episode_0131

Fortunately, the conversation between my mother and I ended well in a scary atmosphere that felt like walking on thin ice.

There are only three things my mom suggested.

first. Be sure to use contraception.

second. If you have an accident, come and tell us right away.

And the last one.

“Just by looking at his face, you seem to be in love with him, so don’t miss out. In my mother’s opinion, there is no other husband like Hyukjin.”

Make sure to hold on to it and get married.

I nodded at this truly motherly suggestion, but I also asked my mother for forgiveness in my heart.

I don’t think I’ll be able to keep it from the first time, Mom.

I already thought the odds of interracial sex were low, so I used a lot of contraception without birth control.

To be honest, taking pills or using a condom lowers the chances, but even that doesn’t guarantee perfect contraception, right?

If it’s a battle of odds anyway, wouldn’t it be okay to not use contraception?

As I was thinking about putting a mango in my mouth, my mom asked me a question in a curious voice.

“But how did you happen to make eye contact with him? Even when your mom went to your house, you were disgusted.”

“Well? I still have doubts. How did I end up liking such a pervert? Ah…”

“They say all men are wolves and perverts. No wonder Hyukjin is a pervert.”

“He’s a bit harsh, Mom. Are you really trying to do it all the time? My sex drive is not small, but I just can’t keep up with Hyukjin.”

“…How bad is it?”

I explained in detail what had happened so far to my mother, who asked questions with a surprised look on her face.

When I heard that I had tried in-flight jabs, I added a little lie about using contraceptives, except for the flagrant thing.

Then my mother’s face hardened and she spoke to me in a serious voice.

“Is he really a person? How can someone do this for four days without stopping? That’s all your father did during his time in Leeds without stopping, right?”

“There is a fox with nine adorable tails, but it may not be a human. I think it’s even more amazing that my dad and mom formed a relationship for a day, right?”

What kind of fight has Dad been fighting against Mom?

Wasn’t the reason he worked so hard at the gym and still maintained such a great body to survive his mother?

As I was silently applauding my father for surviving my mother’s spell so far, my mother smiled happily and spoke to me again.

“You caught one pair really well, my daughter. When you get married, will you make a soccer team with your kids?”

“Hehe… It is said that the chances of having children are very low for people of different species. Even if you want to, you can’t do it?”

“I don’t know that. The probability is low, but it doesn’t mean it’s non-existent, right? Mom thinks it’s possible.”

Mom continued speaking while putting a mango in her mouth.

“I don’t think there’s any point in using contraceptives. No, can you even use contraceptives in the first place? It would be close to a dozen times in four days, right? My daughter, tell me the truth. Didn’t you?”

He narrows his eyes and asks questions.

They asked if it was true that I used birth control or if I lied.

The atmosphere suddenly became chilly.

Looking at my mother’s angry face, I held out my flippers in a trembling voice.

“Oh, no?! Well, I piled it up!”

“I don’t think so? Do you think your mom doesn’t know about you and Hyukjin? Especially since I’ve been seeing Hyukjin for how many years? Why don’t you tell me the truth right now?”

“Well, that is…”

Since it seemed like my mom had already given the answer, I lowered my head and spoke in a low voice.

“Ah, as I said before, the chances of getting pregnant between different species are extremely high… Well, so just relax…”

“Phew…..”

I confessed it honestly, but my mother sighed in despair.

He touches his forehead as if he has a headache, and shakes off his anger by munching on the mango on his plate.

Inside the house, there was an uncomfortable silence.

As I gulped and swallowed in that cold atmosphere, my mother quietly opened her mouth.

“I support you. I hope your relationship with your boyfriend goes well, and I also hope that your relationship becomes stronger.”

“…Yes.”

“But the child is a little different. Are you ready to take responsibility? What are you going to do with the show when the baby is born? Can you keep broadcasting like that?”

He brings up realistic problems and points them out.

From broadcasting to financial issues, my mother scolded me by mentioning numerous problems, and I just listened in silence.

Because that’s true.

There are a number of walls you have to overcome to get married to this guy.

First of all, the biggest wall among them is Internet broadcasting, which saved my life.

How many thousands of viewers will let me go if I announce that I am quitting broadcasting?

There are a lot of people in the world, and there are also a lot of crazy people. It is clear that no matter what happens, it will definitely happen.

