episode_0123

To what extent can intimacy between women be expressed?

I’ve been worrying a lot lately.

First of all, if you think about it as a standard when I was a man, well, going to the bathhouse together is not that big of a deal. Sometimes, I might be able to put my arm around your shoulder, hit my arm, or give a very light hug if something makes me happy or if I’m really happy to see you after such a long time. .

You could set up a motel and go in with a few people and have a drinking party, then you could just lie down somewhere and fall asleep, and if there wasn’t enough space, two people could sleep in the same bed.

But, hugging the other person on that bed… … It was behavior that crossed the line very far. It wasn’t just a misunderstanding or anything like that, it was the perfect thing to get ostracized by that friend.

No matter how different men and women are, does skinship between women last this far?

No, that’s right. I’ve seen videos of people touching or poking someone’s breasts just for fun or teasing. But that’s only possible because it’s a ‘prank’. If you really touch or rub your breasts, women will definitely dislike it.

Even if you say you usually walk around with your arms around you or hug you tightly, you can do that, but hugging him in bed… … And burying your face in the other person’s chest.

Well, in fact, at the point of accepting it, it was no different from directly revealing that I had no intention of rejecting it.

However, if I thought that Amelia was doing this to another person as a ‘sign of affection’, I would turn away. At that time, I would really lose my temper and attack Amelia—no, that’s not it.

Anyway, the reason I was thinking such seemingly irrelevant thoughts right now was to somehow calm my mind.

Sleeping in the same bed every night and hugging each other were things we did every day these days, so now it just felt natural.

But somehow, today Amelia’s face was close.

I don’t know the exact figure, but the height difference between Amelia and I is about 10 to 12 centimeters. Of course, the taller is the bigger one.

When we stand face to face, I look down at Amelia, and Amelia looks up at me.

This also applies when lying down, so when I lie down with my feet facing each other, Amelia is in the perfect position to ‘cuddle’ me, and I bury my face in her chest and fall asleep with a comfortable expression.

Even if I raise my head and exhale, the distance is such that my breath touches my collarbone.

But today, Amelia lay facing me with her ‘face’ as the standard.

When I looked at Amelia’s defenseless sleeping face, I kept my eyes closed because I felt like I would notice the feel of her lips without realizing it, but the problem was not me, but Amelia.

“Ugh.”

Amelia was clinging to me, whimpering as if she was having some kind of bad dream.

Even though the faces are in the same position.

Our foreheads are already touching.

Amelia’s breath was something I could feel directly.

Even if you move slightly wrong—

“… … Amelia?”

Just in case, I called out to Amelia in a small way, but there was no response from the other person.

Yes, because Amelia usually sleeps quite deeply. She also talks a lot in her sleep. Looking at this situation, isn’t it clear?

The point where he wrapped his arms around my neck gave me more strength. Of course, I was much stronger than Amelia, so I had a strong feeling that Amelia was following my strength rather than me being subordinated.

My eyes were closed, but I could definitely feel it coming closer.

I felt the angle of my forehead changing.

… … Now the tips of our noses are touching.

Really, if you move even a little bit, you’re going to make a mistake. That’s the attitude.

“… … Amelia… … ?”

I said it again, softly, as if warning, but Amelia didn’t react much.

This… … Even if this is the case, is it okay?

Since it was Amelia’s move, I guess it wasn’t my fault. Besides, if I was sleeping too – no, I wouldn’t have stayed like this until tomorrow morning in the first place, so even if it took four months, it would have been enough as long as I didn’t say anything.

Against Amelia, those thoughts—

oh.

While I was contemplating with my eyes tightly closed, my lips were stolen.

Something soft touched my lips. Looking at their shape, it seemed like they were Amelia’s lips, which I had always imagined.

I couldn’t open my eyes.

I don’t know why, but I felt like this moment would end when I opened my eyes.

The hand placed on Amelia’s waist began to gain strength.

He grabbed Amelia’s slender waist tightly and pulled her body closer to me.

“Ugh… … ”

A moan like that came out of Amelia’s mouth.

Was he momentarily excited or had he lost his temper?

I pressed my lips together.

Yes, this was a mistake on Amelia’s part.

It’s not like it happened in the first place.

It’s a little unfair.

Tomorrow morning, it will be treated like something that didn’t even happen, and it’s like having my first kiss taken away from me.

