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What Couldn’t Be Done (6) – Hanmaeum Salvation Church Daehan Branch Basement Faith Recovery Room

No way – fuck no way – again?

With my anxiety rapidly increasing, I quickly looked back on the conversation we had just had.

I thought about it again and again before saying it, and it was absolutely not a lie.

“Come on, sister! Why are you doing this again?! Not really this time~!”

Kang Soo-yeon’s face did not straighten despite her protest filled with resentment.

“As expected, you are still suffering from the devil’s whispers.”

“No—! Noooo! It’s not really ooooh~!”

“He did not completely repent.”

Togak- Togak- Togak-

The sound of high heels getting closer again, like déjà vu.

“No! Really, this kind of dog!”

However, Kang Soo-yeon’s destination was not Seo Jae-hoon.

Without even grabbing Seo Jae-hoon’s hair, which was glowing, he moved further back.

The eyes of Seo Jae-hoon, who was writhing with a surge of injustice that seemed to wrack his entire body, also followed her.

and-

“… … .”

Naturally, I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut.

“But don’t worry too much. Our leader will never give up on us.”

“… … ah. Ahhh—!”

The back of the room that you haven’t seen before.

White water bottles lined up on a wide table.

And the familiar liquid shining brightly inside.

“The leader loves us unconditionally. What greater agape can there be than this?”

… … It’s a lie, right?

“It is a salvation on a different level from the devils who trembled over just one food or bottle of water! Brother Jaehoon, all you have to do is work hard and overcome the devil!”

“Don’t lie~!”

“You are the one, don’t lie, devil!”

Even though I was hoarse and vented my resentment, nothing changed.

Kang Soo-yeon pointed at Seo Jae-hoon with even more blue eyes.

“The first thing I do as soon as I leave is to apologize to the sisters! Previously! If you are a Salvationist, you should have offered a prayer of atonement to your religious leader before that! Only when the religious leader forgives is true forgiveness and repentance!”

“Ssivaaaal! Don’t be damned! Don’t be damned, you fucking crazy bitch!”

“Now you’re showing your true colors! Remember, devil! You will definitely be saved!”

“There are still many opportunities left by the leader!”

Kang Su-yeon screamed loudly as she saw the zombie cure overflowing on the table.

and-

Cheonggrang-

Something bound to the wall behind the table began to approach.

“… … Ha, don’t do it. Please, jebaaaal—”

Because I know very well what that existence is, the tears I had been holding back flow freely.

I looked at Kang Soo-yeon more earnestly than anything else in the world, but she didn’t even move.

Clang- Clang- Clang-

“Don’t come~! Don’t fucking come~!”

Click- Click- Click- Click-

The chair sways in an untimely dance with the body moving violently.

“Fuck, fuck I will definitely kill you! I’m really going to kill you, you fucking bitch!”

Crackle!

“Kwaaagh―!”

──────.

“Whew—!”

I take a deep breath before I even realize I’m awake.

“Heo-eok—! Huh! Huh-!”

Bleep-

Tinnitus that felt like it was ringing directly in my brain and my arms and legs were still, fucking still tied up.

“… … Fuck. Ugh! Sieee_

Seo Jae-hoon, who grasped the situation faster than before, shed tears.

I shed chicken-like tears on the floor and sobbed more sorrowfully than anyone else in the world.

“Uuuu! Sobbing-! Hmm~!”

Why did it become like this, why did it become like this?

Will this hell really end?

If the zombie who is still tied up in this room with me gets sick of my flesh, will this hell end?

No, then I’m sure they’ll bring another zombie.

So, will it end if we use up all the numerous remedies on the table?

No, I’m sure they’ll bring more cures.

“Haaa! no-! I fucking hate this!”

… … want to go home.

Seo Jae-hoon wanted just that.

“Ugh― Momaaa―! Momaaa—!”

A hell where everything is far away.

Seo Jae-hoon cried like a lost child.

The first night I was trapped here, I cried like the cries of other believers I heard through the crack in the door.

I was so tired of crying that I fell asleep-

“Good morning, Brother Seo Jae-hoon.”

I woke up to the same morning greeting as yesterday.

“… … .”

Seo Jae-hoon stared at Kang Soo-yeon with blank eyes.

“Ahaha― I overslept a bit today too.”

Kang Soo-yeon smiled calmly even though there was no answer and sat down on the chair across from him.

And then I started eating the rice balls I brought just like yesterday.

“… … .”

How long has it been since you ate?

It was clear that he had starved for at least two days.

Grumble-

As soon as I saw the rice balls, I was so hungry that my belly clock naturally rang loudly.

“So, how does it feel to be reborn, brother?”

However, even as the belly clock rang loudly in the room, Kang Soo-yeon just calmly asked for her thoughts.

“… … Sorry.”

“Do you feel sorry for feeling reborn?”

“… … I’m just sorry for everything. Sorry.”

Seo Jae-hoon continued speaking in a voice that was completely devoid of Jin.

“… … I dared to practice false faith toward the religious leader. I will always pray for atonement to my religious leader until I die. Sorry.”

“… … .”

Kang Soo-yeon slowly stood up without saying a word.

Then, I looked down at Seo Jae-hoon carefully for a while.

When Seo Jae-hoon felt her gaze and lifted his head weakly, she asked.

“… … Is it the end?”

“… … Yes.”

“Well, not yet.”

her… … . her… … .

… … Yeah, I wasn’t expecting it in the first place.

Seo Jae-hoon, who was only letting out a weak laugh, looked at the chair where Kang Soo-yeon was sitting.

