episode_0125

Hermel looked at me without saying a word, then smiled cheerfully and hugged me.

“Really, Charles is so pathetic.”

“If you say things like this, how can you not fall in love and become a crush? That’s the story?”

“It seems like he knows how much his work excites people.”

Hermel blushed and laughed mischievously, and I smiled slightly as I patted Hermel’s head.

The hair, shining brilliantly in the sunlight, looked as if it had been woven from melted gold, but when it danced between her fingers, it felt like soft silk.

No matter how many times I touch it, I never get tired of it. If time permits, I would like to spend the rest of my life stroking this hair.

“Charles really likes having his head stroked.”

“I like it because it’s Hermel’s head.”

“Ugh… … .”

Hermel lowered his head, poked my stomach with his finger, and said with a pout on his face.

“You don’t do this to other people besides me, right?”

Unlike before, when he was really pouty, anyone could tell that he was joking by the way he spoke and puffed out his cheeks exaggeratedly.

How should I react? … .

After thinking for a moment, I thought it would be better to take Hermel’s prank a little more seriously than as a joke, so I looked down at Hermel with a serious face and said,

“The only person I can say this to is Hermel.”

“ugh, really… … .”

Hermel trailed off and hugged me.

* * *

Is it okay to be this happy?

Since entering the academy, I’ve been thinking about it every day and every hour lately.

Is it okay for me to be happy?

I don’t particularly think that I should be unhappy or that royals should always be noble and lonely. It’s already too late to worry about that image now. The nickname is already the royal mad dog.

Just because I’m so happy right now. I am feeling a happiness that I have never felt before in my life. I thought maybe I was pulling all my future happiness and feeling it all at once.

and… … . No, we’ll have to talk about this later. huh.

Anyway, I just felt a little anxious because of that.

“Ugh… … .”

As if turning my eyes away from that reality, I dug into Charles’ chest.

A soft, warm, and pleasant scent of roses passed my nose.

Could it be that this cozy feeling suddenly disappears? Wouldn’t it be scattered like a handful of dreams?

I gave a little strength to the arm holding Charles’ body.

“You’re acting a lot foolish today.”

“I want to hold you like this just a little longer.”

“Okay. You can hold me as long as you want.”

Charles smiled and stroked my head, and I closed my eyes, surrendering myself to his gentle touch.

Charles’s heart, which was pounding, pounding lightly, still did not waver. That fact made me a little uneasy.

It is true that I am definitely feeling happy. You can see it with your own eyes. However, Charles’ feelings were really very vague. I was anxious because I felt like it would disintegrate at any moment if I didn’t check it again and again.

“Charles.”

“Huh?”

“Kiss me.”

So I end up making a bit of an unreasonable request. That’s why I’m expressing it a little more directly.

“Here?”

Charles looked at me with a smile as if he was troubled, but I paid no attention and pulled on his clothes.

“Yes.”

I know full well that I am selfish and self-indulgent. No, I know better. I’m really sorry about that.

But I like it. I really, truly like it. Even though I’m by your side every day, I want to be with you a little longer. Even though we see each other and talk every day, I feel like it’s not enough.

“I can’t help it.”

Charlotte chuckled, quietly lowered her head, and kissed my forehead.

As soon as soft, warm lips touched my forehead, I felt a tingling sensation and my body trembled, but it was disappointing.

This isn’t enough. Please look at me a little more. I am here. There’s something here that’s yours and no one else’s. Take me and take away my insecurities.

I bit my lip slightly and looked up at Charles. Charles, who was quietly looking down at me, smiled slightly and gently pressed his finger to my forehead.

“That’s all for now.”

“Ah… … .”

When I made a sad, sad face, Charlotte lightly cupped my cheek with both hands and smiled.

“So, let’s go back to the room.”

“… … Yes!”

With a pounding heart, I held Charles’ hand and headed to the dormitory.

It was a normal day, and the walk was no different from before, but my heart was pounding more than usual, and my legs moving forward were trembling gently.

But my legs were shaking not because of fear. Because the only thing that filled my head was joy.

