episode_0123

Renegade – renegade, apostate, defector.

“…“

“…“

She glared at me with red eyes.

All kinds of hatred and resentment towards the world,

And with eyes of disgust condensed with anger.

I couldn’t say anything.

I could have faced a gruesome death like the child in my memory,

Because I knew that I was just a lucky survivor.

‘…Is there still…a chance for negotiation?’

Paaat…

“This is…“

“Now, you take a look. What kind of life have I lived? Normally I don’t show it carelessly… but this might change your mind a little.“

“Stop talking nonsense. Someone like you… would have lived a happy life… compared to the pain that child went through. At best, isn’t it just lamenting our unbecoming situation?“

“The reason I showed you these memories… was to appease my feelings. is not it? To bring you under the wing of the ancient god you believe in.“

“If we understand each other well, you might have some useful information to persuade me. Just think of it as an information war. What do you think, it’s not bad?”

“…Ha…I’ll accept your offer, even if it’s just for a moment. But it’s pointless. I guarantee it.“

“You really talk a lot…“

Tup…

I handed her a bright blue crystal ball and crossed my arms.

At the same time, I glanced behind me and checked their situation.

Lapis was crouching inconspicuously, staring intently at the magic circle drawn on the floor.

Lauren and Surtur nervously fiddled with their weapons, fearing that I might get caught up in an urgent situation.

“…As a descendant, you probably wonder what kind of life I was living and getting involved in. So it might be useful to you, and your ancient gods might be quite curious as well.“

“…Okay. Then, let’s take a look.“

She indifferently held the crystal ball in her hand towards her eyes.

Paaat…

Numerous scenes passed by beyond the blurry bead.

The strange childhood I lived until now,

Life at the orphanage was a breath of fresh air, even if only for a moment.

And as I spread my wings towards a new life,

The image of a cruel world that plunges you headlong into a black abyss with no bottom or end.

“This…this…“

“…this…this kind of pain…uuu…uweek…!“

She continued to gag and vomit.

Empty eyes that seemed to stimulate PTSD from the past,

And the fear of losing another precious person, gasping for breath.

The archangel took a deep breath and looked at me.

He felt very sorry for me and his eyes were full of pity.

“…How on earth…have you lived such a terrible life…Descent?“

“…right.“

“Even after going through this…don’t you hate humans…? You…didn’t do anything wrong…just like that kid…“

“You…you too, like that child…it wasn’t strange when you died…“

“Yes, I was just lucky to survive. Maybe I too…like that child, grew up in a home where it wouldn’t be strange if I was found a cold corpse.“

“Ugh…Ugh…Why…Why don’t you hate people…? The world you were in was also rotten and crumbling. It has reached a point where it is no longer possible to be saved… to the point where you, who are innocent, throw yourself at the truck… “

I put a cigarette in my mouth and lit it.

Then he slowly exhaled white smoke and smiled.

“Yeah, it’s so fucking hateful. I just wanted to tear them all up and kill them all.“

“I thought about it several times and made a plan. You die and I die. I was beaten by saying that it was a devil on the day, and I thought that I might be such a demon.%“

“But…“

I took a deep sigh and shook off the ash from the end of my cigarette.

“You can’t generalize from one human being to all people. Most of them are pretty good. As long as you don’t cause trouble to others, you will be treated like a human being.“

“Always…only the people who were hurt by those crazy bastards suffer, and those bastards don’t feel guilty at all. So…I just held on to my heart and barely got through it. Don’t let my spirit break because of those bastards.”

“But people who are fine aren’t really warm… they’re just lukewarm. You can’t hate me. I know there are such horrible people, but when I get help from the good people I meet sometimes, I can’t hate them.“

Cheap profit…

I stamped out the cigarette with my foot and scratched my chin.

“Look a little closer. Because it’s not over yet.“

Paaat…

She nodded and looked closely into the crystal ball.

There, events since I came to this world began to pass by.

The warm hearts of people I met for the first time in my life.

And the warmth he gave without any hesitation to me, who was a piece of human trash that could not even awaken.

But those warm girls quickly turned to ashes and escaped through my hands.

The cold Yuri was in my arms,

From then on, one by one.

His precious life was being taken away by the cult.

“…“

“…“

I somehow struggled against the topic that I couldn’t even wake up to.

Mobilizing all resources and knowledge, vowing never to lose again.

However, as if trampling on that will, he sent his colleagues away due to numerous terrible incidents.

It’s as if the new world I’m facing is also mocking me, telling me to go fuck myself.

It broke several times.

I came back alive from the border of death several times.

Every time that happened, I was left half-broken and in tatters.

But the children who always remained by my side.

Those women whose lives were being targeted by the cult just for helping me.

I swore that I would always protect it, and I constantly sharpened the blade of my anger.

The woman who made all of this happen.

I will definitely kill you.

And that I will definitely protect those I love.

No matter what the cost.

“…“

“…How about it? Do you understand now? Why did I… destroy all your plans so far? “

Without saying a word, she placed the crystal ball on her palm.

A fascinating piece of glass that is very bright and colorful.

The image of the high priest was reflected like a mirror.

“…I think I understand a little bit. Why do you hate me so much? And…why do I work for that paper tiger-like mother?“

“Rather than working under you…more of a partner. As much as we have a common enemy. Because collaboration was worth it.“

I smiled and told her.

