Kim Sun-ho’s Relationship Arrangement (4)

It’s the weekend.

The weekend started with me feeling deflated after Ji-hye’s colder-than-anything line-drawing yesterday.

Eun-ha had also moved out to the house she contracted for, so I headed straight to Eun-ha’s place without looking back.

‘Go and make your relationships clear and come back’

I still can’t forget Ji-hye smiling at me as she said that.

That scary smile, enough to send chills down my spine, is stuck in my head.

Aish, shit! Save me. Why the hell do I have to be so terrified?

‘It’d be better to go and tell her honestly and wrap things up, right…?’

But the more I think about it, aren’t I a son of a bitch from Eun-ha’s perspective?

She confessed and told me everything first, but I chose Ji-hye.

If I were Eun-ha, I’d kick my balls and tell me to get lost right away.

‘Since I didn’t tell her anything except that I was going, I need to go, talk, and come to a conclusion.’

It’s better than cowardly announcing it with KakaoTalk and starting from there.

I’ll be trash, but I won’t lie.

This is a line I’ve clearly drawn, so I can’t break it.

It’s like a rule that a man named Kim Seon-ho shouldn’t cross.

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“What can I get you to drink? Cola? Cider? Juice?”

“Cold water.”

“Wow, you really had to pick water instead of choosing just one for the sake of politeness…”

Eun-ha’s studio apartment was neat.

Even though she lives alone, everything is organized, and considering she moved her stuff out in just one day yesterday, the room is all tidied up.

A pile of laundry is understandable since she lives alone. Other than that, there’s nothing wrong.

Anyone would think she left a housekeeper behind.

“Here’s your water.”

“Thanks.”

I took the water placed on the table and drank it right away.

I have to talk, so my throat is slowly drying up, and I’m quietly watching Eun-ha.

“Hm? Why?”

When our eyes met, she looked at me with clear eyes.

Seeing those eyes in a situation where I have to say something, honestly, the words don’t come out easily.

It feels like I won’t be forgiven no matter what I say.

Even if it’s Eun-ha, I’d accept it if she got angry at this and yelled at me to get out right away.

‘I blatantly screwed up the answer back then. I have to be prepared.’

It’s practically no different from playing with her.

And I should be really grateful if I only get cursed at.

With that well-toned body, I should be thankful just for not getting kicked and punched.

“…That’s…”

“Why? What are you trying to say? Tell me and get it off your chest!”

…I said everything in a trembling voice.

About my relationship with Ji-hye, my relationship with my cousins, and….

“Ji-hye and I, we decided to be like lovers…”

“…”

Even Eun-ha couldn’t laugh after hearing those words.

The smile disappears from her always smiling face, and her gloomy expression makes her smile sink.

From a sunflower-like face that always looked at me, she bows her head to the ground, like a flower gradually withering.

She hugs her knees, buries her face in her knees, and remains silent without saying anything… quietly keeps silent.

I drank water repeatedly at the gradually burning sensation.

Each time the 500mL plastic bottle of water slowly disappeared, my insides burned more and more.

“Then, is Ji-hye Unni the only woman around Oppa?”

“Well, that’s not it. Instead… she told me not to hold hands first and to make the relationships… clear before coming back.”

“Then that means I can definitely remain as Oppa’s second?”

“What am I supposed to say if the conversation goes that way…?”

Still, isn’t that choice a bit strange?

Not giving up, but definitely staying as the second?

‘…That’s a really unexpected choice.’

“I’m okay as long as I’m by Oppa’s side.”

“Not even the first, and you can’t even pretend to be lovers because of Ji-hye’s eyes?”

“…Oppa doesn’t know why I’m sticking to Oppa, does he?”

“If I remembered that, I wouldn’t have come here like this.”

“You really don’t remember…?”

Of course, I don’t.

How would I know what happened, what went on?

I only saw you as a student and you changed your image recently, how would I know why you changed…

“I really don’t know. Ya.”

