Lee Se-ah likes it rough (2)

,”Your cafe latte is ready.”

I lightly bowed my head in thanks, took the latte, and sat near the entrance.

Being a weekday, there weren’t many people besides those with laptops or books.

I figured it was obvious since everyone else would be at work or school.

I sipped the iced cafe latte, organizing what I needed to tell Se-ah.

First, I had to get permission from Ji-hye.

Second, I needed to define what kind of relationship it was.

Third, I was prepared for sex today to finalize the relationship, if she wanted.

I folded my fingers one by one, organizing the relationships.

My younger sister Ji-hye, practically my girlfriend and… at home, someone I’m wary of like a wife.

And my cousin Eun-ha, a 22-year-old who wants me to treat her like a girlfriend when Ji-hye isn’t around.

Another cousin, Hyun-ji, who uses the fact that I teased and played with her endlessly when I was young as leverage, telling me to come back when I’m more experienced with women… She’s 21. She’s the craziest.

Only my half-sister Ju-ah… is the only one I don’t have a relationship with. Just a half-sister I’ve had sex with.

And lastly, Se-ah, a cousin one year younger than me, whose relationship hasn’t been defined yet.

I wasn’t worried, but I couldn’t know what kind of relationship she would want.

It was a little vague to guess since I had no way of knowing her tendencies other than rough sex.

I resolved to do what I could, but I couldn’t help but fear a request I couldn’t handle.

I sipped my latte and quietly prayed. Just make it something I can handle.

–

After waiting a bit, she trudged over, wearing only a tracksuit and a padded vest.

At least she washed her hair, not wearing a hat, but the grime around her neck and arms was quite noticeable as soon as she sat down.

Black grime on gray clothes, wasn’t that a bit much?

Just in case, I checked her shoes and saw white canvas shoes stained with black grime.

,”…Do you ever buy clothes?”

,”Why would I? I only go out to stream anyway.”

,”Even if you’re not streaming now, wouldn’t it have been nice to dress up a little?”

,”What’s so important about this meeting? Hurry up and talk, then let’s go to the VR room.”

It wasn’t a very welcoming atmosphere to talk, but I explained anyway.

Starting with what Ji-hye said, to draw a line and define the relationship.

When I asked her what she wanted, Se-ah just stared blankly.

Even after explaining everything, she just kept staring, so I took a sip of my latte instead of speaking.

,”You understood everything I said, right…?”

,”I understood… but how should I say it?”

,”Just say whatever you’re comfortable with, how far you want to go.”

,”Um… isn’t the most accurate way to describe the relationship I’ve roughly defined with Oppa is that we’re gaming buddies who satisfy each other’s sexual desires?”

,”That’s right.”

,”I’m not good at talking, so I don’t think I could meet other guys, and I don’t think I’d get along with anyone else but Oppa…”

She lowered her head while speaking, trailing off at the end.

Even if there weren’t many people, it was definitely hard to say such things in a public place.

I nodded, thinking that was the case, but then I felt something was a little off.

,”I see, but since when have you been calling me ‘Oppa’?”

When I pointed it out, she slightly raised her head and looked at me.

She scratched her cheek and started to give an awkward smile.

,”Ahaha… I, I decided to start calling you that from now on.”

,”Suddenly? You’ve been calling me Sunho because we’re only a year apart, right?”

She’s been calling me that for so long that it’s hard to count the years, and now all of a sudden?

It was hard to understand. Is this what it feels like when my younger sisters are surprised by my change?

Seeing Se-ah change like that surprised me too, so I just drank my latte instead of speaking.

,”I thought about it when I went home that day, and I felt really good when we first did it in the VR room, you know…?”

When Se-ah whispered, I leaned in slightly to hear better.

She glanced around at my actions, then brought her hand to her ear and continued speaking.

,”After that, I hesitated a bit when I thought about what Oppa asked for at home.”

The request after sex in the VR room, about outdoor exposure.

It was definitely something to hesitate about. I was also out of my mind with lust when I said it, so I had nothing to say.

Even if I apologized, if she was hurt, the wound wouldn’t be easily erased.

I frowned slightly, blaming myself, and listened to Se-ah.

,”I wondered if I should go that far, even if it felt good… since it was my first time then.”

,”I, I have nothing to say about that… I’ll listen, so keep talking…”

,”I thought about what Oppa told me to do, and I didn’t like it. Once I came to my senses, I could make a judgment…”

My heart aches the whole time she’s talking.

Sunho-ya. What kind of trash were you, driven mad by lust, to do such things?

I remember everything I did clearly, but it’s just too trashy.

It felt like my heart was about to collapse just one day after deciding to change.

Is this the karma? It was quite difficult to face something that happened less than a month ago head-on, let alone a year.

,”But after that, something changed when I masturbated.”

,”…What is it?”

,”It was the same as watching or thinking about something lewd, but…”

,”It was the same, but…”

,”…I came quickly even when I masturbated, when I imagined being pressed down with force and being taken by Oppa.”

,”Are you saying you did it while thinking about me?”

Instead of answering, she just nodded.

Apart from the fact that I took her virginity, it seemed like I had definitely fixed her sexual preferences.

I’ve heard that the first sex lasts long in memory, but I didn’t know it would become a preference.

