episode_0310

A large ferris wheel.

I heard my daughter’s thoughts inside a small, slowly rotating barrel.

It is inexplicably devastating, but at the same time, questions remain.

Was my daughter really that distant from me just for that reason?

I don’t think that’s true.

There are some parts that are a bit unclear to understand every moment based on that alone.

For example, Han Joo-hee.

Even though she unintentionally gave her daughter a hard time, we didn’t have a bad relationship with her like I did.

No, to be exact, he was completely ignored just like me, but he recovered a little bit of our relationship.

At least I didn’t make excuses to avoid meals or go through life without even making eye contact.

Just because they are the same woman?

well.

That doesn’t feel like a very valid reason.

Rather, the thought behind this feels more reasonable.

There is more than that.

The reason you had to stay away from me.

Then what is it?

Since you’ve already started to reveal your true feelings, wouldn’t you be able to know that too?

“Is that it?”

“uh… ?”

I asked with such anticipation.

“The reason I became distant from my father… , I think there’s more I haven’t told you yet, right?”

I was convinced as I saw his face stiffen as soon as he finished speaking.

There must be another reason.

Then Seoyeon asked me a question.

“… “Is there any reason to think that way?”

“that.”

I can’t answer with my feelings or impressions as a father.

There is a reasonable answer… , ah.

“Because of the senior’s expression.”

“My expression… ?”

“Usually, when people reveal their true feelings, they look a little relieved… “Because I’m not a senior.”

I often feel relieved just by sharing my frustrating feelings.

But his expression is still suppressed by something.

“So, isn’t there more that I can’t reveal…?” , I guessed that, didn’t I?”

An answer that may seem far-fetched, but seems reasonable at first glance.

Hearing this, a small smile spreads across Son Seo-yeon’s lips.

“You look like a ghost.”

A guy who confesses obediently.

“You’re right. Actually there is one more thing. The reason I stayed away from my dad. “It started as I told you, but perhaps this reason is a bigger obstacle that has prevented us from recovering our relationship even now.”

Seeing the bitter smile on his face makes me even more curious.

What could be a bigger obstacle than that reason?

Have I done something that could have caused great harm to him without me being aware of it?

I looked at him, hoping that he would reveal another reason after that.

“But I can’t tell you this.”

The guy shook his head with a stern expression and declared a secret.

A naturally distorted face.

How much bigger a reason could there be for him to keep his mouth shut so resolutely?

Part of me wanted to stab him in the side a little.

“If it’s difficult to tell someone, you don’t have to say it.”

“Thank you for understanding.”

The guy who answers with a smile.

After much thought, I decided to pretend to understand and move on.

Looking at his stern expression, I thought he would never say anything to the extent of stabbing me in the side.

And again… .

“Ah, it’s over now.”

The Ferris wheel that had made him feel soft went from high up in the sky and came down to the ground.

“Let’s get off.”

With a slightly red face, I follow the guy walking ahead and step out of the small container.

“… … .”

“… … .”

The atmosphere became a little awkward.

Seo-yeon, who had been hesitating and looking around without even looking in this direction, opens her mouth belatedly.

“Slowly… “I should go, right?”

“Closing time is slowly approaching… , shouldn’t that be the case?”

I played for a really long time.

I didn’t know we would meet early in the morning and stay until closing time.

The guy looked around with regretful eyes and then spoke again as if something came to mind.

“that… “I’m sorry, but can I take one more ride?”

It looks like there are some rides left that we haven’t been able to ride.

I was getting tired and wanted to go home.

“is it so.”

I couldn’t bear to refuse.

As he said, if today is a day to reminisce about old memories… , because I thought I knew what ride I was going to ride next.

“let’s go.”

I slowly followed her as she walked ahead at a brisk pace.

Eventually we arrived at the carousel.

Perhaps because all the children who would like this had gone home, Seoyeon and I passed through the empty queue and climbed onto the wooden horse.

As the wooden horse slowly starts to spin, the guy smiles brighter.

It’s like going back to the old days.

“Once upon a time, I rode the carousel at the end.”

okay.

It was like that.

I think it was similar back then to today.

Even though I was confident in my physical strength, I was tired from staying at the amusement park all day.

So, I was getting ready to go back, and Seoyeon’s eyes lit up as she saw the merry-go-round that caught her eye, and she begged me, I guess.

“At that time, I rode while sitting on my dad’s lap… .”

This was because he was too small to ride alone.

