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[Episode 185] – Canvas

“Uh-”

I furrowed my brows and opened my eyes at the chattering voices of the maids coming from beyond the window. Even after waking up, the fatigue didn’t seem to leave me, so I groaned loudly as I struggled to get out of bed.

As I lifted my heavy eyelids, not wearing anything became apparent. What? Did I sleep naked last night? Did I drink? No, I didn’t.

Blinking my sleepy eyes, my head gradually cleared. As I got up, I let out a small groan from the muscle pain that I felt all over my body. It felt like my body was under strain as if I had done intense exercise.

There wasn’t a part of my body that didn’t ache. Calves, thighs, abs, especially my waist felt stiff and uncomfortable. Moreover, the discomfort and queasiness between my legs…

“Ah.”

The moment I felt the discomfort in my lower abdomen, memories of last night’s heat rushed into my mind one after another, and my face flushed instantly as I realized what I had done. Eventually, the thought of what I had done made everything go dark.

“I must be crazy…”

Touching my throbbing forehead, I furrowed my brows and tried to think of something else to erase the memories of yesterday, but the traces of last night throughout my body wouldn’t allow it.

Speaking of traces, the stains left all over the blanket were also a problem. The faint stains inside the blanket were unmistakably “bloodstains.” When I saw the bloodstains on the blanket, various thoughts crossed my mind.

“Sigh.”

After my thoughts ended, I finally stared blankly at the bloodstains on the blanket and burst into a bitter laugh. The pain and the bloodstains on the blanket inside pointed to only one fact.

“Oh, really, is this…?”

The blood flowing from below was certain. I wanted to check underneath, but for some reason, I was afraid to look. If there was a lot of blood, I might faint.

What should I do from now on? I’ve tried to keep my “line” so far, but in the end, my efforts last night turned out to be in vain. No, come to think of it, I was the one who allowed it in the end.

I sighed softly as I touched the ring on my ring finger. It was already a thing of the past to regret. In the end, I embraced Titania and handed over even the precious things to her.

“Really, what should I do…”

Unconsciously, I found myself biting my nails as the memories of last night continued to surface. Honestly, it wasn’t bad. Rather, the stimulating feeling I experienced for the first time in my life was almost addictive.

What do they call this? They say that stealing learned late in life is scary, and that’s exactly how it was. The sexual pleasure I learned for the first time at this age didn’t seem to be satisfied; it came with a thirst for more.

It was so regrettable that it ended like that yesterday, to the point where I thought, “Should I build up my stamina?” Even thinking about it now, it seemed insane. I lay back on the bed, groaning and sighing.

“Putting that aside, where did she go? Isn’t it a basic duty as a lover to be there the next morning…?”

Recalling the dating knowledge I had read in novels, I glanced at the empty space beside me. As I lay there absentmindedly, just as I was about to close my eyes to succumb to drowsiness again, the door creaked open.

“Mother, did you sleep well?”

“…Yes.”

As I blinked and looked at Titania who had approached, she had placed a basin of warm water and a towel on the bed. Ah, she went to get that. She could have asked a maid to do it.

As I struggled to sit up on the bed, Titania, who had finally sat on the edge of the bed, smiled brightly. Come to think of it, it was definitely uncomfortable. I didn’t clean up after doing that yesterday, and then I slept.

As I moved my legs, I felt the dried semen sticking to my thighs and pulling at my skin. It somehow seemed to smell like saliva. Titania poured warm water onto the towel she had brought and asked me.

“Shall I wipe your body?”

Instead of saying she would wipe my body like a dutiful daughter, Titania smirked wickedly. Seeing her intention to do something strange while wiping my body, I shook my head and let out a snort.

“…Fine. Just hand me the towel.”

“It must be difficult to reach your back. And I know where I need to wipe.”

“…? What are you talking about?”

Knowing where to wipe? I looked at Titania as if I didn’t understand what she meant. She grinned and poked my neck with her finger.

“I licked here yesterday, and I bit here too.”

“?!”

As Titania’s finger, which had been pressing on my neck, slowly slid down along with her words, it began to move downward. The finger that swept over my skin had already reached near my chest.

“I dribbled a little saliva here on your chest, and I bit here a lot. Look, there are some tooth marks left, right?”

