episode_0154

Um, well.

Anyway, that’s what happened.

It’s not like we’re really dating, because neither Amelia nor I have ever confessed to each other in the first place.

How can you say that you are dating when there is no agreement to date?

We lived in the same room, slept in the same bed, changed clothes together, and even kissed (practiced) together, but anyway, we were still just friends.

In fact, I also wonder how such a situation could continue, but it was still like that.

Inherently, human values can be extremely different from person to person. Some people may think that they will never have sex before marriage, but on the other hand, others may think that is okay.

In that sense, of course, Amelia herself said that she had not really been in a relationship in her past life, but apart from that, I think she was a fairly open person sexually.

Actually, when I think about it, I didn’t really want to protect my virginity in my past life. I just didn’t have a partner and I didn’t have the courage.

… … It wasn’t popular.

While thinking about that, I quietly looked at Amelia’s face.

The sun had already risen in the middle of the sky. In fact, it may have been much earlier than it felt. In this land, as the nights are long in winter, the days are long when it is warm.

It’s already been a week since Amelia and I kissed while each other was conscious.

That day alone, we locked lips several times, and the next day, and the next day as well, whenever we had time.

Every time our lips overlapped, our posture became more and more daring. At first, we would just sit next to each other with our faces turned and just overlap our lips, but sometimes Amelia would sit next to me on my lap, and sometimes we would sit facing each other.

Later, I even lay down on the bed and overlapped my body.

Of course, even then, they never reached the end. Even so, each other’s ‘first time’ was also a powerful means in aristocratic society. There were people who shamelessly slapped an iron plate on their faces even though they enjoyed everything, but of course, in this era, if you compare, it is justifiable. The one who is truly first is more advanced.

… … I kept running away, making excuses like this.

Actually, Amelia’s attitude feels a bit ambiguous.

It’s nice that our lips overlap and that you press your body against me on the bed, but Amelia and I aren’t actually dating yet, so moving forward was more ambiguous.

So, that’s it. There is a girl I’m extremely close to, and I like her. But I’m afraid that if I confess, this relationship will be broken, so I can’t confess it.

Even in this situation.

No, because this is the situation and I don’t want to lose this situation.

There was no longer an option to let Amelia go. Now that I had come this far, I could never forget Amelia or let her go. But even so, I still could not cross the line.

“Ugh… … .”

The sun outside the window moved slowly over several hours, finally revealing its face through the curtains and shining into Amelia’s eyes.

In the end, it seemed like it was too much for her to sleep any longer, so Amelia opened her eyes.

If you place a glass bead near a window where bright sunlight comes in, the bead refracts and reflects the sun’s light, illuminating the surroundings, and I think Amelia’s blue eyes do the same.

Are Amelia’s eyes still on my face?

Amelia still looked up at me with sleepy and blank eyes.

Then, I drew a small line around my mouth.

Amelia’s arms were already behind my back. No matter how much we tossed and turned on the bed, when I eventually woke up in the morning, Amelia was in my arms like this.

My arm got tired.

I can feel the curves of Amelia’s soft body slowly sticking to every inch of my body. Amelia’s slightly damp clothes from sleeping under a thick blanket at night cling to my wet clothes as well. The clothes I wear while sleeping are not good enough to hide the texture of each other’s skin. It was too thin.

Hugging me tightly, Amelia buried her face in my chest.

I could hear Amelia taking a deep breath.

“grunt.”

And while making that sound, he tightened his arms.

It doesn’t hurt. In fact, Amelia wasn’t strong enough to hurt me. Even if she really hugged me with strength in her arms, it wouldn’t really affect my breathing.

And, in the first place, Amelia did not put all her strength into her arms.

My body was shaking, as if I was stretching. To be honest, it wasn’t a good posture for morning stretching.

But I let Amelia do it.

I didn’t hate it. There’s no reason to hate it when the person I like sticks directly to me.

After rubbing her body tightly for a moment, Amelia relaxed her muscles in a pleasant way and slightly moved away from me.

Then he raised his head, looked up at me, and slowly closed his eyes.

I don’t mean to go back to sleep.

I see your lips slightly pursed, so I guess there’s only one thing you want.

This time it was my turn to hug Amelia tightly.

*

Every time my lips touch, I feel my heart beating like it’s going to burst.

But we can’t just stay like that forever, because we had our own lives to lead.

After kissing in the morning, I get up and calmly go to wash my body. I dry my hair and change my clothes into going out clothes.

Next, Amelia puts on her makeup while facing me.

This series of actions takes place in the same space as Amelia. However, each action is natural, without conscious awareness.

We still didn’t look at each other when we were changing clothes, but we always knew that Amelia was behind our backs.

Still, it was peaceful. It was as if this was everyday life.

Will a kiss with Amelia someday become a normal everyday thing?

“Okay, that’s it.”

As I was alone in my delusion, Amelia’s face, which had gotten closer, rolled back. Her sweet sigh also moved away.

Feeling a little disappointed, but knowing that there were still things to resolve, I went back to my daily routine with Amelia.

“Okay, then let’s take a look at how far the original work has gone.”

Amelia, who put the makeup tools back on the dressing table, said while rubbing her hands slightly.

“The snow has all melted now, and spring seems to have passed to some extent. In the original work, the passage of time is only described as a season, so it is not clear, but on the contrary, it also means that you can tell how much has passed by looking at the seasons, right?”

Amelia smiled slightly at the corner of her mouth.

That wasn’t the warm kind of smile I usually see.

It was the smile Amelia made to hide her emotions when she didn’t like something.

“Now, there will be a guy who is obsessed with Adel.”

Saying that, Amelia came to the table and sat down facing me.

For us, everyday life almost begins with sitting at this table. I can’t say who decided it first, but it was kind of an unwritten rule.

I spend my official daily life at this table. When I relax, I rest in bed.

“And that person is definitely the family brat who is harassing Adele’s father.”

When I said that while looking back at the contents of the original work and the novel, Amelia nodded.

I couldn’t really feel it because I was so obsessed with Amelia, but objectively speaking, Adele was quite a beauty.

It’s just that the background wasn’t that great.

And the daughter of such a not-so-great family usually becomes the target of people from higher-ranking families.

They said that if you are a commoner, there are cases where you are forced to become a side chamber. Of course, it is almost impossible in a big city like this, and there are cases where local nobles mess with the commoners in their territory.

Even though ordinary nobles cannot do that much, they usually put a lot of money or the status of their own family on the condition of ‘I will raise your family up’.

And in ‘common sense’ among the nobility, it was a great marriage.

“But that guy is a guy with a broken personality.”

Amelia muttered.

I know that in the original work, it was probably handled by Ma Topju. Ma Topju, who was from a commoner background, saw Adele, whom he was in love with, overlapping with him, so he did something like that, and it ended up turning into a pretty big incident.

In the novel, Amelia, who had a good relationship with Adele in many ways, took care of it.

“Well, if Adele truly thinks that she likes that guy, I won’t stop her. Since the two of us are here, the world may have changed and Adele can also feel good towards that person, right?”

Of course, Amelia’s words did not contain any sincerity.

What did we do to make that master a good person?

Even as Amelia said those words, she was still smiling that cold smile.