episode_0212

…My childhood friend has been acting strange for the past few days.

No, maybe it would be more accurate to say it’s broken?

I don’t know if it was because of the stress of studying or something else, but Jin-ha started doing things he’d never done before.

For example, like now, hugging you from behind and not letting go.

I sighed and opened my mouth at the action that brought considerable stimulation to my entire body.

“…Can you let me go?”

“Is it that burdensome for me to hold you?”

“Oh, a lot. Before being a friend, I wish you would realize that you are a woman.”

Maybe it’s because we’ve been friends for so long? There were quite a few times when Jin-ha didn’t recognize me as a ‘man’.

When I went to her house to play, she took off all her clothes and showed me her underwear.

One day, when we started sleeping together, he rolled over and hugged me like a body pillow and fell asleep.

All of her actions were so lewd that I once asked her, “Do I look like a man to you?”

“Well, you’re not the type of person who would do something like that, are you? Phew, and we’ve been friends for years, so why would you do something like that to me?”

He just smiled broadly and gave absurd answers.

I’m a man too.

Before being childhood friends, and before being a wizard who must always be cool, he was a wolf.

…Should I really close my eyes and confess to you once?

No, what if I confess and get rejected and the relationship goes wrong?

I shook my head and pushed my childhood friend away from my body.

“It’s almost class time. Go back to class and prepare for the next class.”

“Tsk, leave it at lunchtime. It’ll stick to you like a leech. ”

“Hey, stop clinging to me, you’re gonna make my body smell like dog hair.”

“Dog, dog hair smells?!”

Jin-ha made a blank expression and started sniffing around with his nose against my clothes.

“There’s no smell at all!!!”

After making sure there was no smell, he screamed and went back to his room.

“Hoo…”

This time, I had to defeat my desperate childhood friend again.

As I sighed in despair at the thought of having to defeat them four more times, Seungje, who was reading a book next to me, swore at me.

“Fuck you little shit.”

“Why are you picking a fight again?”

“Then you don’t think you’ll cause trouble? You’re flirting right next to me and making a big fuss?”

widely.

Closing the book, the guy adjusted his glasses and glared at me fiercely.

“Be honest with me, do you like guys?”

“Do you think I’m crazy enough to like guys? I’m not gay, you punk.”

“No, you’re gay, damn it. How can a guy who doesn’t fall for the seduction of a woman next to him not be gay?”

Seungje began to express his anger mixed with sighs, holding the back of his neck as if he was pulling the back of his neck.

“If only I had a childhood friend with a physique like yours, I wouldn’t have any wishes. This kid who has everything but the eyes is just eating rice, really.”

“It’s not what you think, you idiot. She’s like real family to me. Do you think you could have sexual desires for your little sister, huh?”

“If my little sister looked like that, I could chew her out, really.”

“Anyway, you crazy kid, that’s why you don’t have a girlfriend.”

“Fuck…”

When I gave him a solid fact, Seungje writhed in frustration as if he liked it so much.

Seriously, he has a nice face, so why does he always pick out such perverted words to say?

If only that hadn’t happened, I think he would have had the ‘girlfriend’ he so desperately wanted.

I opened my Korean textbook, thinking that it was true that God doesn’t give us everything.

On the page I opened, there was a work titled ‘Camellia’.

…Is this a story about a clueless boy and a girl who likes him?

First of all, the novel that contained the famous quote, “Spring potatoes are delicious,” is engraved in my mind.

How do you remember that quote?

‘Hey, don’t you fucking hate it when people say spring potatoes are delicious?’

‘What the hell are you talking about now, you crazy bastard?’

‘No, think about it. If Jeomsoon had said something like that after that, wouldn’t the real protagonist have ejaculated without an erection?’

The pervert kid next to me was saying some crazy shit that made me lose my mind.

‘Spring potatoes are delicious. But, I also taste good when I’m holding them.’

‘You crazy kid.’

‘After saying that, the clueless protagonist is taken to the mill and has her body eaten along with the potatoes…!’

‘Okay, that’s it. I’ve heard enough bullshit.’

…Isn’t it strange that such memories remain but aren’t imprinted?

Moreover, this work remained in my mind especially because the main character of the work was evaluated as a clueless brat by a Korean teacher who was still single at the age of 45.

Certainly, I think the boy was a bit clueless.

Why can’t I notice when a girl is so clingy and kind to me?

“But this… somehow feels like my story.”

A childhood friend who clings to her with feelings of love every hour, and a male protagonist who doesn’t know her feelings.

…Hey, no way.

It must be my mood.

There’s no way I’d be as clueless as that idiot kid in Camellia.

With a snicker, I turned the page.

—–

“Why are you so tired?”