“And that person. It’s not that I didn’t help you, it’s that I couldn’t help you. I want to make that clear.“

“…I know. But if I had told you in advance… if I hadn’t tortured you so I wouldn’t have meaningless hopes… “

“…That’s for sure, but…Whew…”

I looked at her, scratching my head.

“Once she came down to this world in human form. And that too, to create myself, the Advent, in this world.“

“But, I don’t know what you’re thinking. Taewoo Han That bastard…um…you don’t know. I just drank the poison my brother gave me, even though I knew how terribly it would hurt.“

“…What does that mean? With that, she…“

“That’s right. It really hurts like I’m dying. I know because I tried it. The pain of my brain melting and all my nails being pulled out at the same time overflows into my stomach. And that person…he had no power whatsoever, so he just drank it. To bring myself into this world.“

“Even though I know how terribly painful it is.“

“…“

She looked at me without saying a word.

As if he was listening to my story.

“She can’t even protect her own body… Xiao was the first level 5 champion in this world who trusted and followed her. There wasn’t a single one for that long. How frustrating and painful it must have been for her…don’t you try to understand it a little?“

“…“

“I know what you want to say. I regret working under such a useless god, and it must be very painful not to be able to protect that child.“

“But…“

I slowly walked closer towards her and looked her in the eye.

“I mean…if I were that child…every day I spent with you would have been precious. How warm it must have been, the father had left the house, he hadn’t eaten for days, and the mother was beating the little child like crazy.“

“…“

“But if that child were alive…he wouldn’t have wanted you to do this. Look at you now. In the form of an angel, they try to kill everything in this world.“

“I…I…“

“…That child just wanted to be happy with you. I didn’t want to miss the warmth you shared, and I was waiting for you to come.”

“Ugh…black…”

“Let’s change this world so that such a tragedy never happens again. Actually, you just wanted to give us a chance to repent. is not it? So…you could have done it back then, but you summoned the meteorite years later.“

“…Let’s stop. You and I are both very tired. There are definitely trash people out there, but not everyone is like that. I have someone precious to protect…and that child wouldn’t have wanted you to do this.“

“…The Advent.“

“Maybe…if that child’s soul remains, we might be able to save it. Although the process may be difficult… I will gather believers like Xiao… One by one, once the God of Love regains his strength… Can’t you save that little child?“

She looked at me with shaking eyes.

It’s like, can you trust me? If I put everything behind me now, will it never happen?

I held out one hand as if to shake hands,

The archangel flashed his halo and looked at me with meaningful eyes.

“…you really…have such a perfect soul.“

“Even after experiencing such pain…to love humans…and even to give me this opportunity…“

“…“

“Advent.“

She smiled brightly and looked at me.

With a bright smile, as if asking for forgiveness.

“…Let’s go back. It’s not too late…“

“…Ugh…black…“

Hiss—!

In an instant, the archangel took out a golden spear and raised it towards my neck.

Click—!

A silver-colored derringer instantly stretched out from the mechanism on my outstretched wrist.

bang—–!

“Keuuk…Keuuk…!“

The yellow sacred bullet that pierced her heart went deep,

I smiled brightly at her as she faltered.

“Sniff…ah…it smells…disgusting.”

“Uh…how could you possibly notice…”

“It seems fragrant, but… there is a terrible fishy smell that cannot be hidden. It’s the smell of Judas that I’m most familiar with and yet hate the most…“

“Pfft…uh…why…“

I quickly lowered my helmet and held my sword tightly.

Let’s release the derringer launcher from the wrist,

The girls who were waiting behind me quickly ran towards me.

“You and I know it well.“

“You have absolutely no intention of giving up… and you have already made a contract with the God of Destruction. That you can’t break it. In the first place… I had no intention of biting. Isn’t it?“

“Ugh..Ugh…“

“I was kind to you in case you might be someone I could communicate with. And you just kicked it. So, it would be great if we could resolve this in good terms… Really… It seemed like a really good plan. Of course, I haven’t changed my mind about killing you.“

“Kkeuk…river…descending self…”

I turned my head towards Lapis and smiled.

“How about it? Have you completed decoding the magic circle?“

“Yes…! Thank you for taking the time to decipher everything. In the future, the meteorite…if there is nothing wrong, will stay in that spot for the next few decades!“

“Tsk…The Advent…Why!!! I will kill you…I will kill you!!!“

She cried and shed bloody tears.

The white wings were black and scorched,

The golden halo fell to the floor, losing its sacredness.

“Why am I doing this? That’s right…“

Hiss—!

I raise the blue sword she plunged into my heart,

He said it as if he was pouring out all his deep-rooted sorrow towards her.

“When I thought about it, it was unfair, but I didn’t do anything wrong.“

“This world that always fucked me up and you who manipulated me from behind are the bad ones. Just being alive can’t be a crime. Isn’t that right?“

“Ugh!!! Advent!!!!!“

She flew towards me, burning bright red,

The children surrounding me raised their weapons and prepared for battle.

As the two beliefs clashed, the destruction of the world was postponed, even if only for a moment.

I was standing on top of it.

He smiled and held his greatsword tightly.

Finally, the day of judgment for which we prayed so earnestly has arrived.

I ponder it deeply in my heart.