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Kariel felt as if her thinking circuit had stopped in an incomprehensible situation.

Somehow, she who shouldn’t be here existed in his sight like this.

However, regardless of the situation in his head, Llewen was trembling very much.

Feeling like I have a lot to say but can’t say it.

Soon, Llewen’s mouth opened.

“Why on earth… why… Is that so?”

Llewen’s eyes became wet.

The hands holding him relaxed, and Kariel naturally escaped from her embrace and stood.

Even then, Kariel couldn’t even utter a word.

Lewen pursed her lips and spoke again.

“I heard everything.”

In that next word.

Kariel could understand the situation perfectly.

“Who are you… ”

The people who know his identity are paladins and the emperor.

It seems like the paladins would have said it rather than the emperor, but considering their personalities, the paladins probably wouldn’t have said it.

If so, it meant that the emperor revealed his identity to her.

“… The emperor.”

Answer as expected.

But that wasn’t the end.

“And… The goddess told me.”

“… ”

Llewen is not one to lie.

That means that what the goddess said was true.

‘Were you watching…? ‘

I have never doubted the existence of a goddess.

However, as 20 years passed, he wondered if she was really watching him.

But after listening to Llewen’s words… It seemed like it was right to be watching.

“Is that so.”

If the goddess had told me, it would mean that she knew most of the circumstances.

In a situation where she couldn’t even make an excuse, Kariel closed her mouth after answering.

Llewen lowered her head.

Her voice could be heard sobbing and her fist pounded on Kariel’s chest.

“It’s disastrous… It’s really shameful… I thought I would be really happy for you to do that… ?”

The force of hitting my chest was weak.

My two fists were shaking, and it was even pathetic.

Because I know that excuses are meaningless when everything is revealed.

Kariel apologizes without making any excuses.

“Sorry.”

“People… How can people be like that… ? After making so many sacrifices… I actually thought about dying alone… Have you found me that unreliable? Are all the things you said to me a lie? ?”

“… ”

Kariel wanted to say no.

I could tell because I stayed by her side and looked.

She is strong and more trustworthy than anyone else.

Also, that is why he is the person he loves the most.

That the feelings he expressed to her back then were not lies.

But Kariel could not answer this.

To answer that, he had already committed a sin that could not atone for her, and he had no right to say that to her.

As she said, I tried to die on my own terms.

He made her a promise from the beginning that he would not keep.

In the end, he gave a very nonsensical rationalization that she would be able to overcome it.

Is it really reasonable for him to say that he likes her like this?

Even when I thought about it myself, I thought that Kariel was a truly disgusting human being.

I tried to save her as I wanted, rationalized it as I wanted, and tried to die as I wanted, but I tried to rationalize it with absurd claims that she would be able to overcome it.

Is there a more disgusting person than this?

This wasn’t evil.

It’s just an ugly excuse made by a wicked person to rationalize things.

Therefore, Kariel did not give any answer.

“Tell me something!”

Lewen shouted at him.

Even though I’m shouting at you to give me an answer, whether it’s rejection or acceptance.

Kariel still remained silent.

Llewen raised her head at that.

She met his gaze and bit her lip tightly.

Kariel was about to stop him as he continued to bite his lip until it bled.

Llewen gave him a hard push on the chest.

She climbed on top of Kariel, who had fallen backwards, and shouted in anger.

“You did what you wanted too! So, I will do whatever I want!”

After saying that, Llewen takes out a small dagger from her pocket.

It was a time when Kariel looked at him with doubtful thoughts.

Lewen tried to stab me in the chest as if hesitation didn’t exist.

Kariel raised his upper body and threw away his sword, then grabbed her arms and spoke strongly.

“What are you doing!”

Kariel recalled her actions of trying to plunge a sword into his heart.

She really tried to plunge the sword into her chest without hesitation.

Without a single hesitation.

That means death.

Kariel was angry at the action, which was beyond reckless.

“Huh. What about Kariel? Kariel also behaved as he wanted and tried to kill himself! So I’m going to die too!”

Llewen just went wild.

Kariel shouted loudly.

“Is that the same as this!?”

“What’s different! What’s the difference? ! He arbitrarily saves people and makes promises he won’t keep when they shake his heart! And then he becomes a villain and tries to die! You think I really want that!? I guess so… Is it the same? ”

Tears continued to flow from the corners of her eyes.

Even though her eyes were red and bloodshot, Kariel was unable to say anything as she still couldn’t stop crying.

Kariel let go of her wrist.

Lewen patted her chest again and said.

“Cariel is… I’m really stupid… You are my everything… A fool to think that if he dies like that, he will hate me and forget me… ”

“… ”

“A world without Kariel… It means nothing to me… If Kariel dies, I will really die! therefore… therefore… ”

She repeated the same words in a voice full of anxiety and hugged Kariel tightly.

Llewen, who hugged her with all her might as if she would never let go, sobbed.

“Don’t die… I was wrong… I can’t even recognize it properly… I said some harsh things to you… I did something mean and caused a wound that is difficult to wash away… Because I was wrong… ! please… Don’t die… ”

“Okay.”

Llewen’s words stopped momentarily at Kariel’s silent reply.

She spoke again to make sure she hadn’t heard wrong.

“What… ?”

“I said that I would not die as the saint said. So, I would appreciate it if you could stop showing off your anger.”

Kariel chuckled even as she spoke.

Lewen, still unable to understand the situation, blinked her tear-filled eyes at his suddenly relaxed appearance.

“When I thought about it, it was unfair for me to die like this. Since I also have sins committed against the saint, I think I will live my life atonement.”

After saying that, he lets out a laugh.

It was as if he never thought he would do something like this.

Kariel spoke again.

“However, you may not know this, but my heroic traits come at a great price. If someone finds out about my truth, a great disaster will occur. Especially if it is a saint, it becomes an even stronger disaster.”

And we don’t know where, how, or in what form that disaster will come.

At this moment, Kariel knew one thing.

That disaster is coming.

If you think about it, it was not a disaster that threatened the world.

This was a disaster that only affected him, the warrior.

“There is a hero around here!”

Beings from all over the world came to catch him as he began to narrow in from all directions.

They were all people who had entered the ranks of the strong.

Kariel’s face momentarily hardened and she spoke to Llewen in her arms.

“Saint, please go back first. If it becomes known that they are together, the saintess will be in danger.”

It was obvious that if Lewen was discovered here too, they would at least get caught up together.

You will escape somehow, so get out of the place first. Kariel was saying that.

In fact, Kariel’s judgment was valid.

If you try to stop her now, you’ll end up in a bad name.

It wouldn’t have been a big hit since I had been doing it for a while, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t a problem at all.

In fact, they attacked the carriage transporting the death row inmates and rescued them.

No matter how much of a saint she was, it was difficult to avoid gossip.

Kariel was saying this out of concern.

Lewen shook her head again.

“… You protected me and saved me from hell. So now it’s time for me to save you.”

What it meant was that it would not run away.

Kariel wanted to say that there was no need for that, but.

Her eyes had already closed as she saw that she had absolutely no intention of reversing her decision.

“So you… Stay still. Just like you sacrificed 20 years for me. From now on, I will take responsibility for you.”

At the same time as she said that, a vast amount of sacred power emanated from Lewen.