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148 – Love does not dwell in a doubting heart # 1

Milione was the daughter of Archibald Medici.

Archibald Medici was one of the best priests in the kingdom, and Milione, who grew up as the daughter of such a man, should have been a more chaste and pious girl than anyone else.

but-.

Milione couldn’t do that.

In her view, the world was full of lies, as if she was wearing a mask.

‘Hypocrites. People who talk about good deeds and salvation with their mouths, but do all kinds of dirty and disgusting things behind their masks. ‘It’s disgusting.’

Even Medici Archibald, who is said to be the highest-ranking priest, did the same.

Milione knew better than anyone else how many mistakes and shortcomings he had made at home and in the shadows, even though he was praised outside.

Everyone did that.

So did Milione himself.

So at some point, Milione stopped praying.

Also reading the Bible.

Also worship.

It was a kind of rebellion and complaint, and on the other hand, it was a shell so hard and stubborn that it could be called its own beliefs.

‘The whole world is full of hypocrites and garbage. I will expose you. All. entire.’

More than anyone else, she became obsessed with exposing the corruption and blasphemies of those who believed in God.

increasingly.

thoroughly.

He brought up the negative stories of others as if he wanted to prove that his path was not wrong.

The more she did this, the more she felt like “I am not wrong” and became more confident, but at the same time, an emptiness that could not be filled filled Milione’s heart.

That morning, Milione-.

He brought his hands together in a familiar yet awkward gesture.

“Lord… .”

And I prayed.

It was a very awkward and unfamiliar prayer.

“Please, I hope my work can be done well today─.”

In fact, Milione thought that if there really was a god in the sky, he would not hear his prayers.

Because Milione has done a lot of bad things so far.

But still, I couldn’t stop praying.

Because I wanted it so desperately that I wanted to cling to something.

“Seek Hyde, hit Rust.”

Milione, who had been complaining and ruining her life until now, really wanted to be reborn.

By the side of Hyde, the only man she can trust.

If I was with him, it would be nice if the world didn’t burn down.

One step at a time, even if it is clumsy.

I wanted to walk towards tomorrow.

‘Because Hyde trusts me. Also, because I trust him.’

In fact, Milione longed for a happy life with good people more than anyone else.

I was just angry at the world that couldn’t do that.

That’s all.

however-.

I thought it would end today, too.

“Youooo!!!!!”

Milione felt like the whole world was turning red at the scene unfolding before her eyes.

It was the first time in my life that I felt so angry and insulted.

When he came to his senses, Milione had knocked the man down and was repeatedly punching him in the face.

“이 개새끼야! 이 개새끼! You tricked me! until now! until now! I thought I could trust you! You son of a bitch! You made me!!!”

My forehead was cut, my lips were torn, and blood kept gushing out.

The man’s face quickly became covered in blood and his original face was unrecognizable.

no-.

If it wasn’t just because of the mess, Milione couldn’t even remember what the man’s face looked like anymore.

His face felt like a pitch-black mask.

In all of Milione’s memories, the man’s face felt like it had been painted black.

Soon blood spurted out and the man laughed.

“Khehe… . I told you so. It is said that the people who say they are the most godly and faithful have the most disgusting behavior behind them. I didn’t lie. You were just deceived.”

“Shut up!!!! I am!!!! I believe in you, for you!!!! I wanted to get the Holy Grail and live a new life with a new heart!!!! For you!!!! But you deceived me!!! From the beginning to now!!!”

“It’s funny. Humans-. There is no way you can become a new person by obtaining something like the Holy Grail. Milione. You are forever a murderer and trash. That fact doesn’t change. You stupid bitch.”

“Die!!!! Bastards like you should not be alive in this world!!!!”

Wow!

Milione grabbed the man’s neck and tightened his grip.

Wow!

If he applied a little more force like this, the man would die.

It was her older brother, Alter Archibald, who stopped Milione.

“milli. stop. Hyde—This man should not die like this. He must be judged through fair procedures in front of everyone. Fair judgment─. just… .”

