episode_0309

The day I passed the qualification exam with a B grade.

Kim Do-jin asked her, who didn’t show it, but was extremely happy.

What do you want to do with your wish?

In Kim Do-jin’s appearance, Son Seo-yeon saw the image of her father.

When I was very young.

My father said he would grant my wish after I got 100 points on the test.

Did reminiscing through others send oneself back to childhood?

“… “I want to go to the amusement park.”

When I came to my senses, I had already spoken.

I might have been able to pick it up and put it away.

No, at least I could have cleaned up the spill and pretended nothing happened.

She didn’t.

‘why?’

If you asked me, I wouldn’t have anything to say.

All I can say is that I was just led in the direction my heart was heading in at that moment.

I worried endlessly until I came here.

An amusement park alone with a man.

In a situation where everyone sees it as nothing more than a date, will you be able to do well?

But that was too much hope.

‘It’s comfortable.’

I feel comfortable with him.

The familiarity, as if we’ve known each other for a long time, instantly melts away and eliminates the worries that were hanging around in my head whenever I was with others due to my inexperience in interpersonal relationships.

As the worries that had prevented her from getting closer disappeared, only Son Seo-yeon remained.

“Let’s ride this this time.”

Son Seo-yeon, in her raw form, had a lot of fun.

I had fun going through all the rides that I had tried in the past and had to turn away from due to various restrictions.

And in the process, we also got a glimpse of Kim Do-jin’s deep humanity.

‘There were things even he couldn’t do.’

He had a weakness for amusement rides.

If you want, you can fly higher and faster than that.

It was so fun and good.

It seemed as if a small loophole was gently pulling him, who was floating in the sky, closer to him.

‘good night.’

Everything was good.

Even now with him.

The past comes to mind again and again.

Then night came.

A night with a dreamy atmosphere with a soft purple glow over the night sky.

Feeling as if she was in a dreamland, she finally decided to wake up.

“Why don’t you ask?”

I urged him to ask a question.

The question he had been wondering since he said he wanted to go to the amusement park.

Finally, Kim Do-jin asked.

“Why did you want to come to the amusement park as a wish?”

She answered that question.

“I want to reminisce about old memories.”

Called.

Kim Do-jin quickly realized what she was saying.

There must be only one memory she can recall from coming here.

However, he did not show it, but tilted his head and asked as if he was curious.

“A long ago… “Do you remember?”

“huh.”

Son Seo-yeon smiles and nods, trying hard to hide her awkward expression.

“I came here just once before with my mom and dad to play.”

You can tell just by looking at the facial expressions they are making.

How happy and brilliant the memories of that time were for him.

The more I understood it, the more complicated and difficult it became.

Why did my daughter, who enjoyed spending time with her family so much, change so much?

Kim Do-jin hid his complicated feelings and asked back in a lighter tone.

“I think that time remains a very good memory.”

Then she answered.

“That’s right.”

After answering that, she suddenly took her steps and reached the front of one of the amusement rides.

“I want to ride this.”

What was at the tip of my finger was a Ferris wheel.

This ride is perfect for overlooking the entire amusement park.

“… is it so.”

Kim Do-jin followed behind her, quietly standing in the back row and waiting for his turn.

The short line quickly passed and it was the turn of the two people who came.

As we enter the slowly moving barrel, the employee closes the door.

“… … .”

“… … .”

The conversation was interrupted for a moment.

The scenery outside the window of the Ferris wheel, which is slowly increasing in altitude, is about to become beautiful.

“I haven’t told anyone about it until now.”

Son Seo-yeon, who was quietly looking out the window, opened her mouth.

“I mean… “I hated being born as my father’s daughter.”

“… … !”

A type of pain I had never felt before tightened my heart.

I knew it.

My daughter doesn’t like her dad.

Didn’t you hate even eating a single meal, so you used diet as an excuse to avoid it?

However, guessing on your own and hearing confident words from someone else are two different things.

What father in the world could be at peace after hearing the words, ‘I didn’t want to be born as my father’s daughter’ to the daughter he raised as gold and jade?

While he was swallowing the pain inside, she continued speaking.

“It was good when I was young. “I was proud of my mom and dad, who recognized me wherever I went, and I was happy when they told me that I should become a great person like my dad.”

okay.

It was like that.

In the past, people used to go around saying first, ‘My mom and dad are great people!’

Every time that happened, I felt so embarrassed that I was wearing sunglasses and recognition-impairing artifacts.

“however… , I realized that it’s not just happiness.”

“… when?”

“Ever since I entered elementary school.”

I was puzzled.

Can something happen that makes me regret being born as Son Si-woo’s daughter in elementary school?

At that time, she looked at Kim Do-jin with eyes filled with sadness and asked.