It was rough for a first time, so I thought she might have trauma, but it’s her preference, that’s crazy…

And the fact that I’m her preference, the kids must all have something wrong with their eyes.

,”You’re saying you use what we did as material and come quickly when you masturbate?”

,”That’s right…”

,”Is that because you had your first experience with me? Or…”

,”I’m not sure about that… I just know that I come quickly when I masturbate while thinking about the first time…”

,”Then what kind of relationship do you want me to remain as?”

This is the most important thing.

The person who took her first experience is her cousin Oppa, so it might remain in her memory.

I’m the experience partner, and I’m also the first experience partner, so she might just get excited by that first experience itself and be able to finish masturbating quickly.

I don’t know if she’s just excited by that first experience itself or by me.

Since I don’t know that, the only thing I can say is, what kind of relationship do you want?

Se-ah repeatedly opened and closed her lips.

Then she whispered, making a sound as saliva stuck to her lips dried and peeled off.

,”Just an Oppa who’s like a friend, who plays games together and does it when we want to…?”

,”Keuheup…”

I exaggeratedly covered my mouth with my hand and nodded.

Yes, I can remain as a younger sister who doesn’t drain my energy so normally… Wait, when we want to? Wait?

When I took my hand away and looked at her, she smiled.

,”Isn’t that just a normal gaming boyfriend relationship?”

,”No. That’s a little different, I’m serious.”

She smiled, then seriously rested her chin on both hands and continued speaking.

,”I like the kind of relationship where an older brother I know naturally hits it off while gaming and has sex, but I don’t like obligatory things like a lover.”

,”Even if you say it like that, it just means you’re only going to enjoy what you want.”

,”That’s right. Does Oppa want to remain in a relationship where we do things for each other and celebrate anniversaries?”

…I wouldn’t mind with Ji-hye, but Se-ah is a bit much.

This isn’t discrimination. It’s purely because Ji-hye is meticulous in that regard, so I just need to reciprocate.

It would be enough for her to care and check if there’s something going on and adjust accordingly as a younger sister.

If we became lovers, she would check carefully, let me know, and tell me.

Even if she’s indifferent, Ji-hye’s skill is to make me have no choice but to take care of her.

But Se-ah was different.

If something like that happened, instead of knowing, she would just say, “Oh, was that today?” or brush it off lightly.

She’s the worst kind of woman who forgets all anniversaries and events. She even forgets her cousin’s wedding!

If I really had a girlfriend like that, she could be the best at being the worst.

I don’t know if she lives comfortably or if she only thinks about games.

To sum it up simply.

Se-ah is good as a friend, but the worst as a lover.

The fact that Se-ah is saying she wants to remain friends is actually a good situation.

Let’s just enjoy what we want and be faithful to our desires, it’s a good intention, so there’s nothing to refute.

However, now that four people have been confirmed to be in such a relationship, I seriously wondered if I should build up my stamina.

The pills at home are only two, and before virility, I’m running out of stamina, so I’m collapsing at night.

Even if there’s nothing left to squeeze out and I have to just shake my hips, I don’t want to get tired due to lack of stamina.

I’m going to sign up for a gym and exercise right after today. Ji-hye-ya, sorry, I need to borrow some money…

,”I’ll take care of you if you take care of me, but you don’t really take care of those things, so it’s not good. Even if we’re indifferent, we’ll fight because we don’t even agree on when to play games or meet up.”

,”So I’m saying let’s just enjoy each other. Okay, my story ends here… Ah.”

Suddenly, she took out her phone, showed me the money transfer account screen, and pushed it towards me.

,”The video of me playing games with Oppa got a lot of views. Please do it occasionally in the future. I’ll give you the profits from that, so just write down your account.”

,”I’m a little hesitant to receive it…”

,”Just close your eyes and take it, it also means I want you to appear again in the future.”

I couldn’t agree right away.

Of course, my pride is my pride, and should I really receive money just for playing games together?

Depending on the amount, I had to bend. I don’t even have the money to sign up for a gym right now.

I slowly pieced together the pride that had begun to shatter inside me, nodded, and wrote down my account number.

,”It got 2.71 million views, you know? It’s hard to give it all at once, so I’ll just send about 500,000 for now.”

,”That’s a lot, isn’t it? Aren’t most of them your fans? Is there any reason it would be popular because I appeared?”

,”…It’s a little sad, but there is a reason…”

,”What is it?”

When I persistently asked, Se-ah slowly opened her mouth as if she really couldn’t win.

,”Where else can you find a melee user who doesn’t attack like that and only raises their shield? That person is a god! That’s why it’s… popular…”

,”……”

So they just liked me because I was a melee user who just blocked unconditionally.

The words that came in at the timing of piecing together my shattered pride made me shatter the pieced-together pride and piece it together again.

The ringing bank notification sound helped me piece together that shattered pride.

The money came in, so I didn’t have to ask Ji-hye, but I stared at my phone with a slightly dazed expression.

,”Snap out of it. We have to go play games now, what are you going to do if you lose your mind already.”

I forcefully pieced together my pride and drank the rest of the latte.

Ah, I feel like my mentality is going to break from the first day. Will I be able to finish today well?