episode_0157

A dark night when it seemed like no sound could be heard.

A chilly wind blows outside the window, and the blue moonlight quietly illuminates the room.

Ssss..

I can’t sleep because of the guilt.

Even if Dahyin has forgiven me for this…

I know best that my relationship with him will never go back to the way it was before.

In Dahyin’s blue eyes that were looking at me, there was no longer any existence left.

Nevertheless…

He accepted this terrible me.

He gave me a hand to help me move forward, and he went ahead and opened the way.

Although I feel great about Da-heein’s actions, I just ruminate on past events in a reality that I cannot easily believe.

A compatriot who could lean on each other’s shoulders no matter what adversity they faced.

My mother, who raised me warmly in the arms of her family and guided me on the right path.

Even innocent people…

They ate everyone they could find, including little boys.

I remembered that moment so vividly that I wanted to die right away.

It may be because of their crazy hunger, but… their taste. It was truly a fantasy.

It was a crazy feeling I had at that time.

match!!!

To come to my senses, I hit both cheeks hard.

Unknown thoughts and emotions that are difficult to control… sometimes come rushing in like this without me even realizing it.

＇You have to endure it..＇

Because there was Dahyin who understood me and looked at me again.

I decided to just accept everything, endure it, and live quietly.

No matter what criticism and insulting treatment I receive from those who survived, I think that as long as Da-hein looks at me, everything will be okay.

If you stop looking at me…

Turf.. plod.. plod..

＇All right..?＇

Since I didn’t have the decency to greet him with such a tearful face, I quickly covered myself with a blanket and pretended to be asleep.

I didn’t want to let people know.

This is how I look…

Wow..

“I brought some leftover food.”

Belze, who has managed to cover his entire body with a blanket, does his best to ignore Da-hein, who enters the room without even realizing that his tail is sticking out.

‘Are you sleeping..’

After checking that Belje was motionless, I sat down indifferently on the chair next to the bed and looked closely at his gently wagging tail.

As long as the [black button] is attached to my body, it is somewhat offsetting the mental pain caused by sudden emotional changes.

Nevertheless, there was a need to release the tension that had been buried deep in my heart.

It wasn’t something that controlled all emotions.

“I never knew the feeling of losing a family member could be this painful.”

I close my throbbing eyes, imagining the last moments of Asia, Shumi, and my father.

＂This feeling I never want to experience again..＂

“I felt it twice in a row. It was truly a feeling of death.”

Even though I know it’s not her fault, I just lament the reality that is not easily accepted.

“Something worse than this will happen in the future..”

Just by realizing that there was someone behind every incident… I could see that there were still big events ahead.

I needed to mentally prepare myself, as if I was going to talk to myself.

“Now I can’t stop..”

“There is something that must be done.”

Place your right hand on your surprisingly calm heart.

“Even if you are overcome with despair and want to run away.”

“I can’t let it go without giving up everything.”

“I just have to look ahead and move forward.”

Thinking of my mother who was captured by Martina, I take out the [Magic Compass] and strengthen my aspirations again.

The red magic light that always filled the room had long since faded away.

You can also identify your mother’s location.

There is no way to find out its survival… I’m not sure.

just..

This faint red light that remains weak…

It showed that my mother was still alive.

“I told you, right?”

“I don’t want to lose anyone anymore.”

“So please don’t say things like that, that you don’t want to live, that you want to die.”

“I want you to be next to me.”

I didn’t think this sincerity would be conveyed to her.

Because I knew her entire situation, I couldn’t hold a grudge or forgive her, but I just told her the story that I had kept deep in my heart and couldn’t tell anyone… to open her heart.

Ssss..

I quietly leave the room, leaving Belze behind.

＂Good night.. Belze.＂

It didn’t matter whether she was awake or not.

So that she can come to her senses, even just for one day.

It just helps you face reality without getting caught up in the past.

Because that is the direction we must move in and the future.

Takkeiiktak.

Meanwhile, when Da-hein leaves the room, Belje quietly sheds tears without lifting the blanket he has covered himself with.

You don’t hate me, this horrible me.

