episode_0308

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It’s been quite some time since Big Sayun came to this world.

Was it because the heat was going away?

As the number of days of making shaved ice gradually decreased, Big Sayun was avoiding his gaze every time he saw me.

There is no particular need for that.

Have you not adapted yet? Someone needs to take care of Sayoon, who is so big… but if Hong Seong-moon’s care is not enough, I will have no choice but to step in.

I put the documents aside and went downstairs. The older Sayoon, who was talking about something with Hongryeon in the backyard, immediately looked away from me, unlike Hongryeon.

“Are you here?”

“That’s right. What were you talking about?”

“Ahaha. It was a story about Hongseong Shingong.”

After speaking lightly, she shrugged her shoulders and looked at the tall Sayoon. It seems like he knows why I came out.

“You want to talk to Big Sayoon?”

“That’s right. Would you like to stay with me?”

“Hmm. no. I have some business to see. Sayoona. Then…”

“Ah. eww. Yes.”

Once Hongryeon left, silence settled in. I asked, sitting across from where she was sitting.

“Is it okay if I open it?”

“Ah. Yes.”

The older Sayun, who had been hesitant, blushed slightly and nodded.

At first, he spoke informally, but perhaps because I was married to Geomseong, Hongryeon, and Chaejin, Big Sayun gradually began to speak respectfully to me.

Still, as if there was still a sense of distance between them, they just called me Teacher Yu.

“But what are you talking about…”

“That. It’s a bit hard for me to say this, but when people talk to each other, they have to make eye contact.”

“Uh…”

Big Sayoon froze for a moment and stared at me without saying anything. And after a while, my eyes start to flutter.

“Am I uncomfortable?”

“It’s not like that.”

“Then?”

“…It’s a little difficult. How should I explain it…”

Big Sayun let out a small sigh and eventually turned his head away. The face and nape of the neck are red.

“Are you planning on leaving the guest house and returning to Hongseongmun?”

I shake my head.

I suggested this because I thought it would be uncomfortable to stay in the guest room…

“If you stay in the guest room, you will see me often.”

“…It’s okay. Rather, aren’t you uncomfortable, Mr. Yu?”

“Me?”

“…Because summer is almost over now.”

Her voice was weak, as if she thought the only reason she could stay in the guesthouse was because she could use ice balls.

So I smiled and shook my head.

“Just because summer is over, there’s no reason you can’t stay here.”

“…Still.”

“It’s okay.”

Considering the money I spent for my big business, this is nothing. I said with a smile, and then the older Sayoon glanced at me and then turned his head again.

“…It’s a little strange.”

“…Huh?”

“…Why are you trying to help me like that, Teacher Yu?”

The reason is simple, but also difficult. Sayoondan is helping Sayun, but what is the reason? Just helping.

I looked at her and sighed.

“If you ask me to give a reason, there will be many. Because I feel sorry for you. Because it looks difficult. Although you have lived as a hero, it is a pity that your life is filled with nothing but pain. And…”

I told him the reason why I was helping Sayun, and only then did I declare it to Sayoon, who was looking at me blankly.

“The most important thing is that I want you to be happy.”

“……”

“Isn’t that enough?”

The older Sayoon placed his hand on his chest. Is your heart hurting? This isn’t a big disease, right?

“What’s wrong? Let’s go to the congressman.”

“Oh, no! Well, this. Just over there. Well, I have work to do, so I’ll wake up first!!”

Sayoon got up from her seat and ran away, and I flinched as I watched her.

uh?

This can’t be right.

***

My heart is racing.

The initial small beat has now become the sound of a large drum being beaten.

Since when did it start?

It became difficult to see him.

Since when did it start?

It became difficult not to see him.

He settled inside something that had been empty for a long time.

I didn’t reach out to anyone, I didn’t give permission to anyone.

I have always looked at the world with an icy heart and thought only about revenge.

The ice melted from the day this man saw him.

“…Ah.”

Sayoon returned to the room, cupped her face, and let out a heavy sigh.

But isn’t it inevitable?

His gentle tone was so sweet and so vicious that it cut through the ice in my heart.

He added his own color to the empty space and created his own place.

This is a person who always looked at himself when he was struggling, looked for an opportunity to help, and said he achieved it.

While making yourself happy.

This is the person who made me sad.

