episode_0121

While I was dipping my feet in the stream to cool down, Camilla, who was also dipping her feet in the water, opened her mouth with a very serious expression on her face.

“So you’re saying those fucking bastards are going to stay at the inn in town?”

“… Yeah. The innkeeper said that I’m not a very picky guest, so he scolded me. ”

“You could just assassinate him.”

“That guy surprisingly has connections with other nobles. If I kill him like that, it’ll be a hassle in many ways.”

“Wait… Are you really trying to kill me? And the reason you’re against it is because it’s annoying…?”

“I’m not a philanthropist who specifically rejects killing. I just know that there are more efficient means than killing.”

To be honest, Camilla and I, as well as Kyle, could have busted their heads with a single wave of the hand. But they also had their own connections. It would definitely be a headache if we killed them as we pleased.

“And above all else…”

The protests from other nobles were merely a headache, but there was another, more fundamental reason.

“There must be someone else who has the right to kill that woman and that man.”

“Well… Only that punk is qualified to kill those bastards.”

Camilla’s father, Heron Argus, is, in my opinion, the worst person in terms of personality. But I heard that he was an ideal knight in the past.

For making such a ridiculous article like this, those men and women should be sent to hell for that crime alone.

Plus, that guy was also guilty of trying to work on Lizel. Although he got caught by Kyle and broke his finger, it wasn’t a sin that could be forgiven to that extent.

“How unpleasant. Even the little time I have left is being polluted by such things. I don’t think I will ever have a clean rest.”

“I’m right next to you?”

“That’s exactly why I don’t define this moment as unfortunate.”

Now that I’m spending my ordinary daily life with Camilla, I surprisingly don’t feel tired at all. Even if I do feel a little tired, the happiness she brings me melts it all away.

If Leila moved as if she was one with me, Camilla was my opposite, so it was fun to understand that.

While I was pondering, she swung her spear. While I was considering, she threw her spear. While I was taking a step back, she took two steps closer.

If Leila was like seeing my favorite garden, Camilla was like the first book I ever read.

A being that gives me a sense of stability because I am familiar with it, and a being that is fun because it is new. Maybe I am a lucky man when it comes to meeting the opposite sex.

“But there’s one thing I’m curious about.”

“Anything I can answer.”

“If you and I have a child, which family will it go to?”

“Lizel is still young, but that drunkard… no, the master is old. Even if she follows my surname, I think there is a high possibility that she will take over the ducal family in the future.”

Well, that’s just my opinion. I don’t know how things will change in the future, and I’m not very familiar with the state of affairs in my family.

But if I die and leave a child behind, wouldn’t that also be a waste?

Raising a child without a husband is usually not only difficult, but the child will also grow up without seeing his father’s face.

“Would it really be a happy thing to be born? That child… If he were to step on the same path as me, he would rather…”

At that moment, warm lips silenced my speech.

“Don’t start making excuses before it’s even properly made. And even if I have a child, do you think I’ll make that child unhappy?”

“… but.”

“Would Asher or Penelope let that child suffer? Kyle or Liesel? Leila or your father’s soul? Do you think they would let that child go? Why do you always assume the worst?”

“…… People who have experienced the worst can’t help but assume the worst. I think I said before that it’s natural.”

“It’s not like I’ve always had the worst experiences.”

“Nothing else matters. What matters is that you have experienced it.”

It seemed as though this debate would run parallel.

I always assumed the worst and spoke, and Camilla always spoke without the worst.

I wanted to see the world through a realistic lens, and Camilla urged me not to see the world through that lens.

Who was right and who was wrong? Now, I didn’t even feel the value of such things.

“… Okay. Let me try to match your thoughts. ”

I wanted to feel happy before thinking about the value of such things. No matter how much I think about the value of such useless things, I wonder if I can come up with a clear answer.

I was a person who thought too much and got carried away. Of course, Camilla was the opposite, so I wanted to learn a little bit about her simple and optimistic side.

“If you and I had a child… I’m sure it would grow up feeling quite annoyingly happy between these two polar opposites.”

“Then shall we start production right away to prove it?”

I immediately kicked the riverbed and jumped up. Even though they were lovers, they were still a special couple. An unmarried couple creating a successor. It shouldn’t happen.

As a nobleman and a man, I could not commit such a lewd and vulgar act, so I ran away.

“Hey! If you do that, I’ll get hurt too! And you know! If you turn your back on me and run away like that…!”

And then, in that moment, a voice so creepy that it sent shivers down my spine scratched my eardrums.

