episode_0144

You are not God (3) – Republic of Korea Salvation Church accommodation

“Kang San asks to see the religious leader.”

Seo Taesan’s polite question and Seong Ga-eul’s sweet breath spreading from a close distance.

We are contained in each other’s pupils, with the bridges of our noses touching each other.

side-

Finally, I couldn’t bear it anymore, tasted her lips, and turned my head towards the door.

“Say stop.”

With my permission, heavy footsteps moved further and further away from the door.

It seemed like he was bringing Kang San, who was waiting a bit far away.

Soon after, the sound of two footsteps approached the door again.

I looked at Seong Ga-eul while listening to the sound of creaking wooden boards.

Tuk!

She does not return to her seat, but instead leans back more deeply.

I was momentarily taken aback by the unexpected situation.

It’s a profit –

However, the door began to open regardless of my embarrassment.

The guy could be seen through the gap in the door that Seo Taesan’s thick arm had opened.

A tall handsome man wearing a police uniform.

As he cautiously took his first steps into the room, he paused.

His slightly trembling pupils stared at us sitting at the head table.

Seong Ga-eul’s gaze flutters and belatedly turns towards the door.

Kangsan’s pupils, which were trembling slightly, caused an earthquake.

I also controlled my expression while smelling the sweet scent of shampoo.

“It’s been a while, San. Come and take a seat.”

At my call, Kang San barely turned his attention to me and walked over.

Tap- tap- tap-

The black shoes that matched the uniform slowly stepped on the wooden planks.

Even as Kang San approached, Seong Ga-eul diligently moved her hands under the table.

A hand that grips the clasped hands more tightly with a strangely strange sensation.

Sigh-

Kang San calmly sat on a chair and straightened his crumpled police uniform.

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Heavy silence with no one speaking.

In the end, I started the conversation by asking Kang San how he was doing.

“How have you been?”

“… … .”

The mouth with an awkward smile moved countless times.

I guessed the reason and smiled softly.

“Speak comfortably.”

“… … It’s been a while, Guwon-hyung.”

Kang San answered in a trembling low voice and immediately lowered his gaze a little.

“… … You too, autumn.”

“Yes.”

A short answer with a cold tone.

It was as if we were in the exact opposite position from when we met each other in the library.

She raised her clasped hands on the table as if she was showing someone.

He opened his mouth, playing with my right hand with both hands.

“What about the sea?”

“… … how are you. He wanted to come with me today too, but I stopped him.”

“I see.”

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Once again, heavy silence enveloped the room.

I looked out the window for no reason.

In an atmosphere like this, it felt like lightning would strike outside the window along with a bitter downpour.

Kang San was staring at his clasped hands with trembling eyes.

“Now that I think about it, a guest came and I wasn’t treated properly.”

In the end, it was me who spoke again.

“Would you like to have a quick cup of tea? Take your pick, beverage, green tea, coffee… … .”

I went down the inventory list and mentioned the drinks I could see.

Just as Kang San, with a gentle smile on his face, was about to say something-

“You idiot! I told you I had my drinks lined up second. Now, even if I go down further, there is nothing to drink.”

Seong Ga-eul interrupted me mid-sentence and summoned something from the air.

Three iced Americanos were in her hand.

“Just give me something simple and refreshing. I won’t be able to drink this much anymore.”

I calmed down for a moment and gently activated my telekinesis.

The iced Americano placed on the table slid into Kang San’s hand.

“… … Inventory.”

Kang San, who unexpectedly accepted the iced Americano, did not express his gratitude, which was unusual.

His eyes were blankly staring at one place.

Seong Ga-eul’s right hand summoned the coffee he was holding.

“Autumn, why are you taking inventory? … .”

… … How did you awaken?

Two eyes opened wider than ever.

The voice, trembling as if in disbelief, was waiting for an answer from Seong Ga-eul.

“You too can be born again.”

I am reflected smiling kindly in Kangsan’s pupils.

Together with Seong Ga-eul, I held out my clenched hand to Kang San.

“Aren’t you planning on going back home together?”

To our home.

“… … .”

Kang San just stared blankly at our outstretched hand.

A small smile appeared on his lips as he looked up at Seong Ga-eul again.

It was full of deep self-deprecation and despair.

“Taesan must have become an awakened person too.”

“That’s right.”

“He said it was strange. It was my first time seeing Taesan with such strong eyes. He was a friend who always kept his fears hidden in his heart… … .”

He looked at the door he came through and shook his head.

“Everything is strange. Taesan, hyung, and… … .”

you also.

The last words I could never say.

Seong Ga-eul, who was making eye contact with Kang San, withdrew her hand.

I naturally wrapped my arms around my body.

Tuk-

The joy that comes to me more deeply.

“… … .”

Thanks to my thorough poker face, I didn’t notice my mouth twitching.

Something, something… … .

Although I felt good, I was also very embarrassed.

This wasn’t the picture I had in mind.

I thought I would somehow take the lead in leading the situation.

Well, I have to have been through this situation to know.

Still, if you think about it, it seemed like something similar in essence.

I smiled calmly and answered Kang San’s question.

“Time changes many things.”

“… … That’s right.”

Sreuk-

I felt Seong Ga-eul’s smooth stomach as her dress shirt brushed against my forearms.

Kang San watches the scene in disbelief.

“When I think about it like that, quite a lot of time has passed. The leader and the saint should have enjoyed the afterlife here.”

“… … The leader and the saint?”

ah.

I smiled brightly and corrected myself.

“Taesan and Ayoung.”

“… … Just by hearing it, it seems like a fairly high position.”