That’s why Sayun couldn’t hide her tears.

The other person is the teacher’s teacher, the ambassador’s wife, and Chaejin’s husband, whom I have recently become close friends with.

Even if he doesn’t feel burdened by bigamy, is it okay to like him?

“Ah…”

Ever since I lost Hong Seong-moon, my teacher, and my sisters, another pain was piercing my heart.

But this is something else. Different from that, there is a solution.

but.

Can not.

The older Sayoon let out a groan while clutching his chest, and then there was a knock on the door.

“…Who… are you?”

“It’s me.”

It was Hongryeon, a soft voice. Sayun immediately opened the door and Hongryeon smiled and said to her.

“Were you resting?”

“Ah. yes. But for what reason…”

“There’s something I want to talk about for a moment. Is it okay if I sit down?”

Hongryeon smiled and sat down on the chair. While the older Sayoon was at a loss, Hongryeon stared at her and then opened her mouth.

“How are you these days?”

“Ah. Very good.”

“Lie.”

I flinched, my shoulders shaking. Hongryeon chuckled at the gaze that seemed to ask how she knew.

“Have you noticed that the way we look at June is different?”

“…Ah.”

Without realizing it, I was following him with my eyes. Even when I was with Hongryeon and when I was with Geomseong.

He must have noticed that.

The older Sayun suddenly got up from his seat, looking pale.

“Sorry, sorry.”

“Huh? What do I have to be sorry for?”

“Well, that’s…”

Hongryeon sighed heavily. And I sat down next to the older Sayun. Her hand gently wraps around his own. Sayoon, who was staring at it and swallowing his saliva, was about to say something.

Hongryeon spoke firmly.

“A person’s heart cannot be judged carelessly.”

“……”

“Do you like him?”

“…I’m sorry…”

Big Sayun lowered his head. My voice is shaking. Hongryeon continued speaking to her in a calm tone.

“There’s nothing to be sorry about. What a big sin it is to like people… But…”

Hongryeon smiled bitterly.

She knew it too. When Yuwol looks at Sayoon, she looks at him with quite affection.

I knew that it wasn’t just a romantic feeling. But even so, it was something that could never be ignored.

“I decided when I married him.”

“What…?”

“Decided to accomplish everything he wants to do. And this is the same for Master and Chaejin.”

Because I like him.

Because I received so much from him.

I wanted to give it back.

“…And that goes for you too, right?”

Nod. The older Sayun, who hesitated, nodded slightly, and only then did Hongryeon smile brightly.

“How pretty you are when you make that kind of expression on a regular basis.”

“Ah…”

The expressionless expression that Big Sayun sometimes made was so eerie and cold that even he was afraid.

Although it is gradually melting away, the pain and despair within her will not be resolved so easily.

It was a pity.

When I heard all about the big Sayun.

I was sad.

When I found out what pain she had been through.

Even if the woman in front of him was not the Sayun he knew, since he thought of her as Hong Seong-mun’s disciple, it was Hong Ryeon, Hong Seong-mun’s chief disciple, who had to take care of her.

That’s why she spoke calmly.

“Do you… want to marry him?”

“……”

I couldn’t answer.

But since that was the answer, Hongryeon smiled softly and patted Sayoon’s head.

“Won’t you regret it?”

“I regret it… should I do it?”

“That’s right. Everyone wants to be loved the same way. And it’s also natural to want that person to be alone.”

“…I have no such greed. Just, if there is a space left for that person. I just want you to lend me just a little bit.”

Hongryeon closed her eyes as she heard Big Sayun’s trembling but sincere words.

As she continued to think without saying anything for a moment, the older Sayun looked at Hongryeon with concern.

This cat thief or something.

This is why I didn’t think there would be a story saying, “I told you not to harvest black-headed animals.”

Anyway, red lotus is red lotus.

But even so, I couldn’t help but feel scared and sorry.

And just like that, my unwillingness to give up was growing.

“…Good.”

“Yes?”

“Tonight. Will you come to my room?”

“Uh…”

While the older Sayun was embarrassed, Hongryeon smiled and patted her head.

“Leave it to this sister. My sister…”

Hongryeon slowly withdrew her hand and spoke proudly.

“I’ll prepare a place for you.”

“…What seat?”

“A place where you can confess your feelings.”