episode_0171

It seems like a lot of things happened.

When I came to my senses, I found myself standing in front of a podium.

What is before my eyes are the reference materials I brought with me to give a sermon under the guise of a lecture.

As I absentmindedly raise my head, I see the puzzled expressions of the cadets looking at me in the classroom with large pupils.

“… So.”

When I looked at the blackboard, I saw a lot of various things drawn on it. Compared to the materials I appeared to have prepared on the lecture floor, it seemed like I had already written about half of them.

I don’t know when it happened, but it just happened.

“I’m sorry, but I received an urgent call. It may be sudden, but I will end this lecture here.”

“Yes?”

“Eh… .”

A phenomenon as if part of a memory has been blown away. It is clearly not an external phenomenon.

Looking at the lectures, it was not about teaching academy cadets directly like in the past, but was just a lecture and moral education.

‘It did.’

After returning to the academy, I did not teach important lectures as I had done in the past, but only occasionally gave lectures at the level of talk concerts, where I could just listen and not listen as a symbol of my existence.

There were already many talented people who could replace me in the past. The pool of professors has increased, and the riders who fought at the forefront against monsters have taken up teaching positions themselves, providing far superior education than when I was an active professor.

Still, I wonder if my symbolism went somewhere. Although there were cadets crowded together every time a lecture was held.

‘Hmmmm. okay.’

The memory wasn’t lost. Not a single memory has disappeared.

It’s just that sometimes my sense of time flies like this. It was an inevitable thing that happened because the world and my very foundation changed.

Although I could not absorb all of the holy power, I am still the closest being to a god. Because God’s sense of time is different from that of ordinary people.

From this ‘fake’ story that was a lazy god’s dream, it turned into ‘reality’ through me.

This world itself has changed as a whole. To be precise, I recreated it into reality.

And time passed.

One day, I looked up in a daze and the sky was as blue as before. Sometimes I felt childish and wanted to fly in the sky.

‘The expression of divine power must be minimized.’

I didn’t know in the past. Because there was no explanation. It’s just that the being called God was already dead, and I absorbed it for free.

The incarnation of Alexstras that came after that was actually just a reconstruction I did myself, and I couldn’t get any important information from it.

‘I’m gradually getting closer to becoming a transcendent. All these sensations are flying away.’

When I pledged to become a god and maintain this world, I was actually prepared.

At that time, it was enough to just protect this world. I wish I could live a peaceful life where the things I hold dear remain the same and I am not at the mercy of fate.

But in the end, greed is greed. After everything was over, it was inevitable that other desires would start to creep in.

I want to live. No, I am not talking about biological life and death, but I want to live as before.

I want to feel everything I felt while living in Northmund. I do not want to lose the value of my life by becoming integrated with other beings.

Even though most of the divine power was returned to this world and what I absorbed was only a small portion, it is still like this.

I searched for memories.

Even after coming back from that situation, everything was difficult. A lot of things happened, and those who awakened their special abilities entered the academy full of pride in themselves.

Whether it’s a short guy who still looks like a kid with a youthful look, an old man who looks a bit older, or a girl wearing a short skirt that makes it hard to tell whether she’s a person with special abilities or an ordinary person.

And dealt with the demons. Since I don’t remember it well, it seems like it wasn’t as difficult as it was in the past.

No problem. At least quite a few of the demons followed me. And those who sought coexistence with humans are no longer ostracized and are living well by blending into human society.

Demons that have not yet been completely subdued are active as villains, but there are no demons that pose a significant threat right now.

The one who took the lead in this was the Eldarim kid I brought with me. Because he is a surprisingly smart guy, he is making a good living by appearing in the media and gaining recognition.

‘As soon as you lose your mind, your sense of time disappears.’

I returned to my office, sat down at the familiar desk, and looked out the window.

Feeling the scent of a cup of coffee on the mahogany table, I relive the memories of the time that has flown by.

‘That’s annoying. ‘It’s not good to be like this.’

Is it because I’ve been so busy leading a busy life that something like this hasn’t happened? The loss of this sense of time probably means that I now have some time to spare and have put my mind at ease for a moment.

“Huh, it’s a life where you just have to keep being busy.”

“Hehe, I’m a workaholic. Professor.”

A familiar voice tickles my ears from behind. As she gently placed her hand on my shoulder and whispered in my ear, I noticed her chestnut semi-long hair.

