episode_0126

Closed.

All external stimuli. The sensations coming from my body. I shut everything out.

If I didn’t, I felt like I would really die.

Unbearable pain. Pain to the point where I just wanted to die. I had to give up everything.

I gave up touch, sight, and smell.

Trapped in darkness, I waited endlessly, hoping Lily and Helena would rescue me.

Now, even the identity of who I am, the one who has given up even thinking, has plunged into a deep abyss.

As I sank into the lightless abyss.

A faint sound reached me.

Such a tiny sound. But having given up my hearing until now, that small sound rang clearly in my ears.

A voice calling my name.

Someone was crying and calling out to me. Crying endlessly, calling out my name.

With many voices, my body gradually surfaced.

A body escaping from the world. But I was afraid.

Could those voices really be Lily and Helena…? Could it be a trick by the goddess to deceive me?

If I thought about going back out into the world and being tortured by the saint… then my last remaining sanity would truly disappear.

To avoid hearing the sound, I covered my ears with my hands and tried to go back into the abyss, but a warm sensation spread throughout my body.

It felt like proof that I wasn’t a human-like mannequin devoid of any warmth.

Yet, the warmth spreading through my body was clearly human. It was the warmth I had felt every day until now.

“Lily…”

This is Lily. This is the warmth coming from Lily’s body. I couldn’t be mistaken. Do you know how many years I’ve felt Lily’s warmth?

From when Lily was 8 years old until she was 20. Of course, there was an 8-year gap, but a total of 12 years. 12 years.

I would never be mistaken.

Lily is calling out to me. Lily is holding me while crying.

“I have to get up. I have to break free. I have to open up.”

One by one, I opened up the senses that had closed.

First, I opened up touch.

The warmth I felt gently intensified, healing my broken body, and then it was hearing.

“Amelia… Amelia… I’m sorry… I’m sorry…”

Lily’s voice began to ring clearly.

“Nari… Nari… Unnie, I’m sorry…”

The voice of the saint, Irina, who had kidnapped me, also reached me.

I opened up sight to continue to see them crying, but…

“I can’t see… I can’t see anything…”

The eyes that had already been plucked out by the goddess couldn’t see anything. But I wasn’t surprised.

Not being able to see wasn’t new to me.

So, at least I tried to open my mouth to say that I couldn’t hold Lily who was holding me. But that was also impossible.

“Oh, the goddess cut off my arms and legs.”

I reluctantly opened my mouth.

Despite the tremendous pain that surged with each scream I had uttered countless times, I gritted my teeth and said.

“… Lily…”

“Amelia!!”

Lily and Irina, who heard my voice, widened their eyes and looked at me.

Lily was crying with tears, snot, and saliva streaming down her face as she looked at me, and I couldn’t help but smile.

==

We arrived at the saint’s medical room, and everyone began to receive treatment.

Even as Lily received treatment, she didn’t leave my side. Knowing that I was anxious because I could now see nothing and had no arms or legs, she stayed by my side.

Even though I had become accustomed to it, my mental state, endlessly tortured by the goddess, was not normal even to me.

At this point, I wonder if I am the maid and Lily is not.

I’m such a fool.

I’m not even helpful.

Am I just a nuisance? Have the people around me been hurt trying to save me?

If only I weren’t here… No, let’s not think like that.

After some time, Lily embraced me. From what I heard, she said that she would go into the body of Sister Segyesu.

“Sister.”

I spoke to Irina, who had never spoken to me before.

“Sister.”

I called Irina “sister” again.

“…Yes.”

Just hearing her voice made me feel a greater sense of guilt than myself. Understandably so.

It seems that everyone was watching me being tortured and tortured by the goddess.

Because of that, Irina seems to have more guilt than anyone else.

But Irina knew that her caring for me was not a twisted love like that of a goddess, but rather a familial love as a sister.

Her actions of caressing me, washing me, feeding me, all of those were for my sake.

Of course, at first, she probably wanted to kill me, but now that she knows it was not her own heart but the heart of the goddess, she wanted to embrace Irina.

