episode_0130

Every moment is unbelievable.

That my belly was as big as Namsan and that I was about to give birth, that it was me who was being rushed to the delivery room, and that it was Rager who was holding my hand tightly to comfort me as I was afraid of the pain of childbirth.

It all seems like a lie.

Is this really true? Am I really having a baby?

… all those leisurely fantasies were blown away when full-blown labor pains began.

“Gyaaah!!!”

It was a pain that made me think I was going to die. It was incomparable to any pain I’ve ever felt in my life.

… No, strictly speaking, it hurt more when that silver-haired punk blew my wrist off, but I was also completely on the verge of death at that time.

There was nothing comparable to the pain experienced in a state of vivid, full-on suffering.

The nurse wiped the sweat from my forehead as I lay in the delivery room, staring at the ceiling, and gave me a pep talk.

“Please hold on for a moment, mother. From now on, you need to practice taking deep breaths.”

“Ahh, why, why? From now on, what the… .”

“Later, after about ten hours of this, that’s when it really hurts.”

“Huh?!”

This fucking shit!!

After such a long time, the curses I had barely held back while thinking about Gureumi almost burst out in my voice as a result of my survival instinct. This painful state lasts for ten hours? And the real pain hasn’t even started yet? What the hell is this!

Before I had time to complain, the pain came again. It was excruciating pain, as if all my internal organs were being grabbed by something and pulled out, and the symptoms continued to be so precarious that I felt like each and every bone in my pelvis was being stretched and that all the bones around my pelvis would be crushed at any moment.

“Ahh, ugh, ugh, hah… .”

I screamed so loudly that I was almost exhausted. I had no strength left in my body and my throat was so hoarse that I couldn’t even make a sound.

How many hours have passed?

I gradually lose my sense of time.

The delivery room ceiling, which was pure white and somewhat bluish, slowly began to turn yellow. I thought it was absurd that I felt this vague feeling of ‘I might die’ while giving birth, something I had never felt even when fighting Damien.

Of course I won’t die. Since I am an immortal being in this world, a tragedy like losing my life during childbirth won’t happen, but I could feel the pain so vividly that I would rather die.

When I felt like I was going to die, there was one person who immediately came to mind.

“Lager… .”

“Yes?”

“Lager, call me, call my husband. I’m dying… .”

I wanted to see him.

It may not be of much help, but I wish someone would at least hold my hand. I just wanted someone to share this pain that may never end, that’s all.

Following the nurse’s instructions, Lager came in hurriedly wearing a sanitary uniform. As soon as I saw Lager, tears welled up in my eyes and I poured out resentment that I didn’t mean.

“Why, why didn’t you come in from the beginning!”

“No, that’s just, I’m afraid it might be too distracting and disturbing… .”

“It hurts so much. I think I’m going crazy. Aaaah… . The clouds, the clouds, come out a little faster.”

He kept whining and complaining, so I told him to do it again.

“Cloud, hurry. Come out quickly. Stop hurting Mom and come out quickly.”

“Hold my hand.”

“Yeah, hand.”

“Tell me you love me.”

“I love you.”

“One more time… .”

“I really love you. The most in the world. You know that, right?”

“Of course I know… Aaaah …

Another sharp pain came. I threw back my chin and screamed, and Lager grabbed my hand tightly. Lager’s hand that I was holding onto was shaking. If someone saw me, they would think I was giving birth. I couldn’t believe it, so I laughed in the midst of all this pain.

“I’d rather give birth to you.”

Lager probably meant when she was a woman, but since the nurses had no way of knowing that, it seemed like they only heard it as a loving comment from a husband.

“I’ll give birth to you instead.”

So I responded in kind.

What does it matter who gave birth to it?

Anyway, what’s important is that the fruit of our love, a new life, is now born.

I caught my breath and focused my consciousness again. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and imagined how the child must feel.

The one who is the most frustrated is probably Gureumi. How much does he want to come out? Thinking about Gureumi crying loudly and wanting to be held in his mother’s arms, I try to gain strength a little more…

“Aaaah!!!”

I really thought I might die. I thought I was going crazy! No matter how much I tried to turn the happiness circuit and overcome it with maternal love, the pain was still pain. It seemed like the ‘real pain’ I mentioned earlier was coming.

“Please wait a little longer, Mom. The head is starting to show now.”

“You can only see the head now?!”

“When the head comes out, it’s actually over. It’s the hardest to get the head out.”

“Ah, okay… It hurts too much to be relieved ooo!!!”

Come out quickly please, please aaaah!!!

At that moment, it suddenly occurred to me that maybe it was a really crazy thought, but no, my mind had already been about 80% out of my mind since a while ago, so I asked Lager for one favor in order to lessen the pain.

“Lager, huh, huh, I, I’m here… .”

“Huh! What is it? Tell me.”

“Me over there… .”

“Poke me with your tail… .”

The medical staff tilted their heads and Lager was astonished.

“Are you crazy?!”

“Ahhh, ugh, that, that’s the ultimate pleasure, driving out all the pain! Kkaaah!!”

Seeing me screaming with a hoarse voice and sweat dripping down my face, he must have decided that persuasion would be difficult, so he grabbed the end of my tail that was hanging down, thinking that I would be left to my own devices.

“I hope it’s a positive influence…!”

“Quickly, quickly!”

“Go!”

Kook.

As I poked my arm with the tip of my tail as if giving a shot, the pain that had been squeezing my whole body instantly transformed into pleasure. My head turned over as I felt the sensation of every joint of my fingers and every toe dancing, and the scream that felt like I was going to die slowly began to heat up.

“Eek, haeujeot, eugieik?!”

My toes were cramping so hard that they were almost curling, but ironically, my body was completely relaxed and in the optimal condition for the baby to be born without any problems. I was a little worried that the doctor might be embarrassed when he saw this awkward appearance.

“Oh, it looks like the mother is experiencing an orgasm during childbirth.”

“Is there really such a thing?”

When Lager asked with a half-doubtful expression, the doctor nodded vigorously.

“In cases where mothers like you try to give birth naturally without an analgesic injection, some mothers experience extreme pain and experience a pleasure they will never experience again in their lives.”

“How do you know that?”

“I’m embarrassed, but actually, me too… .”

Oh, by the way, the doctor is a woman.

Before I could sympathize with the doctor’s sudden orgasm, another sharp pain surged through me. And soon, it was replaced by pleasure, sending electrical impulses through my brain.

“Hah, huh, hiyaaat?!”

“Comes out. Just give me a little more strength!”

“Come out, come out… !!”

“No, I didn’t mean to give you that much strength!”

“Gaaah!!!”

The screen went blank with a strong stimulation that felt like fireworks were going off in my head, almost disappearing, and at the same time, the weight of the stomach that I had been used to for 10 months suddenly disappeared.

When I came to my senses.

“Aww, aww! Aww!”

I heard a baby crying.

Why is that?

The sound of crying brought tears to my eyes.

Lager was also wiping away tears as if he felt something strange.

The nurse held the baby and showed it to me. It was amazing how the baby, who had been crying sadly, stopped crying little by little when he was held in my arms and smelled me.

This little creature, groping me around with awkward, clumsy movements, was so mysterious and wonderful.

I can’t hear you very well, though.

But I called once anyway.

“Cloud, Mom… . Mom.”

I’m so happy, I’m so glad.

Strangely, I couldn’t help but cry.

That day.

I became a mother.