“Yes. Sometimes you need a break. Honey.”

“!!”

“Hey, we decided not to use that kind of language at work. If you keep breaking the rules like this!”

Oh right, now that I think about it.

… I was also married.

Of course, it was not the kind of wedding that was publicly announced. A secret wedding that only they and a very small number of people know about.

It was difficult to accept such things in modern society, and it was not something to be revealed publicly, so whether or not they were married was a secret. Externally, I am still unmarried.

This is what they also agreed to.

Sejun’s reaction was a bit shocking. I wasn’t surprised since it was already known to her colleagues anyway, but I guess that was the dean’s reaction.

Then, the dean said, “Can I make two people?” and then someone beat me up. If you think about it, did he have the temperament of a fairly pure libertine?

In the original work, he was oppressed and had no chance of showing such talent. His actual personality feels closer to that of a clear-eyed madman.

Anyway, the wedding was held in secret and in a grand manner.

I was happy. really.

I received blessings from everyone and received good wishes for the future. Participating in a secret ceremony was not a problem because it meant that the person involved was clearly identified.

Eldarim, who came as a wedding guest, seemed quite dissatisfied. The problem was not that his wife was seeking revenge, but that the master he was supposed to serve did not want to be associated with humans.

Still, the guy knew how scared Yoon Si-ah was, and he didn’t react any other way than pouting curtly.

*

A new morning has dawned.

Have I lost my memory again? No, correct me.

It’s not that my memory was lost, I just passed out because my energy was sucked out.

“Hehe, I’m happy L.”

As I woke up and reminisced, someone leaned my head against me. I felt a foreign body on the head I was leaning against and a stinging sensation.

“Sia.”

“Hehe. Yes Elm, no honey.”

“It hurts when I stab it with the horn.”

“Ah, ah! Sorry.”

However, I couldn’t shake off the sight of her leaning towards me with a smile and a blush full of happiness, without any sign of being truly sorry.

“Last night… It was so good.”

“Ah.”

Ah, so why did I lose my memory again?

The time I went to bed was six in the morning. It’s now past 7:10 in the morning.

─I’m really sick of you. Is this a dragon?

Even Jang A-Hyun was left speechless when she saw her keep running towards her. And I went to bed first.

The dragon girl’s sexual appetite was truly amazing.

This guy is scary enough to make a god faint. No, even without mentioning God, he can defeat Yongin, who went through many hardships before birth.

It was to the point where I was terrified, as if to make up for the fact that I had been taken away from me and that I wasn’t able to see him often because I was busy with work.

The neatness she had shown when we first had a relationship had gone, and she had become a perfect predator, ready to devour me.

“Hehe, are you happy too, Elm?”

“Happiness.”

she asks me a question Am I happy?

I do not know. Happiness is a fairly ambiguous emotion. It was a bit difficult to specify what happiness meant.

It cannot necessarily be said to be enjoyable or fun.

Even if you ask people who are living a fun life whether they are happy, are they happy? well? There are countless cases where the response is,

And I was someone who had never really thought about the feeling of happiness before.

‘Then, am I happy?’

I still don’t know. On the contrary, I was afraid of the peace that came to my daily life. Because I am a person who has always lived surrounded by war.

And although the era of war ended and peace came, I felt that peace was rather awkward and empty.

‘But one thing is certain.’

Well, at least one thing was clear. I am happy and happy to be with my family, them, and my students right now.

They were like the very reason why I lived until now.

Will I be happy?

“Yes, I’m happy. Just be happy.”

I thought about it for a while and just laughed.

It was a problem that didn’t need to be thought about. Wouldn’t this be enough to make you happy? Comparing the first person who fell into this world and the person I am now, there was nothing more to think about.

It was clear that I was happier now.

Unlike me back then, when I had nothing to think about and nothing to protect, now I have a clear reason for living.

“Ugh… Did you wake up?”

Jang Ah-hyeon, who had been lying down next to me, opens her eyes.

And when I saw the horned fish looking cheerful after setting the night on fire, I narrowed my eyes and smiled brightly at me.

“Ahyeon, are you happy too?”

“Yes? What an embarrassing sound all of a sudden.”

“Hahaha.”

Leaving her with a dazed look at the sudden surprise attack, I got up with a smile, roughly put on some clothes, and headed to the shower room.

The sun rising beyond the window was shining brightly as if blessing this space.

A bright new morning has begun.