“They are very precious people to me.”

Tuk- Tuk-

Seong Ga-eul’s head pounding my heart.

“Ah, this person is also a very precious person. He is the vice president of our Salvation Church.”

“… … Vice pontoon leader.”

I smiled and added the story.

“Eunbyeol is passionate about creating, which she has always enjoyed. Kyungmin and Shinwoo are busy preparing for the table tennis competition.”

I heard a report that he was surprisingly good at table tennis and was getting quite good results.

Now that I think about it, I recalled that Lee Gyeong-min mentioned in passing that Kang San liked soccer.

“We are also preparing a soccer tournament, so you can participate in it.”

It was an indirect urging for not answering the previous question.

Kang San took several deep breaths as if he was calming his mind.

He desperately caught Seong Ga-eul’s gaze and then focused his eyes on me.

‘… … ‘My body stiffened when I saw it for the first time in a long time.’

The words of Seong Ga-eul naturally come to mind.

Annoyingly straight eyes turned to me.

“As expected, you are amazing. So, you must have saved us from danger and killed the mutant.”

One from Baby.

Once from Frog.

“He desperately tried to prevent me from doing something I would probably regret for the rest of my life.”

Unwavering opposition to Yoon Ah-young’s expulsion.

“Your brother is definitely a good person.”

so.

“The acting you are doing now is probably all an effort to survive.”

The guy continued with a bitter smile.

“This is an era where everyone has to wear a mask to survive.”

Kang San calmed down his expression and appealed to me with earnest eyes.

“So stop acting and join us. Please, bro.”

“… … I thought you came as an old friend, but you came as a second messenger.”

“… … No.”

Kang San looked at Seong Ga-eul for a long time with trembling eyes.

He opened and closed his mouth repeatedly and spoke in a trembling voice.

“I came to see if my childhood friend’s husband is a trustworthy person.”

“Ha—!”

Uncontrollable laughter burst out.

With bewildered eyes, I leaned back in my chair and looked at him.

Seong Ga-eul didn’t say anything in response to Kang San’s response, but leaned against me.

Kang San looks at Seong Ga-eul, who is desperately holding back something and burying her face in my chest.

But I could see it all.

His fists clenched on his knees and his whole body shaking convulsively.

“That’s impressive. I’m more impressed with you than the second time I met you in the morning.”

I looked at him with interested eyes.

“You and countless other awakened people. What kind of ability did Number 2 have that fascinated everyone? She doesn’t seem as capable as our Gaeul.”

I calmly stroked the hair of Seong Ga-eul, who was in my arms.

The guy didn’t shake anymore.

“My mother is not a competent person, but a right person.”

“Is the country created by that right person a voting kingdom that only bans anything?”

“It was all citizens of the Republic who voted for the ban.”

“One-sided violence is not the true meaning of democracy.”

“It’s not right for everything to be decided by one person’s mind.”

He asked me in a calm tone.

“Is Cheolsu dead?”

The picture-perfect smile paused for a moment.

An example set to control the library.

Kang San looked at me like that and continued speaking.

“If it had been Minguk, Cheolsu would not have died. If it had been his mother, Cheolsu would not have died.”

I stopped Seong Ga-eul from raising her head.

I held her in my arms and quietly stared at Kangsan.

“So you are not right. So, please destroy the gorgeous sand castle and join the cause of the Republic of Korea.”

It’s a gorgeous sand castle.

My paradise is a gorgeous sand castle.

“This is absurd. In fact, it is Minguk who struggles to live each day. How can a person who sits in a shabby mansion, caressing a poor belly and staring blankly at the sky, discuss justice?”

I glared at Kang San and spoke quickly.

“There is nothing more vain than a corpse crying for justice. Someone’s justice is what you hear only after surviving, eating well, and sleeping comfortably.”

“Well, I could hear it well even when I was hungry. How many people would be hungrier than me?”

“Who are you to judge other people’s hunger? Was the level of the Republic of Korea barely this high?”

“Yes.”

Kang San nodded.

All those who are not “ have gone to your paradise. Now, all those who remain in the Republic are people like me.”

People who want you to die as humans and not as the pigs you farm.

I stared at him with my slightly twisted head.

“Just skip the last sentence. This is a rant that will hurt anyone who listens to it.”

“… … I know.”

Kang San bit his lip and looked at Seong Ga Eul.

Now, instead of hiding the tremors of my body, I openly show them.

Seong Ga-eul raised her head from my embrace and faced Kang San.

“So, I was disappointed.”

He seemed to be talking to me, but to someone else.

“… … It’s always been like that. Even though I always looked at the same thing, the solution I came up with was completely different. But, this time, I went too far, Gaeul.”

Sigh-

Kang San stood up, dragging a chair, and made eye contact with me.

“It’s a shame that the conversation ended like this, Guwon. I was out of my mind at the time, so I couldn’t even say hello.”

The guy bowed to me.

“Thank you, truly, for everything.”

I naturally sensed this from his resolute tone.

That this is my real farewell to him.

After looking at Seong Ga-eul for a moment, he turned his back and walked towards the door.

Tap- tap- tap-

“Just give me some advice. The Republic of Korea’s non-awakened police officers.”

The figure in the black uniform stopped.

“It’s better not to say things you can’t take responsibility for.”

“… … I will listen carefully, cult leader.”

A whisper reaches out to him as he walks back and opens the door.

“Hello, Kangsan.”

The guy holding the doorknob’s back was shaking violently.

Kang San, who held the door and was silent for a long time, opened the door again.

“Hello, Seong Ga-eul.”