episode_0164

Look closely at the small amount of purple-black slime contained in the bronze bowl.

Bad feeling.

＇Martina..＇

If only I could have forgotten it… Even if it means cutting out the memories, the terrible memories of the past days that I wanted to forget grab me again.

Clearly, the moment when my magical power was forcibly exploited by someone else was the first {Piece of Greed} I encountered, Martina.

Without missing a single day, she imprisoned me against my will to satisfy her thirst.

I trampled on my remaining feelings and trampled on my dignity.

I remember it being so difficult that I couldn’t bear it and ended up committing a pitiful act that drove me to my death. My pride was hurt.

To that extent, she is like a trauma to me.

‘But there was no such strange feeling…’

Even while her magical powers were being exploited, she did not mention that her memories of her past life had returned.

no..

I could guarantee that, as I could vaguely read Martina’s emotions and thoughts through the right eye connected to her.

I just… coveted and obsessed with something I was instinctively drawn to with all my being, and I didn’t feel any other emotions.

＇Why didn’t {Piece of Sloth} tell me about the memory of its return?’

When I compared the symptoms of Martina and Velze, who had taken my magic, they did not have their memories of their previous lives return.

Memories of his previous life returned… {Piece of Sloth} after eating {Extria}, which was made from the lives of countless people.

In the puzzle-like truth that is gradually being solved… my eyebrows furrow.

‘Someone I don’t know… I’m sure they’re targeting me.’

Did everything that happened in the past really just happen?

Maybe they are related??

Suddenly, Janes’ last appearance as a dedicated driver comes to mind.

Janes clearly said that his family was being held hostage by someone as a threat. That’s why they made the choice to kidnap me.

Sure enough… Janes’ family was dead, just as she claimed.

＇Then who blackmailed Janes into kidnapping me?

This question, which is still unresolved, is somewhat troubling.

Maybe from this moment on… I have been the target of {fragment}?

＇Then who is it?＇

At that time..

The number of people who knew that I could use magical power was limited.

Only three people including my family…

The only doctor in {Dirlin Village} who diagnosed me as having magical powers, and Janes, who was my personal driver.

And.. even Deacon Nam, who was able to see the flow of magical power through a [monocular] made of [polycarbo] light stars.

＇[Polycarbo] ore…＇

Throbbing…

Something that flashes through my mind for a moment…

Why did I exclude that person from my list of suspects?

Before I was kidnapped… A person came to {Dirrin Village} from outside.

And a person wearing glasses made of [polycarbo] ore.

The person who was always able to closely observe my condition on a regular basis.

＇Zerite.. Teacher?＇

This eerie chill that I feel every time the scattered pieces come together one by one… It beats my intuition like crazy, to the point where I feel certain.

Of course, since Mr. Zeright was a weak man who could not use magical power, no one suspected him and excluded him from the list of suspects.

＇They say men can’t use magic power..＇

No… even this thought is contradictory and perhaps complacent.

Although it was unusual, it was clear that I was also a man who used magical powers.

It’s a blurry memory, but I’m sure somewhere… I encountered a man who gave off an unpleasant magical energy.

{Winter Festival} At that time.

The male clerk at the store who gave me the first place ticket.

What if.. they approached me on purpose and gave me the first place ticket?

There was a possibility that the male clerk was also a member of the underworld I was looking for.

This means:

No matter how male you are, you cannot be excluded from all incidents.

Moreover, like at the time of the {Winter Festival}, it is even more so if it is a dark force with such a heterogeneous power that it can even turn men into demons.

Slippery!

Only after thinking about it for a long time was I able to organize my complicated thoughts.

Thanks to [Black Button], I was able to handle this situation more calmly with a clear mind.

It was even more surprising that I didn’t get a headache even though I overturned my thoughts hundreds and thousands of times and assumed every possible number of cases.

Sigh..

I gently stroke that [black button].

‘thanks..’

A spirit that is not confused, no matter what the situation.

