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Saint Academy.

A huge bomb fell on this place that had been peaceful for several months.

Not even a day had passed, but the news had already spread to all the cadets.

It was a place where people in their early twenties gathered.

A few hours were enough for the rumor to spread among them. What’s more so because it wasn’t just a rumor, it was a fact, and it was a very provocative fact.

And of course, it also reached Claire Rosheim’s ears.

I couldn’t help but go in.

Nothing else, just something to do with that man. She was the one who spent more time with him than anyone else in this academy.

“Claire, did you know this too? That bastard is coming?”

” Wow, this is really awesome. Aren’t you really crazy?”

Therefore, the attention of quite a few cadets was directed towards Claire.

It was pure curiosity.

Perhaps she also knew of his return? There would have been no malice towards them. maybe.

“… … .”

But what she felt was a little different.

A part of my heart tingles. It feels like my breathing is getting tighter little by little.

I hated the memories and emotions that stuck out again to the point where they pierced my bones.

A truly hellish moment. The world pointed her out as a sinner.

Her sin was that she was friendly with a sinner. That she was the fiancé of a criminal. That was all.

――Sleep

The chains of association were constricting her little by little.

It was too cold and sad for her, who was only in her twenties at the time, to endure.

When I think about that time, I still feel like I’m going crazy.

I fell into the pit of the abyss. The feeling of my throat being tightened little by little there still gives me goosebumps and makes me nauseous.

‘Claire… Please believe me! ‘It’s not really me!’

At that time, I also had nightmares every day.

When he appeared there, he always shouted for people to trust him.

But she couldn’t.

Her own pain was too much for her. Taking that path was tantamount to suicide.

‘Claire… ! You traitor! I want you… ‘

At the end of the nightmare, he always cried out in evil. Like he hates her so much.

betrayer… You’re a traitor.

Isn’t the traitor not her, but him? He had betrayed her.

Claire always comforted herself like that.

The image he showed at the end of the nightmare is his true appearance. He said he really did nothing wrong.

“Huh? Claire~ Do you really know nothing?”

Even the true God is indifferent. It’s too much to be indifferent.

I thought I was finally free from the pain of that day, but I thought I had finally broken the chain, but now you are putting me through this ordeal again.

“Claire! Are you listening to me??”

“Oh, sorry. I was thinking about something else for a moment.”

“Well, you must have the hardest time.”

“What… Not really. Because it has nothing to do with me.”

“Really? That’s right. Anyway, didn’t you know anything?”

Because I know…

I knew it. At least the fact that his suspension will be lifted.

However, that was information that everyone at the academy knew. I couldn’t say it was particularly special.

“No. I didn’t know either. I never thought it would really come… ”

And she, like the other cadets, didn’t know any more than that.

Even if she had known, she would have rejected it.

Beyond that, I wanted to deny all the time I spent with him. Because I didn’t want to be involved with him anymore.

“Oh, really? Then you are just being dogmatic.”

“What doesn’t that family say?”

“Hey, you’ve already been excommunicated. He’s not even a duke anymore.”

When they heard that Claire was no different from them, the cadets who had gathered around her returned to their original positions.

Still, the stories about him would never end.

It was a bomb that had already been dropped. It had already exploded.

A huge pit has formed under their feet, so how can they stop paying attention?

“… … .”

When everyone’s attention dispersed, only then was Claire able to take a deep breath. I was so scared that I couldn’t make a sound and could barely exhale.

It was so hard to get attention.

She never wanted to go back to that time again.

**

The hatred that humans had was uglier than anyone could imagine.

――Boom boom!!

“Hey, you shameless bastard!!! Crawl in here on your own feet? Won’t it turn off quickly?”

“If you don’t come out, I will kill you!!”

“Hey~ Let’s take a look at that amazing face!”

It was just the ugly hatred of humans that disturbed my sleep.

I expected it to some extent, but it was beyond my imagination. It’s surprising that several months have passed and the fire has not died down.

Perhaps my appearance may have ignited their hearts again.

Do I hate myself that much?

If anyone saw me, they would think I killed their family. If I really did that, I wouldn’t have been unfair to my past self.

――Boom boom!!

Their shouting continued all night long. Because of that, I stayed up all night.

He was truly full of blood. To harass others while harming one’s own physical condition. As someone who had become weak, I was a little envious of their physical strength.

“Hmm… .”

Before leaving the room, I sat in front of the mirror.

