episode_0136

“How are you, Miss? Are you pretty?”

The first thing that came to mind when I saw my custom-made dress was

“…”

The thing is, it looked quite uncomfortable to wear.

… You really want me to wear this?

Looking at the store manager’s confident expression and proud face, I couldn’t even refuse.

She let out a deep sigh and turned her gaze back to the dress.

Basically, it’s the opposite of me who only wears dark-colored clothes.

A fabric that appears to be made of bright white silk.

How wide is the skirt?

It seems like it would take a lot of work just to secure that thing,

The ends are engraved with floral patterns so elaborate that it is difficult to even trace them.

…it seemed more like something you would wear on a wedding day rather than a dress you would normally wear.

Well, if this is all I have, I can bear it like crying and eating mustard.

but.

“Did the clothes get cut somewhere…?”

The problem was that the upper body, which was non-existent above the chest, was either due to a lack of fabric or something.

“Little lady, this is the trend these days.”

“… What the.”

I opened my mouth in shock at the sight of the store manager smiling and saying that.

It’s crazy, there’s no other way to explain it.

It’s really crazy.

How on earth can such outrageous clothing become fashionable?

What on earth are young people thinking these days!

He just stomped his feet with a bright red face.

That being said, I felt helpless because I had already done all the production and there was nothing I could do about it.

The store manager burst into laughter, probably because he found my appearance so funny, and then said something shocking.

“Little lady, do you know that the clothes you’re wearing now are more revealing?”

“… Exposure!”

My clothes right now are for convenience…!

Seeing me showing signs of trying to argue with him, the store manager waved his hand slightly and pushed my back.

“Let’s start with basic makeup and think about it~”

“I’m not done talking yet-!”

“Yes, yes~ I understand, little lady!”

“Profit!”

So I was forced to sit on a chair with a huge mirror in front of it.

As I was staring blankly with a look of no return, the store manager suddenly spoke to me.

“Miss, it’s all over, but… .”

“… Yeah, that’s fortunate.”

I nodded my head, trying hard to avoid seeing myself in the mirror.

No matter how much you decorate it, in the end it’s the original version, so it won’t be that pretty.

Even if it’s strange, it’s too late to change it.

“Sigh.”

It meant that I trusted the store manager’s touch.

Anonymous must have waited too long.

As I was thinking about it like that, the store manager’s expression suddenly caught my eye.

Frowning eyebrows as if feeling frustrated,

He tilted his head in question and opened his mouth.

“Is there a problem?”

“Problem…? Yeah, there is a problem… Right.”

The store manager sighed deeply and opened his eyes wide.

He raised his voice, pointing to a single strand of hair standing up on my crown.

“What the hell is this, what kind of hair is this!”

“Hmm? What’s wrong?”

When I tilted my head and asked, the store manager made a face as if to say, ‘What if you don’t know that?’

“This idiot hair… has no intention of settling down… .”

Unable to contain my curiosity at the store manager’s words, I turned my gaze to the mirror.

“Oh.”

What I saw in my eyes was a single strand of hair standing upright, as if trying to assert oneself.

And, my face, whose impression has changed a little.

Obviously, nothing much has changed,

It feels like the droopy eyes and the angry eyebrows on the forehead have lessened.

“…”

Something felt strange, so I bit my lips.

While I was lost in that strange sentiment, the store manager’s appearance reflected in the mirror seemed somewhat urgent.

“… No, what the hell am I supposed to do with this stupid hair!”

I said that soon,

I don’t know how to do that either, so I just kept licking my lips.

Somehow I was looking forward to meeting Moo-myeong.

* * *

“Umm… Where did you go for a moment?”

It certainly wasn’t this crowded when I first entered the banquet.

Why are there so many people… .

I sighed deeply at the sight of people bustling around me.

… This is difficult.

If things continue like this, it will take years to find the name.

Of course, if you use your internal energy, it will be quick, but

The Emperor had asked that such actions be refrained from as much as possible… .

It’s on hold for now.

He was looking around like that, twirling his hair with his index finger.

“Nice to meet you, Youngae.”

A strange looking man I had never seen before approached me with the corners of his mouth raised.

…who is it?

He may be a suspicious person since I don’t know his face,

I tilted my head, wondering if perhaps the emperor had sent me to summon him.

“Huh?”

“Would you please give me the honor of hearing Youngae’s name?”

I frowned at the sight of the man extending a hand to me with a sinister smile as he spoke.

…what is this situation?

I feel like my head is blank in a situation that I don’t understand.

Because you’re not saying anything.

I wonder how this guy perceived my reaction.

“Huh.”

The man half-closed his eyes and took a step closer to me.

“You don’t have to be embarrassed.”

I finally realized the dark smile of a man who was truly true to his desires.

“Ah.”

You seem to like me.

