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Reminiscence – reminiscence, recall, reminiscent.

-This episode contains stories related to child violence.

-This is a dark story, so if you don’t want this kind of story, you can skip to the end and there will be no problem with the story progressing.

I have looked around countless worlds,

I lived an extremely boring life over and over again.

There was nothing more curious about the world,

I just do all the mission given to me.

As time goes by, humans are building buildings made of a mixture of steel and concrete.

The foolish war between countless awakened people came to an end with the agreement,

By the time we were rushing around and finally established rules among the awakened people according to God’s words.

I was growing tired of trying numerous jobs.

Knights, philosophers, farmers, fishermen, educators, architects, scientists…there was nothing they didn’t do for humans.

But in the end, the knowledge and skills I taught were only converted into money and sold.

Sometimes, they are accused of being witches or aliens, and only after being burned at the stake and dying dozens of times.

By this time, I was working normally as a social worker.

Ding dong—!

Help the powerless and the weak and make the world more beautiful.

Furthermore, let the beautiful love emphasized by the God of Love spread.

“What… is this all? “I can’t eat this kind of greasy food!!!”

Clap—!

「…」

Even when people throw the food they gave out at my face.

“Money…I need money, sister.”

Even on the days when he was addicted to drugs and knelt in front of my door for days on end, asking me to be his guarantor.

“No, what’s wrong?! Am I funny?! “I can eat some too!!!!”

Driving a luxury foreign car worth over 100 million to 200 million won,

Even when I see a woman coming to a free meal site provided for the poor and making a fuss.

The Mother of Love said nothing.

Just for some incomprehensible reason, God should not interfere in the human world.

There was a time when I wasn’t quiet either.

Those who commit crimes that go against justice and morality.

A homeowner who runs away with the rent money that someone has saved up over several years,

Or even scammers who made people go bankrupt and commit suicide through all kinds of fraud.

If you let go of the criminals you caught, they committed another evil act.

Even if I want to punish them, my god always stops me.

But that didn’t mean this life was much different.

Those who helped socially just grumbled that the side dishes were not tasty in front of the warm food in front of them.

They showed no real will to improve their poor lives.

The money given is wasted pointlessly on soju, drugs, and cigarettes.

The room is always full of trash like a pigsty and smells like rotting corpses.

Even if I clean such a disgusting room while enduring nausea,

After just a week, the small room suddenly became a trash dump again, as if it had never happened before.

It’s like continuously drawing water and pouring it out from a broken jar.

Even though the place where I was standing turned into mud and my feet got wet, I quietly did my job without saying a word.

Because that was my destiny and mission.

Treating humans warmly, no matter how stupid and useless they may be.

Sometimes, with hope in the cute appearances you show,

I was just surviving my boring days, somehow comforting myself.

Ding dong—!

Meeting that child was just a coincidence.

Identifying vulnerable groups on behalf of fellow social workers.

He had come to visit the house on behalf of a woman who had been drunk and had not come to work.

“New…are you New…?”

Arms and legs that have become so thin and thin.

His entire body was covered in bruises, and he seemed to be staggering around as if he hadn’t even eaten properly for several days.

The eyes were deeply sunken and lifeless, and the hair was sticky with dried blood.

He was wearing ivory-colored underwear that was old and so shabby that it was on the verge of tearing.

Moreover, his throat was completely rested, probably because he was tired from crying.

The old house was a mess with all kinds of trash.

“Hello~ My sister is a social worker. Does the kid live here?”

“Yes!”

That’s how I met that kid for the first time.

A young and innocent child was curious about everything.

He was smart and quick-witted, so he always remembered everything he taught him.

It wasn’t just about being smart.

When I brought him food, he looked at me and didn’t even lift a spoon.

He had the kind of personality that always smiled and handed food to me first.

It was rare for a child who must have been very hungry to have such feelings.

Again—!

Always break the candy I hand you in half.

“Hey! My sister shares it too!”

“…thank you.”

Whenever I brought him something, he would repeatedly share it with his small hands.

Even if I refused, he wouldn’t let me go until I somehow got it into my mouth and ate it.