“Then as punishment, follow me to the room.”

“…?”

Eun-ha headed to the room first, so I followed her for now.

What’s the reason to follow her to the room as punishment?

The only room there is, has nothing but a bed and a closet.

It’s a normal room except for the door leading to the veranda.

“As punishment, I’m going to roll around on the bed with Oppa. Do you want to take your clothes off too, Oppa?”

“Why are you acting like a wife demanding a, a dutiful defense?”

“That’s right, I’m demanding it, so will you hurry up and take them off?”

…Is getting played like this my specialty these days?

Eun-ha, who was only wearing a shirt and dolphin pants, took off her clothes first, and then lies down on the bed in her underwear, waiting for me.

Something’s been strange since yesterday.

Both Ji-hye and Eun-ha, when we’re having sex, they’re more lovely than anything and show off that they’re women, but otherwise, they’re like wives.

Wives who make things difficult by scratching at my insides.

“…Do I have to do it?”

“Until I’m satisfied today.”

“…Are you also getting a fever, by any chance?”

“No, I just wanted to do it since Oppa came home.”

The effects of the medicine I took back then could be showing up now.

It’s not like I’m doing human experiments on real people, do I have to figure out the effects of the medicine one by one?

I can’t say that the medicine has no effect at all.

But maybe the effect of that medicine isn’t sexual desire, but unexpectedly, it’s an effect that draws out emotions.

If it were sexual desire, even with Ji-hye yesterday, instead of being so cold, we would have had sex because of sexual desire and remained in an ambiguous relationship.

“Wait a bit.”

I threw off my comfortable clothes as they were, and lay down next to Eun-ha in my underwear.

“You really don’t know why I’m sticking by Oppa’s side?”

“I told you I’d tell you if I really knew, I’m not the type to lie.”

“…It was a turning point for me, but I guess it wasn’t for Oppa.”

I felt Eun-ha’s warmth.

She leaned her cheek on my shoulder and slowly put her hand on my body.

The hand that caressed me moved from bottom to top, lightly rubbing my neck.

“Is it something I can’t not know?”

“…When I was drawing in the corner when I was young, Oppa said that.”

“Said what?”

“…Don’t just draw such gruesome pictures.”

She pulls me in with both arms.

When my arms touched Eun-ha’s body, I felt Eun-ha’s soft yet hot body.

Not warm, but hot. Like a stove that’s heating up.

‘Did I say that…?’

Honestly, I don’t remember.

It’s likely that I said it without thinking much about it.

In my memory, Eun-ha when she was young, was a gloomy and even eerie child.

Even on days when all the family members gathered, she would only draw in the corner, and even then, she would only draw quite eerie and dark pictures.

To put it in today’s terms, she’s a child who only draws pictures like the commonly said chu-ni-byung.

“Don’t just stay so gloomy, dress up a bit, being like that is… such a waste of that pretty face.”

“I said that? I was really rude when I was young.”

“Heehee, so I said that. What’s so pretty about me, I’m going to make a living with my drawings anyway, so this is enough.”

“Considering that… you’ve changed, haven’t you?”

Eun-ha smiled and slowly climbed on top of me.

The scratchy lace on the bra brushes against my body and stimulates me.

Eun-ha, who climbed on top of me, attached her body and leaned on me.

We’re so close that I can feel her pulse through her skin.

I can feel every hot breath she takes on my skin.

“If it wasn’t for the last thing Oppa said to me, I would have been the same back then…?”

“What exactly did I say?”

Eun-ha raised her head and met my eyes.

“Oppa got really angry, saying why don’t I dress up when I know I’m pretty. He said I was putting down other women by being so pretty.”

I’m really trash, aren’t I?

Shit, a guy who doesn’t have anything going for him evaluated other people’s appearances and even said those kinds of things.

It’s not like Eun-ha was lacking back then, but I wasn’t in a position to say those kinds of things.

