episode_0134

Probably not. Something must be wrong. The story I heard from the maids is strange.

He’s definitely not that kind of person.

I feel like the floor is falling out.

Something must be wrong. He… he couldn’t have done that, right?

Debian always said he loved me.

How can I believe that he, who is loyal to the empire and the emperor, gave my territory to Ioannes without my knowledge?

How can I believe that my beloved Devian saved my life by selling my sister to the Emperor?

I don’t believe it. Something must be wrong.

I try to think like that, but tears well up in my eyes.

To have a headache.

How… until now…

You say you love me? But how can you stab me in the back?

no. He can’t do that.

How close are he and Joy?

It’s all a lie that Debian sold Joy and that it handed over my Epirus and Ezip to Ioanes.

It’s probably a lie.

“Huh…”

weird? Why do I cry? It’s a lie…

Why do tears flow like this?

I sit down on the sofa and cry for a while.

I cry so much that I feel dizzy.

“Ugh… Liar.”

How much did I cry so much?

I was able to face reality a little bit more.

I was able to analyze his actions a little more calmly.

The time when a secret pact was made between Devian and the Emperor faction.

A large army of the imperial faction was heading towards Roman.

Surely everyone at the time thought that Debian was coming to an end.

Even Chairman Charles said that Debian was over and the Emperor faction would rule the country.

I believed that too.

However, he instead made peace with the imperial faction and had them support his marriage.

It would make sense if it was all due to a secret agreement between Debian and the Emperor faction.

The emotional turbulence begins again.

Is that really true?

Why is that?

In his situation, he may have thought that way to prevent the empire from falling into civil war.

But… isn’t that something you should talk to yourself about?

I can speak clearly.

I love him, and if that is the only way I can give Epirus and Ezip to the emperor.

Because this is the method chosen by Debian, which I trust and love.

If you had told me even late, I would have accepted that it was inevitable.

The two territories are important, but I believe that Devian must have thought of a different method.

but…

I feel deeply disappointed and betrayed that you didn’t tell me until now.

It’s been almost a year since you handed over my territory like that without even telling me.

If you really love me… if you really believe in me, shouldn’t you tell me that?

That’s not all.

joy.

My lovely sister.

To be honest, I still can’t accept selling my little sister.

Epirus or Ezip.

Both are important lands to the Emperor, but they are not as important to me as Joy.

Pure and kind Joy.

Joy trusted and followed the brother-in-law who sold her.

Debian easily sold Joy.

For your own comfort. Under the pretext of protecting the safety of the empire…

Trash bastard.

This is the part that makes me the most angry.

Debian kept the fact that Joy was sold a secret and laughed and chatted with my family.

Is he an emotionless monster?

Like chess, all you can do is put it on the political board and weigh it…

Are you a person without emotions?

Obviously he has feelings too. Because he feels deep sorrow over his soldiers dying.

That moment.

A whispering voice is heard beyond the bedroom door.

[Is Your Highness here?]

[huh. You said Theodora looked for me?]

A conversation between Devian and a guard.

What kind of person is he…?

to be honest.

I feel a strong sense of disparity between the picture of him based on the stories I heard and the picture of him I knew.

The person who always said in a firm tone that he loved me…

It’s hard to believe that something strange is going on behind the scenes.

[How about sleeping in the Grand Study Building today? It seems like His Majesty is very angry?]

[His Majesty the Grand Duke. What did you do to make His Majesty so angry?]

[Tekki! Man, this is the only thing that can make you that angry… right?]

[Because that’s not it. Don’t worry, just open the door.]

[yes!]

Tears flow again as I hear the conversation outside.

Does he… really love me?

You love me, but you don’t trust me?

And… is it an emotionless monster?

Confusing.

My heart begins to ache, as if the person I knew about him is falling to pieces.

-Squeak!

His familiar voice is heard along with his familiar voice.

“You said you found me?”

I am confused by his calm voice.

The voice and tone of speech as if nothing had happened.

It all makes me irritated and angry.

Maybe I’m wrong.

Like Hans’ trial before, he may have his own circumstances.

A faint possibility.

Right now, at this moment, I want to cling to that faint possibility.

Because it’s that desperate.

I ask in that quiet voice.

“You… is that true? Really… you passed Epirus and Ezip?”

I can hear his answer to my words.

“Yes. that’s right. I handed Epirus and Ezip over to Ioannes.”

He speaks calmly.

At his words, the faint possibility within me shatters and shatters.

That voice awakens the anger within me.

“Why?!, No… How can you pass this on without saying a word to me? That… what kind of land is that? What kind of land is that!”

“So?”

It’s unfamiliar to see him calmly answering my questions.

Doesn’t it seem like a monster without emotions?

I fall into despair as he talks like it’s no big deal.

“So?, That’s why you said it?!”

A monster… That person is truly a monster.

The man who has not even shown any signs of apology and has been deceptively hiding this information until now…

It must be a monster.

“If. At that time, I made that choice…”

“Shut up!”

I don’t want to hear any more. Words that deceive me.

The Debian I really trusted… where is it?

Did I believe in and love such a monster?

Sadness and anger at myself.

And Debian looks so calm.

All of that makes me angry.