“Don’t worry about it. It’s none of your business…”

“You’re expressing with your whole body that you want me to pay attention to you, how can you ignore this? What happened with that kid again?”

“Not that kid, Jaeseok.”

“Anyway!”

Jihye, who gets annoyed and meddles in my work, asking why I ate something wrong in the morning.

Looking at my partner who was unusually energetic today, I let out a weak voice.

“Wisdom…”

“Why.”

“Is a childhood friend really a symbol of defeat?”

As I let out a sigh and laid down on the desk, Jihye tilted her head with a dumbfounded expression.

“Who says that? Does that kid hate you?”

“No, that’s not it. I was walking down the hallway recently and I heard something strange.”

The strange friend sitting next to Jaeseok.

I think his name was Seungje? Anyway, that guy who always spouts out useless words spouted out something strange this time too.

This is the ridiculous statement that ‘the childhood friend position is doomed to lose.’

Whenever he said something strange, Jaeseok would always give the same answer of, “What the hell are you talking about?” so I tried to ignore him, thinking it would be the same this time.

“Hmm… Now that I hear you say it, that seems to be the case.”

I was shocked by Jaeseok’s answer, which was completely different from what I expected.

Does that mean that 14 years of patient work was meaningless?

Are you saying that my efforts have been in vain?

The seed called ‘anxiety’ that had been in my heart quietly sprouted.

Should I just do it?

No, then what good has all this suffering done to me? At least I should get a confession.

But… what if you wait that long and then she gets stolen by another girl?

I forgot to run to Jaeseok and just sat there biting my fingernails.

That just won’t do.

Rather than letting someone steal it from you, I’d rather give up my pride and confess first to make it mine.

It’s a plan, it just needs a little change.

After changing the plan like that, I took a step back and tried to confess to Jaeseok right away.

‘…’

When I actually stood in front of him, strangely enough, I didn’t have the courage.

I just need to say that I love you and that from today on, we should be lovers, not friends, but why won’t the words come out?

In the end, I had no choice but to go back after a few days of just going to class like I usually do, and not being able to confess what I had been thinking about.

“So, to put it simply, you became weird after hearing that crazy pervert’s words?”

“That could be it, or maybe you want to confess but don’t have the courage to do it.”

As she spoke in a gloomy voice, Jihye opened her mouth, pounding her flat chest as if she was frustrated.

“I think I know why you two can’t get along.”

“Uh, yeah?”

“The listener also feels suffocated as if they ate dozens of sweet potatoes, so how can this continue?”

Letting out a deep sigh, Jihye continued speaking slowly.

“One side is a dullard who feels nothing when it comes to love, and the other side is a coward who tries to seduce that person who has no answer.”

Jihye shook her head, poking my soft chest.

“The result will be one of two things. Either both of them will just keep digging and not continue, or the dull one will eventually notice and barely be able to continue.”

As if he was feeling suffocated while talking, he gulped down some ice water and opened his mouth again.

“But in most cases, it’s the former. A dullard is still a dullard no matter how much he grows up. He probably doesn’t even know you like him right now? Or maybe he’s not sure.”

“…”

“You must think so too, since you can’t say anything. Then there’s only one way to continue, for you to confess.”

My partner, who so easily tells me to conclude and confess.

I frowned and spoke to Jihye in an irritated voice.

“I know that too. I watched you for a few days and I knew for sure that I had to confess. But…”

What can I do if I can’t confess?

He speaks in a crawling voice, recalling memories.

I’ve tried it several times already.

Even if I close my eyes and try to scream, the word ‘love’ just won’t come out.

I thought I had been cursed without knowing it, so when I was alone, I thought of Jaeseok and said the word ‘love’, but strangely enough, it came out well.

…I guess she just doesn’t have the courage to confess to Jaeseok.

Maybe this plan that I’ve been working on up until now was made that way because I didn’t have the courage to confess.

As I smiled bitterly and lowered my head, Jihye seemed to think about something for a moment, then snapped her fingers.

Exactly!

Then he made eye contact with me with a refreshing expression.

“Hey, I have something to ask you.”

“Yeah.”

“If you can’t confess in words, why don’t you write it down and show it to him? Just write your confession in a letter and give it to him.”

“If you want to show it in writing, I already tried that. I tried to confess via KakaoTalk, but the send button wouldn’t work.”

“Don’t just text me, write it down on a piece of paper and hand it to me. Just try it once. If that doesn’t work, you’ll have to dig until that idiot realizes it. ”

I was about to say something to Jihye, but class just ended at that moment.

“I don’t have any extra lessons, so you’re going first? Think hard on your own, you smart-aleck coward.”

Jihye quickly ran away from the class, as if she didn’t want to be caught by me.

…Bad year, please think about it with me while writing the letter.

I glared at the door through which wisdom had left, and began to write a letter without anyone knowing.