This is a huge loss.

So, shouldn’t I also get my money back?

If it’s a first kiss that only I can remember, I’d rather do it a little more clearly—

*

I opened my eyes slightly and saw Elsie’s face.

Elsie had her eyes closed tightly.

At first glance, she looked like she was suffering from a nightmare, but I knew that Elsie was awake.

Did he dislike it? No, he was probably nervous.

In this situation, if I really hated Elsie, I could push my body away.

In a situation where she could get away with anything, if her chastity was at risk, Elsie was willing to defend herself.

But that’s not happening.

I don’t know if it’s because he likes me or not.

Elsie didn’t seem to have any intention of rejecting me now.

If not, is it because they are afraid that the person they need to protect might get hurt?

Well, if not, you can check.

Does Elsie like men or women?

If you like a girl, what do you think of me?

Do you hate it or like it?

Do you think of me as just a friend?

—Or is he being treated as an object of sexual attraction?

This was a temptation.

Temptation disguised as coincidence.

An act like a rabbit showing its back in front of a fox hole.

Whether the fox will bite the rabbit’s neck or not—

—There was no need to check.

“Ugh… … ”

Elsie hugged me so strongly that a sound like that came out of my mouth, which I had prepared myself for.

The shape of our chests, which can never be called small, became distorted, our ribs were slightly pressed, making it difficult to breathe, and our waists were bent like an arch.

The feeling that swept through my heart at that moment was not embarrassment.

It was joy.

It’s not just sleep talking, it’s clearly a conscious action.

Elsie will remember this moment. I don’t know what her past life was like, but I’m sure it was her first kiss in this life.

Even if I include my past life, this is my first kiss.

That might be a little unfair.

Elsie’s lips moved.

I felt sad that I couldn’t move forward.

I felt bad too, but this is enough for now.

Because I confirmed it.

I slightly opened my mouth to receive Elsie’s heavy breathing between my lips.

It was hot.

It was as hot as Elsie’s body temperature that I felt right now.

Enough to warm my heart.

*

I fell asleep like that and when I woke up, Elsie and I were a little apart.

Normally, I would wake up feeling happy in Elsie’s arms, but it’s a little disappointing that I couldn’t do that.

But it’s okay. I gained something from it.

I don’t really care if what I gain is this much, even if it’s just one night’s regret.

“K,Kuhm.”

Elsie cleared her throat when her eyes met mine. Her face was red.

It is certain that he was awake at that time.

I knew for sure that we had kissed, seeing as we touched our mouths without realizing it.

Although it was just a matter of lips touching each other.

It didn’t go beyond that.

No matter what, I wanted to remain conscious of each other from then on.

“Elsie.”

but-

“Uh, huh?”

“What happened last night?”

“Huh?”

“Now that I see your face is a little red. Is there a sore spot?”

“Uh, huh?”

Elsie quickly cupped her cheeks with both hands and quickly lowered them. Does she think she won’t be caught if she does that?

At first glance, Elsie’s body is not muscular. In reality, when held, there is a bit of hardness within the softness, but it is not the exaggerated body that is often seen in cartoons.

However, once you are caught, you cannot escape.

I felt that clearly until I fell asleep last night.

When I remembered that feeling again, my face and body became hot, but I deliberately kept talking to hide it.

“If you get sick, should I skip class today? I’ll tell Adele and Diane.”

“Uh, no, no. I don’t think it’s that bad?”

“Really?”

I approached Elsie and looked up at her.

It was cute that he was so embarrassed that he couldn’t even make eye contact.

He narrowed his eyes and looked up at Elsie with a smile on his face, then raised both hands and cupped Elsie’s face.

“Oh!”

As I lifted my heel and came closer to his face, Elsie cried out in embarrassment.

It is a reaction that is not shown in front of any man or woman.

My thoughts were right.

He stayed still for a moment with his face close as if he were going to kiss.

Elsie had her eyes closed tightly. Did she think I was going to steal her lips?

“Are you sure?Are you really okay?”

“… … .”

When I said that for no reason, Elsie seemed to have completely relaxed.

I relaxed my shoulders and opened my eyes.

“Yeah, well… … I think it will be okay in a little while.”

“Really? But just in case, get a good rest in the morning.”

“Uh, yes.”

A face like a lethargic puppy.

That face was so lovely.