episode_0124

“Heuh…”

Having somehow managed to safely send the Countess Tigris home, I slumped onto the chair like a slime, taking a breather.

That was a really tough time.

I would rather have scuffled with the Devonshire ducal family; that would have felt more comfortable.

I don’t know why, but the sense of intimidation that a predator has is not something that a commoner like me can easily withstand.

“You’ve worked hard; would you like some tea?”

As I was stuck to the chair, blankly staring at the ceiling, Emily, whose face had also become gaunt, approached and subtly offered the teapot.

I felt a terrible burning sensation in my throat, but I shook my head and laboriously raised my hand, which was trembling violently like a rattlesnake’s tail.

“No… my hands are shaking too much right now to drink.”

“Then, I’ll just fill the cup for you.”

“Okay…”

I answered vaguely, turned my gaze away from Emily, and looked back at the ceiling.

There were quite a few things that were different from what I expected, so I almost messed things up, but I managed to handle it somehow.

In particular, my head turned so white that I almost couldn’t say what I needed to say, but thankfully, I spoke relatively well.

If I had missed even one thing there, it would have been a disaster…

“Huh…?”

Suddenly feeling a sense of threat.

I don’t have any superpowers like a sixth sense, but my survival instinct, which is ingrained in my genes, fiercely warned me that I had forgotten something.

“Hey, Emily.”

“Yes?”

“Did I tell Countess Tigris how to put on the clothes?”

“……”

Emily, who was pouring tea into the cup, flinched.

Emily’s already gaunt face became even more gaunt, and she answered in a trembling voice.

“N-No? You didn’t…?”

“Ugh…”

I contorted my face and grabbed my head.

Other things can be put on with a bit of intuition, but the silk leotard and headband are difficult to put on without knowing how to put the tail and ears into the holes.

This is because they are tailored to the exact size, so if you don’t have the knack, they will either get stuck halfway or not go in at all.

“Gulp…”

Like a tree violently shaken by a typhoon, my teeth chattered.

What if things go wrong because she can’t put on the clothes properly?

What if she’s ridiculed, or looks ugly, or disappoints the Count…?

If I fail like this, she’ll add my presumptuous behavior on top of it and get twice or three times as angry.

“I’m doomed…”

I closed my eyes and dry-washed my face, rubbing it roughly with my hands.

Ah, should I write a will in advance…?

–

As evening came, I started trying on the clothes I had received from Lord William, the second son of Count Hume, and I was faced with an enormous crisis.

The appearance was simple enough, but how to deal with this tail and these ears was what bothered me.

The tail of this silk garment, which barely covers the important parts, has an internal space and a small hole leading to it, so it seems like I could put the tail in if I do it right, but it doesn’t go in easily.

Sometimes it goes in halfway and gets stuck, and other times it’s hard to even get past the hole.

I don’t know why or how this is happening, so I can only suppress my frustrating feelings and blindly poke my tail into the hole.

“Haa~ How did that man make this to be worn…!”

Already the fourth failure.

I sighed deeply and complained about Lord William.

Until I put on the pantyhose, the tail hole was in the right position, and the fit that clung to my skin wasn’t bad, so I felt good, but this silk garment instantly made my anger bubble up.

“Kkeueung…!”

But if I gave up like this, I felt like I would never try on this garment again, so I suppressed my anger and put my strength into putting my tail into the rabbit tail again.

“Please, just go in…!”

But my temper rises again at the tail that is stuck from the tip and doesn’t even budge.

With my blood pressure rising, the strength in my hand increases.

– Pudeuk-!

The ominous sound that echoed at the moment when the strength of my grip was gradually increasing, and the cool sensation that permeated my buttocks.

“Ah… Ahh!”

With a chilling feeling, I groped around my tail with my trembling hand, and the rabbit tail attached to the silk garment was half torn off and dangling, and my tail was sticking out of the hole created by it, swinging back and forth.

“Iiiik…!”

The suppressed anger at the terrible disaster reached the top of my head.

I’m going to tear this apart and go to Lord William tomorrow to protest.