“You, you…!”

As if tracing the traces she left last night with her finger, Titania continued to slide her finger over my skin, folding her eyes and smiling. How many traces did she leave…!

“I even left a few marks where mother can’t reach properly. If you don’t clean it properly, my scent will continue to linger on your body…”

“Your saliva scent?”

“Do you dislike my scent?”

Even with my grumbling tone, Titania didn’t care and just laughed it off. I wanted to go into the bath and wash myself, but what was the point in asking the maids to prepare the bathroom since morning?

I could have done it, but it was awkward to think about how to explain the traces left on my body if the maids saw them. Surely, Titania had left traces everywhere, even in places that couldn’t be covered by clothes.

In the end, I let out a small sigh, removed the blanket wrapped around me, and offered my body to Titania. She would try to wipe my body no matter what I did. I resigned myself to letting it happen.

“…Hurry up and finish.”

Once permission was granted, Titania wrung out the damp towel and smiled brightly. Is wiping my body really that enjoyable? Do I need to smile so brightly over something so trivial?

As I raised my arm, Titania cautiously reached out and began to wipe my arm. Perhaps it’s because I’ve woken up fully and my nose is clear, but I could sense a slightly sour and musty smell coming from my body.

Didn’t they say that smells stimulate memories, not hunger? As I caught a whiff of the sour smell emanating from my body, memories of last night resurfaced once again. Titania, drenched in saliva, sucking and licking all over my body.

“Sigh…”

“? Are you uncomfortable somewhere?”

Titania, who was wiping my body, looked at me with wide eyes as if she really didn’t understand. When I saw her face, yesterday’s memories came back even more vividly, and without realizing it, I furrowed my brow.

“It’s nothing. Just finish up quickly.”

“Yes, I understand.”

After wiping my back, arms, and armpits, Titania turned towards me. When I sent a look that seemed to ask, “You’re not going to wipe the front too, are you?” Titania looked disappointed.

“Are you really a pervert?! Turn your head away quickly!”

I snatched the towel from Titania’s hand, soaked it in water, and wrung it out. With a sound of frustration, the damp towel somehow felt hot.

Quickly and meticulously wiping the front with the damp towel, I brought my nose close to my skin to sniff. It was hard to tell if the smell had disappeared or not. It was difficult to confirm.

After wiping my whole body with the damp towel, Titania, who had brought a bathrobe, placed it beside me. She was already dressed in a bathrobe, looking at me while brushing her teeth.

I also put on the bathrobe Titania had prepared, slowly stood up, and headed towards the mirror. I wanted to see what exactly Titania had done to my body.

As I looked at my reflection in the large mirror, I couldn’t help but be shocked. I was much larger than I had thought—twice, no, three times as much. I had expected it to be around my neck or thighs at most…

“You…!”

As I glared at Titania standing next to me with a hateful look, she sent me a smile that really meant “beautiful.” What’s so beautiful about it! It looks painful!

From the teeth marks on my chest to the red marks blossoming all over my body, I felt bewildered, unable to say anything. I felt so bewildered that my body and mind froze.

“What are you going to do about this…?”

“Well? Shall we just stay in the room together for a while?”

Titania suggested with a sneer not to go outside the room. However, no matter how much I thought about it, I could only see a future where more marks would be engraved on my body if I stayed in the room.

“…Don’t touch my body until this is gone.”

“Huh?”

“Of course, lewd acts are also prohibited. Got it?!”

At my thunderous voice, Titania widened her eyes in shock, then quickly adopted a gloomy expression. No matter how passionately she looked at me, it was not going to happen.

I snorted and started brushing my teeth while looking at the mirror. My reflection in the mirror looked like I had been bitten by a dog. How many teeth marks are there…?

“One on my chest… two on my neck… three under my chest… why is it bruised here…? And besides here, did I leave them in other places too…?”

Every time Titania looked at the red marks on my body, I vividly recalled last night’s memory, and the reflection in the mirror showed me blushing all the way to my ears.

And on top of that, there was Titania standing next to me, giggling as she looked at me. Even if it’s the first time, it’s too much. I really thought it was too much.

My body isn’t a canvas…