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[Episode 172] – Self-awareness

“Normally, a mother wouldn’t allow her daughter to do such things.”

Titania’s words pricked Vivian’s conscience. It was true. If they were an ordinary ‘mother and daughter’, such behavior would never have occurred. There would be no acts filled with desire, kissing, or intertwining tongues.

It was she who allowed her daughter to touch her body, to touch places she shouldn’t, all the while making excuses like “I’m afraid Titania will get hurt.” She claimed that she would wait until Titania’s affectionate heart cooled down, that it was inevitable for Titania to act this way towards her because she had made mistakes, and that they would return to being ‘mother and daughter’ as before if she just endured a little longer.

“…I should have known from the moment I returned to my prime that our relationship couldn’t go back to how it used to be.”

It was all self-justification. Fearing accepting Titania’s feelings, fearing the reality of not allowing this love, fearing getting hurt, she resorted to self-deception.

“If you truly thought of me as your ‘daughter’, you shouldn’t have allowed me to touch you. You don’t see me as a daughter, but as a ‘woman.’”

“Oh, no… No… I just didn’t want to hurt you if I refused…”

Titania seemed to already know her true feelings. Her whispering voice seemed to uncover the hidden thoughts that had been carefully concealed.

Had I really been seeing Titania as a ‘woman’? Had I been looking at the child I raised in that way? I want to deny it, but it’s too late to reject the emotions I feel now.

I couldn’t bring myself to push away Titania, who whispered love to me, and although I felt repulsed by her daily kisses and touches, I eventually smiled and let it pass.

Every time I hold hands, every time I clip my nails, every time I kiss, every time our tongues intertwine, the emotion I feel even in this moment, where you pour affectionate gazes on me and whisper love, is clearly ‘liking.’

“My beloved mother. Now, slowly, please accept it.”

Just as Titania said, I had no choice but to acknowledge the emotions I had been ignoring until now.

“You, you love me.”

I like Titania.

“Love me not as a daughter, but as a ‘woman.’”

Not as a daughter, but as a ‘woman,’ I like Titania. I have ended up loving the child I raised. As I became aware of my emotions, what rushed over me was intense self-loathing. How could I be like this?

None other than Titania’s ‘mother.’

My ‘daughter’ to no one else.

How can I love in such a way?

As I fell into intense self-loathing, the thought that if it were Titania, it might be okay, came flooding in along with tears. Because this feeling was mutual.

Because you also love me. At the moment Titania loves me, I felt it might be okay for me to love Titania too.

Yes, at this moment…

“Mother.”

When Vivian opened her tear-filled eyes at Titania’s call, she saw Titania looking down at her with a bright smile. Her heart raced and a sweet emotion rose as she looked at her with affectionate eyes.

Once aware of her emotions, everything Titania did became a ‘stimulus.’ The affectionate gaze, the gentle touch caressing her cheek, the warmth felt where their skin touched.

Everything Titania gave was so lovely, it was awkward.

Their eyes met, and Titania, smiling with narrowed eyes, slowly lowered her head. Slowly approaching, their noses touched and then stopped only after brushing against each other.

Their noses lightly brushed, and Titania’s red eyes filled Vivian’s gaze. With each breath, their breaths intertwined and mixed, their mingled breath settled on Vivian’s lips.

It’s as if asking for a kiss, her red eyes. At the tender plea, Vivian gently closed her eyelids and granted permission. As soon as permission was granted, her dry lips lightly touched mine.

The touching lips smoothly collided and slipped. Titania lightly pulled Vivian’s lower lip and, slipping her tongue through the gap, explored Vivian.

The strange sound of their mixed saliva and Vivian’s sweet moans echoed in the broad daylight bedroom. They delved fiercely, bit each other’s lips, sucked on each other’s tongues. As if unable to resist their desire for each other, they explored each other.

Among all the kisses they had shared, this might be the most ecstatic one. Vivian thought so as she received Titania’s saliva passed by her tongue. All the previous kisses had been desperate and rough.

The kisses had been so rough that the base of her tongue hurt, the roof of her mouth stung, and her lips tingled. But now, she felt none of that. There was no discomfort at all; instead, she enjoyed the sensation of desiring Titania.

Even the moment when Titania briefly detached her lips to catch her breath felt regretfully good. As Titania caught her breath and leaned down to kiss again, she extended her tongue.

Instinctively, Vivian wrapped her arms around Titania’s neck and twisted their interlocked lips without a gap. The mingling breath and saliva in their mouths were so sweet that once tasted, it made her thirst for more.