How dare he hand over something like this and call it clothes?

“Kadeudeuk!”

I gnashed my teeth and shifted my gaze downwards.

“……”

I reached out my hand to tear the garment apart, but the moment I felt the soft touch of silk at my fingertips, my head cooled down as if I had been doused with ice water.

Why did I brazenly bring this garment, even after snapping at Lord William?

Because I can’t express it honestly in words to my husband.

Because this troublemaking mouth only spews out arrogant words, I brought this so he could know without me having to say it.

But, you’re giving up just because one tail won’t go in?

“Huu…”

I moved my hand slightly upwards, placed it on my chest, and repeated deep breaths, reciting phrases to calm my anger in my mind.

The torn garment cannot be undone.

But, I can wear it properly if I take out the tail.

So, if I wear the rest properly, I can still make up for it.

“I can’t back down any further…”

The wedding anniversary is the wedding anniversary, but the most important thing was the rut that would be coming soon.

The five ruts that were wasted in vain because of my arrogant and rigid attitude.

And the sixth rut that has arrived.

If I spend this winter without any decent results, I won’t have the confidence to face my husband or the people around me anymore.

Because it means that I haven’t been able to properly play the role of a wife for over 5 years, even though I have such a wonderful man.

“Huu…”

Feeling a little calmer.

I calmly pulled the silk garment up further and fastened the back.

The garment, tailored to fit my body perfectly, lightly presses against my skin.

This garment, which looks like it will easily slide down because it doesn’t have shoulder straps, was surprisingly well-attached to my chest.

Violent movements would be impossible, but it would be able to withstand light walking.

It can only be done with very precise tailoring and sewing, William, that guy, as rumored, is sly but has great skills.

Now that I have worn the silk garment perfectly, it’s time for the accessories.

Starting with wearing the cuffs on both wrists, I put the collar and bow tie-shaped choker around my neck, and placed the rabbit ear-shaped headband on my head.

Unlike the tail, the headband was made so that the ears would slip in easily even with a little force, but I felt uncomfortable with the feeling of the ears being wrapped in cloth, so I changed the position of the headband and placed it behind my ears, overlapping with my ears.

Now that only the fur muffler remains, I turned my head and glanced at the mirror.

“Ah…”

The first thought that came to my mind as soon as I saw my reflection in the mirror was, ‘It’s lewd.’

It clearly covers all the important places, but it’s lewd.

The fabric around the pubic bone, which is steeply cut and barely covers the vulva.

The garment that is barely hanging on to the elasticity of the skin.

The line that emphasizes the slender waist and the unique luster of silk.

The skin that is subtly visible under the stockings.

The black fabric that emphasizes the white skin.

The headband that creates the atmosphere of a long rabbit by overlapping with the Hoin race’s ears.

“Eut…!”

It was immediately felt how vulgar and obscene I was being in the outfit of a courtesan who wants to do ‘that kind of’ thing, and embarrassment dominated my whole body.

Such a depraved appearance, which is only suitable for a prostitute, would never be allowed for a proud Hoin woman.

If my father knew about this, he would have scolded me severely and kicked me out.

But.

But what about my husband?

Would my husband like this lewd appearance of mine?

Or would he send me a look of contempt and be disappointed?

“Haa…”

I let out a hot breath and pressed down on my constantly tickling stomach.

My husband, who sends me a piercing gaze and exhales a rough breath, and my husband, who sends me a cold gaze and frowns.

Either way, it had entered my mind to the point where it was ridiculously pleasing, and this damned body could not hide its aroused state, drooling and salivating.

“T-This won’t do.”

I was curious about my husband’s reaction, but I didn’t think I could handle it.

Whether positively or negatively.

So this is sealed.

It’s a dangerous object that should never come out into the world again.

“Madam, I will be entering.”

“!”

At the moment when I raised my hand above my head to take off the headband, shaking my head, my husband’s voice was heard from beyond the door.

Why?

It’s still too early for my husband to come to the room, why is my husband here?

-Click!

While I was panicking, the doorknob turned.

