episode_0171

“This is difficult.”

It was really awkward.

Surely, that guy would hurt himself.

“Coolook!”

“Lord… !”

Doesn’t Elia care that I have dirty, sticky blood on my hands?

I held the blood-vomiting god in my arms, observed his expression for a while, and then looked back at me.

“Harangnim… ! Why on earth… !”

Elia’s eyes looked very resentful.

I couldn’t make any excuses for that.

Of course, isn’t it so obvious?

Their god spitting blood and me pointing my wooden sword at him.

No matter what excuses I make, I am a villain who harmed the god that child believes in.

Besides, I’m actually a villain who tried to harm the god that child believes in.

Above all, from my perspective, that guy is just annoying. From their perspective, it’s clearly God’s will.

In short, what I’m saying is that I was wrong.

The problem is that I didn’t anticipate the situation where Elia, Lucius, and Camilla would be around while fighting that guy.

But even so,

It’s true that I don’t like the current situation and that I feel a little bit wronged.

Look, isn’t he still looking at me with that really mean smile on his face, as if he’s won?

“… Tsk, what a dirty number.”

So then, what should we do from now on?

To be honest, I don’t think I can clear up their misunderstanding.

My speaking skills aren’t that great.

Above all, people tend to believe what they see, and in their eyes, I am already a villain.

So, if I want to achieve my immediate goal, I have to think about getting on their bad side… .

I don’t really like that.

“Um… .”

So, what options do I have left?

First, run away, and second, subdue that guy right away.

But, can I subdue him?

The difficulty of killing and subduing is as different as heaven and earth.

Besides, if we were to fight, we would have to face not only Jushin, but also Camilla, Lucius, and Elia.

Hmm, then is it an escape?

No, there is something wrong with the word ‘run away’.

There is no way I can beat them right now, so the term truce would be more appropriate.

Well, actually this might be the right answer.

If I were to hide somewhere that Lord wouldn’t find me,

No, there’s no need to go so far that the Lord can’t catch up.

All you have to do is go somewhere where Eliana Lucius and Camilla can’t reach me.

Well, didn’t the guy who gave me this do this because he judged that he couldn’t handle me alone?

So, you won’t think of coming to me alone.

In other words, I am confident that I will be able to return to my hometown as long as there is no interference from the Lord.

“… Hmm.”

Why did you want to go back in the first place?

Ah. It was because I wanted to know the sincerity of the anonymous person.

… Is it really necessary to go back just to know the truth of the nameless one?

As the Lord said, just remaining here and watching over the nameless may be enough.

… That won’t work. I think we need a slightly different reason.

That way, I have an excuse for running away.

…okay.

I’m suffering from a kind of homesickness, a longing to go back home.

So, beyond dimensions.

It was a very big decision.

‘good night.’

As I was thinking that, I slowly stepped back.

-Thump

Soon, my arm was seized with the sensation of bumping into something and I couldn’t move.

“… Hmm.”

Of course, the only one who could catch me was Moo-myeong, and I looked at my disciple with a blank expression.

“Anonymous. What are you doing?”

“I stopped him in advance because I thought his bad habits would come out again.”

Wasn’t I uncomfortable just a moment ago? When did I become so comfortable?

No, more than that.

Bad habit? What does that mean?

As I tilted my head in question, the nameless man with an awkward expression opened his mouth.

“I know it’s not my place to say this, but aren’t you trying to think and act on your own?”

… Hmm, you know me too well.

However, even if you listen to anonymous words and think about it more or talk to them, it doesn’t seem like you’ll get a better solution than this.

No, aside from that, I don’t feel like staying here any longer.

Why do I have to get that look from Elia?

I have to receive cold stares from Lucius and Camilla, disappointing them.

“…”

Whether my thoughts were reflected in his expression or not, Myeong-un shrugged his shoulders slightly and added.

“How about we first clear up this minor misunderstanding and then step back?”

“A little misunderstanding… .”