“I feel like hunting in reverse…!”

I immediately picked up the pace, and we ran like that for four hours, tearing through the forest.

I was so shocked that I was about to be scolded for having suffered so much as the surprised demons and beasts ran away to the village.

Still, it wasn’t bad. Rather, it was fun. I just felt like it was a waste of time to do such foolish things.

What will happen tomorrow? It’s been a long time since I felt anticipation.

“Camilla.”

“Why?”

“Camilla.”

“No, I already answered.”

“Camilla.”

“Hey, are you picking a fight right now?”

“No. It’s just amazing.”

When I slightly raised the corners of my lips, Camilla looked at me as if she was looking at a crazy person.

It was just a wonder that I could call out the name of the person I loved and get an answer.

My relationship with Leila… didn’t blossom like this.

But it would be rude and a sin to think of another woman in front of your current lover.

I tried to repay the sin I committed just now with a hug.

“Camilla.”

“Hey, you really want to fight…!”

As I hugged her, her face turned bright red. Even though I couldn’t see her face well because I was hugging her, I could see that her face was bright red, so I guess she was very embarrassed.

Who would have thought that she, known as the crazy princess, would be so shameful?

“I have a favor to ask.”

“… What is it?”

“Please don’t leave me, just you.”

“I’m not your mother either. I would never leave you, even if I die.”

“… No. I mean, don’t leave me like Leila. ”

“Yes. I will stay by your side until the day you die.”

I wanted to end the day in such a blissful state, hugging her like that, but as always, my expectations were crushed.

“Long time no see.”

Suddenly, my mother came to see me. Although the hatred I felt before was gone, I still felt uncomfortable.

Even though I let go of the hatred, I still felt uneasy because of the discomfort that had been building up underneath, so it was burdensome to meet her face to face like this.

“Even though it’s been a long time, it hasn’t even been a few days.”

“Isn’t that a long enough amount of time between parents and children?”

“When I went to the battlefield, I was away for a longer time than that.”

“I don’t plan on living like I did back then. So the standards for time have to change, right?”

“……”

“……”

It was still uncomfortable.

The sudden change in voice and tone. This silence. The time spent thinking about what to do next. It was all uncomfortable.

“Is there a place I can stay?”

“There is only an inn.”

“I was once a knight who slept in the mountains and forests.”

“….”

“….”

After dropping off my mother at the inn, the moment I was about to open the door to the guest house again, I remembered who was in the inn.

Camilla was the same, and without saying a word, we all ran to the inn at the same time.

And as expected, the man who had seduced Camilla’s mother started hitting on my mother too.

“I never thought I’d see a famous lady here. What brings you here in this desolate corner of the country…? Is it me…?”

“….”

Of course, my mother was the type of person who wouldn’t even talk to someone worthless…

“Without your husband, aren’t the nights lonely?”

“…………”

I had to stop him even if it meant cutting off his tongue.

Because if I opened my mouth any further, I was sure I would be in big trouble.

“What did I tell you today that my weak husband couldn’t tell you…”

“…”

And at that moment, with a splattering sound, a large amount of blood soaked the floor.

“Huh…?”

“… It’s cheap if you have one arm.”

His seven severed arms fell with a thud onto the blood soaking the floor.

When he saw his arm torn apart like a fish that could not be reattached, he screamed for the village to leave, and Camilla’s mother, who had screamed, came down and grabbed my mother by the collar, but…

“This widow is touching my man?! What does your husband having a weakling die early have to do with my man…!!!”

I ended up swearing at him like I shouldn’t have.

And with a loud explosion, Camilla’s mother was blown far away. It was a punch with such force that you wondered if it was really a fist.

“… The human tongue is a creature that constantly spits out foolish words. However, lips and teeth exist to block out such words. It seems that they are of no use to you.”

Her mother bent down absentmindedly, opened her mouth, and grabbed her front teeth with two fingers.

“Oh my…”

“If you don’t need it, you don’t have to carry it around.”

A shrill scream rang out, but there was no one to come forward for her.

“Raul.”

My mother asked, throwing two white pebbles on the floor.

“Is there any reason why I should have forgiven them?”

“…. Cleaning the bloody floor is a hassle. You should pay the innkeeper a fee for cleaning. ”

It’s good that Mother punished them, but they were no ordinary rascals.

My head started hurting at the thought that this bad relationship would last longer, but when I received Camilla’s hug, those distracting thoughts melted away like snow.

I realized anew that it feels surprisingly good when a woman hugs you from behind.