episode_0215

“Please come in here.”

A chapel that occupies the entire floor of the work building.

Anne unconsciously let out a small exclamation at the sight of the scene, which exuded the unique scent of new furniture, as if the move had just been completed.

The chapel was filled with various religious decorations, and although it seemed fancy, it was simple, and although it seemed desolate, it had a peaceful atmosphere.

Of course, Anne has never seen it in person, but she was able to roughly infer the atmosphere of the Sistine.

Then, Yeriel, who was looking at that scene, smiled brightly at the corner of her mouth and seemed to say a warm word to Karla.

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“You are the second nun to visit the Academy’s new sanctuary.

All of this must have been guided by God.”

“Monk… yo. this… ?”

“All those who seek the path only walk along the capital’s path.

They suffer in search of the truth, wander in search of life, and feel the fate that lies ahead of them.

The capital is just that. Isn’t it something grand?”

The ‘religions’ that one knows are mostly ‘cults’ that prioritize blind faith.

“Not everyone necessarily needs faith.

Sometimes distrust and indifference are also ways to live.

In that sense, Miss Anne is definitely a nun who practices monasticism.”

Anne wondered if this was the right thing for a religious person to say, but she just nodded and looked.

Of course, a nun from the Sistine may have her own doctrines.

“Then, I should give some simple precautions to the sister who is about to go to confession.”

This position was not yet comfortable, so at the moment Anne was wriggling her fingers, Yeriel’s voice was echoing loudly throughout the chapel.

Along with her voice, a thin and soft finger was pointing to a small booth.

“That place is the confessional.

The first rule is that once you’re in there, you can say anything.

Even if I reveal everything I’ve been holding in my heart and trying to rot away.

It’s okay to be happy about happy things and sometimes resent your sad fate.

From the moment I get out of there, I will forget everything.”

“Secret… … ”

“In there, I will share all of your emotions and suffering.

However, since this is a process of forgiveness of sins by telling God, I also swear to God that I will not spread the secrets you revealed.”

Yeriel’s voice, which seemed to reassure Anne, had a strange warmth to it, and Anne’s heart, which had been a little wary of Yeriel just a moment ago, felt like it was melting a little.

However, Anne could not hide her embarrassment as Yeriel’s next words changed to a solemn expression.

“But before the confession is over and you go out, sister, please relieve yourself of all your feelings.”

“Heart… Take it away… … ”

It means taking your mind off things.

Even when I heard those words from Roxanne, I didn’t know what to do.

Isn’t that why he came all the way here?

Still, compared to the vagueness, the answer Yeriel gave was relatively clear.

“Sister, I am putting down all the burdens in my heart here.

That’s what the confession is for in the first place.

Leave behind the sins, hardships, and hardships you have confessed.

And please put it down and become a new person and get out of this place.”

“New human… … ”

“As a person named Anne de Monetgen.

But no longer as a suffering human being.

You can think of it as becoming that kind of person.

Uhuhu… … Then, I will go in first, so please come in when you are ready.”

Anne, who was quietly watching the back of Yeriel as he entered the confessional booth, thought over the words she had heard earlier in her head.

To be honest, I don’t really know what it means, but I think I’ve at least heard this before.

‘If you share your worries, they become smaller.’

However, if this woman listens to what he says without any compensation or self-interest.

‘Is it really… … ‘

To be honest, in a world where information is sometimes comparable to money or even life, I felt like I couldn’t really believe what Yeriel said.

But the truth is that it was too painful to just keep this worry to myself.

Honestly, who do you think you can talk about the worries you have right now?

Of course I couldn’t tell my family.

I didn’t want to tell my family that my only daughter and younger sister was mentally weak and jealous of someone.

Finally, Anne, who swallowed her saliva, closed her eyes tightly and began to follow Yeriel into the confessional room.

“Not here, but on the other side?”

“Ah… yes… !!”

Although that determination momentarily changed into a smile and a blush.

Anne, who had finally found her place this time following Yeriel’s guidance, sat down, hesitated for a moment, and decided to tell a small secret first.

“I… therefore… It’s bullying… …

I used to be bullied… I don’t really have any friends… ”

“It must have been very difficult… ”

“More than you think… It wasn’t hard…

just… Because there was something more painful than that… ”

“Has something happened to bother your sister?”

As Anne confessed what she thought was the smallest thing about her, a small voice came back from behind the partition.

You’re making it difficult for yourself.

