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[Episode 183] – Sexual Desire (1)

For Vivian, ‘sexual desire’ was something unnecessary.

Her life was one in which there was no room to even feel what sexual desire was in the first place. After possessing Vivian’s body, she led a busy life raising Titania. Even if there had been an interest in her own body, it did not translate into any sexual interest.

During the day, she worked vigorously with ministers in Wangsung, and at night, she took care of Titania. Vivian hardly had any time alone to relieve stress.

During the day, she was with ministers and nobles, and during other times, it was Titania, or on the rare occasions when she was alone, the mirror fairy Ainsel occupied that space. She really had almost no time alone.

Furthermore, she wasn’t naturally inclined towards strong sexual desires. On top of that, there were no women or men around her. Except for a few people in social circles, most avoided getting close, perhaps due to rumors about Vivian.

So, was that why? Vivian never had the chance to meet someone and fall in love. She had lived solely for Titania. In such a life, there was hardly any room for the emotion of sexual desire to intrude.

That’s how she had lived her whole life.

Vivian couldn’t help but be indifferent to sexual desire. Moreover, even if she were to fall in love with difficulty, the fact that the person would be her “adopted daughter” whom she had raised would inevitably hinder Vivian.

The guilt of feeling ‘sexual desire’ for a daughter she had raised with love subconsciously suppressed Vivian’s sexual desire. So, perhaps that’s why she was fixated on the ‘order’ of love.

By following that order, she might alleviate some of the guilt. Therefore, Vivian needed a longer time. She needed time not as a mother-daughter pair starting from holding hands, but as lovers.

However…

“Mother. No, Vivian.”

At Titania’s voice, calling her by name instead of the title of mother, Vivian felt the weight of the ring on her left ring finger. Ah, that’s right. I am now Titania’s lover.

Right now, Titania wasn’t my daughter, she was my lover. Just being called by her name once, it was a statement that made me face reality more than any other words I’ve heard so far.

Facing reality and realizing the current situation. Vivian’s mind became dizzy with the rapidly rising heat. Her whole body burned hot, an unknown sensation enveloped her, spreading from head to toe.

Her mind went blank for a moment, almost forgetting what she was doing. Vivian struggled to lift her eyelids feeling the heat, and looked at Titania.

Titania, laughing provocatively, took off her brassiere and exposed her bare chest. Even though Vivian had seen her ‘daughter’ undressed many times before, why did Titania’s body feel so unfamiliar now?

She couldn’t take her eyes off the chest rising and falling with each breath. From the distinct collarbone to the sharply protruding shape under the end. It felt so unfamiliar that she felt suffocated and on the verge of collapse.

“It may not be as large as mother’s, but it grew pretty, didn’t it?”

Titania noticed Vivian’s intense gaze and smiled slyly, taking Vivian’s wrist. She held Vivian’s hand against her chest, supporting it as if to hold her breast.

The soft flesh filled Vivian’s palm as if it were slipping through her fingers. As Titania said, it wasn’t as big, but it was still a plump enough chest to fill Vivian’s hand.

As her wrist was pulled, Vivian felt the sensation of her chest being touched forcibly, unable to say anything, just murmuring with her lips, feeling the sensation of Titania’s chest. Why was this happening?

Surely, there was something bigger attached to her chest. However, the sensation was completely different from touching her own. The elasticity of the skin and the softness underneath were intoxicating.

The sensation in her chest was not the only thing. When she touched a soft yet firm peak somewhere in her palm, Vivian squirmed, not knowing how to handle the sensation that shot through her to the tips of her hair.

Titania seemed to find Vivian’s reaction amusing, leading Vivian’s hand and lightly touching her own chest. With her mother’s palm, she pressed, stroked, and lightly rubbed her chest.

Throughout the process, Titania didn’t miss Vivian’s expression. The gaze from her mother, who only pursed her lips and looked unsure, was definitely not a gaze directed at a “daughter.”

A heat rose in her mother’s pupils fixed on her chest. Perhaps due to excitement, her fair skin blushed crimson, and in the heat, she was busy swallowing dry saliva to moisten her parched throat.

Titania could immediately discern the heat rising in Vivian’s pupils. Well, she herself looked at her mother with such eyes. A feeling akin to thirst and hunger.

In her mother’s eyes, the same ‘desire’ as hers was reflected.

Feeling the desire pouring onto herself, Titania pressed her chest firmly with Vivian’s hand. Each time her mother’s palm grazed the peak of her heaving chest, her back involuntarily arched.

“Ahh…”

She hadn’t felt this good alone.

It wasn’t even something stimulating; it was just her mother’s hand touching her chest. Yet, with Vivian’s touch alone, Titania’s body rapidly immersed itself in pleasure in an oddly swift manner. Perhaps it was because she hadn’t done it alone before.

