episode_0593

She learned that from a young age.

You have to always be cool-headed.

A successful life can only be achieved by realizing maximum benefit and minimum loss among the countless choices given in life.

Indeed, it was so.

Rational and cool-headed judgment made her life more enriched.

What you lose is always small, and what you gain is several times or dozens of times more.

So, has there not been a single moment when she made a choice under the control of emotion rather than reason?

It wasn’t.

No matter how cool-headed and rational she tries to be, she is ultimately a human being.

The emotions that cannot be erased sometimes hide beneath reason and seep into her choices.

Twice like that.

She once decided the direction of my future with emotions, not reason.

The first is marriage.

Despite her family’s dissuasion, she pushed through with her marriage to him.

Now anyway, the result wasn’t bad.

She loved and was loved so much, and she had a beautiful daughter for whom it was worth sacrificing her life.

The second was joining hands with Hexagram.

As it is now, at that time her disillusionment with the world was at its peak.

No matter how good a job was done, criticism followed.

If 90 out of 100 people were saved, why couldn’t the remaining 10 be saved?

When they shortened the 30-minute distance to 10 minutes and arrived, they asked why they couldn’t come sooner.

If an incident occurs, why couldn’t it be prevented sooner?

I hated it so much.

Before I knew it, I felt like saving people had no meaning.

If you’re going to be criticized the same way anyway, wouldn’t it be a better choice to preserve your strength and get criticized rather than trying hard and getting criticized?

So she sat down in the magic tower.

She was caught up in all kinds of incidents and focused on her personal goals, ignoring the people who were screaming.

Countless items pouring out of the Magic Tower?

It was only a part of creating tools to increase her influence and help her achieve her goals, and it did not contain the slightest consideration for people.

The hexagram showed ample power.

But if it were her usual self, she wouldn’t have paid attention to that alone.

Nevertheless, the reason I chose to join hands with them was because my emotions whispered to me.

‘Only this path can save him and Seoyeon from death.’

The husband moves ahead by forcing his lifeless body to move forward.

The daughter tries to follow suit.

No matter how hard you try to stop them, they just won’t stop.

The most precious treasure in my life.

‘Let them rest in peace.’

and.

‘Let me tell the people who insulted my precious people.’

What a great happiness the world they lived in until now was.

To later understand and regret how heavy and valuable the sacrifices of those who protected us were.

This is her true feelings that she has never revealed to anyone.

There was one reason why she revealed to Kim Do-jin the feelings she had been hiding from her husband and daughter.

For the third choice.

Not by reason, but by emotion.

She was sure.

Kim Do-jin in front of me is clearly connected to my husband in some way by a deep bond of fate.

So I confessed it.

‘If he helps.’

She coolly watched Hexagram’s operation from behind.

Their choice was excellent and produced good results.

But it wasn’t enough.

While things are going smoothly, there is just one thing.

I thought it wasn’t enough to be considered a decisive blow.

Han Ju-hee found that one room in Kim Do-jin.

What if the person who has blocked your path at every turn as an enemy becomes your ally?

‘The obstructionist disappears, and an ally emerges.’

A talent who goes beyond ordinary allies and will become the core of our power.

Of course I know.

The fact that the emotional gap between the organization and Kim Do-jin is incredibly deep.

But that can be adjusted as much as you like.

If the organization truly wants to complete the big picture, if Kim Do-jin does not ignore Son Si-woo.

It is possible to just take a step back from each other in front of a common goal.

Therefore, she appealed to sincerity, not reason or compensation.

“Kim Do-jin, I have just revealed the truth that I have never told anyone. If you’re smart, you’ll know. What does this mean?”

Kim Do-jin, lost in thought, raises his head with a serious expression.

Eye contact.

She speaks the last words with an earnest expression.

“It’s your last chance. Hexagram and… , No, if you can’t be with them, you’d rather join hands with me.”

* * *

That was the reason.

After Son Si-woo’s body was taken away, he inhabited this body until now.

It’s a long time that can completely change the world once in a while.

That’s the end of the experience of hearing the answer to a question I’ve been curious about for over 10 years.

Even I was surprised.

I thought I would get emotional in one way or another when I heard the story, but what is this?

I am so cold now.

Maybe it’s because so much time has passed.

The time when I loved her passionately has already passed.

How many times have you been disappointed by unknown actions?

Additionally, it is difficult to understand that all of this is done for my own good.

I even think like that.

Maybe I’m just an excuse?

I wonder if it’s just a means to clearly reveal one’s purpose and desires.

Her words continue.

She asks me with an unknown expression, spitting out the waste-like breath remaining in her body.

“I told you my truth. So please let me know too.”

My breathing is a little tight.

What was it that made her so curious that she revealed the truth that she had not shared with her husband or daughter?

If he found out about what happened between me and that guy, how much did he know?

The moment when the tension tightened all the way down to my throat.

“My husband… , is he your biological father?”

“… … ?”

No, wait a minute.

Suddenly, he’s my biological father.

What is that… , ah.