Alter Archibald, who said that, also clenched his fists.

My fingernails pierced the skin of my palms, digging into them so much that blood was flowing.

“… Judgment… .”

In this situation where everyone is angry…

The only one who wasn’t angry was Psyche.

Psyche could not believe or understand the situation before her eyes.

no-.

It would have been more accurate to say, “I didn’t try to understand.”

“Hyde, you… .”

Psyche was sad.

She shed tears that seemed to pour endlessly from deep within her chest and stomach.

“Why did it happen like that? Hyde, is it true that you, like Miss Lucy before, have two personalities? That’s clear… ? Otherwise─.”

Psyche couldn’t believe it.

No, on the one hand, I still believed in Hyde.

However, the man who fell on the floor laughed as if it was very amusing.

“A stupid bitch who doesn’t even know how to suspect people. You really fooled me. How dare you lie to me? He said he came to save me. On that topic, do you deceive people by pretending to be a prisoner?”

“I… . Save you… For your dreams… I am… .”

“I like it anyway. Because originally, all humans are trash. so do i! I am me. I didn’t have two personalities, it was always just me! always! Look! This is me!”

A man’s cry echoed through the empty alley.

Psyche closed her eyes tightly and shouted.

“Well, that’s a lie! You would never do something like this! I know it well! Hyde, were you being threatened by someone? Please say yes. please… .”

Psyche thought that Hyde, whom she loved, was acting wickedly.

For any reason.

The man actually laughed out loud at Psyche.

“No. My life is entirely made up of my choices! You stupid bastards! I can’t believe you don’t notice it even though it’s right next to you… ! Ahhh… ! Love and faith… In the end, no matter how much you talk, you can’t even recognize the person sitting next to you.”

Psyche finally broke down and sobbed as she heard the man’s story.

Everything had reached a point where it could not be connected.

Like a broken glass cup that was thrown to the floor with such force.

It only got more and more broken.

“Don’t turn away. Open your eyes and look straight at me! This ugly and dirty… ! In the end, I was unable to keep my beliefs and rotted away, becoming a disgusting heretic! This is my end!!!”

The man laughed loudly.

“I always imagined this moment. Daily. If you close your eyes. When you sleep. When I pray, this moment comes to mind. It reminded me of the moment when everyone saw behind my ugly mask!!! But you are too late. Too!!!”

Perhaps unable to bear the constant laughter, Alter pulled out the sword from his belt.

“Don’t listen to that guy! Because you never know what I might do!”

“Alter! You are too late!!! Because the Hecate you loved is no longer anywhere!!! You must be resentful of me, right? ruler. I am lying here. Hurry and kill me!!! Don’t be hypocritical. but-. Honestly. To be honest… It’s your fault too. You think so too.”

“… … .”

Grrrr-.

The tip of the sword in Alter’s hand trembled.

The man’s tongue moved like a snake, as if piercing Alter’s heart.

“A traitor who betrayed his colleagues and the church after falling for the witch’s trick. Wouldn’t that mean that the oath and faith toward God were ultimately less than the laughter of a bitch? He’s such an idiot that he can’t even protect a woman. What’s the difference between you and me? Answer me! Of course, Hecate is nowhere to be found anymore.”

Kuuuk-.

“Do not call Hecate’s name with your mouth!!!”

Quaaa!

Alter plunged the sword he was holding with all his might.

Next to the head of a man who has collapsed and is vomiting blood.

Alter, who planted his sword on the floor, took a deep breath and composed himself calmly.

“… Hyde. Stop trying to piss me off. If death is what you desire so much, I will never kill you. Don’t run away from death. Live and pay the penalty for your sins. I─, people! I won’t listen to anything you say anymore!”

Alter tied the man’s mouth with the rope dropped by Psyche and wrapped his body around it as well.

Psyche recalled the events so far as her vision blurred with tears.

‘Was it all a lie? entire… ? Everything that has happened so far… ?’