Could it be that the reason Eun-ha changed is actually because she was shocked by what I said?

“Did you change because you were shocked by those words?”

“…Not shocked, but I was surprised. It was the first time I heard I was pretty.”

She wrapped her arms around my neck and her face came to my shoulder.

As she hugged me and buried her face in my shoulder, I slowly hugged Eun-ha with my arms as well.

“So I started to change little by little from then on. To see if what that Oppa said about me being pretty was a lie or the truth.”

“It wasn’t a lie, so it must have been the truth.”

“That’s right. After I cut my hair, dyed it, and started dressing up, guys approached me from all directions. Completely different from when I was drawing and gloomy.”

“That’s good, right?”

“Yeah, it’s good. Everything went well after that, and it was proven that what Oppa said about me being pretty was true.”

That’s a relief.

Then it turned out well, so why do I feel so guilty?

“So I started thinking about Oppa after that. Since he was the first person to say I was pretty, it seems like he’s completely stuck in my head.”

“That’s thankf-“

Sniffle

I heard a crying sound.

From my shoulder, from the side where Eun-ha buried her face.

“…So I came this close to be by your side, but Ji-hye Unni already took you…”

The sound of sniffling gradually grew louder.

I could feel the tears touching my body.

Hot streams of water touched my shoulder one or two drops at a time, soaking my shoulder hotly.

“Are you crying?”

“…Yeah.”

“It’s not like I’m telling you not to be by my side, so why.”

“Honestly… it feels like I’ve been robbed of Oppa.”

This stings a bit.

It’s not that I was robbed, but it’s because I chose Ji-hye that things turned out this way.

In a way, I kicked Eun-ha to the curb, but she’s expressing it as being robbed.

“I marked you first, and that’s why I said I’d be your slave…”

“…”

“Then what am I to Oppa?”

“Wh, what?”

The question of what is difficult.

There are so many words implied in that word what.

What kind of answer does she want, what is she asking me to say?

Will any words I say be the answer Eun-ha wants?

Is this… the answer that can satisfy her the most?

“I’m curious about what I am to Oppa.”

I let out a slight sigh at the end of my mouth.

…This is the most moderate answer.

I think this is the most correct answer without any lies or wrong words.

“The person who can get the closest?”

If cousin marriage becomes legal, legally, she’s closer than Ji-hye.

Of course, I don’t know who I’ll marry in the future, and it’s true that Eun-ha is the closest among my cousins.

If I get married… of course not now, but if I were to get married, she’s one of the people who can get the closest.

“…Even though there’s Ji-hye Unni?”

“If, if I marry you, legally you’re the closest. Of course, I don’t know what will happen.”

“I really wanted you to say, even if it’s a lie, that you’re my girlfriend…”

I felt something soft on my neck.

Feeling the sensation, it’s lips.

Eun-ha, who lightly kissed me, climbed on top of me and slowly started to undo the hook of her bra.

“Then, will you show some love to the person who can get the closest?”

“I’ve been feeling this lately, and I think I know what kind of pain a husband who’s being forced into a dutiful defense is going through.”

“Does that mean I’m your wife?”

“If that were the case, I would have kicked this spot and ran away.”

“If you’re not running away, does that mean you’re going to do it like this?”

She threw off her bra and even her panties, and stood naked in front of me.

She climbed on top of me, looked down at me, and smiled.

Looking at her slowly reddening face, I thought of the medicine.

My body is getting hotter and hotter, but why do I feel like I’m getting more and more tired?

‘I’m really going to ask about this medicine. This is really strange.’

My body is getting hotter, but this medicine is making me more and more tired.

If there’s no affection, I wouldn’t even heat up at all, but seeing that my dick is starting to get hard, it’s not like there’s no affection.

But, my body is tired and started to protest to me.

Aish, shit! Body, put in some strength. You’ll have some time to rest after this is over.