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“Anyway, so I don’t think there’s a need for me and Relis to go hunting partners as we discussed before. Now that Serista has become a saint, there’s no reason for Relis and I to coordinate anymore.”

“Yeah, that’s good. In any case, the moment when your guy could have taken Relis away is now gone.”

“So, I never had any intention of taking her away from the beginning….”

It seems like something unbelievably resolved, but nonetheless, the moment Serista became a saint was a successful completion of the plan to make her a saint.

I’m not sure if this can be considered problem-solving, but yeah.

Anyway, the fact that I still had the power of a saint was simply to prepare for the ‘what if’ that Serista couldn’t awaken herself, so now that Serista has become a saint herself, it also meant that I no longer needed to prepare for the ‘what if’.

Having the power of a saint if needed is freedom. And if desired, giving up the authority of a saint is also freedom.

It also meant that as a member of the hero party, there were far more flexible choices available than having to be a saint like Serista unconditionally.

“Having this troublesome power is unnecessary, and it’s better to get rid of it quickly rather than causing misunderstandings or unnecessary trouble in the story.”

Being mistaken for Serista as a saint by some high-ranking priest or someone from the demon race, or being restrained by someone who thinks of me as a saint, was one of the events I definitely wanted to avoid.

I didn’t want to interfere with the main story anyway, so I had come this far by avoiding causing trouble, and there was no reason to leave the power of a saint behind.

After all, obtaining the qualification of a saint was difficult, but losing the qualification was possible anytime if one set their mind to it.

Even tearing the mark of purity between my thighs would mean that I had the qualification of a saint…

“No, wait. That’s not it.”

…Maybe it’s not that simple after all.

For me, who was a unicorn in my past life, ‘losing my virginity’ was a matter that had to be carefully considered and decided upon.

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I didn’t have any lingering attachment to the ‘proof of my virginity’ that I possessed. In fact, there had been more than a few times when I had thought that if I could get rid of it, I would do so immediately.

“Anyway, besides that, there’s something else to talk about. In fact, one of the prophecies I received from the goddess is that in three days, in the northern forest here….”

However, when it came to deciding on the ‘method’ of removing my virginity, I had to make a careful judgment. Depending on how I did it, it would determine whether my body in this world would remain as a ‘virgin of honor’ or simply become a ‘fallen woman’.

In fact, I had already decided on the method of losing my virginity from the beginning. For me, who had the soul of a unicorn from my past life until now, there was only ‘one’ ideal way to lose my purity.

“Exactly. If I’m going to do it, I have no choice but to ask Edan.”

Using my fingers or a tool to remove the proof of my purity myself? For me, who had been a unicorn since my past life, such a method of losing my virginity was never an option.

The heroine losing her proof of purity only happened in the first relationship with the protagonist. Even if it wasn’t the loss of virginity by another man, this principle had to be strictly followed.

Some might think of me as a pervert for saying this, but personally, one of my favorite scenes in the relationship between the protagonist and the heroine was this.

The scene where the heroine loses her proof of purity to the protagonist’s possession.

Experiencing the pain of the first time, the protagonist comforting the heroine in pain felt good, or perhaps it wasn’t that painful due to affection, but regardless, the description of the moment when the protagonist’s possession first touched the heroine’s body was good. Anyway, the important thing was that the heroine gave her virginity to the protagonist.

In doing so, it seemed like the heroine was truly dedicating all her heart to loving the protagonist, and that’s why it was always one of my favorite scenes from my past life.

“There was a reason why I became fixated on this kind of thing in the first place.”

The reason why I, among the unicorns who were obsessed with heroines other than virgins in my past life, became one. It was all because of the “virgin appeal heroine” observed in the novel I read in my past life.

The novel itself was just an ordinary harem novel. Now, it was so ordinary that I couldn’t even remember the title of the novel.

The protagonist had relationships with several women, but the novel was for unicorns like me because all the women who had relationships with the protagonist were virgins.

Among the heroines the protagonist had relationships with, there was only one who didn’t feel pain during the first experience, and there was a scene where she casually dismissed it by saying that she tore it while riding a bicycle when the protagonist asked why he didn’t feel pain.

And later, in a flashback scene, I was shocked to see that the heroine didn’t have her first experience at that time, and the excuse that she tore it because of the bicycle was just an excuse; she actually had a previous boyfriend.

“Ah, damn. Thinking about it makes me angry again.”

Anyway, because of the injury I received at that time, my virgin complex, which was already there, became even stronger.