‘Let’s not be nervous. Don’t be nervous… … !’

So we arrived at the room, and Charles immediately locked the door as usual.

As soon as I heard the clicking sound, the tremors increased several times, tens of times, and tormented me.

“Char, Charles! that… … . Now that I’m back in my room… … . What I was doing earlier… … .”

As I spoke, trying to calm my trembling heart, Charles came striding towards me.

I took a step back when I saw that, but my back was blocked by a wall, so there was no room to step back anymore.

Charles, standing in front of me, bent down, and now we were so close that we could feel each other’s breath, and he lifted my chin.

“Umm… … . Chueup… … .”

“Chung――Chueup――”

While Charles’ tongue gently teased the inside of my mouth, all I could do was close my eyes and put my hands together as if in prayer.

Like a baby bird eating feed, all I could do was catch the saliva leaking out of Charles’ mouth.

When Charles’ lips finally parted, I trembled, feeling a tremor that I had never felt before in my life.

“Phew… … . Whoa… … .”

Every time I took a breath, my heart trembled, and my palms were sweaty and slippery.

Why are you doing this? It’s no different from usual, so why am I so nervous? Has he gone?

No, it felt good when Charles kissed me, but he didn’t go away?

Because my mindset is different? No, I don’t think that’s necessarily true… … .

“Why are you so nervous?”

“Huh? no! Just a little… … . Hehe.”

I didn’t really know the reason, so I gave it a vague answer, and Charles smiled kindly and patted my head.

“If you’re that nervous, should we do it next time?”

I felt my heart pounding wildly at that gentle question, but I was so out of breath that I could not answer and just shook my head.

You have to say it. I don’t want Charles to worry.

“Oh, if not today… … . no… … .”

“If it’s not today, you don’t want it?”

Charles chuckled and said that while stroking my cheek. I nodded.

I lay down on the bed following Charles’ gentle lead, and rather than taking off my clothes, Charles held my hand and placed his lips on the nape of my neck.

“Huh!?”

“Hehe… … . Do you like it?”

“Ah, yes… … . Good――Ugh!?”

When I lightly sucked the back of my neck and said, “Tsk,” a tingling sensation came from that area as if electricity had passed through it.

Oh, me. Did you just get away with it?

“Huh? what? Are you gone already? Hehe… … . It’s cute.”

Charles smiled and lightly squeezed my breast, and it felt as if the area where Charles’ hand touched was on fire.

“Ugh!?”

Strange. This is weird. My heart is pounding so hard. This is my first time doing something like this.

“Do you like it?”

“Jo, Joaaa… … !”

I hadn’t even really gone yet, but my tongue was loose and my thighs were trembling.

The emotions that slowly began to well up from the solar plexus soon gave me a pressure that felt like my heart would be crushed. Strangely enough, it wasn’t painful at all.

Oh yeah. This feeling… … . I know this feeling all too well.

“I love you… … ! Charles, I… … ! I really, really love you… … !!”

I let out all that feeling.

“I don’t really need anything like a king… … ! As long as I have Charles, that’s enough… … !!”

Charles didn’t say anything. But every time I finished my trembling words, Charles’ touch became more and more harsh.

The touch that was grabbing my breasts became more and more intense, and what was supposed to be a light kiss became a biting that felt a little bit.

Charles tickled me with his gentle hands and carved his mark on my body with his warm lips.

“Do you really love me?”

I nodded without even thinking about wiping away the tears that had formed in the corners of my eyes.

Charles reached out his hand and wiped away my tears, and only then was I able to see his face.

“Thank you. For loving me.”

Charles was smiling as if he was really happy, but strangely enough, he had a sad face that made my heart ache.

Why are you making that face? You said you were happy. But why are you making that face?

Seeing the absurdity of two conflicting emotions existing at the same time, I tried to call Charles’ name.

“I am a really happy person.”

“Ugh!?”

Charles touched my body before I could open my mouth, and I was unable to say anything as I felt electricity flowing through my body.

That indescribable connection continued until deep into the night.