episode_0276

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Of course, this wasn’t the first time I’d seen other people having sex.

Unless someone grew up never having watched porn, it was downright impossible for me—raised by reckless older sisters who were close with alcohol, cigarettes, and even drugs—to remain that innocent.

The first time I saw others having sex was probably through a “sex education” video shown by an unnie I was close with in our group.

Looking back now, I suspect it was less about education and more about her curiosity over how I—who knew nothing about sex—would react to porn.

But anyway, my point is this:

I’ve never sought out porn because I wanted to masturbate or because I was curious about male genitalia. But I have seen it before.

And though people say masturbating feels good, for me, every touch just hurt and stung, pissing me off enough to try watching it a few times.

The first time I saw a man gripping a woman’s body and thrusting—thrust—thrusting his cock into her, I was glued to the screen while my grinning unnie teased me, making me sputter dumb huh? huh?’s. But now? Not so much.

By 22, I’d gotten somewhat used to porn.

The age where I’d cough awkwardly while watching, or try too hard to act unfazed, was long behind me.

…But.

Seeing the face of a friend I’d known for years in that kind of video—

– If you suddenly… put it in… nghhk…!

—seeing Yorha sprawled under a man, moaning ahh, ahh, made me feel…

…a little off.

In a… slightly bad way.

– …Yeah, yours really is small. Compared to others. Doesn’t even go in easy.

– Of course it’s smaller than Sua… ngh…! …Don’t pull out…

– You just freaked out when I put it in suddenly. Make up your mind.

– Suddenly pulling out… is just as bad…

But I don’t know how to express this complicated feeling.

Even if I tried to find a similar word to substitute, the only thing that came to mind wasn’t a word at all—just a short, messy sentence:

…Why the hell did Yorha send me something like this so late at night? That’s it.

– W-Wait, not yet… I-I think I’m gonna… cum…

Was she trying to show off that she and Sujin were this close, unlike me making pathetic excuses?

Or did she just want to fluster me like that unnie from back then?

The more I thought about it, the more my gut said both, but I couldn’t be sure.

So I just… stared blankly.

In the dark of my bedroom, without a word.

Watching a video where my friend’s moans echoed.

– You just shoved it in. …Quit squirming.

– No…! This… isn’t okay…

I never noticed because she’s always laughing, but… Yorha could make that kind of face too.

That dreamy, enchanted expression.

Or the face of a girl hopelessly in love.

…Except the guy she’s into is a complete trash womanizer.

She could actually fall for a guy like that?

Weird. Really.

– So? What do you want me to do? Just stay still?

– Move slowly… just till I adjust…

– …Did your tastes change? You never used to be like this.

– Well… you like it this way, don’t you…?

– …So you’re saying I don’t have to wait for you to adjust.

– I-It really does hurt…? I just used to like the feeling of being forced… so I provoked you more…

Love with a man who keeps multiple women.

I tried for about 10 seconds to understand, but it was an emotion I just couldn’t relate to.

Love has to be genuine.

Love has to be noble.

Not that I care for flowery words.

It might even sound a little cliché.

Falling for someone’s looks, dating casually, then breaking up because your personalities or interests don’t match?

That happens.

I’ve seen it plenty.

But this is pushing it beyond common sense.

…Polygamy was only acceptable in less civilized times.

So why—

Why the hell does she love Sujin so much?

…Because his dick’s big?

That’s the reason?

There are plenty of guys with big dicks who aren’t Sujin.

Think again. Please.

The man in front of you, Yorha—he didn’t just enjoy Han Sua’s body…

…He’s been eyeing other women too.

Even me.

A man who’s already tasted me.

And you love that?

Seriously?

I…

I just can’t feel anything positive about it.

– Schlrp… hehe… nghhk, haah…

The teasingly faint sound of kissing. An uncharacteristically coquettish laugh.

Underneath it, Sujin—who’d been groping Yorha’s breasts freely—pressed their lips together and slowly rocked his hips.

…Maybe because of the side-angle shot, I could see Yorha’s lower belly bulge faintly with each thrust, thump.

At first, he couldn’t get deep, but as time passed, he started slamming into her harder, burying himself to the hilt.

But that was it.

The people in the video were unusual, but the content wasn’t.

…Obviously. I’ve seen this kind of thing plenty in other videos—hell, I’ve done it myself.

I wasn’t itching to see more.

The remaining 20 minutes would just be… them going at it until it cuts off.

Sucking each other’s lips lewdly, fondling those lumps of fat called breasts like they’re something special, slamming that hideous cock in over and over until even watching felt disgusting…

Then they’d climax happily and go shower together.

Rather than wasting time on this, I’d be better off going back to sleep.

I knew that.

But my eyes—

“…….”

…Just one minute.

They wanted to see it.

The reason?

…Who knows.

Maybe because Sujin came over earlier and touched my ankle.

Since it was my eyes making the call, not my brain, I couldn’t say for sure. But there wasn’t any other reason.

…It’s not like I’d want to keep watching this disgusting thing for no reason.

– Hyeek…?!

10 minutes into the video.

Current time: 2:40 a.m.