It would have been okay if he had only tormented himself.

However, Vivian was ruthless and even used her family’s power to harm her own family.

He caused collection by moving the bonds of the merchant, whose life depended on trust, and as a result, the family’s situation deteriorated rapidly.

However, at the same time as Vivian’s disappearance, the threat to also touch Marie, her precious sister, has not yet been realized.

But in the end, as the family’s family declined, Marie’s life was already half-disrupted.

Nevertheless, Marie, who is walking a difficult path, just shows herself silently and always smiling for herself.

“Sister… Mom and Dad… They’re having a hard time because of me… ”

“Did you do something wrong to your family?”

“I… I didn’t do it myself, but…

If only I could put aside my pride…

If that were the case, nothing would have happened…

If you listened to Vivian… My sister… The family”

From the words that started to come out of her throat on their own, Anne was trying to keep her emotions in her throat.

I wonder if it didn’t feel difficult once you started speaking.

Anne’s voice, telling stories that were unfair but could only be taken for granted in line with the walls of reality, was gradually becoming more intense to the point where it was difficult to control the suppressed emotions.

“Vivian… Is this the name of the person who harassed the sister?

I hope that one day, he too will enter this confessional room.”

“That woman… You won’t be able to come… …

Because it’s gone… At the Academy…

but… I feel like I’m watching from somewhere…

Maybe it’s because of me again… This time, directly with the family… … !!”

“Sister. Shall we think about it?”

After Anne spoke about her family’s difficulties, her voice became even more subdued.

A small voice was coming as if to comfort Anne, who was suffering from the hardships of her loved ones.

“I’m sure your family will be fine.

And I won’t blame you.

Are you a family member of a good person like me?”

“That can’t be possible… … !!

If you know the truth… You will be disappointed… Hmm…

because of me… because of me… … !!”

“Sister’s family… My sister and my parents…

Did they make the sisters bow their heads to their enemies for their own peace?”

“Sigh… There is nothing good about having pride…

You’ve done that before… …

That said… If you heard it… … By now… Sigh… ”

Regretting one’s actions means ultimately admitting one’s mistakes.

But was there really a definite right answer in this matter?

“That’s not what I meant.

Stubbornness and stubbornness are completely different things.

Everyone has something precious to them.

And I hope that the precious thing will not be broken and will shine forever.”

As if he wanted to say those words, Yeriel was whispering softly in a calm voice to Anne, who was trying hard not to cry.

“Sister’s most precious thing is her family.

Then wouldn’t you also be precious to your family?

A gem-like being that never breaks and wants to shine”

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Your most precious family.

The sisters have been together since childhood and know each other better than anyone else.

And the only people in the world I can rely on are my parents.

To them, you too can be said to be the most precious being.

“If that jewel is tainted or hurt by someone’s malicious intent…

Did the family just leave it alone and watch?

Did he cover the sister with filth in order to be at peace?”

“No… … My family…

Parents too… Sister too… It can’t be… ”

That they too would do what he did.

Yeriel’s words, saying that he would support her in her fight against evil and bear the burden with her, were the words she so desperately wanted to hear, and they touched Anne’s heart.

“That’s what it is. It’s not your fault, sister.

I don’t intend to judge right or wrong, but at least that’s what family is like.

Nothing precious in the world can be compared to family.

It’s just that the family is willing to share the sister’s hardships.

So sisters, just do what you can for the families who share the burden.”

I wanted to ease my mind, but I couldn’t.

Because I was afraid to even ask myself that.

I wonder if this is what it felt like to come here because I couldn’t tell my family, and to hear words of affirmation about myself from someone’s mouth.

It may be a bonus to feel that your understanding of religion has improved a little.

Probably, when you want to rely on someone for one reason or another, and when you want to lean on your anxious and distressed heart, you pray or go to a chapel.

Now, according to Yeriel’s explanation, all I had to do was put aside my feelings towards my family in this confessional and leave.

Now, I no longer feel sorry for my family and suffer, but I just do my best for my family, just as they came for me.

In the end, your family will certainly be able to look back on the past and tell each other their honest feelings and the reassurance they relied on each other for.

A smile distorted by crying appeared on Anne’s lips.

How many times in my life have I been able to feel this feeling of being more relieved than I thought.

Although she had managed to organize her feelings about her family in this way, there were still issues that were just as important.

A problem that has been bothering me for over a week already.

It was about the sight she saw in the women’s bathroom.

But the very moment Anne tried to say this.

