episode_0186

Because of that crazy kid’s money-grubbing, I ended up being his bodyguard for a month.

Honestly, judging from her actions, it seems like she signed a one-month contract as a rental girlfriend rather than a bodyguard, but what do you think? Even though it’s only for a month, I get paid twice as much.

Besides, is this so hard that it feels like an extreme job? No, it wasn’t like that.

Contrary to expectations that he would be very nosy, he only did likable things.

Just considering that they allow you to go to the gym during work hours and make that time your free time, you can’t say that it’s difficult at all.

Of course, outside of those hours, he’s a bit of a slacker and spouts out some mind-boggling nonsense, but I’ve heard that kind of nonsense a lot from Hyukjin and his damned brother.

Anyway, the month passed smoothly without any crisis, and I could see that I had become quite close to him during that short but long time.

Well, if you show your selfishness and treat me kindly, wouldn’t it be strange not to get closer to me unless you decided to distance yourself from me?

But the feeling of being close was definitely not the ‘love’ that can be felt between lovers.

It’s just a feeling between a close younger sibling and an older sister… yes, I guess it’s right to say it’s a feeling of friendship.

If the guy had looked like he was in his late teens or mid-twenties, I probably would have fallen for his sweet advances in less than a week.

Unfortunately, the guy looked like he was in his early teens. He was too immature to be in love, so I couldn’t feel any emotion called love.

In the first place, feeling sexual desire at that kind of appearance… in a way, it’s like admitting that you’re a hopeless piece of trash.

“So, it’s still unrequited love.”

“That’s right. I told you over and over again that you can’t feel love with that look on your face.”

“Hmm, I think my sister said that love is more about the heart than the other person’s appearance?”

“I did. But looks are important too. That’s why I’ve never been in a relationship before, right?”

Today is the last day of my dedicated bodyguard service.

The little guy invited me to his house because he felt it was a shame to just say goodbye, so I accepted the invitation without much suspicion.

Because I had been courting her for a month without making any moves, she trusted me.

Swish – ! Ugh…

I empty the soju in my glass in one go and let out a slightly wistful sigh.

“Whew, seriously… If you weren’t like that, you would have already made it a fait accompli. You really are a minus, man.”

“Phehe, if you’re going to be that picky, you can date even if you don’t have muscles, right? Why do you keep training? You’re not even a warrior.”

“Because I can’t give up. I feel like I’m alive only when I challenge my limits every day, and the biggest reason is… yeah, I guess it’s because I don’t want to destroy the tower I’ve worked so hard to build for over 10 years.”

It may seem foolish, but I can’t stand living a lazy life, perhaps because I inherited more of my father’s blood than my mother’s.

Surely you haven’t tried it? Of course you have. I tried eating chicken instead of chicken breast to lose some muscle, and I even took a week off from working out.

But the more I did that, the more the father’s blood inside me boiled, and eventually, after a week, I was lifting dumbbells again.

“No matter what anyone says, I think I’ll train until I die. Even if I can’t date, I’ll train until the end.”

“…You are truly an amazing person. You seem to be the most sincere and passionate person I have ever met.”

“Kick! If someone heard me, they’d think I’d lived for hundreds of years. You’re so consistent.”

Slurp!

He fills the glass with soju again and empties it in one gulp.

“Hueueueu.”

He accepts the rising intoxication without resisting it, and speaks to the little boy in front of him in a languid voice.

“You keep talking about legality and all that crap, but I don’t want to become a criminal. If I do it with you, I’ll be taken to the police station, you bad guy. It’s going to rattle, you know that?”

“I can’t refute that. In fact, you went to the police station a few times during the month you were working as a bodyguard…”

“Yes! Do you know how much I suffered because of you? Those eyes full of disgust… Ugh, just thinking about it makes my heart ache.”

What did the police officer say then?

That’s right, no matter how much a child likes it. What would happen if you tried to do something in real life that only appeared in adult comics?

It was impressive how he looked at me with eyes that said he couldn’t believe me even though I desperately screamed that it wasn’t true. I still remember it.

When you get drunk, your emotions tend to be excessive.

As I shed a few tears of frustration, the little boy quietly came over to me and patted my back.

“They say that if you cry, you lose muscle.”