Remaining runtime: 20 minutes, like I said earlier.

Whether I sleep now or at 3 a.m.… it’s not like anything will change.

Besides, my body’s clearly horny because of him.

Tossing and turning, I rolled onto my side and kept watching, muting the relentless squelch-squelch noises by one notch.

– S-Sujin… your cock’s… already twitching… heh…

– Yeah. So?

– Ngh… you say that… but it looks like you’re struggling… ah…

Yorha kept gasping out the name I knew too well.

Each time, Sujin would grab her thrashing thighs, pinning them down as he hammered into her without restraint.

Yorha, tilting her head back limply, alternated between gripping the bedsheet and the pillow, moaning lewdly—ahh, nghhh—

Having sex. Kissing.

…While having sex.

Unlike me, who only kissed lightly at the very end—

They kissed.

Over and over.

Even after 1 minute, then 5, the video showed the same thing.

Same angle.

Same flow.

Same… cock.

The only differences were how their bodies grew slick with sweat,

or how Sujin sometimes flipped Yorha onto all fours and pounded into her until she collapsed onto the bed.

I thought I’d lowered the volume earlier, but the wet smack-smack sounds somehow felt louder.

And how the bedsheet beneath them was drenched in something, darkened to a deep gray wherever they moved.

…Why the hell did she even send me this?

Watching this, I wondered—Did Yorha really just want to brag?

– Hahh… heh…♡ Sujin…

– …

The more I watched, the more certain thoughts forced their way up. I shoved them deep into the abyss.

– Ngh… don’t push so… deep…

– …

– My uterus’ll get crushed… Stop…

…I’ve had that happen to me before.

Honestly, yeah, it felt… good.

I swear, that thought came unprompted.

– I can’t t-take it… This time… I’ll get on top…

…That I’ve never done.

Yorha does it so naturally.

Well, she’s his sex partner.

I was just… a medical case.

That’s all.

– W-Wait… seriously, just a sec…

– …

– I-I’m cumming…! Stop moving for a sec…!

– …

– I said I’m cumming, you… bastard… ahh…! …Ngh…!

Even after taking the lead on top…

Her pelvis was yanked down by Sujin below.

Pulled tightly against him, her waist and back locked in his arms—

Thrust. Thrust. Thrust.

Pinned under him, mounted like an animal.

The sudden noise spike made me flinch, forcing me to lower the volume two more notches.

…How would that feel?

Would it feel so good that her toes curled uncontrollably?

Those kinds of thoughts.

Because of them—even though I knew Yorha probably filmed this to show off—

– Hii… ngghh… …♡ Ohh…

– …

Like an idiot…

Listening to Yorha’s ragged moans as she sucked his lips…

My fingers trailed downward.

…If only I wasn’t in heat.

I wouldn’t have gone this far.

– M-More… deeper…

– First you tell me to stop, now you beg for more. Pick one.

– Idiot… telling you to stop means go harder…

– …Then lie back. I’ll do it my way.

– …Kay.

– …Nnn.

If only I hadn’t sprained my ankle and needed treatment… Sujin wouldn’t have touched me.

Then I wouldn’t be in heat, wouldn’t be watching my friend moan on video… teasing my own clit with tentative fingertips.

Hell, I wasn’t even that horny yet—but after pinning all the blame on him…

Thump. Slam.

In time with the sounds of Sujin hilting himself fully inside Yorha…

Press. Rub.

…I traced circles over my pajamas.

– Hah… haa…

…Contrary to my worries, it didn’t hurt.

Only the stinging remained.

A sweet, tingling ache that left me breathless.

But it still wasn’t enough.

Like when I masturbated in the emergency staircase before—this kind of pleasure just wasn’t enough.

…When we had sex, even that trash’s slightest thrust made my brain burn with pleasure.

But my fingers could only barely take the edge off.

It was so frustrating I pressed harder, desperate to reach climax before the video ended.

…But nothing changed.

If anything, the emptiness only grew.

– Heehee… you’re close, aren’t you…?

– …

– No use hiding it… I can feel it… your cock throbbing like crazy…

– …

– Ahh… oh no… what if you cum inside me just like this…? I-I might have to skip class next semester…

– …You said it was a safe day on the way back.

– Whaaat? Isn’t this way hotter…? Barebacking on a risky day…

– …Psycho.

– Ehehe. Now we’ve got a way to get me kicked out of the academy in a few months… ah…!

Even as Yorha openly flirted, sticking her tongue out and panting in bliss…

I was the one who shooed Sujin away out of embarrassment.

The best I could manage was…

– Ngh… …blleh… you got it in my mouth…!

– …Hah…

– …The whole ‘I might get pregnant’ thing was a total lie… so sticky…

– How was I supposed to believe you? …Same as now.

– Waaah…

– …Anyway, let’s shower.

– Eh? We done? Or are we doing it in there?

– …It is late. We’ll see.

– …Hehe.

– Water?

– Yeah. Pour it. Pour it.

After Sujin left the room…

Locking eyes with Yorha—her face smeared with cum, grinning at the phone—

All I could do…

Was keep masturbating, knowing it would never be enough.