episode_0443

“I got Isabelle’s consent. Now all you have to do is try!”

Shir and Lexi had sad expressions.

“Si, is the war easy? Sur! The lives of tens of millions of people are at stake!”

But there was no answer.

“I try my best to prevent the worst outcome of war, but I can’t help you with that one thing?”

“···You should have always acted trustworthy.”

War is never light.

It is right to try anything to avoid that.

“I’m going to apologize to Douglas and Felix. Until then, let’s unravel that mess and the insides. Before I was really disappointed in both of them.”

I left the inn while receiving the two’s stinging gazes.

First, I moved to Felix’s Mugu branch, which was difficult. I am human. The stares that so many people gave me weren’t that kind, so I had to walk as fast as I could.

What should I say hello to and what should I apologize for?

What should I apologize for and how should I console myself?

‘I don’t know.’

I don’t know, but I wasn’t the type of person to commit something knowingly.

I like it─

Ramrat’s eyes suddenly turn to me.

“Closed today.”

“···Felic?”

A raccoon-like face turns around and comes towards me.

The doubt and caution contained in those eyes. He seemed to have forgotten me because he hadn’t seen me in so long.

“···Who are you?”

“Felic, it’s me. Sihyeon Lee.”

“It’s been a year since my father retired.”

‘retirement?’

I didn’t understand what was being said, but I soon realized.

The lifespan of a ramrat is only 50 years at most. Even if lifespan was rewound, it was natural to retire in 17 years.

“Did you know my father well?”

Thanks to this, my children are expressing doubts about me.

Apparently, he had cured his hair loss and succeeded in getting married. When I thought of that image, the corners of my mouth turned up.

“···Yes. You were a great person.”

I still remember.

He grumbled and showed me how to wear underwear.

Although he was strict, he was a person who did not discriminate because I was a human being. He was Jules’ close friend, and he was also someone who always wanted me to be faithful to my duties.

“Especially when it comes to leather, it could be said to be the best. This one here too… was made by Felix.”

He pulled out his will and handed it over.

The child of Felic took the will and brought it around the light, examining it with shining eyes.

“···What a great craft. When did you receive this?”

“23 years ago.”

The heir’s eyes widen.

The ear of the successor, who was questioning the authenticity with his eyes, soon drooped.

“Haha… I still have a long way to go. My father is going back to his hometown and it will be difficult to visit him. Hobbes! Bring some tea!”

I pushed the protruding will into my ring finger.

“No. I can’t be bothered this late at night.”

He smiled and walked away.

A goblin called Hobbes can be seen running towards you.

“Tea, tea?”

“···No. Go in and rest.”

“Yes!”

How old is he?

Ten years old? Five years old? The disheveled goblin glanced at me.

How much would Elisia have liked if she had seen this scene?

“Yes. Then I’ll just head back.”

“Please take a look.”

After turning around, I immediately scanned the surroundings for Douglas’ scent.

What struck me that day was the strong smell of Douglas’ blood.

─I have ominous thoughts.

I quickly ran along to where the smell came from.

The more you run towards the smell, the more people disappear. I quickly ran out and broke down the door that smelled of Douglas’ blood.

bang!

The hinges come off coolly.

“If there was something I was looking for, I could have seen it.”

I couldn’t pay attention to Anne’s advice.

So I followed the smell of blood and reached the final station.

Douglas was in the warm water with his arms crossed.

“What are you doing?”

“···Has the devil come?”

Sleepy, such eyes.

Douglas… was dying.

thank god. If I hadn’t brought the Precious Blood, I might have died.

“First of all, this…”

“I hope you let me die.”

Douglas was at peace.

It is such a contrast to me, who is scared even when he knows what lies behind death. How can you accept death peacefully?

‘Let’s ask first.’

Because this didn’t seem like an impulsive suicide. I pulled a chair and sat down in the bathroom where Douglas was dying.

“If a dead person rots in a bathtub, it turns into rotten soup.”

“Hmph. Why did you come to me?”

“I came here to ask for an apple.”

“If it’s about driving Juyul to death, you can never get my forgiveness.”

Then there was nothing I could do.

Because our relationship wasn’t that good from the beginning to the end.

However, since this person was dying, I was willing to listen to his complaints.

“I never imagined that things would turn out like that.”

“···Why didn’t I imagine it?”

So I purely poured out my heart.

“I was so angry at that time. At Drekkar, he killed Zhul’s father and cut off her sisters’ arms. And you kidnapped your nephew, right?”

“I couldn’t bear to forgive them. I was prepared to die, and tentatively thought I would face death.”

“Heung.”

Douglas snorted.

“So… the world will end when I die… so you’re saying you didn’t think about the future at all?”

“Yes. I never imagined that Juul would collapse.”

“······Yes. So did I. Because of one human slave.”

All of us, everyone who knew Jules, would have thought that.

Risking your life for the honor of a dead slave?

Even though we had a close relationship, that wasn’t normal.

It wasn’t something you could predict.

Because Jules has always been a person who walks the right path.

“I brought healing medicine.”

“Take it away.”

I had no choice but to retrieve the Precious Blood that I was about to give to Douglas.

He truly accepted death.

You feel like your life is unnecessary.

“I lost the only place that needed me. No family, no parents or children to support. All the people killed by Jule’s nephew whom you rescued were people who upheld the laws of Yunaira.”

The consul is a judge.