“… Hmm.”

But even if I realize it, it doesn’t mean I can accept it.

If you have someone in mind,

It’s not like I’m not over my struggles with identity yet.

The time I lived as a woman is much longer than the time I lived as a man.

This body strangely does not feel lust,

I’m thinking that I can’t love…

and.

Even leaving all that aside, this guy is just a disliked human being.

He looks very smart, and his confidence is sky-high, as if he grew up receiving love at home.

Well, of course, it could be that he just looks good.

But for me, whose standards have been raised by anonymity, a mediocre appearance is not enough.

While I was wondering how I could refuse and finish the work without a big fuss,

“A moment.”

I felt something cold and familiar against my hand.

I turned around with my eyes wide open in surprise.

“… Anonymous?”

The nameless man was furrowing his brows fiercely and glaring at the man while growling softly.

“Excuse me, but I have something to do with Youngae here.”

The nameless man raised his clasped hands and shook them as if he were a man.

And yet, he bows his head slightly,

The goodness of the nameless, unnecessarily polite person stood out.

The man, who had been staring blankly at the hand he was about to hold, frowned and opened his mouth lowly.

“… Who is it?”

A simple question of who,

However, the anonymous man couldn’t answer the man right away and instead looked at me.

It’s cute… and I’m grateful.

He let out a small laugh at that sight and shook his head slightly.

This is because the anonymous person had some idea of the reason for this.

Perhaps he noticed my trouble and stepped forward curiously,

In this situation, if you honestly confess that you have a priest-student relationship, it would be difficult to leave the situation.

I let out a deep sigh, took a step forward, and opened my mouth with a slightly red face.

“Ugh… This is the man who will become my lover, so you should go now.”

I’m sorry, Anonymous… I’ll apologize later.

Let’s give a small apology and glance at the anonymous person.

For some reason, Myeong-un’s face turns redder than mine.

“…”

He didn’t say anything.

Neither negative nor positive.

In this situation, I felt strangely excited at the sight of my heart beating so fast.

… As I got older, I started getting arrhythmia.

* * *

The proper banquet hasn’t even started yet,

Mentally exhausted, I took the nameless hand and moved with him to the terrace.

After my rather shocking declaration,

A chain reaction occurred around him, as if something was exploding one after another.

I couldn’t concentrate because of the voices around me,

The first thing I heard was, ‘It’s ugly to flirt with someone who has a significant other…’

The man’s reaction when he heard those words was also something to behold.

He quickly left the place, his face red and his nose blowing out.

Apart from confidence, he seems to know shame.

By the way… .

“Ha.”

Maybe it’s because it’s fall and the night air is cold,

Even when I exhaled softly, my breath came out.

I stared blankly at the breath rising from my mouth and pursed my lips.

… How should I apologize to Anonymous?

To be honest, I think Anonymous would understand my actions too.

If I think about it calmly, it wasn’t the best answer.

There must have been countless answers to get out of that place somehow.

and….

“Ahem, anonymous.”

“Yes… .”

Anonymous also couldn’t have liked what I said.

It must be upsetting for someone you only saw as a teacher to suddenly call you his lover.

It’s obvious even without looking.

… His red face must have been caused by anger.

After biting his lip for a moment, he opened his mouth with a deep sigh.

“Um, sorry for suddenly saying something strange.”

Because if I kept acting awkwardly like this, my pounding heart wouldn’t show any signs of calming down.

“That was just an excuse to get out of that place, so don’t worry too much about it.”

“…”

Anonymous did not answer.

I continued talking nonsense, feeling my heart grow cold.

“Ahahaha… I know you’ll be upset because you’re involved with the teacher-”

He couldn’t even look straight at the moon floating quietly in the sky, and he kept rolling his eyes as he continued talking.

“Master… ”

Suddenly, the cold wind blowing behind my back disappeared,

Someone else’s warmth took its place.

“No, Harangnim.”

“Uh, yeah?”

Anonymous, who calls me by my name, not by my teacher,

I was embarrassed and tried to turn my head, but my body was blocked by the nameless person and I couldn’t do it.

… strangely enough, I didn’t feel suffocated.

I was shaking and thinking about the sudden change in the situation.

The colorful sounds in my ears – followed immediately by the nameless breathing, a pleasant voice was heard.

“There are still many eyes watching.”

I gulped and swallowed, staring at the pitiful moon.

… my eyes are shaking so much that I can’t see clearly.

“That, is that so?”

“Yes, so shouldn’t you still act as a lover?”

Perhaps we should postpone it until after the banquet is over, he added softly, bowing his head deeply at the anonymous voice.

…I sowed the seeds, so I must reap them.

He nodded slightly and conveyed his thoughts with his body rather than his mouth.

With a red face, I vowed to myself that I would be careful with my words from now on.