my own strength… I want to become strong with only my own strength and protect everyone… !”

It was a well-chosen decision. I am… I will overcome this inferiority complex and become stronger with my own strength.

But what came back…

[[ha?]]

A cold voice that freezes the room. The expression on his face just now disappears, and a look of disdain is turned towards me.

“Two, both of them… Calm down… ”

The air settled heavily. I was embarrassed and tried to calm them down, but… The seeds didn’t even work.

[Calm… ? Does it look genuine? You, you… … ! Do you think you have the right to say that!?]

Intense anger poured out of Clarice. The veins are visible on the head, and the eyes are bloodshot…

“Yeah, right! Let’s go back and rest first… You guys had a hard time too… ! Let’s rest well until tomorrow, and then continue training the next day… ”

[You’re talking nonsense. When you fell, did you hurt your head too? Rest tomorrow and train the next day? Phew ♥ I think we need to ingrain the need for hard work deep into Alex’s bones. Mel♥]

[Jeong, if you come out like that, I will do it ♥ You will have to keep your word. If you want to become stronger on your own, shouldn’t you train while sparing your rest time?]

Anger, contempt, and disappointment. Every word becomes a sharp dagger, stabbing all over the body.

“Now, wait a minute… !”

[There will be no rest in the future. Alex… Tomorrow will be harder than today, and the day after tomorrow will be harder than tomorrow ♥ Today will be your last rest, so encourage your tired mind and body. Then I’ll see you tomorrow morning]

[ha… Annoying bastard… ]

The two left without even looking back.

Remaining alone in the room, he follows his departing colleague with trembling eyes.

I don’t have time to make excuses or the courage to stand in the way of the cold ruling that won’t allow even an inch of rest. Once again…

“Damn… … ”

What choice did I have to make then…

[Don’t overdo it. Alex, my little lamb ♥ Remember that I am always by your side]

“Ah… … ”

At that moment, a warm and kind voice lingering in my head brought me into an irresistible sleep.

It was a hard and tough day, but… For some reason, I feel like I calm down when I hear this voice… … …

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『Fisherman’s Month – 16 Days』

『Fisherman’s Month – 17 Days』

『Fisherman’s Month – 20 Days』

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『Month of the Cross – 18 Days』

『Month of the Cross – 20th (Morning)』

Now, about a month later…

“Ha… Sigh… … ”

Without exaggerating, without missing a single day… I really trained every single day. But could it be considered training?

There was not a day when the smell of blood did not disappear from my labored breathing.

All of the requests were chosen by Clarice, and they were all difficult.

Because of my lack of skills, I could barely catch one fish and become exhausted, or one day I could not catch even one fish and was beaten to a bloody pulp, only to be scolded by Clarice and rescued.

“This kind of thing… no… ”

After experiencing the bitter taste of defeat for several days… My self-esteem, which seemed unbreakable, went underground.

At times, I hesitated, wondering, ‘Can I really do this?’ If Mel hadn’t found me, I would have passed away that day.

While I was kissing the ground, covered in dust and blood like a fool… Clarisse and Mel took out the monsters very easily while whistling.

To the point where I feel like a fool for struggling… When you hit it with a cross and swing the staff like a child playing with a toy, the monsters disappear without a trace.

“Do I have to go today again? ”

After dealing with the monster, the two leave without telling me, and sometimes they return with extremely happy faces.

Even though I chased after him with my exhausted body, I collapsed before I knew it and woke up in bed many times.

The same day begins today. Yesterday, while trying to catch a giant praying mantis that appeared in the forest, both my arms were cut off and I couldn’t move. I lost consciousness and got out of bed.

Trembling eyes look beyond the door. At some point, I had never used a sword that had been carefully polished. Every time I went for a request, more than half of the days I passed out without even being able to draw a sword.

“No more like this… It can’t be… ”

But how… ? Clarice and Mel were stronger than standard, and compared to them, I was weaker than standard.

I feel like a fool as I used to say that I could become stronger through the empty dream of hard work.

I am so pathetically weak… I can’t keep up with the training and I’m holding them back…

“It would be better if two people kicked me out… I wouldn’t have even thought of such a foolish thing… ”

okay… There is no reason for two strong people to take me, a weak person, with them.

