Senior (Yudong) – What the hell is with this bastard?

* Senior (Yudong) – What the hell is with this bastard? (6)

Indeed, what answer will she give?

The moment I expected it with a smile.

“Rape… Rape…”

“Rape?”

“I mean… not raped…”

“………………”

“I… I’ve never been raped…”

The atmosphere turns cold.

What, what is it?

Of course, if someone has a brain, they’d know I asked on purpose, so I knew this kind of answer would come back, but actually hearing it made me feel deflated. I know that having these feelings will eventually turn me into a piece of garbage like my father, but I can’t help but sigh.

“Heua~!”

“Doryeon-nim…?”

“Why?”

“Why are you so dissatisfied?”

“Of course I’m dissatisfied! You’re totally killing the mood! I mean, goddamn, you know it’s a joke, but you give me a textbook answer, what the hell!”

After gulping down the alcohol, I kicked the table that idiot was on with my shoe.

“Keuek?! Hit! Hieuk!”

*Bang!*

I didn’t even use direct violence, but the policewoman is shedding tears as if she’s about to die any second. If it were me in the past, I would have felt sorry for the woman in front of me, but thanks to Ha-eun Nuna’s teachings and the influence of visiting the village, I don’t feel much of anything.

Or am I suppressing it, not even thinking of showing it?

I don’t even know which one it is, shit.

Since when was I such a good guy that I felt sorry for the plight of a complete stranger? If I were such an emotional guy, I would have stopped my mom and dad from fighting and led the family in a better direction. But isn’t the result of abandoning everything and stopping thinking in my young mind what I am now? My dad left, I met new family members, became attached to them, and even groped my way to the village through a USB. I have no intention of acting like a nice guy now, and I only have the feeling that I want to have fun.

I came all the way here to take care of my sexual desires in the first place. Why the hell should I worry about someone who isn’t even my family? I’m already pissed off just thinking about how to keep my own family’s heads attached. I came here to change my mood, but the bitch in front of me can’t even show me any fun and is really disappointing me. She’s not even acting cute, and she’s begging for her life, but in the end, she changes her words on her own, which really takes the wind out of my sails.

Shit, shit, shit, shit, shiiiiit…

Am I getting drunk?

Suddenly, I feel like shit.

Father, what the hell have you been doing here, you son of a bitch.

“God damn it.”

*Bang!*

I kicked the table again.

“Are you perhaps drunk?”

“I’m drunk!”

“Ahem…”

At my violent behavior, the women gasped, and the eyes of all the men, including the bald guy, widened. Come to think of it, all the bastards in this VIP room are the ones who guided me to the slaughterhouse. They know what kind of guy I usually am, so they seem surprised by the gap and are slightly away from the table.

“It’s annoying… it’s only been a few days… I just went to that crazy village for a while… and I’m already full of stress… I feel like I’m going to die because it’s so goddamn awful…”

“Isn’t that what you came here to relieve? Here, have another drink.”

“Okay…”

Even I thought, was it necessary to kick the table and get angry? But it’s been a long time since I’ve been so honest with myself, so I don’t feel like holding back. I’m accepting the alcohol that the bald guy is pouring for me and expressing my anger half-consciously. I can tell without looking in the mirror that it’s a face I can’t possibly show in front of my family.

“Doryeon-nim. Is it perhaps because of the slaughterhouse work?”

“That’s part of it, but after going to the village and sorting out things related to my family, there’s something else, something else, something else, goddamn, around me. What the hell is it? What crazy bitches are trying to mess with me for what reason? No, forget it, I don’t know, I don’t know, shiiiiit. What do I care if it’s the person who killed my father or whatever.”

“Doryeon-nim?”

“That damn Doryeon-nim, Doryeon-nim, Doryeon-nim. I don’t even want to use honorifics for a kid like me, to be honest.”

“It’s a misunderstanding. Even if the guys outside don’t know, the guys here can’t possibly have those thoughts. Don’t mess with our kids.”

“Shit! Then who the hell should I mess with?!”

Another *bang!*

“Hiek?!”

The policewoman, who is still showing her ugly side on the table, is frozen in place without even getting down from there. But I don’t even care about that poor bitch and put my head on the bald guy’s shoulder and glare at his subordinates. Even I think I look ridiculously drunk.

“I heard you were going home to rest with your family, so why did you suddenly come here? Maybe it’s just my feeling, but it seems like you were in a bad mood even before you got drunk.”

“No, listen to my story~!”

The bald guy knew me surprisingly well. I couldn’t help but reveal my true feelings to those words. It’s a feeling I can’t reveal to anyone else if not now.

