episode_0187

A potion that I managed to create with a dazed mind.

Although it was my blood, it could also be said to be a strange recovery medicine that could restore even a lost body.

The problem is that in order to exert that much power, a lot of blood had to be shed, so it’s painful for me to have to shed blood, but what can I do?

I was not a saint, much less a volunteer.

When someone was dying in front of me, I couldn’t do something like cutting myself with a knife and bleeding, even though it was something I could do.

But the reason I was shedding blood now was because I had something to gain.

At first, I had to encourage Kylon to go home. But even if I encourage him, if Kylon eventually gets tired and breaks down, what can I do on my own?

So, even then, I tried to work hard.

Next, I lost my home, but thanks to Kailon, I had a place to return to, and it was a strength I took out because I was happy and wanted to do something for him, and now I can boldly say that it is a strength that helps me envision the future.

So even though I was suffering right now, I had no choice but to do this to avoid suffering even more later.

Kailon didn’t know either, so in the end he had no choice but to let me go, even though he showed a shocked expression that he didn’t want to do that.

As Kailon’s canteen was filled with blood, and the remaining bottles were also filled with blood, the number of bottles that looked like HP potions soon began to increase.

If it was like this, Kylon probably wouldn’t die. Even if you lose, you can get up again and win.

So I hoped.

“Are you okay?”

“Uh, yes. The kids should have come back, but they are gone.”

I nodded and dusted off the clothes that Kylon had cleaned.

It was a dizzying pain in my head.

But now I could bear it.

They say humans are creatures of adaptation, and I was slowly feeling my body adapting to the pain.

As I was thinking about it for a while, a thought occurred to me.

wait for a sec… Aren’t you getting used to the pain and your body is getting used to playing Maso?

As I got used to the pain, the moment I remembered that I felt more pleasure than pain even when I was being strangled, a sense of self-destruction began to build up.

“I was crazy… ”

I stood alone a little away from the camping area and washed my face dry.

It was fortunate that the night air was cool. I felt so fortunate to have something to cool my hot insides just a little.

I turned my head left and right to shake off my thoughts and then looked again.

Well, since that procession is something that people make, it seems like they are trying to rest on the other side, but I don’t know if it is because they are going with completely blind faith, but it looks like they are just resting on the ground.

I can’t say for sure since only the silhouette is visible, but it doesn’t matter.

As I watched him go back to his seat and cook, I couldn’t help but sigh.

To be honest, I know that even if I wanted to erase the trauma, it wouldn’t work out on my own.

Isn’t it human that bad memories that we barely forgot come to mind for no reason?

The thought that I would soon meet a goddess brought back memories of the time when the word ‘goddess’ and the word ‘food’ were mixed together.

I also wondered if I didn’t need to know why I couldn’t taste the food properly.

Still, he couldn’t say anything and just lowered his head and joined the meal.

“… What is it? Tomorrow, I’ll go a little faster and if I get close to the procession, I’ll turn around a little and overtake it. So, everyone should go to bed early after eating.”

“You mean you wake up early and go?”

“Yes, if you follow the normal path, you might get caught and get stuck, so you should turn around and take the forest path.”

Kailon nodded at Flora’s voice, scooped up some soup and handed it to her.

She took the bowl and moaned.

They said there would be a fight tomorrow, so it was natural to feel nervous.

Agnes, who was quietly looking at the soup, muttered in that atmosphere.

“… So, tomorrow then, arm yourself again?”

“Uh, I guess so. Even if you sneak past those people, it’s hard to avoid a fight in the end.”

Kylon nodded.

There was only one final goal. Defeating the goddess.

It seemed so simple that there was nothing to say, but it was very frustrating that it was difficult to reach such a simple thing.

How will you overcome the crowds following you and how will you approach the goddess?

How will others react when they approach the goddess, and how will the fight unfold and what aspects will it take? It was a truly difficult concern.

The approach is to go back through the forest.

If I did that, I would be able to hit the front without being caught by other people.

The problem was that I had to go around a forest path, not a path that ordinary people walk.

It would take a lot of stamina, so would it be possible to hit straight ahead again? It was questionable.

When you rush in, there may be a guard in front of you, so you have to put that aside as well.

I was worried because if the guard at the front blocked her and bought time, the people behind her would rush in, and the goddess could either dodge or attack her individually.

Agnes, who was thinking about the same thing, sent a worried look to Kylon in a pained voice.

“… Kylon, should you swing your sword at people?”

There were many emotions in that question.

Until now, this party wielding power against monsters must have been filled with pride.

It was clear that there was a mixture of feelings about moving forward and doing it for the people, for peace, and for safety.

But now, he just expressed embarrassment at the fact that he was in a situation where he had to swing his sword at people who believed in the goddess and followed her.

Would it be right to point the tip of a sword aimed at monsters, a group of people threatening people, towards those they were protecting?

It was natural to worry about that, and it would have felt strange not to.

And at that question, Kailon was blank and then spoke quietly.

“If you believe differently, you just have to act differently. There is no need to move contrary to what you believe.”

It seemed like he was speaking coldly, but his words had a subtle feeling of putting people at ease.

I didn’t feel bad when I heard it because it felt like he was turning things around and saying that you can do whatever you want and that he doesn’t care what you do.

If you don’t want to do it, turn it off. Isn’t it much nicer to hear than saying that?

“… Okay.”

Agnes was convinced, and Linda, while eating soup, appeared to appeal to Kailon, thinking that she thought this was right.

*

Another morning, or even earlier than that.

Because I went to sleep as soon as I ate yesterday and digested it, I felt refreshed rather than tired even though I woke up early in the morning.

Now that it was morning, Linda had bandaged her hand and put on tight clothes.

It seems like it shows off one’s body, but if you think about it as being done to prevent the breasts from shaking as much as possible and to allow the body to move comfortably, it also seems practical.

Although Agnes was wearing armor, she wore light clothing because she had to quickly stab the enemy with a rapier.

The light armor that partially covered only the vital parts made me think that I could wear it comfortably.

Flora wore a large-brimmed cone hat and a robe.

Although he didn’t have solid armor, he was holding a staff in his hand that looked like it would use a lot of force while under guard.

Lastly, Kylon wore heavy-looking armor that covered his entire body, but I had nothing to wear.

The clothes given to me were saint’s clothes, and even if I wore the saint’s clothes, I would only become a target now, and if I did that, I would be in an uncomfortable situation where other people would have to worry about me, so there was no reason to wear them.

So, I was dressed in a shabby cloth like a villager.

In the past, I think I would have struggled to do something, and I would have felt helpless and sad when I saw this situation, but now, instead of that feeling, a different thought took over.

There were feelings of support, encouragement, and gratitude.

Even if everyone is fighting hard and I only watch from behind, Kylon won’t think I haven’t done anything.

I was no longer helpless.

I didn’t even have any reason to be nervous anymore.

Just having someone who cared about me gave me necessity and gave me value.

I didn’t know that my heart was gradually growing bigger and changing into a different heart.

If the fight continued like this, I hoped Kylon wouldn’t be in as much pain as I was yesterday.

I wanted to think that I had hurt him instead.

“Let’s go.”

Kailon’s solemn voice pierced into the forest, not the path that was open and frequented by people.

Everyone nodded and followed with solemn expressions on their faces, and I also walked so as not to be left behind.

I also thought that it would be nice if everything would end with this fight.

Is there really a need for us to catch the devil?

I thought it would be good to catch only the goddesses involved in this world.

Still, since no one knows the end, I did not hold out hope for nothing.