Exhaling a contented breath, Titania raised her head to look at Vivian. As she gazed at her mother’s face, torn by desire, Titania slowly lowered the wrist she held onto Vivian.

There was no need to say it out loud; it was clear. Just as much as she desired her mother, her mother also desired her. Titania quietly smiled and slowly moved her hand downwards.

Descending between the two chests, passing over the ribs where the bone could be felt, past the fair belly and the small mound beneath, she led her mother’s hand deeper into her own intimate place.

The moment Vivian’s fingertips touched Titania’s underwear, she was startled by the moist heat she felt on her fingertips. The vivid and provocative sensation of the heat was overwhelming.

“Wait… Titania, this is… beyond…”

Vivian stammered as she looked up at Titania with teary eyes. Sensing that she might not be able to stop if she went further, she tried to push away Titania’s hand.

“You’ve come this far?”

“But…”

Vivian’s distressed face responded to Titania’s murmuring voice. She needed at least some time to prepare herself. She had never done such a thing before.

Vivian looked like she might cry at any moment, trembling with shame. To stop Titania in this situation, she had no choice but to admit that she had no experience.

“I, I’ve never done this before… So, I don’t know what to do… I need time to prepare myself… If I suddenly do this, it’s really…”

“…I’m truly sorry, but… I really need time to prepare because this is my first time. Even if I do this, I don’t know what to do…”

As she rambled on, Vivian blushed again, not knowing what she was saying, and continued to mutter incoherently.

As Vivian continued to babble, Titania chuckled and affectionately caressed Vivian’s cheek. What kind of reaction was this?

Unexpectedly, as Vivian blinked in confusion at Titania’s response, Titania gently kissed Vivian’s forehead and spoke. It was truly an unexpected answer.

“I know.”

“What… did you say…?”

“I know. I know that you’ve never experienced this before.”

Did you know? How? I’ve never mentioned it once, have I? Vivian’s eyes widened as if in surprise, and Titania just shrugged as if to say she didn’t understand why.

“Why would you think I wouldn’t know? The reason Mother didn’t receive the ‘honor’ of the royal family was because she didn’t spend the first night with Father.”

“Ah…”

“Since then, Mother hasn’t shown any signs of meeting a man or anything like that, so of course I would know. The fact that Mother has never been embraced by another person even once.”

Titania chuckled and affectionately stroked Vivian’s cheek. Her charming yet mischievous smile as she caressed my cheek was both enchanting and wicked. If only she knew that it was my first time…

“But what does that have to do with anything now?”

“Huh…?”

“Just as Mother is my first experience, am I also your first experience? Shouldn’t we be happy that the people who love each other are each other’s first experiences?”

“Oh, no…”

“I’m happy that you took my first time. Aren’t you happy that your beloved daughter is your first experience? Are you upset that your cherished daughter is your first partner?”

“That, that can’t be… but…”

“So there’s no problem, right?”

Titania smiled broadly and lifted Vivian’s right leg onto her shoulder. Vivian, taken aback, quickly covered herself with her hands as her legs were forced apart.

“W-wait! Titania…!”

Vivian stammered, calling out to Titania, but it was futile. Titania, as if determined not to stop, began to kiss from Vivian’s ankle all the way up to her calf, leaving wet, sticky marks on her tender skin.

Looking at Titania’s figure, Vivian eventually had to give up. Today, it seemed that Titania had no intention of letting her go. Now she had to steel herself.

“Titania…”

Vivian steeled herself and with a trembling voice, covering her face with both arms, she pleaded with Titania. Under the circumstances, Vivian could not say anything else.

“At least, can’t we make it dark…?”

The smile on Titania’s lips, which had been pressing against Vivian’s neck behind her knees, deepened. It was a very brief remark, but Titania fully understood the meaning behind those words.

It wasn’t a plea to stop. It was a mother’s request not to be embarrassed. Yes, because it was what her mother wanted, she had to comply. Her mother hadn’t asked her to stop.

But…

“…Wouldn’t it be dangerous to put out the light?”

“D-d-dangerous…? What do you mean by that…?”

“It’s my first time too, so I don’t really know what to do. I have knowledge from books, but practical experience is different. If I make a mistake and hurt you…”

“H-hurt…?”

Vivian’s face became pensive at those words. Of course, what Titania had just said was a lie. Even if she put out the light, it was a full moon night, so the room wouldn’t be dark. She just didn’t want to put out the light right now. She wanted to engrave her mother’s tense and embarrassed expression in her mind, and she wanted to look at her mother’s private parts in the light, so she lied.