Just say you’re not feeling well and then announce your retirement?

I don’t think it would matter if I did that. Since we spend most of our time at home anyway, how can there be any controversy?

However, I also think it is rude to tell lies to the people who are grateful to you for saving their lives.

I survived because there were shallow perverts who watched the broadcast, and thanks to saving my life, I was able to connect with Hyukjin.

Would it be better to just tell the truth like Hyukjin said? Then, I think it will end neatly without any controversy that will arise in the future.

I’m worried.

What choice should I make?

And will that choice lead to the best outcome?

As I closed my eyes and thought of a way to overcome the reality I had realized, I felt a warm hand stroking my head.

A warmth that brings peace to a confused mind, even if only for a moment.

I cautiously opened my eyes and asked my mom.

“Mom.”

“Tell me.”

“Would it be better to lie so that you can enjoy immediate comfort, or would it be better to tell the truth, which will bring you more happiness later, even if it is difficult now?”

Mom was silent for a moment, as if she was thinking about it, and then asked back in a languid voice.

“The former means that the future is uncertain, and the latter means that the future is somewhat determined, right?”

“Yes.”

“Then the latter is better. If you can endure discomfort and enjoy more happiness in the end, wouldn’t everyone choose the latter?”

With my mom’s advice, I was able to put an end to my worries, and I turned on the broadcast as soon as I got home.

—–

A broadcast that airs in two or three weeks.

Feeling a familiar yet slightly unfamiliar feeling, I took a deep breath to calm my trembling heart.

Can I do well?

I thought that I should remove the bull’s horn as soon as possible, and I thought that if I did it late, the ramifications would be much bigger, so I grew it. Am I making the wrong choice?

Should I have been a little more prepared? Should I think about it for one more day and turn it on? I’ve retired, but what if Hyukjin doesn’t marry me?

My mind was filled with confusion due to rising anxiety, but I gathered my composure and grabbed the mouse.

Yes, it’s something that has to end someday.

Now that I’m only looking at one person, I can’t be someone else’s daughter, right?

Calm your anxiety and set a title for the broadcast.

The title is enough to attract aggro [Announcing important information].

After typing the broadcast title, I pressed the start broadcast button without hesitation.

Viewers started flowing in quickly as soon as the broadcast started.

They must have felt uneasy about the black screen, which was completely different from before, so they forced themselves to chat playfully.

[What? Why is the screen like this? Host, please check the broadcast screen.]

[I turned it on after 2 weeks, but why is there no cam? Release it quickly first!!!]

[Aggro, you’re so fucking good at it haha. Are you trying to show off some kind of crazy sexual desire today?]

[I’m so anxious, host… It’s good news, right? Not bad news, right? Say something…]

[Everyone knows that they will just say nonsense like I’m not a sexual person anymore.]

[Stop playing around and quickly open Paint as usual. What kind of aggro is this?]

Viewers who are anxious, viewers who are nervous, viewers who are upset as usual, etc.

As I checked the chats showing different reactions, I opened my mouth helplessly.

“It’s been a while, everyone. How have you been?”

As the soft voice, devoid of superficiality and playfulness, rings out, viewers become more anxious.

He asks if something has happened and even leaves a small donation out of concern.

And seeing them like that, the guilt that settled in a corner of my heart grew bigger and bigger.

Maybe that’s too selfish.

Wouldn’t it be a real bitch to take all the help you can get and then run away without receiving anything in return?

While blaming myself, I slowly say one word.

“Today, I bring some bad news to you and me.”

He continues speaking with gloom and guilt.

“I think today will be the last day of the broadcast. The reason is, hehe…”

After taking a deep sigh, he throws a bomb at the viewers who express their doubts.

“I found someone I love. I’m even thinking about getting married, but I feel like broadcasting will be a big obstacle after I get married.”

I finished my sentence while looking at the chat window that came up sparsely even though it wasn’t frozen.

“Sorry, I can’t broadcast anymore. I don’t have the confidence to do it, really.”

As I spoke gloomily, silence seemed to continue.

[First of all, I want to see the top of the guy who stole it from the head of the room. Can you show me the top?]

Starting with the sponsorship, angry chatter from viewers began pouring in.

Not for me, but for Hyukjin.