episode_0183

I opened my eyes. When I came to my senses, it was morning. Even though I was out of my mind, it wasn’t like I didn’t have any memories, so yesterday’s memories came back to me.

At first, I was so embarrassed the day after we had sex that it was hard to even face him, but now those feelings have eased a bit and I was able to look at his face clearly.

I saw him groaning with a distorted expression as if he had just woken up.

“Ugh… ”

As I watched him tossing and turning, I wondered if I had been too greedy yesterday.

It wasn’t consensual SM play, and it was natural that he would be embarrassed if he suddenly asked me to strangle him.

Now that I have time to think calmly, I feel resentful of the person I was yesterday.

Because I made Kailon, who was already trying to help me, look like that.

Trauma is scary.

I didn’t mean to hide behind the word ‘trauma’, but I just felt that the fear of not being able to control myself was really scary.

After making a groaning sound, I felt a burning sensation in my mind, so I put my hand on my neck and massaged it.

I didn’t mean to scratch my neck. My hands were shaking, but I was just touching my neck to recall the memories of yesterday.

“… … .”

Sex yesterday felt crazy good.

In fact, it was very strange to judge how I felt about mixing bodies, but it was an undeniable fact that I felt that pleasure, so I could only secretly admire it.

In the morning, I just woke up and touched my neck repeatedly.

Then, he quickly turned his gaze back to where Kailon was.

Why did I feel good yesterday? I thought about it carefully.

I always felt the tingling sensation of my uterus being stabbed, so I thought there was nothing new to be had. And at the end, there is only one conclusion. Did you strangle him? It was.

Hey, does strangling make you feel better? He tried to dismiss it as a simple delusion.

However, I thought I had heard somewhere that it was possible to give a person an ecstatic feeling by quickly strangling them.

If you see something pornographic, there’s a play where you immediately strangle it, and if you don’t let it breathe, it gets even more flirtatious.

I groaned and wrapped my head around it, thinking about it, but it seemed like that was the only answer, so all I could think was that I could understand it.

no way… I’m not a body masochist or anything, right?

No matter how many times I died and came back to life, I didn’t feel any pain from this kind of intense play, but rather felt comfortable, but soon experienced such crazy pleasure that I couldn’t help but worry.

Of course, increasing my strength through teaching assistants is the right way, but I feel like I’m going too far by becoming a masochist for no reason, and I’m deeply distressed.

I felt like I was breaking into a cold sweat because I didn’t know that the things I did to erase the trauma or to overwrite it would give me pleasure in this way.

I narrowed my eyes and looked at Kylon, and I saw Kylon suddenly open his eyes.

“Oh, did you sleep well?”

“… … !”

The moment I said good morning to Kylon, his eyes widened as if he had suddenly taken a stimulant, and he immediately stretched out his hand and grabbed my arm.

It happened so quickly that I was caught before I could even remove my hand, and I frowned at the throbbing pain going through my arm.

“Ugh, why, why are you like that? Oh, I was sorry yesterday… ”

I thought he might have been angry about what happened yesterday, so I apologized, but Kailon looked at me, then dropped his gaze and quickly sighed.

What is it? Please tell me. As I urged myself to do so, Kailon finally opened his mouth and answered my question.

“I thought I was scratching my neck again… Heh, be surprised. Did you sleep well?”

“Uh, yes.”

I answered hesitantly.

Kylon didn’t even say anything like I was going to be surprised if he did something like this, and was just comforting himself.

At this point, I think it’s okay to blame myself, but why doesn’t Kylon do the same?

As I gave him a blank look, he lowered his head, scratched his head, and then looked at me again.

And then he smiled.

“Is your neck okay?”

“Why? I didn’t scratch my neck. Do less now.”

I responded by rubbing my neck with my hand.

I feel like I just passed out yesterday, but after waking up in the morning, it’s just a slight itch that makes me want to scratch like crazy. There was absolutely nothing like that.

Overwrite? Changing a memory to something more intense? Could it be something like that?

I’m just trying to win mentally.

However, I can say that it works for now.

When I feel my throat tightening, my crotch throbs.

A woman who is in a state of pleasure seems to look heavy, so it is difficult for me to open my mouth easily out of fear of becoming like a light woman for no reason, but I was seeking pleasure through a woman’s body.

The pleasure I had been pursuing unconsciously had now become conscious and I was craving strong stimulation.

When I felt a brushing sensation on my neck, my body felt warm.

I was choking, and that moment of climax kept lingering in my head.

“What’s wrong? My face is red… Where does it hurt?”

Kylon said he was worried, but that wasn’t the case.

It wasn’t painful, but I glanced at it to see if it would give me an injection if it did.