Treating me carelessly while personally treating and caring for me when I was injured made me more miserable and encouraged my inferiority complex.

I bite my lip tightly and shed sad tears… No one is listening.

“What am I doing… … I am utterly incompetent… … ”

–Squeak… …

The face buried in the blanket was turned toward the wide open door.

They are Clarice and Mel… A precious colleague and the cause of all my depression…

[I came today because I have something important to say. Alex]

[This is an important story. Open your ears and listen carefully]

“What… Work, but… ”

The two people came with serious expressions, not the kind of expressions that made them laugh or laugh evilly.

Until now, we have never visited each other’s rooms. Whether I come in or they come in… The reason these two people came into the room and wanted to talk was…

I swallow, assuming the worst.

“Party… Is it because of the dissolution?”

[yes? Is that possible?♥ We are precious friends. There’s no way it could be disbanded, right?]

[I came because I have something to suggest. After working diligently for a month, we received many blessings from the goddess… You didn’t make any progress on your own, and that’s why]

[We’ve been working hard on requests for a month, right? Well, we were lucky that we could always receive the goddess’ blessing after killing monsters, but Alex… You couldn’t do that, right?]

A tingling feeling as if I had been hit in the back of the head several times. The two vehemently denied disbanding the party.

“Then… What’s going on?”

[Please let Alex choose the next request himself ♥ Based on us, it seems like Alex has had a hard time, and it doesn’t seem to be helping his training at all… ]

“Well, really… !?”

Clarisse’s consideration touched me. A request that suits my level…

[Giggle♥ Instead, there is one condition♥ Alex♥]

“Jo, conditions… ?”

[If you arm wrestle with me and win… I’ll let you do it ♥ If you lose, you have to choose the same level of quests that Clarisse has chosen ♥]

[Don’t be too intimidated. Alex! Mel too… Hehe♥ I’ll give you a moderate amount of attention. It’s about winning and gaining strength♥]

After receiving Clarice’s encouragement, the negative emotions that had built up seemed to melt away.

“Okay… I’ll win… Definitely!”

Mel and I quickly settled down on either end of the desk.

Unlike her violent and attractive body, Mel’s hands were soft and without any flab.

So much so that I momentarily thought I could win.

But that expectation…

[Then let’s start♥ Does it move on the count of three? one two… Three, eh♥]

–thud…

“Ugh… ”

It broke all at once. The arm wrestling lasted less than a second and ended in my defeat.

It wasn’t that I didn’t apply force. Yet, with great ease, Mel breaks my arm and knocks me down onto the desk.

The pathetic excuse that I wasn’t ready was sure to make me more miserable.

[uh… It’s true that you gave strength. Alex? This isn’t the end, right?]

“Uh, yes… ! Of course.”

Mel smiles bitterly. The dark brown arms seemed to have no strength at all.

[Then let’s start once more♥ One, two, three… ♥]

–bang… !

“Ugh… !!”

[No, no, no ♥ If you do this, you will have a terrible time today too ♥ There will be many opportunities in the future. Let’s do more. Alex♥]

The second defeat was in vain. I tried my best this time, but Mel’s arm didn’t even move.

-Quaaang… !!

◦ at !!!”

The third, of course… defeated. This time, Mel struck hard, hitting the desk and starting to bleed.

[You can’t give up on this♥ Do your best until the end… Eight♥]

–Kwasik… !!

Of course we lost the fourth time. When I was defeated, I heard the sound of bones breaking and felt unbearable pain.

“Ah, ahhh… !! Ugh… ”

[I didn’t know it would be this weak. Did I overestimate Alex too much? I thought one of the cores was a tough male♥]

–Kwaaa New still? !! Kwazizizik… !!!

“Haughugh… ! Green onion, the arm… … !”

The last one was also defeated in the end. The table broke and I was thrown to the floor. The wrist that was arm wrestling was twisted in an impossible direction.

[Ahahaha ♥ If I had lost and given up cleanly at first, I wouldn’t have gone to this extent… It seemed so ugly to climb all the way to the end without even knowing the topic, so I got a little overly involved♥ I’m sorry. Alex♥]

“Ha… ha… … ”

Mel laughed out loud and seemed to lose interest and left the room without even looking at me.

In the end, only me and Clarice were left in the room. She sat next to me, thoroughly healed my broken and bruised arm, and opened my tightly shut mouth.