“Ah.”

Then you shouldn’t cry.

I wiped my tears with the tissue the kid handed me, then took a deep breath to shake off some of the intoxication.

Then he glared sharply at the little boy and began to question him in a low voice.

“But if you think about it, aren’t you the one who’s responsible for everything?”

“Huh?”

“Think about it, if you hadn’t hired me, would I have been called to the police station? Would I have had any reason to receive those disgusting looks?”

“…”

Judging from the fact that he doesn’t say anything, it seems like he acknowledges it to some extent.

I emptied the remaining alcohol in the soju bottle and slowly stood up from my seat.

“It’s all your fault, ughhh… A child who does something wrong deserves to be punished.”

“Wait a minute, sis! It doesn’t seem like it’s my fault? No matter how I look at it, it’s the police officer’s fault…”

“Shut up, can you confidently tell me you have no stake?”

I grabbed the back of the neck of the trembling little boy and took him into the room.

And unfortunately, that was the last memory I had of that day.

—–

“Ugh…”

I wake up from a deep sleep to the warm sunlight shining directly on me.

When I woke up and slowly opened my eyes, I felt my lower back muscles screaming and my energy boiling beyond control.

But when I saw the unfamiliar ceiling for the first time, I hardened my face and thought.

for a moment.

The unfamiliar ceiling, the seething energy, and finally the screaming back muscles. What does this mean…

Hwaak-!

As I quickly lifted the blanket, thinking that I was screwed, the blood stains left on the sheets greeted me.

At the same time, the faint scent of night flowers quietly tickled my nose, making it a foregone conclusion that I was fucked.

“Fuck.”

No, it won’t. I really don’t think so.

You didn’t like it, Yoo Seong-ju! There’s no way you would have done something like rape because you liked Shota!

I have to think. I have to somehow recall the forgotten memories and somehow cover up this fucked up situation.

I tried to calmly close my eyes and think about it, but to my despair, only bad memories came to mind.

The more I recalled the memories, the more I felt myself sinking deeper into the pit of despair, so I stopped thinking about escaping reality.

[I believed you! I believed you!!!]

[More, it’s become dirty… Now that I’m dirty… I can’t get married…]

“Fuck.”

What should I do? Should I start with an apology?

I know you won’t forgive me if I apologize, but I still have to get down on my knees and apologize. I have committed a sin that cannot be washed away.

I felt like running away right away, but I waited until the little boy woke up from his deep sleep, and when he woke up, rubbing his eyes, I immediately knelt down and begged for forgiveness.

“…Sorry.”

“Huh?”

“I’m really sorry, it was all my fault.”

The film was cut off, so my memory is not complete.

But whatever this mysterious kid did, couldn’t it be any worse than raping someone while drunk?

As I lowered my head and shed tears in a feeling of rising guilt, the little boy looked flustered and then dumbfounded.

“Why are you asking for forgiveness, Sister?”

“Huh?”

“Why are you asking for forgiveness when you didn’t do anything wrong?”

I cautiously raised my head at the questioning voice and looked forward. Contrary to what I had thought the little girl would look at me with contempt, she was looking at me with a bright smile.

What? Am I remembering wrong?

No, I clearly remember it. The scene where I forcibly raped this little guy, and the scene where the little guy cried out something while being raped.

“My memory isn’t perfect. But even with my fragmentary memories, I don’t think I can deny that I was wrong.”

“After all, it’s just a fragmentary memory. When your memory comes back completely, will you change your mind?”

The little girl put on her gown and started to console me as I was confused.

“Don’t worry, sis. Rape is a crime, but sexual intercourse isn’t a crime, right? What happened yesterday was something we both enjoyed, so it was sexual intercourse anyway.”

“I’m already feeling dizzy, so could you be a little quieter?”

“Yes.”

The guy nodded and moved away, and I took a moment to gather my wits.

“I’ll go back home first. I’ll contact you when I remember, so pick me up right away. Okay?”

“Yes, I understand, sis.”

“Oh, and now, can you tell me your name? We agreed to tell you when the contract ends.”

“Of course! I’ll tell you, my name is – ”

The kid, or rather the monster, told me his name, and when I heard his name, I was sure of it.

From the beginning, the guy had me in the palm of his hand.