The law is generally something that holds the king’s feet.

For example… Shirna Lexi’s feet.

“Those devils will now begin their dictatorship. And···.”

Douglas, who continued speaking, died helplessly.

With your eyes open, as if you were falling asleep. Without even realizing his own death.

That’s what excessive bleeding was.

If blood flows beyond a certain amount, it dies.

“···I’m really sorry.”

I hope that in the next life, I will be free from the curse of mixed race.

May you no longer be alone and be born into a harmonious family.

* * * * * *

No one will bury Douglas.

Only pure-blooded elves can be buried in the cemetery.

They washed Douglas, closed his eyes before the body hardened, and dressed him in a uniform.

In movies, people close their eyes, but in reality, it’s impossible.

I will open my eyes again.

Since there was nothing to cover his face, he covered Douglas’s face with a tablecloth full of plant decorations.

“Was he a close person?”

“No.”

“That seems sad.”

“It’s because I feel sorry for this person’s end.”

This person had integrity to the point of being stubborn.

To the point where I wouldn’t even drink alcohol in the same place as my friend Jule.

‘You had too much integrity.’

That’s probably why it was taken advantage of.

I picked up Douglas’s body, which had begun to stiffen, and walked toward the temple.

Countless people’s eyes were on me.

You won’t understand.

Someone approached me to see what I was doing, but was dragged away by a quick-witted fellow vigilante. Everyone is watching me. Everyone is.

It’s hissing.

“···Isn’t the world really cruel? No one pays attention to you who have worked uprightly for decades.”

As Douglas said, death is not the end.

There is a world after death.

Obviously there is.

Amor also told me.

Death is not the end, so even death must be used.

These were the words of someone who has seen death dozens or hundreds of times.

But this kind of death… is so meaningless and lonely.

Because I, a foreigner, was the only one who could take care of his death.

I opened the temple door and went inside.

I heard that the Wolf Church is sending someone with Venus’ blessing to Yunaira… but there are only good-looking women.

“What are you doing this night?”

“I would like you to hold a funeral.”

A beautiful woman approaches me and looks me up and down.

“Are you a newly dispatched person?”

“No.”

“I feel Venus’ blessing from you──”

“How much is the funeral cost?”

Perhaps only then did he realize that I was a guest, and the priest looked at me awkwardly.

“···400 gilling.”

“Do you also accept Soliduse?”

“Of course. However, it is better to use Gilling, which has a lower exchange rate…”

He took out two gold coins and handed them to the woman.

He looked straight into the eyes of the woman who accepted the gold coin.

Fortunately, there is no greed in sight.

He kept interrupting me, but he didn’t seem rude or angry. I was just curious.

“···It’s strange. Aren’t you human?”

“Yes. We are human.”

“How can a human being who is not a priest stalk Yunaira?”

“You’re human too, but aren’t you here?”

I answered roughly.

I moved towards the place where the corpse smell came from, and it seemed like the priest was following me. This is the morgue we entered.

There, the body that fell into pieces from Ymir’s tomb is being stitched up. The eyes of the priests with the statue of Oman on their faces are drawn in this direction.

“Priest? What’s going on this late at night?”

“Someone from Yeongmyeon came to visit.”

“···Gerion, please guide me.”

“Yes.”

A priest named Gerian, who was sewing up a corpse with a pale face, nodded and approached me.

“Follow me this way.”

The priest hurries ahead.

Did he walk out after him?

“Here.”

The priest stopped and placed Douglas on a stone slab at my waist height, beckoning me to do so.

“I will bring the shroud right away…”

“No. This is the shroud for this person.”

No one will admit it, but I do.

The consul Douglas I knew was an honest judge.

Because they are so honest that they are so stubborn, they probably accepted even evil laws as laws.

‘That’s probably why they were eliminated.’

It’s easy to see how we got into this situation.

I tried to understand it that way, but it was difficult.

I’ll have to ask Shir and Lexi when I get back.

If there was any problem, I was going to yell loudly.

“How is the funeral conducted?”

“You cannot hold a funeral right away. After clearly confirming the cause of death and proving that it was a natural death, we must begin───”

“It is suicide.”

“Maybe they were trying to make it look like that.”

I know that what she said had a point, but I didn’t feel that good because it felt like the private marks on Douglas’ body were being revealed.

“Check, but do not change the shroud into another one. It might be polite to other people, but to that person, it’s polite.”

After giving me a warning look, I quietly turned around.

“The shroud is the clothing worn in heaven.”

“Do we wear matching clothes in heaven? You’re trying to fit a person into a mold until you die.”

“You’re rude.”

“It is the servant who is rude. Haven’t you seen that book?”

“The ridiculous novel called Slave Travels is nothing more than a novel created by the Magic Tower to keep the temple in check.”

What can be said to someone who is blinded by religion?

All I wanted was to preserve my dignity.

In the end, I had no choice but to expect flexibility from that priest.

“This person has lived at Ymir’s tomb for longer than the time we have lived. He told me before he died. That there was no longer a place that needed him. Because he was of mixed race, he was unable to see future generations and was single all his life. Do you know that feeling of loss?”

“I don’t know.”

“You can say that because you don’t know. I will come back to check later, so please continue like this.”

“You cannot go right away. First, the resident must fill out the documents.”

A familiar sound makes me shiver.

I felt like everything was over.

“Okay.”

It was a night of heightened guilt.