He earnestly pointed with his chin at the rice balls placed there.

“… … I’m so hungry, sister. Please just let me eat rice, just rice.”

I asked earnestly with dry lips, but Kang Soo-yeon shook her head and whispered firmly.

“Lies.”

She slowly approached him, holding the rice ball she had left on the chair.

Seo Jae-hoon’s eyes were solely focused on the rice balls.

He craned his head, opened his mouth, and stuck out his tongue to somehow make contact with the rice ball.

“Really hungry people don’t sit still like you.”

The past is reflected in the pupils of Kang Soo-yeon, who stopped the rice ball exactly where her tongue could not reach.

A hunger that can never be satisfied with Korea’s formal rations.

Second-class citizens were throwing punches and kicks at the pieces of food left behind by the soldiers.

The way he looked at those with food there was very different from Seo Jae-hoon.

“At a moment when you are not even aware of it, it rushes at the person with the food with red-hot eyes. When I look into those eyes, I can only see two things.”

I want to kill him.

So I want to take that away.

“Not when you are begging me like you are now, but when you grit your teeth and want to kill me, and so you go crazy to kill me even with your tied body. That’s when you have to say it, brother.”

Oh, I’m hungry.

“You have lived so full that you do not even know this obvious fact, so you must not know the grace of the religious leader.”

“… … Ah.”

The rice ball that had stopped moving forward returned to Kang Soo-yeon forever.

Despite Seo Jae-hoon’s low sighs, who didn’t even have the strength to scream anymore, the rice balls didn’t come back.

“… … ah… ah… .”

“So you fall for the devil’s whispers, brother.”

Cheonggrang-

Kang Soo-yeon, who coldly sentenced him, gave him something else instead of rice balls.

“Kkisss—!”

Crackle!

A pain I can never get used to.

The last of Seo Jae-hoon’s moisture flowed out between his eyelids, which opened and closed rapidly, as if convulsively.

─────.

After that, everything was the same.

Beep profit-

After being bitten by a zombie, Tinnitus attacks him after he comes back to life.

It’s a profit –

“Good morning, Brother Seo Jae-hoon.”

A morning greeting from Kang Soo-yeon, who opened the door after a night out.

“… … .”

“So, how does it feel to be reborn, brother?”

No matter what answer he gave, nothing changed.

Even if I confessed all my sins, whether praising the religious leader or the Salvation Church, nothing changed.

Kang Soo-yeon, who was eating rice balls and quietly listening to Seo Jae-hoon, stood up and asked, ‘Is that the end?’

And predestined death seeks him out.

Beep profit-

“Good morning, Brother Seo Jae-hoon.”

“So, how does it feel to be reborn, brother?”

A torture called repentance that never ends, like spinning a chat wheel.

It was hard to tell how many nights and how many mornings I had.

One day, the foul smell that filled the room and the place where he was sitting became calm.

Good!

“Good morning, Brother Seo Jae-hoon.”

Seo Jae-hoon smiled as he looked at Kang Soo-yeon who opened the door and came in.

Kang Soo-yeon, who smiled warmer as if responding to that smile, paused.

The armrests of the chair soaked in blood and Seo Jae-hoon’s wrists covered in blood.

“… … Brother. What is all this?”

Seo Jae-hoon smiled and whispered in response to Kang Soo-yeon’s question, which was very trembling.

“… … I prayed.”

As Seo Jae-hoon showed her, he somehow pulled her shaking wrists together and held them together.

“… … I prayed to the church leader. I prayed to the religious leader that I was wrong. So, at night… … The religious leader came to me at night. He stayed up all night with me and encouraged me.”

“Ah… … .”

Togak- Togak- Togak-

Kang Soo-yeon approached him without any regard for the dirt and blood around the chair.

I held his hand and asked with a trembling voice.

“So, how does it feel to be reborn, brother?”

“… … Mo, I don’t know, sister. I really don’t know anything.”

“That’s right, brother. That’s why you should always pray.”

Finally, you have asked for forgiveness from the religious leader!

Tick! Tick!

The restraints on the chair that bound Seo Jae-hoon are loosened.

He tried to get up on his own, his body shaking as if it was vibrating, but his legs kept giving out and he collapsed into the chair.

“Take it, brother.”

Kang Soo-yeon’s hands are held out in front of him.

In one hand was the rice ball she always ate, and in the other was her Shinto uniform that had already come off.

“It belongs to you brother.”

“… … … Ah.”

Seo Jae-hoon’s blank eyes flickered as if he was looking at something far away.

The two trembling hands slowly approached Kang Su-yeon’s hand.

Go back.

go back home

The tears that seemed like they would no longer flow are now flowing down.

A single emotion that overflows in an instant, as if a dam had burst.

Kang Soo-yeon personally placed rice balls and Shindo clothes on the hands of Seo Jae-hoon, who was unable to move forward due to strong emotions.

“Thank you for your hard work, brother. Now we will send you back home.”

“… … Thank you.”

Seo Jae-hoon looked at Kang Soo-yeon and smiled while crying.

And then he kept repeating the same thing.

“… … thank you thank you thank you Thank you.”

Even with the hand holding the rice ball, he hugged his Shinto uniform as if it were more important than anything else in the world and began to shout.

“Thank you! Thank you, Kyojuni! Thank you, Kyojuni! Thank you! Thank you, Kyojuni!”

Restoration of faith.

Restoration of faith.

Kang Soo-yeon smiled as she looked at Seo Jae-hoon, who was crying while looking at the ceiling.

“Brother, you have finally been reborn.”

Now we are all of one mind.

Couldn’t do it yet.

END.