episode_0127

I roughly pushed Jules away, who was still sleeping, and went out to wash up.

I left Shir, who was sleeping, and went out of the cave to find Dennis.

I was pretty blown away in town.

We are not of the same race, we are slaves but not slaves, we are part of the village but we are not close.

The watchdog seemed to be contemplating whether to catch me or not. Then, he makes way for me.

“Thank you for your hard work.”

“You had a hard time too.”

The wolf also bows its head again when its owner does not pay attention.

But the suspicious look in his eyes cannot be erased. You have forgotten me.

Because I am literally floating in this position, even the children and Heilang treat me as a stranger.

But it’s not a bad thing.

“Lee?”

“Are you awake?”

Dennis was carrying a small wild boar on his shoulder.

“I just went hunting. Because this guy likes meat.”

“You are diligent.”

The cockatrice looks at me with its characteristic tilting motion.

When you look at those clear eyes, it’s as if your mind is being read.

But even for a moment. The guy took the meat that Dennis had cut off with his hand and started eating it.

“What’s happening this early in the morning? I guess the fatigue hasn’t resolved yet.”

“I came to say hello in advance. I’m leaving this town today.”

ah. “Dennis smiled bitterly.

“Is that so…? I’m going to feel lonely.”

“I plan to stop by once or twice when I have time.”

Caw!

hmm? It’s as if he’s saying hello to me.

“Shouldn’t you give this guy a name now?”

“It hasn’t been built yet. Because a name is precious. Couldn’t Lee recommend a good name for this guy?”

I? Then there is a name that suits you perfectly.

“Kinch. How about it?”

“Kimchi…?”

for a moment.

I was going to do the opposite of chicken, but I think the name will be kimchi. It’s not that kimchi is bad, but kimchi doesn’t work.

“No. Kin.Chiyo.”

“Tin…Chi?”

I don’t know. All you need is kimchi.

“Yes.”

Dennis smiles elegantly.

He is handsome and even smiles easily, so I can see why Julia was so taken by Dennis.

“Tinchi… It just sticks in my mouth. Tinchy…”

Dennis strokes the cockatrice’s crest.

“From today, your name is Tinchi.”

I’m sorry, Tinchy.

For giving me a strange name.

“Even if I go, you must continue to protect Shir.”

“Of course.”

It’s time to go soon.

“Take care of yourself, and I’ll be leaving.”

“Lee, I pray that Diana’s blessings be with you.”

“Dennis too.”

I waved to Dennis and returned to town.

I secretly ate the leftover food I cooked yesterday.

As Hosott has an excellent sense of smell, it will not touch the food even if it is slightly sour.

All of that was up to Nana Deberg.

It’s cold, but delicious. It seems that having a good nose is not necessarily a good thing.

After filling my stomach to a certain extent, I washed up in the restored canal, returned home, and started packing.

Even though it was a burden, there was nothing special about it.

Clothes, will, paper and fountain pen, and Precious Blood.

The bow and dagger were such expensive weapons that I didn’t dare take them, so I decided to leave them behind.

I only took Karambit. Of course, I should also say hello to Felix, but in human terms he is an old man in his sixties.

I am reluctant to say hello to such a person even after waking him up.

If I stop by again someday, I’ll say hello.

After washing up and getting everything ready, I went into the house and made eye contact with something blue.

“────?!”

It was Jules.

“···If you wake up, leave your bed and get up. My heart almost dropped.”

Juul is looking at me with his eyes wide and eerie.

“These days, strangely enough, I feel like I have experienced it all. So I was thinking about it carefully.”

···Deja vu?

It’s a story to laugh about, but I know best what the servants of this world do. Maybe my memories have been altered without my knowledge… that’s not true.

Thanks to you, I get goosebumps.

“Don’t say anything weird. Because I’m scared.”

Jules closed his eyes.

“I’m not just doing this about you. Because I was often like this even before I met you.”

Jules got up and stretched.

The healthy body stretched and created curves.

Jules looked in the mirror, shook off her hair, and let out a big sigh.

“Have you said hello to everyone you know?”

“I think everyone is still sleeping. It’s the same with waking up.”

The gap of 9 months was too long.

I have lived face-to-face with children in the village for less than half of that time. Jules passed me by, looking at me with glaring eyes, perhaps disapproving, half-asleep, or perhaps both.

“I’ll bring Shira with me, so just wait a moment.”

“Yes.”

Am I in too much of a hurry?

In the first place, I am a slave. It’s not an animation for children, so is there any need to have a farewell party for slaves?

The children’s awkward facial expressions made it difficult to talk to them at first.

Because unlike Shir, his facial expression towards me was fundamentally different.

How long has it been?

The sound of something running was heard, and the door was pushed open with force.

Boom!

It was so strong that the hinges shattered and the door fell.

But Shir, who destroyed someone else’s house, didn’t care and came towards me.

“Don’t go.”

I felt sad.

Big…! After all, it’s just you and Juul.

“I called you to say goodbye, why are you so angry?”

“Why are you doing that?! Why are you suddenly trying to leave without saying a word?”

I called you here to talk.

“People will wake up. Don’t get excited and talk quietly.”

Shir, who had been huffing and puffing, finally lost his momentum and sat down next to me.

But the angry eyes still remain.

“Are you doing this because you were attacked by Mira?”

“No.”

“Is it because people treat you difficult?”

“No.”

“Then why are you doing that?!”

“Why are you so excited?”

Shir, who was offended by my words, closed his mouth.