There was a reason why growth was slow at the time, and Luna Land’s wooden horses were all rather large.

Seeing how happy someone is just recalling old memories makes me curious.

What could be another reason that blocks such feelings?

But soon I decided not to think about it.

“… “It’s too late now.”

Even though I know the reason, I can no longer do anything as a father.

In such a situation, there is no need to ask questions.

At least I learned that my daughter had a hard time because of me.

That’s enough.

To some extent, I can soothe my heartache towards that guy.

After a brief moment of happiness, we got off the horse and stood on the ground again.

[Did you have a good time?]

[It’s a pity, but the time has come to part ways.]

Just then, an announcement is made announcing the closing.

As if he was trying to hold on to a memory that can’t be returned, the guy looked around slowly and then turned around with a strange smile.

“Let’s go now.”

Still doesn’t look relieved.

but… , it seems that he has succeeded in relieving his frustrated feelings to some extent.

I leave Luna Land among the returning crowd.

Then, I go straight to the parking lot, drive the parked car, and head in front of the guy’s house.

Eventually we arrived near the house.

“I was really thankful for today. “Are you very tired because of me?”

I shake my head at the question, half grateful and half worried.

“I was tired, but… , I had fun too.”

It wasn’t just a lie.

Just as he was reminiscing about his memories, I also felt good for a while while reminiscing about old memories.

I also learned that my daughter didn’t distance herself from me for no reason.

“I’m glad you had fun.”

Seoyeon is slightly relieved by my words.

I have something I want to say to this guy.

“Hey, senior.”

“why… ?”

“Today, I bury the memories of the past in my heart and now live only looking forward.”

Lastly, what I would like to say as a father.

“I don’t know what the rest of the story is, but… , The senior is all grown up now, and I can’t go back to my childhood.”

Even if I stayed as Dad, we can no longer go back.

Even if you manage to repair a torn relationship, the same is true.

Unlike then, he has grown up a lot.

No matter how hard you try to treat them the same, there will always be inevitable differences.

“I want my seniors to think about how to move forward rather than thinking about wanting to go back.”

I sincerely hope.

I hope Seoyeon is happy.

I hope you no longer suffer under the bondage of mom and dad.

“That’s the only way to stand tall as Son Seo-yeon.”

If Seoyeon decides to run for that goal, she will be able to help her in that much even from her current position, even if she is not her father.

The guy who was silently listening to my story quietly opens his mouth and asks me.

“Dojin, you… “Are you going to help me?”

“Anything I can do to help is as much as I can.”

Seoyeon, who seemed to be thinking deeply for a moment, finally smiled and nodded.

“I’ll try my best. Dojin, if you help me… “I think it’s possible.”

Seoyeon quietly closes her eyes with her hand on my heart.

“Even this heavy heart… , Maybe I can put it down.”

guy… , It’s such a big story that I even have a heavy heart.

Eventually, the guy opened his eyes and spoke with a slightly more cheerful smile.

“me… , there are a lot of things lacking. I’m not good at talking to people, and I’m also clumsy as a hunter… “Anyway, it’s not enough.”

I like that you are self-objective.

If you know the problem, you can fix it, but if you don’t even know that, there’s really no answer.

In that sense, I would say my daughter is at least standing in front of the starting line.

“So you help me. “I’m going to ask you all kinds of questions, so don’t be bothered and answer them all.”

“Yes, I will.”

In the past, I might not have answered because it was annoying, but it’s okay now.

Because I want to at least help him be able to stand on his own.

This was the bare minimum.

It’s the least responsibility I can do after giving up on returning to being a father.

The guy who was smiling with a smile that made even the viewer feel good continued speaking.

“And this is a story from the distant future… .”

“What is it?”

“therefore… , When I can stand alone as a hunter and as a person… .”

“What if?”

“Then will you go to the amusement park with me one more time…?” ?”

What is this frustrating question?

I was shaking because I thought you were going to ask me something very difficult.

“is it so. “Well, it’s not that difficult.”

It doesn’t matter if you can stand alone.

I readily promised.

Then he confirmed with me with a meaningful smile.

“I promised… ?”

“Yes, promise.”

It wasn’t until I put my little finger on the line that he believed me and withdrew his hand.

Yes, daughter.

Promises and contracts need to be checked thoroughly, twice or thrice.

You’re doing very well.

“… Hehe.”

This guy laughs out loud because he can’t believe what’s so good about it.

It seems like his bright future is already glimmering in my eyes.

“haha.”

I laughed along too.