“I went into the village this time because of my family, right?! Huh?! Even if we’re not connected by blood, they’ve been good to me so far, so they’re really family to me. You know?!”

“Yes.”

“So, I was subjected to an internal organ show from head to toe in that goddamn place, and I even said bullshit in front of the grandpas that I would belittle my family and raise them as pets! So, what the hell, I got recognized somehow! So, what, what is it? I went home thinking everyone would welcome me, but some crazy bitch was causing a ruckus in front of my house! When I went inside, all three of them were crawling around naked like sex slaves! I’m… I’m just… just…”

I felt like my tongue was twisting because the alcohol was so strong, but I managed to spit it out.

“Still, still, even if we’re not connected by blood, they’re family… so, I wanted to be hugged and patted on the back~! I’m so deprived of affection, you bastard!!!! Mama’s boy!!! OK?! But what?! Instead of affection, they’re clinging to me to have sex, so how can I be happy!!!! Just like those old men said! Really! They’ve become whores who are sex slaves and whose bloodline I don’t even know!!!!”

“Indeed………”

“Affection deprived, are you saying that yourself?”

“It’s so unexpected that I’m surprised even after hearing it.”

“What’s so unexpected about it? I’ve only ever felt family affection from those women in my life. That’s why I acted cute like a grandson in front of those people and begged them not to touch my family.”

At those words, the bald guy put his glass to his lips and took a refreshing drink, adding to the conversation.

“They all know it too.”

“I know.”

“They don’t want to be on bad terms with Doryeon-nim, so they allowed it under the guise of pets, right?”

“I know.”

“You belittled your precious family members with your own mouth and barely got permission… so you’re angry that they’re really acting that way…”

“I would have liked it normally, but it’s kind of shitty today. Ah, ah, ah, no. To be exact, I was having fun at first, but now that I think about it, it’s become shitty. If I could go back to the day I first lost my virginity to Yeo-won Mother, I might have just lived happily like a fool. But it’s not like that anymore, is it?”

“Doryeon-nim knows everything now too.”

The bald guy clicks his tongue and laughs. With that, the atmosphere loosens again. The reason I’m angry is more ridiculous than they thought, so smiles return to the faces of his subordinates.

“Mama’s boy Doryeon-nim. Then how was it with the Madam you met after a long time? Did your affection for her as family grow vigorously?”

“If it had grown, I wouldn’t have come out right away. It’s not completely gone, but right now my family at home comes first. If this is resolved and I take my family into the village, I want to get along well with Grandma too, to some extent?”

“It doesn’t seem like you hate it that much?”

“Why would I hate it? I don’t have any grudges against her, and she’s been so good to me. I just want to be with her for a long, long time.”

As I sipped my alcohol and turned my head, the subordinates burst out laughing, *keuk keuk keuk*. I kicked the table three times because I was so pissed off, but the reason was related to my family, so it wasn’t a story to tell among gangsters. But it wasn’t like they were laughing at me deep down, and it was a laugh that seemed to understand to some extent, so I was less embarrassed.

“Hey, our Doryeon-nim is feeling so sentimental, so what the hell are you guys doing? I gave you a chance to make me laugh, but you’re serious and talking about rape. All you’ve brought out is alcohol, and you’re still standing there doing nothing.”

“Would Doryeon-nim have felt better if she had said she was raped and we beat her up?”

“You have no tact.”

“Hey, it’s sickening. Get under the table now.”

“Yes! Yes!”

While the other women were silently moving busily to set the table, the policewoman looked at the others and went down to where she was supposed to be. She seems relieved that she didn’t get beaten up badly today, and she turned her head as if looking at the surroundings, and her eyes met mine.

“Uh, um…”

“Why.”

She’s talking to me while trembling like that. I’m wondering if she’s brave or an idiot, and I answer roughly.

“Can I leave…?”

“””””””……………..””””””

She doesn’t seem to have anything to do, so it was a natural question from her point of view, but the reaction of me and the men was cold again. Glances containing the meaning 「What the hell is this bitch saying?」 went back and forth, and soon everyone, including me, burst into laughter.

“Heu, heuha, hahahahahahaha, hahahahaha~!”

“Ah, seriously~! She’s crazy today~! Ha, shit, the atmosphere is really shitty~!”

“It’s only been a few minutes since she said she ruined the atmosphere, and she’s already talking about leaving, you bitch.”

“If it were me, I would have done everything I could to match Doryeon-nim’s mood, but she’s trying to leave right away.”

“Aigoo, I’m going crazy.”

The policewoman realizes her mistake in the midst of the men laughing loudly and turns pale. But it’s too late to take back her words. As if it’s already been decided who the main event of today will revolve around, fierce hands rush towards her as if forcing her.