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[Episode 177] – Just between women…?

“Mother, I was wrong. Please stop being angry now.”

“……”

It’s been two days since the underwear incident, but I was still angry. Well, not so much angry as unable to look Titania in the eye. Every time I saw her face, I felt a surge of anger.

When I turned my head away from Titania, as if I didn’t want to see her lying next to me, she quickly came closer, grabbed my hand, and looked at me with a tearful expression.

“Do you know what you did wrong?”

“Yes, yes! I won’t buy such underwear anymore. I won’t wear it or even think about wearing it for you, Mother, so please forgive me now…”

“Sigh…”

Without realizing it, I furrowed my brow every time I thought about that underwear. With my chin resting on my thigh, I met Titania’s gaze, which was filled with a subtle expression.

“Yes? Yes? I was wrong. Mother. Yes?”

“……”

Titania’s pitiful, rejected puppy-like appearance was quite dangerous. Even though I wanted to be angry when she looked at me with those drooping eyes, my anger dissipated.

“…Fine, I understand. Please don’t buy such things in the future. Don’t even think about giving them to me as a gift.”

“Hehehe! Thank you, Mother!”

What should I do with this child? In the end, I had no choice but to forgive Titania when faced with her pitiful and rejected puppy-like expression. After all, I didn’t avoid her because I was angry with her in the first place.

The reason I avoided Titania was simply because it was unbelievable that she tried to give me such perverted underwear as a gift. No matter what, thinking that such underwear would suit me was just absurd.

Seeing my relaxed expression, Titania hugged my waist and buried her face in my stomach. Then, with a sly smile, she looked up at me, and I was completely defeated.

“Well, how will I ever win against you?”

I gently stroked Titania’s head as she nestled against my stomach, smiling brightly and pressing her face into my chest. “I really can’t stay mad at you,” I thought. I wasn’t really angry with Titania. Sure, I was initially upset and bewildered by her choice of underwear, but this wasn’t the first time she had looked at me that way.

Her eyes seemed to say she wanted me. Eyes that longed for a kiss, a tight embrace as if our hearts would burst, a desire to share love all night long. Although my curse had somewhat faded since being lifted, Titania’s desires for me remained unchanged.

I didn’t dislike this Titania.

It was only natural for sexual desire to follow love. Since Titania claimed to love me, it was only natural for me to feel that way when she looked at me.

Even after becoming aware of my feelings for Titania, I still didn’t feel any lust towards her. Was it because I still saw Titania as a “daughter”? Or was it because I lacked the “knowledge” of loving another woman? Even if we were considered mother and daughter, we were both women. However, I had no knowledge of women loving each other.

You could learn how men and women engage in sexual activities from elementary school sex education or online videos. But what about women? Could they even do such things?

Before inhabiting Vivian’s body, I had watched numerous videos, but I had never seen one of women together. Well, I’d heard rumors that women could do such things.

“What was it again? Rubbing something until it catches fire?”

I’m not quite sure what it means to rub something until it catches fire, but anyway, there were conditions required for me to perform “such acts” that I knew about. One significant condition was that one person needed to have something long between their legs.

However, between women? Women don’t have that in the first place. They don’t have it, do they? There’s only a place to enter, there’s no long one. I was curious, but even if I wanted to learn, there were no videos or anything like that here.

“I’ve never even tried basic things from the start, so I don’t really know… Is my knowledge correct from the start? In fact, such a thing doesn’t exist… Maybe children are the ones who bring storks? Maybe old people’s words are all wrong—”

…Suddenly, I felt like my intelligence was deteriorating. Whether it was because of foolish thoughts or not, I closed my eyes tightly at the tingling sensation in my head and Titania, who was looking at me with a worried expression, called out to me.

“Mother?”

“…It’s nothing.”

…What on earth am I thinking?

I sighed as I stroked Titania’s head, who was worrying about me, and started to ponder again. After realizing my feelings for Titania, I was indeed in love with her.

I wanted to always be by Titania’s side, to hold her and never let her feel lonely, and I wanted to kiss her with overflowing affection. However, that was as far as my thoughts went.

It was as if what I wanted stopped right there, and the thought of doing more than that with Titania, sharing love like lovers, or mingling flesh, didn’t occur to me.

But Titania was different from me.

She wanted more than I had thought. She had said she wanted to touch me, hold me, and share love. Surely, she must be thinking of things I couldn’t even imagine.

“Surely, it’s a strange thought.”

The reason my thoughts stopped there was probably because of the certainty that Titania wouldn’t leave. I didn’t need to be greedy because Titania wouldn’t leave my side even if I didn’t ask for more.

So, I wouldn’t be greedy for Titania. People who already have something don’t get greedy. If you think it won’t be taken away from anyone, there’s no need to be more greedy.