Was everything I had with the man a lie?

Everything we talked about while staying up all night together.

Things like chairs and podiums to be placed in a small church.

Something like the number of candles.

Were all the dreams we shared together all lies?

Finally, Psyche’s memories flowed back to the time she and the man first met.

that day.

When a man hanged himself in front of Psyche.

When Psyche remembered that incident, her eyes became dizzy in many ways.

‘… Hyde actually really wanted to die… .’

# # #

Several days have passed since the Siege of Sodom ended with the Crusade’s great victory.

The defeat of the Allied forces that day was so shocking that the kingdom was as quiet as a funeral.

but-.

It was a calm silence, like magma boiling beneath the deep rocks and earth.

It was the kind of calm that could explode and sweep away a lot of things if something triggered it.

“It is said that that “fuck” made John very miserable. It’s enough to recover… .”

“The newly developed cannon will destroy the castle walls… .”

People talked about a new world.

He spoke of the end of an era in which the entire world we have known until now will disappear.

In such a situation, the most chaotic atmosphere was at the Agarpe Estate.

A dungeon located in the deepest part of the Agarpe territory.

There is now only one prisoner in the place where all kinds of prisoners and heretics were imprisoned.

however-.

No one knew the prisoner’s face or name.

Even Doban, the Count of Agarpe Estate, did the same.

“The prison was lent because it was the Queen’s order, but who was they imprisoning…? ?”

Dovan only vaguely noticed that the ‘prisoner’ who had been imprisoned under the orders of Queen Guinebit had committed an incredibly terrible crime.

At first glance, his body was bound with several layers of chains so that not a single hair was visible, and he had several thick locks.

Even a man-eating lion that has eaten so many people would not be imprisoned like that.

also-.

Prominent figures such as the platinum knight Agiles and the gold-plated knight Naib took turns staying up all night to patrol the prison.

Even if it was the residence of the king of a country, it would not be guarded this tightly.

“I don’t know where my daughter Psyche has gone… .”

Psyche, who said “I will save Hyde” and headed toward sodomy, was nowhere to be seen. Doban felt a little anxious because he was worried about his daughter.

“If I had met Hyde, things would have worked out somehow.”

son-in-law, Hyde.

Count Dovan believed that everything would get better if his son-in-law, Hyde, was with his daughter, Psyche.

In fact, Hyde has recovered and made many things better.

A complete union between the royal family and the religious order.

No one in the history of the kingdom could have done such a thing.

“… … .”

Doban now looked beyond the green hills in the distance.

A peaceful hill even though winter has arrived so much that blizzard clouds can be seen in the distance.

I saw a knight and a carriage coming from the ridge that was round like a cat’s back.

Doban was the owner of the estate and welcomed guests warmly.

“Lord Foul!”

“Doban Gong. Nice to meet you! I have come to take the prisoner locked underground to the royal capital early tomorrow morning. I don’t know what kind of person I am to escort people myself.”

“I see. Sir Paul. It seems like you don’t know anything about this matter. Have you heard any news about my daughter and her husband? Because I can’t see Psyche and Hyde.”

Paul was lost in thought for a moment in response to Doban’s question.

I had never heard any rumors about Psyche and Hyde.

“Next week. I heard there will be an execution ceremony for the criminal I must transport. They say it will be held on a very grand scale. If they were alive, wouldn’t Psyche and Hyde also appear then?”

Paul said and headed to the dungeon.

It was to check which prisoner he should take.

There, behind bars, a prisoner with his entire body tightly bound was sleeping.

Paul frowned at the disgusting smell of sewage and excrement.

“ or won. really. What is this guy doing─.”

“… No.”

“Huh?”

Paul listened to the story told by this unidentified prisoner.

I listened more closely and found that he was muttering something.

“… I didn’t kill him… . I didn’t kill… . Alive… . We have to stop it. We have to stop him… . I said I wasn’t crazy. I am… . I am… !!!”

“This voice is─. Well, no way… Is it Lord Roland?”