“Just because I go doesn’t mean I can’t meet you. Maybe we can meet sometimes. The Root Snake Village also told you in advance.”

Shir took a deep breath.

I guess he thought I was saying it lightly.

“······There’s no way we’ll meet again! Didn’t you see humans being eaten in the territory of the southern subhumans?!”

…Now that I think about it, that’s it.

I guess we won’t be able to meet again. I thought I was too optimistic. Thanks to you, I laughed.

“Why do you understand me?! You said we could see each other again?! What’s funny?!”

“I thought you were stupid, but I thought you were surprisingly sharp.”

I have no intention of letting Shir know my identity.

Even if I tell you, it will only make the story longer. Shir would have to come up with an excuse that would make sense.

“Shir. Do you know why I wear this?”

I tapped the table with my will.

“······I heard.”

“I can’t even claim self-defense. A ball that fought to the point of death? So what did I get? doesn’t exist. I only heard this story later. Just say, ‘I’m sorry.’ Say.”

I found out while writing the essay.

It was already twisted from the moment I went out to rescue Elysia. No, since before, when I went out to rescue Terub.

I was risking my life for others.

I thought it was because I had given up on life.

Because I didn’t value myself, I was able to sacrifice everything I had for others.

‘That wasn’t it.’

I was twisted. I have no self-love.

If I knew there was a next life, all I had to do was relive my memories of living in Korea, take poison, and commit suicide until I was born as the son or daughter of a rich family.

“What does it matter if you sleep in an animal cage or are ignored? There are Dennis, you, and Jules who treat me like a human being.”

Strange.

Even though I resent it, I don’t actually resent it even a single speck of resentment in my heart.

I feel like I am an actor acting.

Thanks to this mystery, I have come to one conclusion.

Consciously engaging in selfish behavior. Consciously get angry and consciously commit bad behavior. Consciously set my value high.

I must become the devil.

“That’s right. So───.”

I thought “. But after facing the threat of death from Mira, I couldn’t do that anymore. Even though I was in danger of dying, the incident was buried.”

Actually, I have no idea.

I understand everything.

“You and Jules were there too. Even if it was inevitable, Mira never apologized to me after that. Let alone we couldn’t even say a word.”

Shir’s face still shows anger.

“Of course, I don’t mean to blame Mira. It’s simply that this is not a suitable place for me to live.”

“You know that, right?! Mara was excited at that time───!”

“How do I know if Mira still has plans to kill me? No matter how excited a person is, they cannot do that if it is ingrained in their head that the other person is close and important to them.”

It could be so. Because that is the power of God.

Although she didn’t show it, Mira probably didn’t like it every time I called Shir’s name. It must have felt like blasphemy every time Shir’s real name was mentioned.

Shir himself accepted that name, so he just couldn’t say anything. Mira simply followed her convictions and convictions.

The trigger is light, but heavy.

If you kill someone with a gun, the guilt doesn’t go away. Even in modern times when PTSD has been studied, soldiers fighting modern warfare cannot easily kill non-resisting opponents.

They even die because they can’t pull the trigger.

…That’s great determination.

“I will protect you! Other people do, but I────!”

“What have you done for me?”

Shir’s face began to harden.

“I────.”

“I spent half of my servant’s blessing, which would have supported my grandchildren, let alone my whole life, to save you. I asked Yulias to help me learn how to use that power. The crossbow was also designed to deal with the soldiers of the Drekkar Alliance who would come seeking the servant’s blessing.”

If we’re not going to be able to meet anyway, it’s better to break up with each other.

All the monsters that will come to Shir in the future will be using iron swords. What else should I say to make Shir stop loving me?

“You can’t do anything, and you shouldn’t do anything. Your status is different. After all, I am just a slave. And since I am a slave, I will have to live with it from now on. What unfair thing will happen next? I think he might get the death penalty next time.”

“I don’t understand…”

“What?”

Shir’s shaking eyes turn to mine.

“But why weren’t you angry…?”

“What can a slave do when he’s angry? I need to understand the topic.”

“···Is what you said to me a lie?”

“Yes.”

Shir trembles.

Tears began to well up in my transparent eyes.

My lips tremble and I cry.

The intention is to make people fall out of love by telling lies. Also, seeing that this is working, it seems like they are filming a cheap new drama.

Immigration is not possible.

“······Why aren’t you angry?”

“Huh?”

“You’re taking out your anger on me right now, right? But why aren’t you angry?”

Because I’m not angry.

“It’s over now, so why waste more emotions? I have to leave now, so let’s stop here.”

In the end, tears welled up in Shir’s eyes and started to flow.

It’s like a child half a head taller than me crying. I don’t intend to feel it now, but I think I know what it means to have a tongue that is scarier than 10,000 weapons.

By now, you would have understood.

Hello Shir.

how are you.

I felt guilty about Shir, who was crying, and I felt like I couldn’t come back to this village. I put on my shoes, packed my bags, and headed out. Jules was leaning against the wall and looking at me silently.

Of course I was listening…

The eyes are hollow.

“I’m sorry for all this time.”

Rather than saying it stiffly because you’re angry, it’s something you think about and come out naturally. So I was sorry.

“That’s it. How much have you put him to sleep and fed him so far? Is it okay if I bring paper and a fountain pen?”

“Yes.”

Soon, only Shir’s sad cries could be heard loudly in the house. ······Let me explain to Jules why I did that.

Because I wanted to be understood at least by this person. That’s how I left Shir behind and left the Ogre’s nest.