Their interlocked lips showed no sign of parting for a long time. They intertwined their tongues until they hurt, craving each other’s saliva until their mouths dried.

The sounds from outside the room were no longer audible. Only the sticky, viscous sound of their mutual exploration tickled their ears. As if only Vivian and Titania were left in this world.

The more they tangled their tongues, the more Vivian felt something inside her unraveling. The entangled threads gradually, gradually unraveled, eventually becoming one strand connected to Titania.

That way, instinctively, Vivian knew.

After this moment.

No longer turning into a child every night.

Not being troubled by the curse every morning.

If the curse that turns you into a child is lifted by loving Titania, then there was no longer any room for the curse in his heart.

Yes, I am Titania…

*

That evening.

I began to seriously contemplate in front of the underwear drawer for a moment. Until now, when I slept, I only wore a large shirt without underwear, but from now on, I thought I should wear underwear.

Surely the curse has been lifted. When I was cursed, I couldn’t wear underwear because I kept turning into a child. When I slept and woke up, my body shrank, so I became naked in an instant.

So, instead of pajamas, I lived wearing just a large shirt. Even as an adult, one shirt that covered me from top to bottom was enough. But now it was impossible.

“Hmm…”

I will continue to sleep in the same bed as Titania. I can’t keep living in just a naked shirt forever. Looking back now, it was too perverted to just stay dressed like that.

Moreover, at this age, I had to start taking care of my figure. The maids made efforts to maintain my figure through regular massages and beauty treatments. Age is a cruel thing…

“Moreover, if I don’t do it big, it will sag…”

I looked down and gazed at the two large mounds on my chest. It’s still okay for now, but I wasn’t sure how long this figure would last.

So, it would be uncomfortable, but I would have to wear a bra even when sleeping from now on. Moreover, I didn’t want to show an unimpressive appearance in front of Titania.

“Hmm…”

Then, I could just pick out the underwear in the drawer, but for some reason today, I didn’t feel like touching ordinary underwear. Should I say I wanted to change the atmosphere a bit?

“…Should I try wearing this?”

I opened the drawer where the maids always brought and stored undergarments that I would never wear in normal circumstances. I peered inside, wondering if these items were truly serving their purpose as undergarments.

Normally, I would never ever wear such undergarments, but I reached into the drawer and pulled out a suitable black lace undergarment. There were even split panties; this was quite impressive.

Every time I saw these undergarments, I couldn’t help but think that this world was abnormally modern when it came to the science of undergarments. Undergarments with designs so tempting they could be sold in modern lingerie stores.

I chose a moderately sized, slightly risqué, yet functional black lace undergarment and changed into it. I then put on a negligee that I had been using as sleepwear over it.

“Well… this should be fine.”

As I looked at myself in the mirror, Titania, who had finished bathing, returned to the room, looked at me, and then approached with a wicked smile.

She examined my body as if appreciating art, emitting sounds of approval. She raised the corners of her mouth in satisfaction, then approached from behind, looking at my reflection in the mirror.

Suddenly, she placed her hand under my chest, lifting it up. Startled by the unexpected advance, I couldn’t even scream.

My face turned beet red in an instant as Titania, holding my chest, whispered in my ear after caressing it once.

“Why are you suddenly wearing this kind of underwear? You didn’t wear this kind of clothing before, did you?”

“That’s…”

Feeling my chest being manipulated, I felt my body relax for a moment. I didn’t intend to get angry now, but at least there should be some order.

I firmly pinched Titania’s hand, which was caressing my chest, and made her remove it. Though she frowned slightly as if it hurt, she soon returned to me and rested her chin on my shoulder.

Then, looking at myself in the mirror, she asked why I suddenly wore such revealing underwear, saying that I never used to wear such things. I just…

“…Because I won’t be a child every night from now on. I can’t stay naked all the time, so shouldn’t I wear underwear?”

“What? What do you mean…”

In an instant, Titania, who didn’t understand my words, looked at me with wide eyes, asking what I meant.

“I mean exactly what I said. Isn’t it obvious?!”

Before I could finish speaking, Titania, who fully understood my meaning, threw me onto the bed. My head hit the bed for a moment, but I couldn’t feel the pain because of Titania’s forceful kiss. Wait, you’re too excited!

“Ugh! Ugh!!”

Titania finally let go of my lips after intertwining our tongues until my tongue hurt, and she looked down at me with a lustful gaze. It was difficult to breathe under her intense stare.

…Really, what should I do with this girl I love in the future?

What should I do…