I haven’t even put on or taken off the clothes properly yet.

Before that, I haven’t even properly prepared myself yet, but it was difficult for him to come in already.

“W-Wait a minute! H-Husband! Wait a moment! Don’t come in yet!”

“Is something wrong?”

“There, there is something, so don’t come in!”

“Ah… I understand.”

I hurriedly shouted towards the door and looked for a blanket to cover my body.

“Ugh… Why are these clothes so cumbersome…!”

– Thud!

“Ahheuk! Kkeueut!”

But the slippery texture of the stockings and the garment that seemed like it would slide down any moment hindered my movements.

I was already flustered and fumbling, but the clothes were hindering my movements, so my body, which had become even stiffer, collided with furniture here and there, giving me loud noises and pain.

William, you bad bastard!

You tricked me! You gave me these malicious clothes to make me look foolish!

“Kkeueut…!”

I endured the stinging pain transmitted from my toe that collided with the furniture with anger towards William, and limped towards the bed and barely managed to pick up the blanket.

Now I just need to cover my body, make some kind of excuse, and then take off the clothes.

“Madam!”

But unfortunately and happily, my husband’s love for me was by no means light, so my husband could no longer bear to hear my moans and loud noises from beyond the door and entered the room.

My husband, who came in with the momentum to break down the door with a bloodless and pale face, quickly scanned the room with sharp and keen eyes.

“What on earth is going on…?”

Then, he met my eyes, who was covering my body awkwardly with a blanket next to the bed, and stopped dead in his tracks with his mouth wide open, losing his words.

Oh, what do I do?

Should I knock my husband unconscious like this?

No, that’s impossible from the front, should I break the window and run away?

No, you idiot! Everyone will see if you do that!

“Ah… Aheu…”

In an instant, my head turned white and proper thinking was not able to proceed.

My face is hot, my eyes are dark, and cold sweat is pouring down my whole body.

“Haeu… Heu, Huaaa…”

“M-Madam?”

As I was panting urgently and somehow trying to come up with a plan, my husband, who belatedly came to his senses, approached me slowly with a bewildered expression.

“D-Don’t come any closer! It’s not that H-Husband is bad, it’s that I, I’m in this state… Uuu… Heuek…”

Tears are blurring my vision.

How can I face my husband now?

I can’t live anymore if my husband thinks of his wife as a vulgar woman…

“Ah…”

Let’s die like this.

Let’s bite my tongue and die.

I’m going to die for the sake of honor, for the sake of my husband.

“Madam, please calm down first.”

This time, my husband’s actions were faster than mine.

The moment I decided to put my tongue on my canine tooth, my husband had already come up to me and hugged me tightly, patting my back.

“Eueut…!”

My husband’s rough hand moves along my back.

The warmth of my husband is transmitted from my bare back, and it’s really amazing how the anxious feelings are calmed down in an instant.

As my dark vision, as if shrouded in darkness, returns to normal, my husband’s broad chest is filled with my eyes.

“Husband…”

I called my husband with a voice still mixed with sobs and raised my head slightly.

Then, my husband makes eye contact with me and smiles gently.

“Your appearance was so beautiful that I lost my mind for a moment, I’m really sorry if it felt like an unpleasant reaction.”

I felt happy and miserable at my husband’s warm words.

Because it must be a lie.

There’s no way that this depraved and ugly appearance would be considered beautiful.

“Lie…”

At the moment when I was about to respond nervously with a heart full of resentment towards my husband for no reason, things that I hadn’t seen were starting to come into view one by one.

His ears are completely red.

The breath that feels faintly trembling.

And the loud heartbeat that stimulates my ears and the body temperature that is hotter than usual.

“Ah…”

When I completely understood with my head that it was not a lie.

My body reacted faster than my head.

“Haeup…!”

“Eup!”

I stretched out my face as it was and violently overlapped my lips on my husband’s lips.

My memory was cut off with my lips touching my husband’s lips as the last thing.

And the next morning.

In the memories that remained dimly like a fog, what I could say for sure was that I was the happiest woman in the world during the time when my memories were cut off.