episode_0137

hmm.

Why did I try to commit suicide?

I don’t know. Anyway, I was wrong and Jules was right.

“Let’s eat this together on our birthday.”

Jules poured some honey wine into his bag.

What should I give Jules as a gift on her birthday?

···It’s been a while since I picked up a brush, but would I like to draw Jool?

‘Where should I draw?’

I made a shirt with buttons on my back… No.

There is no way he could wear clothes with his face drawn on them. That’s already close to some kind of punishment.

Let’s paint an oil painting.

I asked Schwein to make a picture frame.

That’s the only valuable thing I can give to Jules. We chatted and went on the long and short journey home.

*

Finally arrived.

Caw!

Tinchi, who has become even larger, waves his hand at me.

···Wave your hand? What on earth is that?

Dennis seems to have left the place to save Cockatrice’s breakfast. The eyes of the four children who were melting the sugar were fixed on me.

‘······There is no Shir?’

He looks at me without saying anything.

I wondered if he wanted an explanation, but I didn’t feel like it.

“Hello.”

I said hello half-heartedly. There is no reply.

It’s not that I’m reluctant, it’s that I’m unfamiliar with it. Then we can become friends again. I passed by and headed into the village.

“Are you back?”

“Thank you for your hard work.”

“Yes, you guys are having a hard time too.”

People came here and there to say hello.

We headed home the same way, threw away our bags and went to bed the same way.

Why did that make me laugh so much? After we fell asleep together with Jules, we woke up at almost the same time.

The sky outside the window is dark.

It’s an ambiguous time zone. Should I sleep like this until tomorrow?

“At least say hello to Shir and say you’re back.”

I just want to sleep, but Jules shakes me to wake me up.

“···Why do you go to such a lengths to say hello? When you meet, you can just say hello.”

“Go out first.”

Jules kicked me out of bed.

‘Why is this happening all of a sudden?’

Jules is lying down, looking over here and shaking.

I am very dissatisfied with the car as it was still wet.

When I opened the door and went out, Shir was sitting on the wall right in front of the door.

‘······Is this Shir?’

I have grown quite a bit taller in one month.

My skin has become as white as jade, and there are no blemishes. It is difficult to pay attention to the appearance of femininity. The atmosphere has changed a lot. Amber eyes were staring straight at me.

What on earth happened in one month?

“Hello. How are you?”

“No.”

“I see.”

Shir frowns.

“You said you were going back?”

“My parents gave up on me and left. I was so shameless. I thought you would wait.”

Shir glances around the house.

“So, you came back?”

“Yes. What’s going on?”

“There were so many things I wanted to say to you. I had a lot of questions.”

Shir’s tone of voice was even.

Jules may have sent me away to make peace.

You don’t know how delicate kids this age are.

Even animals cannot reconcile in such a reckless manner.

Still, I think my voice and speech have become more mature than before. I’m proud of you.

“───Don’t think about me that way.”

Shir bared his fangs at me.

···It festered in a bad way.

“Shir, whatever I think is my freedom. If it’s uncomfortable, you control your abilities.”

“Let’s go far away and talk.”

“I’m sleepy. I want to go in and sleep some more.”

“······Can’t you give me time?”

I rubbed away the sleepiness as if washing my face.

‘Something is wrong.’

“Okay, let’s go.”

It is a normal place for people of the same age to hang out together.

Shirman was not alone there. They say there was a problem while I was leaving the village.

‘I guess it’s a good thing I came back.’

I walked out, following Shir, who was pulling my arm.

No matter where I went, I ended up staying within the village.

I just crossed the bridge with the smell.

“I thought about it a lot after you left. Now everyone in the village knows. That you gave me God’s blessing, and why you persistently called me to rest.”

“──────?!”

Heukrang seems crazy.

Are you bragging about your daughter when her daughter’s life is going up and down?

Jules must have explained about immortals?!

“You knew a lot and there was a lot you could do. I felt you were really amazing.”

Shir let go of my hand and looked down at the village.

“The stories you hear from your aunt, your heroic side and mysterious appearance that you only recently see. You seemed like someone who knew everything.”

I don’t think he was specifically trying to be angry at me.

······Did I look like that?

Quite the opposite. I just struggled.

“But you were neither a great person nor a mysterious person. He was an ordinary human being found everywhere. I’ve been reading your emotions right next to you.”