[ha… Alex. Actually, this arm wrestling had a different intention… ]

“Different intentions… ?”

[I understood the topic. Another way is to know your level and not get involved in fights you can’t win. Because there are so many people who don’t do that and rush to death like moths to fire]

Arm wrestling with Mel. If it was a real battle… I died once under the illusion that I would win, and I probably died several times because I attacked my opponent without knowing how strong he was.

[I’m really disappointed… Were you planning on leaving us to die with such rubbish judgment?]

“Well, that’s… … ”

[If you continue to show weakness, we can’t stand it anymore. I can either kick you out, or form a new party with me… You can also hire other talented people.]

Clarice opens the door… An ultimatum was issued.

“Now, wait a minute, Clarisse… ”

[Please pick a request quickly. As I said before, it’s at the level I’ve always chosen… If you faint again this time, our party is really over.]

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“Damn… shit… !!”

Once again, I was left alone in the room, hitting the floor and venting my anger.

Even when a piece of wood from a broken desk got stuck in my hand, it didn’t hurt… Because I was experiencing even more pain…

“Now… It’s too much for me… really… ”

A piece of wood got stuck in my hand and it became bloody again… I get up with difficulty and leave the room.

If I don’t go to receive the request like this… ? You will suffer even more pain than you do now and be abandoned…

“I need to calm down at least… … ”

A street where the morning sun rises. The weak steps did not head straight to the guild.

This is my last struggle and foolishness. I tried to relax by getting some air.

“Alex… ? It’s been a while.”

“Lacey, brother… ?”

As I was wandering aimlessly, I heard a familiar voice and turned around.

Standing there was Lacey, with flowing light blue hair and holding an ice spear.

Next to him was a man wearing gauntlets that I saw last time and a woman holding a gun the size of her body.

“Oh. Is that kid the one you were talking about? ah… ! My introduction was late. My name is Myrit Radius.”

A brown-haired man who gave his name as Myrit smiled brightly and offered to shake my hand first.

“Oh, is that him? Lacey would sometimes say… I’m Elizabeth Pendragon. My wife and I are a couple.”

Flipping her long purple hair carelessly, Elizabeth greeted her with a slight movement of her hand instead of a handshake.

“It’s quite early in the morning, but you’re in a hurry.”

“Ugh… … Do you look like that?”

“Anyone who sees that face will think that way. Rather… What were you doing alone, leaving the other two behind?”

“That… The two are resting at the dorm. I had a hard time yesterday… Well, where did your brother go that you couldn’t see him?”

I hastily change the subject. I couldn’t handle two people anymore. While talking about the two… Because I felt like I couldn’t control my emotions.

“Hmm… I went on the expedition I mentioned last time. There was a war between the empire and the kingdom. I went there as a mercenary. I had some personal business to do there, so it took a while to arrive today.”

War between empires and kingdoms… An incident that I, an adventurer, couldn’t even imagine came out of Lacey’s mouth.

Something I glanced at on the bulletin board… I heard it ended with the kingdom’s victory…

These people… They were braver adventurers than anyone else who came to report victory.

“Brother Lacey… … Ugh… ”

The self-esteem that has been ignored, ridiculed, and diminished… When I met someone who didn’t disparage me and treated me kindly, I couldn’t help but cry.

And there is one thing I would like to ask of other strong people than Mel and Clarisse.

“Uh, hey… ? Alex? Why are you crying all of a sudden?”

“Well, I… There’s something I’d like to ask the three of you… … How can I become stronger… ”

“It’s a way to become stronger… Huh, you were in quite a bit of a corner too.”

Lacey’s sharp eyes pierced through my emotions. also… Is it necessary for a strong person to have that kind of insight?

“I want to become stronger. I want to advance to a higher level… I can’t go any further with my own strength… Hmm… Haaa… !!”

Even though I wanted to speak, I was out of breath and crying. The emotions I had been suppressing exploded… At this age, I ended up crying unseemly…

“huh… You are an adult now too. I know how to worry about things like this.”

Lacey made an adult-like expression, ruffled my hair roughly and laughed.

“Talent, lineage, luck… There are many factors that determine strength. But one thing… Surviving without giving up. This thing never changes. It is not the strong who survive, but if the survivors hold on and endure as if they are strong, they will bear fruit.”