However, apart from that.

“Titania.”

“Yes?”

I started to become a little curious.

“Why did you think to give me such underwear as a gift?”

“As I mentioned earlier, I thought it would suit Mother…”

How Titania looks at me.

“Is that really the only reason? No other reason?”

“Oh, well…”

And what I will think after hearing that.

“Think about it carefully.”

“Yes?”

“Is there really no other reason?”

In response to my question, Titania seemed bewildered, blushing and unsure of what to do. It would be quite embarrassing to receive a question about why she wanted to give such racy underwear, especially since it had been revealed.

Titania, who had been hesitantly hugging my waist, soon seemed determined, slowly stood up and pressed her body close to mine. She climbed onto my thigh, met my gaze squarely, and smiled with her eyes crinkling.

“…Do you really want to know? Why I wanted to give such underwear to Mother?”

“…Yes.”

Only then will I be able to understand you.

In response to my answer, Titania furrowed her brow slightly in apparent confusion and tilted her head, as if asking me, unable to understand why I would ask such a question.

“Frankly, I don’t really understand why Mother is asking me this. I’m sure Mother must have thought she would understand the heart of someone who gives such a gift. You’ve received this kind of gift more than once, haven’t you?”

“…? I don’t know what you’re talking about, but I’ve never received this kind of gift from anyone while buying it. Moreover, how can I understand the heart of someone who gives this kind of gift?”

“…Is that so?”

I don’t know why she thinks that way, but I really had never received such a gift before. There were no racy underwear like the ones Titania gave me, even in the gifts given by the maids.

Titania let out a small sigh and held my hand gently with one hand, while using the other to softly hold my chin to make me look at her. Her deep gaze was filled with intense desire.

“I shouldn’t say this, but sometimes it seems like Mother has never really experienced love. Like she doesn’t know the heart of someone in love…”

The words were not wrong. It’s true that I’ve never loved anyone before because I’ve been raising Titania all this time. Now, is it right to call it my first love? If I think of the other person as a daughter, then…

“The reason I gave your mother those underwear…”

Suddenly feeling gloomy, Titania quickly started talking, noticing my gloomy expression. She lightly held my chin and brushed my lips with her thumb.

“Of course, I wanted to see how your mother looks wearing those underwear.”

“…Pervert.”

“People naturally become perverts in front of the ones they love.”

Unintentionally, I felt a shiver at Titania’s laughter. Her gaze running up and down my body made it seem like she was imagining me wearing those underwear.

“I wanted to be this close to your mother wearing those underwear.”

Just thinking about it made the image of me wearing those underwear involuntarily fill my mind. Clearly, in Titania’s mind, I was wearing those underwear.

“I wanted to feel each other’s body heat by being so close that our breaths touched.”

I felt like I was going crazy as the image of me generously exposing my body through the torn black lace kept recurring in my mind. Clearly, it was because of those eyes looking at me, dripping with affection.

“And finally…”

Titania slowly lowered her head and brought her lips to my ear, softly tapping it with her sticky voice. This answer was one I already knew.

“I wanted to mix bodies with your mother wearing those underwear on the same bed.”

Even though I knew it, the voice that invaded my ears sent a hot sensation through my earlobe. I knew, yet why did my temperature rise and my breath quicken?

If I keep this up, my whole face will turn red, so I quickly covered my face with the hand that was empty. As I sighed while covering my mouth, my breath on my palm was so hot that it hurt.

Looking down at myself, Titania just smiled as if she found me adorable, observing me with eyes dripping with honey. It felt maddeningly patronizing.

“Ha… Really…”

As I let out a deep sigh, I covered my eyes with the back of my hand and closed them. It must have been the answer I already knew. Hearing it directly made me feel unbearably embarrassed. Why did I even ask?

Suddenly, in a regretful state, tears seemed to well up. I thought that if I knew how Titania was looking at me, I could understand her to some extent.

Instead of understanding, I felt like dying of embarrassment for merely hearing that she wanted to get closer physically. I couldn’t understand why I felt so embarrassed, and even I furrowed my brow.

“What should I do with you…”

“I only said it because my mother wanted to hear it.”

“That may be, but…”

In the first place, I don’t even know how to get close physically…

Still, there was something gained from this conversation. How Titania was looking at me, and what thoughts her answer provoked in me. I was able to know for sure.

Unlike me, who doesn’t pursue anything beyond what’s given, Titania’s reason for pursuing such “desire” from me was because she wasn’t “satisfied” with just having me.

I felt a thirst-like possessiveness from her, wanting to deepen our connection, to become closer. And her possessiveness towards me didn’t feel unpleasant at all.

That was the sincere emotion I felt toward Titania today.

Truly, not a single lie.

It was my true feeling towards Titania.