episode_0152

Maybe it’s because I was so shocked by what happened between Adele and Diane that day, but I don’t remember much of what happened the next day.

I think I followed the magic tower lords and wizards around and listened to lectures about medicinal herbs and stories about ores that are good for infusing magic, but I couldn’t concentrate at all.

When I was watching a movie and there was a kissing scene, I thought it was okay, but seeing two people I know kissing was a much more powerful experience than I expected.

Am I conservative?

No, I think you can date women. I am a person who does not deny homosexuality. In the first place, the moment I deny it, I will not be able to date Amelia either.

And, well, if you’re dating, it’s natural to kiss. If you think about it, it seems like people in the past were a bit less conservative about physical contact. Especially in places like Europe, they used to give a light kiss as a greeting.

however… … By the way.

“Practice?”

“Elsie, how many times have I said that now.”

Amelia pointed out something to me as I was pacing and muttering in her room.

“No, you mean, you said you were practicing about kissing.”

“You heard it right there.”

“We listened together, huh? Isn’t something strange? Usually when you kiss, it’s just a kiss, you don’t call that practice, right?”

No, well, I kissed too. I don’t know who the other person was, but I heard they came from Amelia’s side to me, but for now, Amelia was sleeping.

“Let’s think about where we used to live. If a classmate in college asked you, ‘Do you want to practice kissing in case you date someone later?’ what would you say?”

“… … .”

Even Amelia, who was sitting calmly, couldn’t answer me.

Isn’t that right?

A kiss is just a kiss. There can’t be any kind of it. It can be light or deep, but in the end, after the kiss, the only result left is ‘who kissed so-and-so’.

“Or is that what nobles do? Do high-ranking nobles really practice like that in preparation for their first night?”

“… … Probably not. You’ve been with me all along. Did you see me doing that ‘practice’?”

I thought about it for a moment, but I quickly stopped thinking because I felt like my mind would be destroyed if I went deeper.

“Even if I practice… … No, so even if it’s not me, right? No matter how noble you are, the person you practice such personal things with is someone who is extremely close to you and is good at keeping secrets.”

Amelia thought seriously with her hand on her chin, then stood up.

And just like I did a little while ago, he walked around the room and slowly came up with his own reasoning.

“Look, I said ‘practice’, but in the end, it could become a scandal if others find out. If I’m going to practice, I’ll do it secretly.”

“Aha.”

As my cool returned a little, I thought I knew what Amelia was trying to say.

“So, that’s it. Acting as if you are maintaining chastity before marriage on the outside, while not maintaining chastity before marriage behind the scenes.”

“That’s right. You got married with someone who met the conditions, but there are many cases where the person you actually love is different, right? There are people who almost outright set their fidelity separately, and there are also cases where both the husband and wife are like that.”

Of course, the most important part of the word ‘open secret’ is ‘secret’. Even if everyone knows it ‘openly’, as long as the fact is a ‘secret’, no one treats it as a ‘fact’. That’s really not the case. If you do this, the other person will also start treating your ‘public’ secret as fact.

Of course, since it was a secret, it was basically better to hide it completely. Anyway, just because others don’t use it doesn’t mean it isn’t a weakness. If there is no such open secret here, it will be much safer when attacking the opponent with that fact later.

“… … Is it because I am a modern person? I think I have seen the dark side of the nobility.”

“Well, it wasn’t a particularly bad thing for them. Adele put her lips on Diane’s lips first… … The fact that she did that means that Adele, after all, likes Diane enough to do something like that without hesitation. Looking at the gender concepts in this world, it is impossible for a woman to act like that unless she first thinks, ‘It’s possible with him.’◦# ◦

That’s right. Although Adele is a common noble, she must have received the education of a noble.

And on the contrary, the lower the class of nobility, the slower they generally receive such education. This is because the lower you are, the easier it is to survive if you have no weaknesses.

“For Diane… … That’s a good thing. I don’t know what will happen in the future.”

When I came to that conclusion, Amelia slowly nodded.

Of course, no one knows how far the two people can go. Probably not even the two parties involved know.

Adele As much as she called Diane ‘practice’, Adele herself would not have the sense of dating Diane. Likewise, even though Diane likes Adele, she would not think of being together for the rest of her life. She is the daughter of a rigid count.

I will leave my current actions as just memories of my youth, and one day I will marry the person chosen by my family.

“It’s definitely a good thing. Especially since the other person is Adele. If the two really die and become incompatible in the future, won’t Diane’s family also have no choice but to let go or give up on Diane?”

“Because Adele is the main character?”

“Because Adele is the main character. And when that time comes, we will help you too.”

“That’s correct.”

I said with a grin at Amelia’s words.

I can’t forgive those who try to outbid the lily couple I took. Of course, the opponent at that time would be Count Hoover.

Amelia, who had been wandering around for a while, seemed to have calmed down after organizing her thoughts and went back to sit on her bed.

and,

“Do you want to keep standing like that?”

That’s what was asked of me.

“Huh?”

I blinked for a moment and looked at Amelia, and she was looking up at me with those blue, clear eyes.

He often showed a sharp or scary expression in front of others, but he almost never showed that expression in front of me. Even if he did, it was not for me, but for other people in the same place.

“… … .”

Amelia patted the seat next to her with her hand, and I went and sat down next to her without saying a word.

“… … .”

For a moment we said nothing.

Normally, it wouldn’t have mattered.

Even though the two of us didn’t say anything to each other and did our own thing or were lost in our own thoughts, we didn’t feel awkward.

On the contrary, it now felt so natural for each of us to be next to each other, and sometimes we even felt a little anxious when we were separated.

Of course, I may be the only one who thinks that way.

But now the mood is a little… … It was different from usual.

One of the things that Amelia and I didn’t talk about in too much detail was sexual. I’ve never heard a specific reason why Amelia refrained from talking about such things in front of me, but at least in my case, I thought it was English to talk about such things in front of women. Because.

Inside Amelia, there is a woman who was in her mid to late 20s, so I think there is no way she has never told that side of the story.

But no matter what… … For some reason, bringing up something like that in front of a woman was a bit disturbing. I think that was the reason why I was always fighting in my past life.

In other words, I was watching a movie with a female friend whom I had a personal crush on, and there was a serious bad scene in the movie, and it felt like we somehow brought up the movie and had a serious discussion about that scene.

To be honest, it wasn’t a bad scene but a kissing scene, but whatever. It can be said to be more provocative when we see it in person.

“Elsie.”

“Huh?”

“Have you ever been kissed?”

“Ex.”

For a moment, I couldn’t give a proper answer to Amelia’s sudden question.

kiss… … Have you ever tried it?

Of course, I can’t say that because that kiss happened while Amelia was sleeping. So let’s just say we’ve never had it in this world.

Then, in my past life… … Of course, it wasn’t there in my past life either.

“There was none.”

“Really?In your past life?”

Amelia said, turning her head towards me as if she was surprised, so I quickly nodded.

Amelia was lost in thought at my answer, so I asked.

“What about you?”

“I… … None.”

Amelia hesitated for a moment and then answered.

“Even in your past life?”

“Yes. In my past life and this life, none.”

For a moment, my heart was pounding.

In the novel, there was almost no story about his past life. Only the fact that he was an office worker and his age were roughly described.

therefore… … The kiss they shared that night was literally Amelia’s first kiss.