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[Episode 133] – Dependence (2)

“…sorry. I was so busy with work. “I’m very late, right?”

“Paddy, not really? “In fact, it’s nice to be alone and have a lot of time to think.”

Titania glanced down and looked down at Vivian. My mother, who said it was good to be alone, contrary to what she said, had a look of relief on her face.

He seemed to notice that he had arrived and came to meet him at the door. A relaxed expression with a sigh of relief. Fingers twitching, not knowing where to put them. My mother definitely looked different than she did four days ago.

Titania smiled as she looked at that scene, held Vivian’s hand as she didn’t know what to do, and entered the room. I could feel my mother’s hand shaking slightly as our hands touched each other.

“sorry. “I tried to visit you as much as possible, but I never had time.”

“Oh, no, it’s okay. Phew…”

Titania smiled at the sight of Vivian sighing in relief once again. Anyone who saw my mother right now looked like a puppy that had been abandoned by its owner.

‘A little bit, did you understand how I felt?’

The loneliness of being left alone. There was no way to know that pain unless you experienced it yourself. Therefore, Titania planned to let Vivian, who pushed her away once again, experience it for herself.

How painful and lonely he felt while his mother was gone.

‘I’m sorry, but it’s all your fault.’

Was four days too long? Seeing him anxious made me feel sorry for him, but also loved him. Titania couldn’t help but laugh at the change in her mother, who seemed to finally understand her feelings a little.

Vivian, who had been wriggling her fingers, sighed again, raised her head and looked at Titania. He then urged Titania as if he wanted to end this situation quickly.

“So, have you thought about it now?”

“…Thoughts?”

At that moment, Vivian felt moved to tears. Vivian became angry and raised her voice at the sight of Titania tilting her head and looking at her with an attitude and expression that seemed to have completely forgotten her.

“you…! You said you needed time to gather your thoughts! You asked me to wait…! so…!”

“sorry. Because I was so busy, I didn’t have time to think personally. You know, right? What position am I in now? “The position of queen is not a very comfortable position.”

Shocked, Vivian’s shoulders trembled. Vivian bit her lower lip and somehow swallowed her anger in response to Titania’s answer that made it impossible for her to get angry even if she wanted to.

Titania looked as if she was truly sorry, as if she were sorry, and got down on one knee and wrapped the backs of Vivian’s hands. Then he looked up at Vivian with a slight smile.

“really sorry. Honestly, how can I decide? “The reason I can endure such difficult and difficult work is because my mother is by my side.”

“……”

“So, can you give me a little more time to think about it? I don’t know when I will organize my thoughts… but I ‘promise’ that I will organize my thoughts as soon as possible. When that time comes…”

Titania glanced at Vivian’s shackles. It’s as if he’s going to release this once he’s finished thinking about it. It was a gaze that led to such an ‘illusion’. Vivian eventually nodded silently.

“Thank you very much. mother. Really, I think I’m able to survive like this thanks to my mother. It’s been really hard since I became queen. So, please stay by my side for a little while. yes?”

“…okay.”

Vivian eventually gritted her teeth and answered.

Titania’s voice seemed to be lingering in my ear, saying ‘Just a little bit’. How can I refuse when he begs me so much? Besides, I promised it would be just a little bit. I thought it was somewhat okay.

“Really… just a little bit.”

Vivian narrowed her brows and looked at Titania with wide eyes. Titania smiled and nodded as if she was really happy to see that. As soon as Vivian gave permission-

“Okay then, I’ll just go back.”

“Uh, huh? already…?”

“yes. I really took the time just to look at my mother’s face. “I have to go back right now.”

Titania spoke calmly and stood up. How many minutes have passed? Vivian’s pupils shook as if there had been an earthquake at the sight of Titania leaving less than ten minutes later.

“Next time I will come to you sooner than this time.”

“ah…”

Titania gives a brief farewell. Seeing him immediately turn his back and try to run out of the room, Vivian unconsciously tried to reach out, but then flinched and quickly put her hand back in place.

‘What are you going to do when you catch him? ‘I said it would come soon anyway.’