The advantage of being able to maintain calm until the end will be a greater advantage, both for me now and for me moving forward.

Chin… Sigh.

I put down the bronze bowl I was holding and looked up at the dry trees of {Extria}.

The closer you are to making a guess, the more certain it becomes.

Everything looks different.

It is also true that distrust of others and betrayal of those I trusted make me confused.

Maybe it’s your turn to face the reality you’ve been trying to deny for so long.

Now, I think that we have reached a point where it is difficult to even trust the person we can rely on.

＇Sainnim..＇

If my guess is correct, Ver, {Piece of Sloth}, is telling me a lie with plausible words.

Clearly, the withered remnants of {Extria} are proof of that.

Whatever the reason, it is a situation that needs to be clearly addressed. That’s probably why I also wanted to trust her again.

“Belje.. let’s go now.”

I shift my gaze that was heavily suspended.

Be sure to recognize the moment you need to move forward and move accordingly. It is not too late to lament, regret, and consume negative emotions afterwards.

Even by borrowing the power of [Black Button], I judge everything more calmly and more rationally.

Even if it means breaking off ties with her…

Turf.. plod.. plod..

＇Is it already evening?＇

It took longer than expected.

Now that I have been exposed to the whole truth, I quietly leave the {Banesheer} mansion with a calmer attitude.

I try to move forward clearly in order to find traces of the dark horse that took everything from me.

Tread.. plod..

A dark sky with no moonlight visible.

The chill of the dreary night passes through every corner of the pond.

＂It will move right away.＂

On the other hand… Belze, who was looking at Dahein’s appearance from afar, was quite anxious.

His expression was obviously the same as usual, but he felt a quiet anger that couldn’t be explained in words.

I had no idea what Dahyun had found out or what thoughts she had in mind, but…

Since I promised myself that I would completely follow the decision he made, I just move forward in silence.

Nod…

“huh..”

Actually, there is a secret that I didn’t tell Dahyin.

He said that he has become strangely insensitive to feeling emotions more and more these days.

Due to the unstoppable rampage… the feeling of guilt I felt when I first came back to my senses has now faded away and I feel nothing.

Even the terrible events of the past… what seemed meaningless now have become an undeniable fact.

That’s why I felt complacent, as if everything that had happened so far was meaningless.

Looking back…

When I was eating innocent people without being able to control my body, the emotion I felt was none other than satisfaction.

The satisfaction of satisfying the extremely intense hunger was literally happiness itself.

Even though I keep rejecting and denying these feelings in my head because they are not mine…

At that time, I was filled with a strange feeling of happiness.

The delicious taste of the fearful gaze staring at me.

A variety of textures that become more flavorful through the cracked skin.

The scent mixed with screams and sounds of despair was even more tantalizing.

The taste is so unforgettable…

However, by consuming Dahuin’s magical power, he was able to regain control of his consciousness.

The anxiety that had been brought on by endless hunger was also filled with his magic, and my head became clear.

Regret that came late??

no..

Actually, maybe I didn’t feel that way?

The first feeling I felt after regaining consciousness at that time was…

It was a heterogeneous feeling of regret for not being able to experience more diverse flavors. It was close to a certainty that even he himself could not deny.

Of course, I felt disgusted and wanted to die because I was so horrified, but even in the midst of all this, the taste of Dahuin that filled my taste buds… It was so sweet that I couldn’t stand it, it was ecstasy itself.

So much so that it would be a waste to try this taste just once.

So I pretended to act.

So that he may be mistaken.

So that I can remain by his side for a long time.

So that I can forever taste the blood that is deliciously mixed with Dahin’s various emotions.

In the shackles of this crazy hunger… for Dahein, the only being who made me free, even if only for a moment.

I continue to move forward in silence today so that I can further experience the taste of this world that he has allowed.

This feeling that makes you smile just thinking about it is not a bad feeling.

＇I want to experience more diverse flavors..＇