I’m embarrassed──

“You kept worrying, you kept hesitating. I kept being disappointed, and I kept beating myself up for failing.”

It’s rough.

That a 15-year-old child is saying these things and reading my emotions.

“Only I could see that, but I wasn’t looking at it. There is only one difference between you and other people. That you were worried. Non-stop, even now.”

Additionally, it is read in real time.

Why can only my emotions be read? What is the principle?

“You felt wronged when you were attacked by Mira. Because no one took your side. If it were me, I might have screamed.”

“You completely ignored that fact in your sadness. You probably already knew that. If you get angry there, you won’t gain anything, it will only worsen your situation.”

It’s hard to listen to.

“What do you want to say?”

“Listen to the end.”

Shir pulled me to sit on the wall.

It was buried in my chest as if I was leaning on a chair.

A crescent moon can be seen through a hole in the ceiling.

The falling moonlight is a spectacular sight.

“I remember when you saved me. When something flowed into my heart, it was so sad that I wanted to die.”

“But, in the silence where I couldn’t feel anything, I felt someone’s heart towards me. At first I thought it was my mom.”

“I thought that the only person who treated me like this was my mom. But that was you. It was you who took care of me, saved me from the torrent, and saved me.”

“I was really grateful for that. I thought there was a reason for that. I thought you liked me that much.”

Shir’s arms gain strength.

“Actually, on the day you almost died, I was more concerned about whether you would hate me than whether you got hurt.”

“I knew you were talking nonsense when you scolded me, but I didn’t even raise a counterargument because you let me go.”

“Because the desire to ignore the matter was stronger than the fact that you were having a hard time. Are you selfish?”

“Okay. That’s selfish.”

I don’t hug you tightly because my emotions are strong.

He hugged me tightly on purpose because he thought I might get excited.

My lies were all seen through.

“I thought I should do something too. You even showed me the direction I should take. The witch was still scared, but I stuck what she told me into my head.”

“I tried to protect you, but I was too late.”

‘weird.’

That’s not something a child would say.

Shir’s mind has clearly matured to a strange degree.

why?

I don’t know the cause, but this is a child who can convey my emotions as they are. I was the spiritual leader of Sur, but there…

“You left. After you left, I stayed in your house for a while, lying in your bed with your scent still on it. It was really unfair at first. I thought you betrayed me.”

“After the new Ramrat took away your faint scent while cleaning his aunt’s house, I realized that I was stupid.”

My shoulders became damp.

I didn’t think it would be a good idea to meet face to face.

“I thought you would always wait for me. I thought it would be okay to take it leisurely, and there would be no need to be fierce.”

“I only found out when your last body odor disappeared. There is a time for everything, and you must always do your best to achieve it within the given time.”

It’s a creepy complaint.

Like muscle growth, mental maturation occurs through repeated injury and regeneration. Also, just as the muscle pain goes away, your mind needs an end to recover.

A fifteen-year-old child can mature this much mentally in just one month? In conclusion, it can be said that the flower blooming in the heart brought about Shir’s mental maturity.

‘Because it’s the totem of a servant who controls emotions?’

It is very rare for mental maturity to occur all at once, like the protagonist of an entertainment show.

If you actually talk to people who think that way, most of them are not that mature.

This is in the same context as saying that you can get a six-pack in just one day after exercising extremely vigorously.

Couldn’t there be some connection between the change in the flower blooming in his heart and the sudden change in Shir’s appearance?

‘But you’re saying it as if you’re confessing?’

Kuuuuk…

The pressure is so tight that it is difficult to breathe.

“But you came back like this. I was given a second chance. I don’t want to lose you again. Now I will protect you. I’m really sorry for all this time.”

It was difficult to accept or accept the apology, which was burdensome to accept. To begin with, I wasn’t even angry at Shir.

He said some very harsh words and left.

I thought it was my responsibility to apologize, but why is this child doing it?

Had Dantalian really drilled goodness and generosity into my head so much that I didn’t notice anything was wrong?

‘I don’t know.’

What I know for sure now is that Shir respects me. Not as a slave, but as a human being.

“I know what you’re thinking, but it’s up to you.”

He released Shir’s hand and stood up.

As if he thought something was wrong, I held out my hand to Shir, who looked up at me in tears.

“Let’s go get some food.”