Vivian smiled shyly and just watched Titania leaving the room. I didn’t even say hello, I just looked at him. In the quiet room again, Vivian took a deep breath and exhaled.

In a room where even the air was quiet, the only sound that could be heard was the sound of one’s own breathing. The room I was left in was extremely quiet, as if the voice I heard earlier was a lie.

‘…Let’s wait.’

Vivian sighed softly and fell onto the bed. The shackles tied to my ankles were swinging under the bed, and the sound of clanking chains filled the room. So that this silence disappears even just a little bit.

‘…Because I promised.’

Next time I will come sooner than this time. I was sure he would come within two days at the latest. With only the intention of waiting for Titania, Vivian quietly closed her eyes and fell asleep.

However, after this, the day Vivian meets Titania again.

It was exactly one week after that day.

*

Vivian began ordering drinks from the maids rather than books or other items. When I drank alcohol, my depressed mood disappeared and I was able to fall asleep quickly. I started drinking to make time pass faster.

The first two days after drinking went by really quickly. As soon as I got drunk, I fell asleep, and as soon as I got drunk, I fell asleep again. However, as time passed, the amount of alcohol consumed gradually increased, and only by drinking a lot could you get drunk.

The number of empty liquor bottles in the room increases every day, and so on for another day, two days, three days, four days. It has been exactly four days since Titania came to the room. In the end, Vivian made a ridiculous mistake.

Vivian woke up, covered her head with a hangover, and frowned as she looked at a note on her desk. The short text written on the note was as follows.

[It would be best to drink only a little. No matter how much I tried to wake him up, he wouldn’t wake up, so I’m leaving a note like this. Next time, I want to see your awake face.]

“ah…!”

Vivian frowned in frustration when she found out that Titania had been coming and going while she was sleeping. I was irritated thinking that I couldn’t meet Titania, who came every four days, because she was drunk.

“I heard you come here often! They said it would come sooner than last time! But why on earth…!”

Why are you coming so late? The moment I tried to say that, my throat got so tight that no words came out. When on earth will Titania’s thoughts end? I wanted to break these damn shackles and run away right now.

The anger that welled up was not limited to Titania. Veronica, Ainsel, and even Katharina were targets of anger. Vivian screamed, asking why on earth he wasn’t coming.

In a fit of frustration, Vivian picked up a bottle of alcohol that was lying on the floor, opened the cap, and began pouring it into her mouth. Titania won’t come for four days anyway. therefore…

Drop, drop, tears flowed silently down Vivian’s cheeks.

Uncontrollably, thick tears flowed down my cheeks and fell to the floor. Is it because I couldn’t overcome the alcohol or because I couldn’t overcome the excitement? Maybe it’s both.

“Haa… I said just a little bit…”

Vivian wiped away her tears with the back of her hand and flopped down on the bed with a deep sigh. I thought I would just drink until Titania came, but Vivian started drinking less after that day.

Well, it would have been difficult if I got drunk again and couldn’t meet Titania. Vivian decided that from now on she would not get completely drunk, but only enough to come to her senses.

*

Another three days passed, and it was exactly a week since I last saw Titania’s face. Let’s sit on the bed and drink while listening to the sound of chains clanging.

“Are you just drinking all day again?”

The door opened gently and Titania entered the room with a grin. When I saw Titania’s face for the first time in a week, many indescribable emotions welled up deep in my heart.

I wanted to scream and ask why he came now, and I also thought that I was happy to see him after such a long time. Vivian wanted to say something to Titania, but she didn’t know what to say, so she pursed her lips.

In the end, Vivian turned her head and avoided Titania’s gaze. I was angry because I missed him so much, but when I actually saw him, I felt like I didn’t want to see him for some reason. It was a contradictory feeling.

“No matter how much I said you can do whatever you want in this room, it’s difficult if you just drink like this. Or are you protesting to me in this way?”

Vivian, who took a sip of her drink, laughed and glared at Titania. ‘Why am I protesting?’ Since Titania had asked for ‘a little’ time to think, it was none other than himself who said he would wait.