You don’t hate me because I hate you so much.

He told me that it would be good if he stayed by my side.

It’s just… Dahein’s words that she didn’t want to lose anyone made Beelze’s heart so tight that her limp tail began to sway gently.

Grumble..

***

Late evening.

＇It’s heavy..＇

Are you suffering from nightmares??

My whole body feels heavy, and I feel dizzy from the tightness of my breath.

“haha..”

Someone’s strange sobbing feels sticky, as if it’s coming from right next to you.

Recognizing that it was definitely not a mistake, I quickly opened my eyes and looked straight ahead.

A familiar scent.

And the feel of this soft fur.

just as expected. Belze, who had a very red face, leaned closer to me and whispered something.

“Everyone, everyone… I’m hungry.”

“I want to eat…”

I was already frozen by Belze’s movements, which seemed to be out of control, and before I knew it, both my arms were being restrained by her.

Too much!!

This incredible pressure felt from her grasped hand.

At the same time, an ominous and creepy {piece} of black-brown magic began to emanate.

＇Runaway.?＇

I quickly try to give her what she wants before she loses her temper again.

‘No.. I still have reason left.’

The moment when she regained her senses.

This was possible because he took my blood and magic power.

Sigh..

I… turn my head to the side without saying a word, making it easier for her to take a bite.

Belze’s faint brown eyes were looking at me, like a starving puppy looking at a set of food and asking for permission.

Geo Seo-cheol asks for permission right away.

When I meet her gaze, I quietly avoid her gaze and close my eyes.

“haha…”

After seeing Da-hain’s appearance, Belze very slowly approaches Da-hain’s neck and shoulder and tickles Da-hain’s ear while letting out an even more excited breath.

Quack!

Belze’s sharp fangs can be felt more clearly.

Rather than biting hard and forcibly… I even had the feeling that I was biting gently and kindly, hoping it wouldn’t hurt.

Gulp.. Gulp..

It seems that Belze’s endless hunger can only be quelled with my blood and magic power…

My role seemed important to calm these seizure symptoms in the future.

Gulp.. Gulp..

As long as it wasn’t too much, I thought it was a much better method than going berserk because I could give it continuously.

licking..

As Belze’s tongue gently sweeps my neck… I feel it is slippery and sticky, but I do my best not to show it.

As a long time passed, Belze’s sobs gradually quieted down.

＇Magic power…is about half gone?＇

Only then did he slowly pull out the fangs that had been biting darkly… and began to gently lick the red blood that was leaking between them.

Sigh.. Sigh..

Let’s try to let go of Belze, who keeps licking his cheeks and blushing as if he doesn’t want to miss even a single drop.

Crack!

He holds my wrist tightly to prevent me from moving.

Only after the blood had stopped flowing did Belze look at me with a flushed expression of great satisfaction.

Excited.. Excited..

Now… Belze has climbed onto my stomach, which was lying on my front, and has restrained my arms to prevent me from resisting.

＂Hike..＂

I guess I finally came to my senses, but I was so startled that I fell backwards and pulled my butt back.. something??

“Now, just a moment…”

Because I didn’t want to show this kind of physical reaction… I quickly picked up Belze, carried him on my back, and quickly carried him to her room.

“If you’re hungry… tell me.”

“Don’t come to me suddenly like this..”

I quickly go back to my room, trying to hide my red face.

“after…”

‘What are you doing?’

‘Wake..’

As a strong young man with a distinctly male body, I couldn’t help but react to her fretful sobs.

It’s not that I saw my friend as a woman… I was sure that anyone who experienced such behavior would react this way, so I tried to calm my excitement and lay down on the soft bed to fall asleep again.

fluttering…

＇Let’s sleep quickly..＇

***

Belje felt the taste of Dahuin remaining sticky in his mouth.

‘delicious..’

And I think about that unknown, unique smell that was coming from somewhere on his body.

A mysterious yet unfamiliar smell that seems somehow rationally attractive.

Although Belze himself could not guess what kind of scent it was, he instinctively felt that spring was reacting to him.

＇Itches down there.＇

Soggy…