No matter how much the novel emphasized “This heroine is a virgin,” if it didn’t show the proof of purity being torn during the first experience, I would immediately resign without hesitation.

『Luminor Academy』, I discovered that there was a virgin capture route, and it was a game that I ended up getting into, but in any case, it was quite a big event for me to cover it up and bring it down in other cases.

And the mindset that emerged at that time didn’t change just because I became a woman’s body now.

A woman’s first experience must be with the protagonist, no exceptions.

The man who takes the first experience must be the man who shared the first kiss, and if she is a virgin heroine, she must never show her naked body to anyone other than family and the protagonist.

The protagonist of this world was a hero, but that was only a story that applied to him and the warrior party members, and if there was a novel or game where I was the heroine, the protagonist of that novel or game had to be Ethan.

That way, I could have the qualifications as the “virgin heroine” that I had always idealized.

“I don’t necessarily think I can marry Ethan, but…”

Due to family issues or other noble circumstances, I know that Ethan and I cannot be together.

However, even if we can’t get married, I was a bit envious of having the qualifications as a heroine who would forever keep her purity. That was also a form of the ideal virgin that I had in mind.

Despite the class difference that prevented it from continuing, she had loved only one man her whole life, gave her first kiss and first experience to the man she loved, and lived as a single woman without any relationships with any other men after their breakup.

Well, this is quite acceptable. But in order to dream of such a future, it had to be Ethan who took my first experience.

And the sooner Ethan took my first experience, the better.

“Ri.”

‘For the first experience, the Witch’s Forest is not a good place in many ways. There are too many people here, and there is no private space to use. To make sure, I should either return to Blackwood Manor or go back to the Academy dormitory…’

“Ri? Hey….”

‘But if possible, it would be best to get rid of it as quickly as possible. Maybe when I’m on guard duty next time, I should do it quickly. Since Lala and Liji are taking the exam, they won’t know what Ethan and I are doing. …But then I might reveal what Ethan and I are doing to other men who are changing shifts. Then it would clearly be a loss of virginity by my standards.’

“It’s, it’s all over….”

‘Then is it okay to hide in the forest right after changing shifts? Anyway, once I change shifts, there won’t be any traffic to the altar for a while, so if I do it quickly, I might not get caught. It might be better to always carry bug repellent perfume just in case. …Oh, if I suddenly drag him into the forest and do it, Ethan might treat me like some perverted crazy girl. The best way to avoid such a perverted treatment and naturally lead the situation…’

-Thud.

“Lily?”

“Eek!?”

Suddenly, my nerves twitched at the touch of someone’s hands on both of my shoulders.

Fortunately, I relaxed again when I realized that the touch belonged to Ethan.

“E-Ed? What’s going on all of a sudden?”

“It’s not all of a sudden, Lily. You didn’t answer even though I called you for a long time.”

“What? Y-You called me?”

“Yeah. The meeting is over. The heroes and their party members left the meeting room early. Including Blaze Yeongae.”

“…Ah.”

Right, I was in a meeting until a little while ago.

I couldn’t concentrate on the meeting because I was thinking about how to handle the proof of my virginity. Why did Cerista suddenly bring up the story of becoming a saint?

“Was there anything important during the meeting? I couldn’t remember well after hearing that Cerista became a saint….”

“The hero talked about the prophecy, but I heard it all, so it’s okay. I’ll explain the part about you later.”

“I’m sorry, Ed. I got distracted by other thoughts….”

“It’s okay. It happens. Lily must be worried about many things.”

….

What is it? How does he know that I’m worried right now?

Did what I thought in my mind leak out? How does he know how I’m going to lose my virginity….

“Until now, you seemed to not care much about the title of saint, but surprisingly, Lily seems a little confused about that part.”

“What?”

“Until now, I thought only you were the saint, but suddenly Cerista became a saint, so it’s confusing, right? What exactly is the saintly qualification you have, Lily?”

“Ah….”

“It’s okay. Whether Lily is a saint or not, she will always be Lily to me. I liked Lily even before she was a saint, and that won’t change even if she stops being one. So, whatever judgment Lily makes about her saintly qualifications, it doesn’t really matter to me.”

“…Ah, yes. Thank you for saying that, Ed.”

Since Ed thought I was worrying about Lily’s saintly qualifications, I could only awkwardly smile and agree with his words.

Rather than revealing that I was actually thinking about how to remove my virginity, it was much better for him to misunderstand in this direction.