“No, that’s… ”

“… Yes, feel free to say it.”

When I heard Kylon’s soft voice, I felt guilty.

Kailon had such a distressed expression yesterday, but I couldn’t understand why he kept wanting to ask for something.

Ugh, crazy bitch!

While I was sobbing, I suddenly opened my eyes at Kylon’s touch.

My surprised gaze gradually eased as I saw him holding my arm and gently sweeping it away.

“That… Yes.”

“Huh?”

“I’m sick… ”

I was the one who said I was sick all the time. Today, for the first time, I tried something called faking it.

No, you can say it hurts. My heart was aching like this and my crotch was itching, so if this was also painful, it could be because it was painful.

Maybe I’m mentally ill.

In this case, Kylon returns to being a woman and I return to being a man, but what if they are seeking pleasure from different genders? When I thought about it, I felt like I was going to feel a little embarrassed.

I wish I could just get used to it and go back to this body.

I leaned into him while making such a small wish.

As my body leaned against his forearm, he looked at me with a confused voice.

“Why?! Where does it hurt? Look where you are!! As expected, is the problem with the neck you strained yesterday?!”

“Yes, I have a problem.”

“Sorry, sorry… !”

Kailon was desperately apologizing, as if he couldn’t even imagine that a child who was constantly sick might be faking an illness.

No, this is not what I wanted for this reaction.

I guess I thought about it too lightly.

I should have just said it directly from the beginning, but I felt like I was just trying to hide my embarrassment and wasted Kailon’s worries.

“No, begging is not the problem… The problem is that I want you to pester me again.”

“… What?”

When I spoke honestly, Kylon’s eyes, who had been embarrassed, opened wide.

What did I just hear? A questioning voice pierced my ears.

“Yesterday, I felt so good after getting fucked like that… ”

“… Veronica, what is that strangling?”

“Yes. I want to do it just one more time.”

“No. It’s painful.”

“No, I really like it.”

“You’re just saying that you want to erase the trauma. I have no intention of strangling you.”

As expected, yesterday’s request seemed to have added to the burden. Yesterday, I wondered if I had forced myself to listen because there was no answer to my condition.

I let out a sigh.

It wasn’t a good feeling to be rejected even though I barely asked for it.

I asked to have sex, but I never thought I would get kicked out like this. I felt a little miserable.

It seems like something only I want. Well, even if you don’t know about sex, you can probably refuse to be strangled. Because that’s really what only I want. huh.

“… Well, there’s nothing we can do about it.”

“Yes. You can’t get too addicted to that kind of thing. They say people become fools. Brain cells are also damaged due to lack of oxygen and blood.”

Kylon started nagging a lot about something.

I’ve never really had anyone nag me like this, but when I see them talking to me like this, I wonder if they’re worried or because they just want me to live an easy life.

Probably both.

I chuckled when I saw Kailon like that.

“… okay. But I’m a little embarrassed.”

Then, as if embarrassed, he spoke with a bitter smile to hide his embarrassment.

Kylon looked back at me with wide eyes.

“What? Is there anything to be ashamed of? No, was it just faking being sick?”

Kailon spoke in a sour tone, but then he opened his eyes and glared at me, as if he had felt betrayed.

Those gazes stung, but it still hurt. This was heartbreaking.

I didn’t know that I would pursue pleasure with this body right away, but I pursued it, so if it was a problem, it was a problem.

“It hurt, so I was trying to ask for an injection. But why do you say that because you feel embarrassed when you say you don’t like it? Well, wouldn’t it be embarrassing if you were rejected?”

After saying that, I turned my head.

Haha, you only do it when you want to do it. With that thought in mind, I pulled the blanket back and laid down.

Since it was still 6 o’clock anyway, I had an hour to spare. This meant that you could close your eyes.

Let’s just close our eyes and forget what we just said! Just as I was thinking about this, I heard Kylon’s absent-minded voice.

“What are you rejecting? Wait a minute, didn’t you just ask me to strangle you?”

“… … .”

“No way, injection… ”

What, Kylon, were you thinking differently than me? At the thought, my face suddenly heated up.

I was the only one who said everything and was pretending to be upset because I got rejected, but I suddenly thought I looked like an annoying crazy bitch.

I was filled with crazy shame, but I couldn’t kick the blanket in this situation, so I curled my back like a shrimp and trembled.

“Veronica.”

Kylon’s voice came softly.

“… It’s time to get a shot.”

Still, maybe because Kailon was kind, he let me go right away so that I wouldn’t have to feel embarrassed again.

However, even though I chose the words, I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed when Kailon also said that.

I felt heat rising to my face.