episode_0185

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“There’s nothing more to say, right?”

A woman with beautifully braided hair looks at me.

What can I say? I heard that my heart has already left.

In fact, I also wanted to hold on to it.

But is there any love left in those actions? Or is it just the anxiety of being alone that is driving me?

Whatever it was, it was clear that if they caught her, something would break.

A tower built by barely piecing together torn pieces of self-esteem.

Okay, let’s send it.

“Okay, goodbye.”

I swallowed my saliva once and spoke with a relieved face.

Let’s end this tiresome chain of emotions.

Even if it takes a long time to know whether another relationship will come to me or not, it is right to let her go.

She left without looking back.

I also turned my back and walked down the street.

He didn’t even bother to look back.

And, I promised myself again.

I will never beg for love again, and I will receive love, not give love.

***

My eyes naturally opened with the sensation of something heavy rising over my body.

And then a human figure comes in from a very close distance.

Blonde hair and green eyes.

Who was it?… Oh, it was Maria.

Maria, my attendant. Maria Roen.

But why are you like that?

It’s a similar posture to when Master wakes me up in the morning.

Looking at his expression, it doesn’t look like he was hugged from over there.

I was holding his arm… Did I pull him in my sleep? That would be a plausible situation….

But, I am a saint.

Isn’t this a problem? On my side.

A saint who is supposed to be more honest and pure than anyone else is the kind of guy who holds a woman in his arms?

It’s Hwahyeong-gak. Hwahyeong-gak.

…This crisis must be overcome with the teachings of our ancient ancestors.

“Ugh!!!! He is a rapist!!!”

It’s a sure win.

At my scream, Maria was startled and fell off the bed.

Then he fell flat on his face and trembled.

“Sorry, sorry! Saint! That was never the intention. I just went closer to wake the saint. never! I had no intention of desecrating the Holy Sacrament!!”

When I saw Maria shaking like an aspen tree, I felt sorry.

Since the reaction is more than I expected, I feel like I shouldn’t let this situation drag on for too long.

Maybe it’s because I just woke up, but I’m not ready for ‘acting like a saint’ yet.

“Ma, Sister Maria. wake up. I think there was a misunderstanding between us.”

I quickly changed my face to be kind and helped Maria up.

“No! I am a sinner. I went close to the saint for no reason…”

Maria is almost on the verge of tears. I got out of the blanket and lifted her up myself like last time.

Even as she got up, she kept her eyes on the floor and didn’t look at me.

“Ma, Sister Maria. I am okay. So you can look at me.”

I scratched the back of my head and spoke to her again.

“I’m really good….”

Maria mumbled in a voice the size of an ant, and I nodded vigorously.

“Yes, yes. I think I was drunk and talking nonsense.”

“Is that so? I wonder if you are lying for no reason…”

“A saint does not lie.”

Put on your most gentle expression and reassure her.

Maria must have seen my sincere expression as she muttered, ‘I’m not lying…’

Phew, things seem to have calmed down a bit now.

“Anyway, I woke up late so you came to see me, right? What is your schedule today?”

“Yes… that’s because there is a morning service.”

Ah… there will be worship.

Does this happen every day? Evande.

“Actually, it’s a little late.”

Maria said hesitantly, fidgeting with her hands.

“Uh… Has the service started?”

“No, there are about 30 minutes left.”

Glancing, her gaze turned towards the wall.

30 minutes?

“Isn’t worship held at the cathedral?”

“That’s right.”

As she nodded, her golden bangs swayed.

Cathedral… It’s not that far from here, right?

“I think 30 minutes will be enough to attend.”

“But… you haven’t had breakfast yet, and you need to shower…”

She folded her fingers one by one and recited what she had to do.

hmm?

“Is it enough?”

“Yes?”

She looks at me blankly.

Look in the mirror. My hair is a little straight, but I don’t think I need to wash my hair.

Since I have some eye bags, I think I can wash my face and brush my teeth.

“Please wait a moment.”

Giving office workers 30 minutes to prepare for work?

5 minutes is enough.

***

The saint spoke for exactly 5 minutes.

We are heading to the cathedral with the saint neatly dressed in uniform.

The saint quickly washed his face, brushed his teeth, and tidied his hair.

After touching my hair a few times with wet hands, my frizzy hair came back to life.

[Morning…]

[Just because you don’t eat one meal doesn’t mean you will die. Lunch was good, so you can eat lunch.]

Grinning, the saint smiled like sunlight.

When I see the saint’s smile, I feel strangely warm in my heart.

A pure and untainted smile, free from all the uncleanness of the world.

An example of prioritizing worship even when the situation is urgent…

Of course, since he is a saint, it is natural, but it will be a good example for trainee priests who are just starting to walk the path of light.

Right now, even for me, there are times when I hesitate to attend worship when I have a fever or a stomachache.

[Saint, perfume and accessories….]

When I presented the jewelry that a high-ranking priest would normally wear and the perfume that is currently circulating at the religious headquarters, the saint jumped up and waved his hand.

[Worship is important. Attendance is more important than these things.]

I was ashamed of my hands that held the jewelry.

How long had I been trapped in pretentiousness?

“…….”

I see the saint’s profile heading towards the cathedral.

Stately steps, a sharp nose, warm chestnut hair, and mysterious blue eyes that seem to contain the sea.

Suddenly, the situation from earlier comes to mind.

That moment when I was held in the saint’s heart.

My face suddenly gets hot.

no. It is blasphemy to have such blasphemous thoughts.

If you harbor such impure thoughts towards a saint, you will be summarily punished.

I shake my head and try to shake off useless thoughts.

But the thoughts bite their tails, forming a strong chain that wraps around my head.

“……”

To calm your mind, recite a prayer to yourself.

Supreme Light, help me not to fall into temptation.

Condemn the temptations within, just as you destroyed external evil.

Under the strict law of light, allow your servant to exist solely as a servant.

Only then did I…

“Ah, Sister Maria.”

The saint who was walking ahead turns his head and looks at me.

“Hi!”

I have a vulgar hiccup.

What would the Holy Son think if he saw me like this?

“Now that I think about it, I didn’t say this.”

“Please take care of us starting today. Sister Maria.”

Behind the grinning saint, the blessing of the brilliant sun comes in.

It’s dazzling.

And strangely, my heart races.

I feel like my faith is being filled.