But it didn’t seem to me that I could make any real difference to the child’s situation.

Because, as always, God tried to stop me from intervening.

The child’s father had already left home in a cold manner,

A distraught mother was raising the child.

Sometimes, before I rang the doorbell, I heard yelling and the sound of a child crying sadly.

That smile that looked at me as if I had never done that before when I visited my home.

I was very disgusted by the twisted smile she had on that hideous mask.

“We want to come forward too, but…sigh…this is easier said than done.”

The laws established by humans had rules.

And the rules were always meant to stay away from the weak.

The law is far, but the fist is close.

Even if I just swing it once.

That child could have been saved.

Maybe I should have done that earlier.

In the mission assigned to me by God, I could not intervene directly with humans,

At times like that, I had no choice but to comfort the child who had been beaten like a dog all day with swollen eyes.

I healed the child’s broken arm while God was not watching.

The body of a child who had been kneeling all night in the hallway of an apartment in the middle of winter.

The only thing I could do was to warmly hug the child who was so cold that it seemed as if he might freeze at any moment.

“Who are you? Thank you…”

“…okay. “It hurt a lot, didn’t it?”

“no…! “Do you… it’s cool…”

I was hit so hard that the bones in both my arms were broken and tattered.

The child’s pronunciation leaked out louder than before through the gap where the front teeth were broken.

Even if the wound heals, the scar does not disappear.

Even if I healed him like this, it was obvious that the child would suffer if he was constantly broken.

I felt disgusted with myself for not being able to do anything.

And I deeply hated that person who always stood in my way.

But if I couldn’t step forward as an angel,

Instead of giving up, I decided to take action this time as a human being.

“Phew…good. “Let’s give it a try then.”

The complicated document process took a long time.

Every time that happens, I get nervous and bite my nails.

What is the environment the child lives in now?

I didn’t know how long I could endure the violence wielded by my cruel mother.

The child’s condition worsened exponentially as time passed.

My efforts to somehow get him to the hospital were,

The only response that came back was from cold people who said they couldn’t do it because they weren’t ‘guardians’.

How can that be?

Blood accumulates in the internal organs, making the stomach protrude.

Even though the little boy’s thin bones were sticking out like that because he hadn’t eaten anything for several days.

Whenever I brought him food, the child’s mother would glare and chase me away.

He threatened to kill me if I came back again.

“It’s okay… Just sleep for a few nights and my sister will save you.”

「Jin-chan…? where are you going…?”

“Hmm…well, should I live with my sister? “It may not be for life, but it will be okay for a while.”

「Jin-chan…! I…uh…meat…! “I want to eat meat…!”

Have you seen the innocently shining smile of a child?

That vague smile that this dirty world could not even contaminate.

How painful, lonely, and difficult it must have been.

The child patiently waited for me.

Someday, I will hold that child’s hand.

I hope that you will save me from the hell where I was endlessly trapped.

What on earth did this little kid do?

I was so ashamed that I had to live such a horrible life.

I just wish I could save this child quickly.

All I could do was earnestly pray to God to rescue the child as soon as possible.

Knock knock–

“I’m a police officer. Please talk to me for a moment.”

Finally, all the paperwork was over, and the lazy law enforcers moved on.

A police officer with an annoyed expression and other colleagues, including me, visited the house that day.

I wanted to get that child out as quickly as possible.

“Ai…why won’t you open it…what should I do?”

“…I’ll open it.”

thud…

I tricked the humans’ eyes and forced the door open.

I hope that God will forgive me for this much.

「…」

「Shit…」

「Uuuu…」

Time was not always on my side.

So the tragedy happened right before my eyes.

The child was lying limp on the living room floor.

Blood stains pooled miserably on the floor,

The child’s mother was sitting next to her, smoking a cigarette, leaving the child alone.

As if it was waiting for us.

No, maybe he was just hoping that the cleaner would come.

There were half-broken baseball bats and frying pans lying on the floor.

The child’s mother’s face was covered in blood and she was just leisurely smoking a cigarette.