“It was a quite realistic concern. Hmm… If I could give you one piece of advice as someone who is lacking, it would be to value experience. Our human life is short, but if we accept diversity, our perspective will change.”

“You too… If I say that, will that child understand? Well, I’m not happy to give advice either, but let me tell you one thing… Don’t blindly trust in just one goal. You can change your goals at any time. Obsession sometimes becomes a disease.”

One by one, the three adventurers gave me advice that helped me become my bones and flesh.

Don’t give up, value experience, and don’t blindly trust…

Although some may say that this is something that anyone can say, the sincere advice of those who survived through death can never be forgotten.

“Hipp… … Thank you… ! Lacey brother. Mr. Myrit. Ms. Elizabeth… ! Thanks to you, I realized that there are many things to do… !”

okay… I can’t just lie down like this…

The wall between Clarisse and Mel must be overcome someday… Don’t give up, just experience it… !

“See you next time!”

I wiped my tears and runny nose with my sleeve, waved my hand at the three people, and ran to my dorm.

The three of them smiled happily and waved their hands at me as I left.

“Let’s spar… To reach the same level, you have to experience… ! Because the way to become stronger isn’t just by subduing monsters! It must never, ever collapse… !!”

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『Month of the Cross – 20th (Lunch)』

“Khot… … Gagging… … ”

[ha… Alex… I told you so. What do you think you’re doing by just asking me to understand the topic without even knowing how to do it?]

Was it because of the confidence instilled in the senior adventurers?

I blindly went to Clarisse and asked for a sparring match.

But as you can see the result…

“Haaaa… Hahahaha… ”

My head was torn and bleeding, and my stomach was so hollow that I couldn’t breathe properly. When it came to my arms and legs, they were completely broken and I couldn’t even move them.

The corner of my mouth is torn and the bloody saliva does not stop… Clarisse stepped on the torn head laceration with her heel and gave him a look of disdain.

[Plus, I didn’t even bring the request I was asked to bring… If you forgot it in just a few hours… I’m so sorry. Alex. It might be better for you if it doesn’t happen like this.]

The power of healing flows from the shoes she sells…

I was defeated, crushingly and humiliatingly, without literally being able to lay a finger on Clarisse. I don’t know how many times I have kissed the ground…

[I will treat it first, but… From next time, please don’t be like this. Alex. How can you be so weak?]

Irregular breathing returned, and my wounds began to heal as if I had never been injured.

“Wow… … !”

[You idiot… … If you do something useless like this again next time, it won’t end like today. Because it will make you live with a disability for the rest of your life. Do you know that?]

As soon as the treatment was finished, Clarice spat on me as I collapsed and left.

“Ah… eww… ”

Left alone in a remote clearing, I sob over a puddle of my own blood.

The idealistic advice given by senior adventurers was defeated by the cruel reality revealed by Clarice.

Everything is equal in front of the ridiculously powerful…

“Blessing… … ”

That moment… What came to mind was a fluttering potion bottle.

I have always refused to receive anything written as a ‘blessing.’ The reason is because I want to become stronger through my efforts…

“There was no need for it… Effort and training… ”

It felt like something in my heart had snapped…

now… There is no other way…

–Squeak…

I trudged into the room and turned my attention to the ‘blessing’ that was always on my desk.

“Goddess’ blessing… ”

If you have this, if you drink this…

“I’m just like them… ”

Hold the bottle tightly in your hand.

“Ahaha… ”

I laugh involuntarily. Ideals cannot overcome reality.

I am weak… It’s ridiculously weak.

But if I drink this, now I…

“You can become stronger… !”

Now I don’t hesitate anymore, I don’t hesitate anymore…

“Sorry. Goddess… Please lend that strength to me who rejected it so much… … ”

–gulp… gulp…

I roughly pull out a magal of ‘Blessing’ and drink it all at once.

Even though I left it for over a month, the ‘blessing’ that went down my throat was just warm.

The feeling of being comforted and hugged spreads throughout my body.

“Ha… Ha, ah… “]

My heart gets hot, my cock trembles… ♡♥

I feel so good… ♡♥

“Ahahaha… Ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ♡♥]

and… I collapse and fall into sleep.

When I wake up from this dream… I too will become stronger♡♥

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