“There is no need to say too much from the beginning, sister.

Sister, you still carry a lot on your shoulders.

I think it would be best to stop here for today.”

As soon as Anne heard those words, she felt herself come to her senses.

What he was about to say was a secret that must be kept secret from others.

In the first place, whether or not he would believe what he said was just the second thing he had to worry about.

It was a matter that depended on a woman’s dignity as a human being and the rest of her life.

Aside from whether or not he could completely trust Yeriel, he had to approach this matter cautiously.

The good news is that by sorting out other burdensome emotions, I have regained some of the space to think deeply about this.

This was the one word that came out of her mouth.

“Besides my family… I have someone precious… ”

“Are you a precious person?”

When I suddenly thought of Edward, a part of my heart began to feel heavy.

One-sided unrequited love.

But even more so, I hope he doesn’t suffer from his choices.

“Yes… He is as precious as his family…

I want to make sure that person doesn’t get hurt…

My greed might hurt that person… ”

“Do you think you will regret it?”

“Regret… … I think I will… ”

Yeriel, who had listened to Anne’s hesitant and repeated words, could be seen through the dark window smiling sadly and slowly putting her hands together in front of her.

Was it inevitable for Anne to wait and see what words would come out of the mouth of the praying girl?

“『Torso. Difficult thorns will sprout on your path.

If the thorn of regret pricks you, you will never be able to turn back.』

This is a paragraph about regret in the temple.

All humans walk down a path, and along the way, they are bound to be pricked by the thorns of regret.

However, if you are pricked by the thorns of regret, you will lose your way back to the pain and fear.

Regret prevents people from truly reflecting on themselves.

Those eyes always make me look back on past mistakes.”

Is this the content of a scripture similar to the Bible?

It’s metaphorical, but it’s also fundamental.

As Yeriel explained it to Anne in a quiet voice, Anne’s head, who had been listening intently in case she missed even a single word, was gently nodding.

“If you think your sister will regret it, how about trying to find a way to avoid it?

The mistakes of the past that the sister looked back on while going through confession.

Now that you’ve let that go, you can truly reflect on yourself…

And then… Perhaps we will be able to find that method too?

I believe that you alone will be able to find the way without giving up.”

“Yes… I guess… … ”

“You have to do that.

This is what enlightenment and choice have in common.

In order to catch it, you have to walk forward yourself.

So, now is the time to walk out of here.”

“Ah… … ”

“If you need the Sacrament of Confession next time, you can come by anytime while I am there, right?

There will be a separate service on the weekend, so if you are interested, you can visit from the morning on the weekend.

Actually, it’s because I think I’ll be late for the first period.”

“Ahh… !! What time is it now… ?”

“Probably… 5 minutes until first period starts… … ”

Anne immediately came out of the confessional, ran to the other side of the confessional, and pulled down the blackout curtain.

Then Yeriel, who was on the other side, looked surprised.

“You have to run!! The Seongsulbu is a 5-minute drive from here… … !!

It’s even worse if you walk down the hallway to find the classroom… !!”

Anne, who had dragged her out of the confessional by her wrist, quickly started running with her.

I was running through the hallways of the chapel, down the stairs to the first floor, and running hard after leaving the work building.

Anne smiled as she looked at Yeriel’s face and expressed her gratitude.

“Mr. Yeriel… !! thank you… !!”

If it weren’t for her, he would have been swayed by feelings of helplessness even now.

However, the expression on Yeriel’s face as he shook his head with a disapproving expression was full of dark cloud-like shadows.

“Ha… ha… It’s no big deal…

More than that… Sigh… crane… … ”

“Yes… ?”

“I… Actually, my physical strength… Sigh…

Haa… too… hot… Because I don’t like it… hot… !!

It’s rude… Sigh… If not… … ”

Yeriel collapses in an instant no matter how much she jumps and smiles awkwardly.

“Haaah… Haaaa…

Could you give me a little piggyback ride? I wonder… … ?

Ahaha… … haha… … !!”

Anne’s eyes were shaking, as she was looking at her in bewilderment.

“Ugh… The heart… I’m shaking…

ah… It hurts… … Ahhh… … ”

‘I’m very weak… … !!’

In the end, Anne, who picked up Yeriel and brought him to the Sacred Arts Department, had no choice but to be late for the first class of the first period.

However, what she had gained was so important that a bright smile appeared in Anne’s eyes as she was thinking deeply about it even as she was being punished.