“Clean it up quickly… it stinks… wow…”

“You…you bastard…what have you done…what have you done just now!!!!”

“You can have another child… right?”

“What…what…?”

「Uuuu…!」

“Fuck…hey, quickly handcuff that thing.”

The body of the child, who was so small, was cold,

There were spittle and toys in the mouth that should not be eaten.

I guess I haven’t eaten anything for several days.

I just waited endlessly and swallowed something I shouldn’t have put in my mouth.

Before that, he would have cried sadly towards his mother. From now on, he will listen carefully, and please ask for food.

Coming back crying like that must have been a much harsher assault than usual.

Blood was flowing from his head and soaking the floor.

Quite a few baby teeth had been pulled out and were just scattered miserably.

It was such a terrible pain to go through at such a young age.

What crime did that child commit?

An autopsy showed that all bones in the body were completely shattered, and the internal organs were ruptured and bleeding internally.

Just like that, the child lay down on the cold floor and breathed his last breath.

I just hope I come quickly and help.

When I close my eyes and wake up, I hope that everything will be over.

Bang bang bang—!

In human society, even among the same people,

Not everyone was equal before the law.

Just because she is a healer.

The future is bright, and for one damn reason, he is an irreplaceable healer.

If she completes a few hours of community service, she will be free.

The result of such a ridiculous trial came out.

“Please…please please…please save this child…at least for this child…”

“…You know that. “I…I can’t do that.”

“Damn it…you are a god!!! “He’s the kind of god I believed in and followed…!!!!!”

“You say you’re a loving mother… can’t you save at least one child…?”

For the first time, I raised my voice loudly to God.

Holding the frighteningly light body of a child whose soul had already crumbled and died,

That’s how I approached her directly.

“…Sorry. “I…I can’t do anything…”

“Please…I’ll do anything…just this once…please save this child just once…”

I knelt down and looked at her.

And for the first time in my life, I looked at my true mother.

She was nothing more than a shell, a nominal god.

In this world she created, there was nothing like the power she could wield,

A weak god who cannot even save such a weak life.

It was under this God that I cried out for love so hoarsely.

And not a single person became an apostle of love as she wanted.

Only then did everything start to make perfect sense.

If just one person believed in her true love,

If only those idiotic monkeys had known that they would come together and not fight each other for nothing.

Then, at least the God I believed in and followed would have been able to save at least one small human child like this.

The world is turning black.

Humans are fleetingly weak and crumbly.

The last wish of the child who passed away in my arms.

Becoming a pile of ashes in a small urn,

There was no way to achieve this other than grilling a few pieces of meat in front of that photo.

It is right that this sick world should be destroyed.

It is right to completely exterminate all these trash people.

So I cried out to myself.

And there was someone who heard my call.

I vowed to follow her call and purify the world.

For causing that innocent child to live such a horrible life.

The moment when all the mother’s flesh was torn off with bare hands and scattered on the floor.

I decided to live like that.

Leave everything behind.

I’m going to burn it all down.

—–

“At least…even animals…don’t eat their own babies like that…“

She glared at me with tears in her eyes.

With an expression full of all kinds of hatred, revenge, and anger.

She was holding her hand so tightly that blood began to form on her hand and fall to the ground.

I sighed deeply and looked at her.

“…I’m so sorry. This happened…“

“Sorry…? Fuck you… you humans… are out of your mind… I’ve seen it thousands of times… you!!!!“

“It doesn’t change…it’s vicious!!! Cruel!!! You don’t fucking eat a horse’s head!!!!“

She screamed and threw the glass crystal on the floor.

Clink—-!!!

“Now…I’m tired too…Let’s stop now…“

“…“

“For a cleaner world…I would burn everything…I promised that…that little child…that little kid who couldn’t even resist!!!!“

“After being beaten to death…and dying cold…I swore that I would repent belatedly…by burning the whole world…to appease that child’s soul…that’s what I said. ..“

“…“

I couldn’t say anything.

The child who was reflected in her memories.

Because it was so similar to my past.

Well, I was just lucky and survived.

I thought maybe she was the angel I hoped would save me when I was young.

My mind became confused.