“It’s okay. After all, this candle isn’t that bright, and the bed area is dark, isn’t it? It’s hard to see because of the shadows. If it gets darker here, I won’t be able to see anything.”

This was also a lie. From her tear-stained eyelids to the blush on her cheeks, everything was clearly visible. To comfort Vivian, Titania kissed her cheek and gave a faint smile.

“It hurts more when you’re tense. So, please don’t be too tense. You understand, right, Mother?”

The words came easily, but she couldn’t help but feel tense. Vivian reluctantly covered her face with both arms and decided to just lie there as if telling Titania to do as she pleased.

Once again, Titania tried to ease Vivian’s tension by kissing the inside of her thigh. She caressed the inside of her thigh, using her lips to familiarize Vivian with the stimulation she was providing.

Each time she kissed the inside of the thigh, Titania felt an impulse to want to bite into that soft, plump flesh. She wanted to mark it with her own traces, a fierce possessiveness.

Unable to resist the urge to bite, Titania left rough marks on Vivian’s inner thigh. Sharp pain caused Vivian to arch her back and let out a small cry.

“Ah, it hurts…!”

“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to…”

Titania began to soothe the clearly marked tooth imprints with her tongue. Each lick made her feel the deep, indented wounds she had left.

How long did she lick, suck, and bite? Vivian’s inner thighs, trembling at the slightest touch, were covered with red marks like a field of red flowers.

As Titania looked up at Vivian, she was breathing heavily, her face covered, unable to catch her breath due to the overwhelming sensations.

“Hah, haa, haa…”

Though she hadn’t touched below, Vivian’s white underwear was already soaked with love juice. As Titania spread Vivian’s legs, the fabric clung tightly, revealing the shape beneath.

“…You’re wet.”

Titania whispered to Vivian, indicating the situation. Despite Vivian’s attempt to close her legs due to Titania’s touch, she couldn’t because of Titania’s presence.

“I’ll take them off.”

Titania grabbed Vivian’s panties and slowly began to pull them down. Oh, what should I do? Faced with the fact that she would eventually be naked in front of Titania, Vivian tightly closed her eyes.

As she pulled the panties down past her hips, the already damp nectar stretched like a silver thread between her genitals and the fabric. Titania, holding the wet panties, let them drop as if discarding them under the bed.

It was the first time since childhood that Vivian had seen her mother’s genitals. The flesh revealed beneath the innocent skin was a vivid shade of red. The protruding clitoris and the moist flesh were provocative.

“First, should I… lick it? It said in the book that you have to moisten it so it won’t hurt…”

Following the instructions in the novel, Titania kissed the protruding clitoris with a sound, making Vivian’s waist jerk with a sharp pleasure she had never felt before.

“Ah…!”

With a moan, her waist trembled, and her thighs tensed as her legs straightened. Overwhelmed by the intense pleasure, Vivian tried to escape, but Titania did not allow it.

She held onto her legs and slowly caressed the clitoris with her lips or extended her tongue to lick it. Each time, moans escaped from Vivian’s lips as if she were suffocating.

“No, I don’t like this…!”

The intensity of the unfamiliar pleasure was too much for Vivian to bear, and she twisted her waist. The sensation surged from her lower abdomen to the top of her head. It was too difficult to handle from the start.

With Titania’s lips and tongue between her legs, giving her pure pleasure, Vivian’s mind went blank. Is this what it means to have your mind go white?

Ignoring Vivian’s moans, Titania traced a pretty red line with her tongue. Now that she thought about it, Titania realized she enjoyed licking.

Every time I licked my mother’s body, a strange sense of satisfaction filled my heart. I liked the taste of my mother’s skin and the smell of it. In particular, I liked the strong smell of my mother here.

Every time I spread my tongue and loosely licked the red line, the vaginal opening that twitched slightly and released love juice flowed into my mother’s quivering waist. Titania was busy drinking all the sweet water.

The smell and taste of the thick love juice, which seemed to be a concentrated form of my mother’s body scent, was not as sweet as honey as described in the novel, but it was definitely an addictive taste that I wanted to taste again and again.

The room, with all the doors and windows closed, was quickly filled with heat, and Vivian’s ears were filled with only the sound of the wooden bed constantly shaking and creaking and the sound of love juice being sucked from below.

“Stop it now…? Ugh, Titania, stop it now…”

Despite Vivian’s plea, Titania was even more focused on licking Vivian’s trembling waist. She deliberately made slurping sounds and stimulated the protruding nub with her tongue.

Vivian wondered when this overwhelming sensation would end, but as she realized that they had only just begun, a throbbing headache struck her. She instinctively knew that this wasn’t the main event. As she sensed that this act wouldn’t end with just licking below, Vivian trembled.