Vivian said she was just angry because that ‘just a little bit’ had lasted too long, but what she was feeling right now was nothing more or less than that. She took a gulp of the drink in her hand to soothe her bitter stomach.

Titania smiled as she looked at Vivian, who looked very angry. Then, he picked up the wine bottle rolling on the floor and walked towards where Vivian’s gaze was directed.

“It would have been better if you had called me instead of drinking this much alcohol… alone.”

“I? you? under!”

Vivian burst out laughing as if she was shocked and glared angrily at Titania. However, Titania ignored Vivian’s gaze and looked at Vivian, shaking the liquor bottle in her hand.

The moment their eyes met, Vivian became more and more irritated by some unexplainable feeling. That child, who only looked at himself with the corners of his eyes cutely curled, was a child you couldn’t hate.

How can you hate that kid? He was a child raised with sincerity and love for over ten years. No matter how much she did this to herself, Titania was a child she could not truly hate.

In the end, Vivian turned her head to avoid Titania’s gaze, clicked her tongue, and responded in a sarcastic tone. He was clinking his drink glass and speaking in a tone that seemed to make fun of the immature behavior of a ‘child’.

“Are you saying you know how to drink? “What kind of alcohol does a child who has just become an adult drink?”

At that moment, the cork fell out of the liquor bottle in Titania’s hand with a popping sound, and immediately fell to the floor and rolled around. Titania approached Vivian with a smile and a bottle of alcohol-

“……”

“Why why…?”

He just curled the corners of his mouth and smiled. There was a heavy silence for a moment, and then Titania put the mouth of the bottle to her mouth and began pouring it into her mouth like drinking water.

Did he know that Titania could drink like that? Titania’s throat vibrated several times with a popping sound, and the wine bottle began to tilt upward. Titania drank half of it in an instant.

Vivian, who was surprised to see Titania holding wine in her mouth, just stared at her blankly. Even so, I was worried that if I drank like that, I would feel sick.

The moment I was staring blankly like that.

“town-?!”

It really happened in an instant. For a moment, Vivian widened her eyes, feeling a sense of déjà vu, thinking she had experienced something like this once. No, I had already been attacked by Titania once.

Titania suddenly lowered her head to capture Vivian’s lips and cupped Vivian’s face with both hands as if holding her chin like a glass. I twisted, rubbed, and forcefully crushed my lips to force them open.

I hit Titania on the shoulder and pushed her, telling her to go away and not do this, but it was no use. Finally, Titania pressed Vivian’s chin and forced her lips to part.

Also, I was attacked by Titania.

The wine that Titania had been holding flowed between Vivian’s thinly opened lips, filling Vivian’s mouth. The wine flows down Vivian’s esophagus, making the sound of air.

Just like a mother bird feeding her baby birds, my mouth was instantly filled with the wine that Titania had given me. Vivian came to her senses and tried to spit out the wine, but Titania did not allow it.

In an instant, the tongue between her lips thoroughly licked the wine in Vivian’s mouth. The moment Vivian realized that Titania’s tongue was in her mouth, she jumped up in her seat.

“town! Ugh!!”

No matter how much she screamed, Titania wouldn’t let Vivian go. Their tongues were forcibly tangled together, and saliva and wine flowed between Vivian’s lips and down her chin.

It was an instant before the white negligee I was wearing turned red. Vivian’s mind became hazy as she felt as if her mouth had become a glass of wine. I felt like I was going to run out of breath at any moment.

The extremely forceful kiss continued until Vivian came to her senses and bit Titania’s lip. As soon as a crunching sound came out of her mouth, Titania widened her distance from Vivian.

“haha….! “You really… again…!!”

Titania took a step back, smiled brightly, and looked down at Vivian, licking ‘something’ mixed with saliva and wine that flowed down the corner of her mouth with her tongue. Really, a terribly funny laugh.

Vivian hated seeing Titania smile at her like that. Because now he knows the meaning of Titania’s smile as she looks at him. That smile…

“how is it? “I know how to drink now, right?”

It was a smile made when viewed as a ‘woman’ rather than a ‘mother’.