“If you were a teacher… “How will you praise the student you teach if he gets 100 points on the test?”

A random question.

“well… . “I guess I’ll just say, well done, you worked hard.”

“Yes, that’s right.”

Normally, that would be the case.

Getting 100 points on the test means that you prepared thoroughly, whether it be preview or review.

The effort deserves praise commensurate with it.

“But I wasn’t.”

She wasn’t.

“The first compliment I received from my teacher was… , ‘As expected, she is the daughter of Hunter Son Si-woo.’”

“… … .”

The first compliments I heard were focused more on my dad than on myself.

It seemed like my efforts were nothing.

As if it were only natural as long as she was born as Son Si-woo’s daughter.

But at that time, she was quite happy about it.

“I was happy at first. “I thought I did well enough to not be ashamed of being my father’s daughter, and it gave me some meaning.”

However, as that feeling grew, it disappeared.

“Going up the grade, entering middle school… “Even though the environment changed and I grew up, the words of praise towards me did not change one bit.”

If you show agile movements during PE class, your friends and teachers will comment.

“As expected, she is Son Si-woo’s daughter.”

If your test scores are excellent, another name follows.

“As expected, you are Han Joo-hee’s daughter.”

The more it happened, the more tired she became.

“I didn’t get any help from Mom and Dad for my exam… .”

Son Seo-yeon smiles sadly.

The test was solely her effort.

Pre-study and review.

Mom and Dad didn’t order it.

I just did it because I wanted to.

Because I want to work hard and be recognized for my efforts.

I said so.

“I was always just a child who got ahead with only the great body and brain that I inherited from my mom and dad.”

Someone even made a sarcastic comment.

If you are born as Son Si-woo and Han Joo-hee’s daughter, isn’t that kind of thing natural?

Her efforts were completely denied.

The more she did, the more emotions she could not tell anyone accumulated.

“Before I knew it, I was blaming my dad.”

A feeling of resentment towards my parents.

“Why is my dad Son Si-woo? How much better would it have been if he had been an ordinary dad? .”

So, little by little, I started to push my family away.

At the same time, I naturally reduced the time I spent talking with friends.

Anyway, the people surrounding me were just moths drawn by the halo of my mom and dad.

“I thought that was the way to protect me. “The only way to remain as me, ‘Son Seo-yeon,’ and not as Son Seo-yeon, the daughter of Han Joo-hee and Son Si-woo.”

I thought that the touches and words coming from all over were eating away at my identity.

The sooner I get away from my parents, the sooner I will be recognized as myself.

That’s what I thought at the time.

“But it wasn’t.”

Magic Top was dragged into the house by his mother, Han Joo-hee.

Through her eyes, she saw people leading miserable lives.

A person who devotes himself to research day and night in order to obtain research funds.

He enters dungeons during the day and earns money, and at night he concentrates on research while feeling tired.

Even those who fail to achieve their goals due to lack of talent fall down.

She realized this after seeing the frustrations and trials that had never happened to me.

“As much as I hate to hear compliments, I am blessed with many things and have enjoyed them in my life.”

I was thinking about a lot of things I didn’t like, so I lived without knowing.

That I have as many things in my hands as the things that bother me, no, more than that.

Some in the form of genes.

And some in the form of material.

And when she realized that she had never pushed it away, she laughed helplessly.

“I was hoping that while enjoying everything I could enjoy, all the praise would be directed at me.”

I arbitrarily considered myself unhappy, and arbitrarily pushed my family away.

Belated reflection and regret.

I wanted to apologize to my mom and dad and go back to my normal self.

“… “It’s been so long that I forgot.”

What expressions did you make when you saw your mom and dad?

Also, how should I speak and continue the conversation?

That wasn’t the only problem.

While I was running away, the atmosphere between my mom and dad changed.

A cold, cold air current.

The frozen atmosphere made her shrink even more.

And so, I reached this moment while still shrinking.

“That’s why I wanted to come to the amusement park. “I want to feel a little bit of the emotions of the old days.”

That was all.

“I thought I could feel a little like that if I was with you.”

I thought it would be possible if he looked like my dad but was different.

So I made a wish.

After finishing her story, she cautiously asked Kim Do-jin, who was listening silently.

“how is it… ?”

She herself didn’t know.

What on earth did you want to ask?

Did you want to ask me about my thoughts on the days I have lived?

Or maybe I wanted to ask when my frustrated feelings would be relieved.

Or was I hoping that they would at least criticize my foolish thoughts and actions?

Kim Do-jin raised his head in response to a question that even the person asking could not clearly understand.

I open my mouth, staring at her with two calm eyes.

“Is that it?”

“uh… ?”

“The reason I became distant from my father… , I think there’s more I haven’t told you yet, right?”

“… … .”

At his sharp question, she closed her mouth with a stiff face.