episode_0124

Oh, what should I do?

The aftereffects of last night were too great.

Even if Amelia’s sleep talking was that bad, I shouldn’t have gone along with it.

What is it, did you say weak mind and body? I don’t know the exact legal terminology for that situation, but I do know that it is a crime to do this or that to someone who cannot respond properly.

Amelia was the one who touched my lips first, but I should have backed off and avoided her.

… … It was soft and warm.

It was difficult to forget the feeling of my lips touching them.

My body is insensitive to pain, but that doesn’t mean my senses are any worse than others. On the contrary, considering that Delkisi’s senses are very sensitive, it may be even better than Amelia’s.

Because on quiet nights, I could wake up just by the sound of someone moving around me.

Maybe that’s why it was harder to forget.

What should I do?

I will probably be able to touch Amelia’s body tonight, because she clings to me unconsciously.

I already knew deep down what Amelia’s voluptuous yet slender body looked like. Even though I didn’t want to know, Amelia clung to me and told me with her whole body what her body looked like.

But the lips… … .

Will a situation like last night ever happen again?

“… … .”

I put my hand to my lips for no reason.

It was hot.

Of course, the warmth of Amelia’s lips would not remain for hours, but I was just excited and my face got hot.

To the point where Amelia asked me if I was sick.

Sigh, swoosh.

I heard the sound of something soft rubbing against another soft thing.

Behind my back.

It was the sound of Amelia changing clothes.

It must have been the same as usual, but perhaps because of what happened last night, the time at which I heard that sound felt much slower than usual.

“Elsie.”

“Uh, huh!?”

While I was hearing those sounds, Amelia suddenly called me, and I screamed in surprise.

“Aren’t you going to change your clothes?”

“Ah, yes.”

… … I was so focused on that sound that I forgot to change my clothes.

Let’s calm down.

Okay, let’s calm down.

If I continue to be conscious like this, I won’t be able to look at Amelia directly.

If you want to stay with Amelia in the future, you can’t do that.

I tried to calm down as much as possible and slowly took off my clothes.

*

Sigh, swoosh.

I heard the sound of clothes being taken off behind me.

The sound of cloth slowly rising along the back.

If I turn back now, I will be able to see Elsie’s bare body. In fact, I have already seen it once.

If you just turn your head and look, wouldn’t Elsie not notice?

And, actually, I don’t think I’ll hate Elsie that much if I see it.

Elsie… … Because they accept anything I do.

“… … .”

But even after being caught up in that desire, I couldn’t look back.

No, it’s not because I have great self-control.

Rather—

Rather, I was embarrassed.

I stole Elsie’s lips last night, but even then, she didn’t seem to know that I did it on purpose, so I was able to act boldly after waking up this morning.

As time passed and the excitement subsided, I wondered what I had done.

I want to have Elsie. That’s true. And I confirmed the possibility through Elsie’s actions last night that I might be able to do that.

but… … So, what if you confirmed it?

I even thought about becoming my own prey and rubbing my face at my feet until the wolf bit my head off.

… … When I actually tried to do that, I was embarrassed.

So, that’s it, right?

When I leaned against Elsie while practicing dance, when I pressed against Elsie’s body every night and rubbed her here and there. When I stole her lips last night.

So, the ‘possibility’ was ‘always’ there.

It was only now that I was able to think about that fact again. The more my head calmly sinks, the more I think of that ‘possibility’.

If only Elsie had less patience. If only she had tolerated me doing such things a little longer.

It means that Elsie had the power to crush me.

But I have endured it until now, hiding my feelings.

And that’s probably because Elsie was my friend and escort.

Because he’s the person I like.

Because he is someone I want to protect.

The one who lost his temper last night and clung to me… … This may leave Elsie with a deep sense of guilt.

“… … .”

I clenched my hands in front of my chest.

My heart was beating like crazy. I felt like my whole body was turning red.

How should I express this feeling?

I like it. That’s natural. But there were other complex emotions that came with it.

I want Elsie to whisper to me that she likes me. I want Elsie to put me to bed.

I wish you would look at me with loving eyes, but… … .

It feels so good to feel guilty like that and to feel that way for myself.

Ah really.

I am an evil person.

I can’t believe I think of the feelings of someone who likes me this way.

But more than feeling guilty, I felt like I wanted him to do that.

Be a little more tied to me. Please never let me go.

Someday, I will use my body to relieve the sins of my heart that I have committed.

… … What should I do?

No matter what I do, no matter which direction I go, there is only one ending I like.

I just hope Elsie’s feelings don’t change.

And in order to do that, I will have to continue acting as an innocent and kind girl.

“Ah, Amelia… … ?”

“Huh?”

When Elsie suddenly called out to me, I answered without being surprised. And it was almost a miracle.

“… … Are you done with your clothes?”

“… … Ah.”

I took it off and didn’t even think about putting it on.

How long has it been since you were lost in your own world?

“Yes, I’ll wear it soon.”

I moved around a little to hide my embarrassment.

*

If there’s one thing we know for sure, it’s that Amelia doesn’t know anything about yesterday.

If you knew that I kissed you on your own, there’s no way you could be this friendly to me.

Amelia was right next to me in the carriage on the way to the academy.

“You two seem very friendly today.”

That’s right. To the extent that Adele noticed.

“We were always this friendly.”

“Umm, was that so?”

Adele was lost in thought for a moment at Amelia’s words, and then smiled slightly.

“Definitely, I think it was like that.”

… … Did it look like that?

When I think about it, even when Amelia said she thought she had sprained her foot, I rushed over and took off her shoe.

Even when dancing, I danced with my body close to Amelia.

“It’s good to have friends you can rely on.”

Amelia said that to Adele.

Those words made my heart tingle a little.

And then, a certain feeling about betraying Amelia rose darkly.

It wasn’t just a feeling of guilt. Rather, what should I say?

Should I say immorality?

I wondered a little, just a little, what kind of expression Amelia would make if she found out what happened yesterday.

I quickly shook it off, though.

No, you couldn’t do that?

“It is an honor to get to know these two people. In fact, until you two, I had no friends I could call friends.”

“… … .”

“… … .”

uh… … hmm.

Even Amelia was speechless at those words.

I also understood that Amelia, who was sitting next to me with her thighs close together, was slightly spaced out by about two fingers.

Adele may not have intentionally tried to make us feel guilty, but it made us feel even more guilty.

“Oh, I’m sorry! I said something unnecessary… … .”

“No, I understand. Actually, the only people we could call friends were each other.”

“Is that so?”

Strictly speaking, there were people who could be considered friends.

There were kids my age in Delki City, and they didn’t particularly hate me.

However, I had a hard time with those kids because they were bigger than me. Still, I was treated as the smallest person among the people of Delchisi, so it was hard for me to accept being treated like that among kids my ‘peer’. .

Moreover, as you can tell by the term ‘peers’, the only people around me were ‘real children’.

… … To be honest, playing with those kids made me wonder whether I was playing or babysitting, so I felt much more at ease roaming the forest with wolves like a hunter.

Of course, Amelia must have felt the same way. In addition, Amelia had a tremendous position as the ‘Grand Duchess’, so it must have been more difficult for the children.

It was only as we got older that we were finally able to become friends who could ‘communicate with each other’.

“So, for us, Adele is a friend who cannot be replaced by anyone else.”

“Is that so?”

Adele’s cheeks blushed slightly at Amelia’s words.

… … .

Amelia probably didn’t mean to say that.

I got a little jealous.

And after a while, a sense of immorality and a subtle sense of superiority rose in my heart again.

But still, the person he first kissed was me.

Even if I thought about it, it was a really naive idea.