I roughly understood it.

How did the current misunderstanding arise?

“My biological father… .”

He trails off and lowers his head.

And quickly organize your thoughts.

She probably saw in me the way of speaking and habits that she saw in her husband.

There are many people who imitate celebrities.

It is not uncommon to watch someone you admire for a long time and become like him or her.

But what if it’s the same beyond just copying?

Then your mind will become complicated.

Why does he act, talk, and have the same habits as my husband?

Even if I get there, I can’t imagine that my body will have changed.

Because that is absolutely ridiculous bullshit.

So what is the most plausible way?

Yes, bastard.

Han Joo-hee is now suspecting that I may be Son Si-woo’s illegitimate daughter.

So, he deliberately brought out his true feelings.

The reason is… , Perhaps he wants to include me as an ally in his plans.

If I were Son Si-woo’s illegitimate son, I would have believed that I would participate in the work for him.

Okay, okay.

I’m done thinking.

Raise your head.

He admits with a slightly bitter expression and a self-deprecating smile on his lips.

“… You finally figured it out.”

Her face rots away in no time.

“As expected… , my guess was right.”

You probably hoped not.

If you say that everything you do now is for me, then it becomes proof that you betrayed yourself.

It was a betrayal at a time when we were passionately in love.

She asks in a weak voice.

“I wonder what happened… , Have you heard anything?”

Think quickly.

There is no need to be specific.

Very roughly, but without her completely despairing.

“No. I haven’t heard anything in particular. just… , except that it was a mistake overnight.”

“Yes… That’s right.”

It’s quite fun to see the expression on his face getting darker by the minute.

“So… , you asked me those questions.”

question?

What question?

Oh, you mean the question asked in the lab?

Amazing.

I never thought the angler would fit so well like this.

“With him… , When did you first meet?”

“It hasn’t been that long.”

“Is it a sabbatical year?”

“Yes.”

Her gaze changes as she looks this way.

A slight warmth appears in his once cold eyes.

Even though he is an illegitimate child, is it because I think he is my husband’s bloodline?

“It’s not your fault, so don’t be too sorry.”

“… Thank you.”

Nope.

I’m not sorry at all.

She asks cautiously.

“Perhaps he… , Do you blame your father?”

I shake my head.

“It used to be like that… , not now. Even though I’m all grown up, he taught me many things and even received a sincere apology.”

“Is that so? Thank goodness.”

Her face becomes more relaxed.

Anyway, I guess so.

If you’re going to ask me to hold your hand, there should at least be no resentment or hatred.

Soon, as if she had decided on something, she opened her mouth with a solemn look on her face.

“Dojin Kim.”

“Please tell me.”

“I confessed my true feelings that I had never revealed to anyone. If you’re smart, you’ll know. What does this mean?”

Her words continue.

“It’s your last chance. Hexagram and… , No, if you can’t be with them, you’d rather join hands with me.”

There is a rather tempting offer.

If you don’t like the hexagram, are you asking me to trust you and hold my hand?

I can feel her determination in those words.

What is important to her is not moving forward with the hexagram.

All you really want is your own purpose.

The attitude that it doesn’t matter whether it’s a hexagram or anything else, as long as it can make it happen.

Maybe we can use this.

“If Hunter Joohee Han’s sincerity is all true, then there is no reason for me not to join hands. but… .”

“But… ?”

“Hexagram and I have already crossed the irreversible river.”

“In that case, I will coordinate… .”

“No.”

I shake my head and cut her off.

“I have no intention of living under the same sky as them.”

“Ah… … .”

Her face was about to become sad.

I suggest implicitly.

“So, how about we join hands and beat the hexagram.”

“What is that… .”

“As long as Hunter Joohee Han coordinates, I will obey their plan for now.”

With her intervention, it is possible to step down even in the current situation.

No, it’s not impossible to hold hands, even on the surface.

But that is only a temporary truce.

“First, we help them achieve the plan, and then we stab them in the back.”

Her eyes gradually become sharper.

“… Do you think that is possible?”

This is not a question that blames me.

She is sincerely asking me about that possibility.

It’s not that I don’t like that sharp expression, it’s that I’m considering the possibilities.

“Wouldn’t it be possible to pull people from the organization toward us one by one while we proceed with the plan?”

Quite a fascinating story.

But as I said before, she has no reason to do that.

Either me or the hexagram.

It doesn’t matter who you are as long as you can achieve your goal.

So let’s add one condition here.

“The offer you gave me… , The plan is not perfect enough to trust them 100% yet.”

There is a lot of potential, but it feels like something is lacking.

The reason she reached out to me was probably to erase that feeling of inadequacy.

“I will give you plenty of support for your plan. You don’t have to help me. instead… , Please ensure mediation between the organization and me.”

You just have to do that.

Then, the Hexagram guys will be much easier to catch than now, and… .

“If you do that, I will definitely achieve Hunter Joohee Han’s goal.”

Because it will put your ridiculous ambitions to rest.

Her face began to move up and down little by little.