“Sister. Can I see you again? No, let’s definitely meet again.”

“…Yes!”

Irina answered with a lively voice and kissed my forehead.

With that, a slight dizziness came over me, and the scent of longing entered my nose.

The scent of the dense dawn forest.

It was the scent of Sister Segyesu.

She really came back. To where I should be.

==

Lily carefully laid me down on my bed.

“Ha… Hoo…”

Lily came into bed with me to comfort me and hugged me.

Her lips naturally came close to my ear.

Lily’s breath was quite subtle. No, it was lustful.

No matter how you heard it, there was desire in her voice.

While Lily was holding me, she was also holding my body, but her gestures were somewhat uneasy.

She probably wanted to have a relationship with me now, but Lily was probably worried.

I have been tortured by the goddess for a long time and even subjected to sexual torture. If I were an ordinary person, I would have been in a state of complete rejection due to the trauma.

But I was different.

I was worried.

What if Lily hates me? I was thinking.

Lily was quite attached to my body. She even felt jealous of Helena or Camilla, or even Sister Segyesu.

My body was defiled not by a completely different person but by the goddess.

It was not just defiled but deeply stained to the point where it could not be washed away. By the goddess.

For some reason, there was still mana from the goddess in my body. I don’t know why.

But perhaps it was due to the continued torture, sexual torture, and then the healing of the body with the mana of the saint.

From my body, the scent of Sister Irina and Isabelle, similar yet different, flowed.

Perhaps Lily could feel it too.

Honestly, who would like my current state?

No arms, no legs, no eyes.

It would probably be a very gruesome state.

In this state, would Lily still be attached to me? Would she love me?

I was worried.

But the breath of Lily behind me clearly contained a desire to devour me.

I felt like tears would fall, but I didn’t even have eyes to shed tears.

But in response to Lily’s desire, my own arousal began to creep out.

I cautiously spoke.

“Lily.”

“…Yes!”

“My… defiled body—”

“It’s not defiled!!!”

Oh. I thought my heart had dropped for a moment at Lily shouting from behind.

“Oh, s-sorry. Amelie, Amelie is not defiled.”

“Am I not grotesque right now?”

“No, you’re not grotesque. Amelie is beautiful no matter what.”

“Thank you for saying that, even just with words.”

“No. Truly beautiful.”

“I have nothing to offer Lily.”

“You’ve done a lot for me so far. So now, it’s my turn to do something for you.”

In response to Lily’s resolute words, I reluctantly turned my body towards her and leaned in to kiss her.

“Then, will Lily clean my dirty body for me?”

“I-Is that okay?”

“Yes. I want to do it. A lot.”

“… Okay, I understand.”

==

I was afraid to fall asleep.

Honestly, I was worried that if I fell asleep, I would wake up back in the arms of a goddess.

But the warm feeling of Lily’s body all over me calmed my heart.

As I regained my senses and lowered my head, I could still feel a faint sense of pleasure lingering in my chest from Lily’s teeth marks and kisses.

“It’s incredible. Can I really reach climax just with my chest… How am I going to live a normal life like this?”

I was feeling discouraged about my sensitive body when I felt something trying to escape.

And it was from below.

“This is bad…!”

It was clearly a signal from my bladder. The problem was that due to the intense relationship with Lily until dawn, my lower body was in a weakened state. Including my bladder.

As soon as I woke up, the urgent need to urinate hit me like a wave.

I couldn’t hold it in any longer.

I quickly shook Lily awake.

“Umm… Amelia…?”

“Lily. Lily. The, the bathroom…! Bathroom!”

“Is it urgent?”

“Yes. Hurry…!”

It was even difficult to shake Lily awake.

Instead of taking me to the bathroom, Lily helped me lie down properly on the bed.

Then, she brought her mouth to my lower body.

“Lilyyyy!?”

“It’s okay, just relax.”

“This is not okay!!! Huh!?♥”

I was desperately trying to hold back the urge to urinate, but Lily firmly pressed on my bladder without kissing my lower body.

In the end, I…