“Shut up! Shut up! Who said I wanted to hear that excuse?, I… I think you…”

His image inside me.

It was all a lie.

“I thought you were a loyalist. I thought you were a loyal subject to the empire and me! But what? Yes, I admit that you saved Roman from the vortex of war! But… how could you give two of my territories to someone else without my permission and not say a word to me?! How could you do this to me?!”

The more I talk, the more anger overflows inside me.

-match!

I can’t control my anger and slap him in the face.

“Why! Didn’t I tell you! Was it okay for you to trick me, deceive me, and play with me like that? Was it good? After selling Joy to a much older man! How can you laugh and talk like that in front of us? Are you human? No…do you love me?”

A hint of embarrassment passes through his eyes as he quietly looks at me.

“Knowing how much Joy follows you! Was it okay to sell that child like a slave?! How can you do something like that and laugh and talk with my family?!”

Was it because I got slapped?

A trickle of blood flowing from the lips.

He says, loosening my hand.

“Do you know that I did it because I liked it?”

No matter how angry I get, I get even more angry at the way he speaks emotionlessly in a low voice.

If you have something to say, I wish you would say it with that proud mouth that always speaks logically.

“Then?! Please at least make an excuse! You’re good at talking, right?! Don’t just keep your mouth shut like a mute, at least make an excuse!”

But the lack of response makes me even more angry.

-puck!

“Why did you fool me!, why did you fool me!”

-puck!

“Did you like it? Did you enjoy playing with me? say! You bastard! This is trash!”

Debian suits me as if nothing is wrong.

okay! Let’s see how long you last!

Until your thoughts come out of that proud mouth.

Until you say it hurts! Until you say you’re sorry!

-puck!

He beats his chest and vents his anger.

“I believed it! I believed it! I believed that only you would be different!”

-puck!

“How could you… trick me like this?”

He beats me endlessly, but there is no reaction.

Rather, my hands feel numb and my legs feel weak.

“Ugh… Is this your love?… Is this your love…”

What is it?

If you make a person out of ice, will he be like that?

Debian is so mean without saying anything.

“You are a monster. Ugh… he’s a monster that doesn’t know human emotions. What’s the difference between you and Valorant?”

Say something!

“Both you and Valoran are monsters, it would have been better if both of your heads had been cut off and hung in the square!”

“A monster plotting treason and manipulating the empire!”

“A mentally ill person with no emotions!, a deceiver! It’s as if you encouraged Ioannes to revolt! know? More people might die because of you! A hypocrite who sheds tears over the death of soldiers on such a topic! You will die and go to hell.”

“Why did my father save someone like you… Just you and Grand Duchess Fulvia. I will let them both die.”

He, who had never responded to my cursing, criticism, or scolding, reacted for the first time.

I feel a little joy at the fact that he flinched at the story of Grand Duchess Fulvia.

okay? Are you reacting to this story too?

“Ha?”

I’m glad I found his weakness.

It makes me feel a little better knowing that I can make him suffer.

“Ah! Come to think of it. Grand Duchess Fulvia died trying to protect a monster like you?”

His face distorted little by little.

When his always relaxed expression became distorted, I felt a sense of freedom and coolness that I had never felt before.

“Why? A monster subject with no emotions. Do you feel bad when I talk about your family?”

Devian comes up to me and grabs my collar.

“Do whatever you want, whether you curse me or hit me. But if you bring up your mother just one more time, I won’t let you go.”

Monster, you have a weakness too, right?

It’s hard to breathe, but at this moment, it’s more important to me that he feels the pain.

“Cough… Cough…”

When he lets go of my collar, I clear my throat and bring up the story about the Archduchess again, hoping to make him angry.

“Ah~ Our poor Grand Duchess Fulvia. A poor woman who was abused by her husband all her life and lost her life while trying to protect her son.”

For the first time, his expression falls and his frown deepens as he approaches me and grabs my head.

and…

-Whisk!

He pulls me back roughly and makes eye contact with me.

“I said I wouldn’t leave you alone?”

He spits in that disgusting face and says:

-Tsk!

“Shut up! Traitor.”

Black eyes looking at me clearly.

He opens his mouth with an angry face.

“If I bring up my mother one more time. At that time, I will kill both Joey and the Empress. Do you understand?”

For the first time in my life, my body is shaking as I feel life, but apart from that, my head feels refreshed.

I’m so satisfied that he’s this angry.

I like his angry face.

It doesn’t make sense that I’m the only one in pain like this, right?

You must hurt as much as I hurt.

His pain, his pain.

Ah… I wish he would hurt more.

The sight of that monster in pain stimulates something different from the instinct to pursue survival.

His life is definitely scary.

However, it gives me great happiness to be able to hurt his heart to the point of killing himself.

“Pfft…!”

“You can get those damn Epirus and Ezip back, right? joy? You think I’m going to let Joey get into an arranged marriage?! If you don’t know, just shut up!”

Ah… please make it hurt more.

That way you will pay for your sins.

“Hehe… Puhaha! try! Try it! Just touch our family with a finger! At that time…”

Are you messing with my family? If you can, do it.

“I die too.”

Because when I die, I will destroy all your power that you like.