So, what the anonymous person means is that they want me to let go of the sticky feelings I have for them.

If I could, I would have done it a long time ago… Well, I have nothing to lose by doing it.

I nodded to the anonymous person once and then opened my mouth while looking at Elia, who was still looking at me with resentful eyes.

“Elia, I won’t make any excuses, but things are just too heated right now. I think it’s best for me to step aside.”

After that, he turned his back and put the wooden sword in his waistband as a sign that he had no intention of being hostile.

It’s a shame that we can’t come to a conclusion right away.

I tried to run away because I was more scared of getting into trouble with them than of feeling sorry.

… Of course, running away won’t resolve this conflict. At least for now, I think this is the right answer.

“Okay, let’s go-”

Just then, at the moment I was about to take a step.

“Grandma. Wait a minute.”

Camilla’s cold, unchanging voice piled up like snow, hindering my movements.

Even though I could only lightly shovel away the snow, I couldn’t move.

…Why are there so many people trying to catch me?

I let out a deep sigh and turned my back again to face Camilla, who was holding me back with a simple voice.

“Why are you calling me?”

“Have you forgotten anything?”

“Hmm… You forgot?”

I tilted my head at Camilla’s expression, which seemed to be absurd.

Lucius, standing next to her, added with a similarly long sigh.

“Shouldn’t you explain the situation and what exactly happened?”

It’s as if he’s saying something obvious.

I couldn’t hide my bewilderment at their seemingly calm reactions, so I kept my mouth shut.

…Why aren’t you angry?

Doesn’t this look like I’ve killed those guys?

Besides, I don’t know about Lucius himself, but isn’t he an incarnation of the Lord?

… I don’t know.

“Master, Camilla and Lucius are right.”

Anonymous also took Camilla and Lucius’ side and began to urge me to tell him more.

Feeling a little offended by that, I stuck out my lips and punched the nameless man in the back.

“Ugh!”

“Aren’t you my disciple? Take my side, not Camilla’s.”

“… Words for the teacher-”

“Oh my.”

“… Okay.”

Although the anonymous person had a somewhat resentful expression on his face, I didn’t really care.

What are you going to do?

It’s true that you didn’t really take my side.

So, we are continuing a war of nerves that is not a war of nerves with Anonymous.

“Huh.”

Camilla’s breathy laughter was heard, along with a voice dripping with annoyance.

“Don’t be picky, just explain?”

Oh, right.

My mind wandered for a moment.

“… I’m sorry.”

He nodded with an awkward smile.

“But it’s not pickling… Anyway, where should I start explaining?”

He quickly turned away from Camilla’s gaze, which was suddenly stinging, and began to think deeply.

No, but can I say it here…?

There’s this guy called God looking at us with his eyes wide open?

Hmm, I guess it doesn’t matter.

Just by looking at the fact that he hasn’t stopped it yet, it seems like he’s out of his depth.

If not, then you have ruled out the possibility that you could harm yourself.

For some reason, my pride was hurt by that.

As Anonymous, Camilla, and Lucius said, there is no harm in talking rather than backing down right away.

… above all else.

“Eliya, first of all, I want to make something clear: I have no intention of insulting your god.”

My heart ached as I looked at Elia, still looking at me with resentment.

What should I say?

Rather than feeling disappointed, it seems like they are looking at me.

I, too, like her, once resented Elia simply because she was a saint loved by God.

When I thought of him, a sad smile came to my face for no reason, and my voice came out in a trembling tone.

“I just want you to understand that this is a conflict that arose from a difference of opinion.”

“… Yes.”

However, the only difference between me and Elia is that she is a little more mature.

… living so long is truly meaningless.

I never thought of forgiving the other person like Elia, or at least waiting.

I was just waiting for an opportunity.

I sighed deeply, feeling a little uneasy, and opened my mouth while looking at the distant mountains.

“My hometown was somewhere else, not here.”

And so, the long story began.

It was the first time I had said such honest and candid words.