It was much cleaner than the one I used in the old house, and I could see myself reflected there very clearly. So I hated it even more.

There were deep dark circles under the eyes. I don’t really like it because I think it unintentionally adds to the sickly flavor.

After I set a goal and made up my mind, I no longer wanted to look weak.

is not it.

Maybe they will feel a little sympathy for me. Wouldn’t that reduce the disruption?

“Huh… That’s bullshit.”

Even when I saw it, I burst out laughing at the absurd thought.

As for sympathy, it was fortunate that I didn’t get criticized for acting pitiful.

――Quick!

I slowly left the room and felt strange.

What can I say… Unlike yesterday, the hallway was quite dirty.

It was a place full of true affection.

I never thought they would show such hospitality to a new person who moved in. After all, they were noble nobles. I’m starting to feel overwhelmed with emotion.

It didn’t matter anyway. It wasn’t for me to clean it up.

The room wasn’t dirty, so there wasn’t anything to complain about.

――Geeek!

Cheap wheelchair wheels make an audible sound every time they roll.

It’s obviously because it’s so old. On the other hand, I might be complaining and asking for a break.

But what can you do?

I don’t want to drag around an old man like this either. If you want to change something but don’t have the money, that’s regret.

“Ugh… .”

I made a pointless complaint to my only companion in this world and worked hard with my arms.

If this continues, I might be late.

No matter what, I couldn’t leave a bad impression on the first day of school.

**

“Hey. That’s what I said. This guy yesterday… ”

“Really? Is that true? No way… ”

“Anyway, that’s the way it is. me too… ”

――Drur!

The endless chatter stopped for a moment. It was the very moment I opened the door to the classroom.

――Geeek!

As I slowly entered the place, numerous eyes were drawn to me.

I had already become indifferent, but that didn’t mean I was happy with the attention from dozens of eyes.

“””… .”””

The faces of those who see me are rotting little by little.

These are truly diverse facial expressions.

I was amazed that human facial muscles could be so creative.

I nonchalantly headed to my seat.

Actually, I don’t know my place. It wouldn’t have existed anyway. I just dragged the wheelchair to an empty seat in a corner.

“Wow, that’s really shameless. How can you do that?”

“Why on earth did the president approve that? I don’t understand.”

As soon as I stopped, the cadets started chewing on me at the same time as if they had planned it in advance.

These were sounds that were made very openly to be heard.

There were so many different ways to chew, perhaps because I had just gained some know-how.

‘That’s fun.’

It was even quite funny. The current situation.

It was also funny to see so many heads moving only after me, and the way they all opened their mouths as soon as I stopped.

Isn’t it like a dog that keeps waiting for a signal? They were really good listeners. I wonder if I can listen to my parents that well.

――Roaring

The gossip that seemed like it would continue forever stopped surprisingly quickly. This was right after the person who appeared to be the professor in charge entered the classroom.

Each of the cadets swallowed their regrets.

I guess he still wants to impress the professor. Grades were all meaningless, and there were still sentient beings who did not realize that truth.

“Now, everyone, be quiet. Let’s see… You really came.”

The professor’s gaze glanced at everyone and stopped on me.

It was a bit of a surprise, but that was it. He said no more.

“Professor! Can’t you kick them out? I just can’t study in the same classroom.”

“That’s right! Please kick me out immediately!”

Those who were a bit strong, or rather the most stupid, raised their hands and shouted.

Then, as if someone had expected them to shout out, many cadets voiced their voices in agreement with that opinion.

However, all ended in vain. It was because of the professor’s firm attitude.

“Now, be quiet, be quiet! So that all complaints can be brought to the Academy leadership. I’m sorry, but a single professor has no authority to forcibly expel a cadet unless he or she behaves against the rules.”

The professor’s expression was filled with genuine annoyance.

He looked like he didn’t know why such a bomb was dropped on him. Still, there was no harm done to me in particular.

Looking at her like that reminds me of Cecil.

Even though I don’t like the current situation, I have to follow it as a person who works for money… I see such sadness.

“Now, it’s midterm evaluation soon, right? If you have time to devote to others, I recommend spending it on yourself. Anyway, today’s lecture… ”

The professor led the conversation skillfully.

There were voices of dissatisfaction everywhere, but no one argued further.

There really are no such thing as cowards.

At best, you can’t achieve anything with that much will.

I was wondering if I should do as much as I could, but there was no way they would know him because they had never experienced ups and downs.