episode_0119

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“….Haaa…”

Hongryeon slowly opened her eyes and sighed as soon as she got up.

I never would have guessed that a mirrored world where one’s mind is embodied in one’s own image and shows one’s mind would be such a place.

I always thought it was okay, but I never thought there was an endless desert and I had to walk alone in that desert.

and.

As I threw them away one by one, the feeling of ease of having less burden might have been my own feeling.

Maybe his feelings were trying to throw away even the things he had cherished.

That’s why Hongryeon couldn’t help but smile bitterly.

“…I leaned on it again.”

I had no idea that he was in my mind.

How much of a place he occupied in my heart that even in such a situation, he showed up and extended his hand.

Hongryeon closed her eyes and remembered June, who appeared in the desert when she was tired and suffering.

iced coffee.

He has always been a huge man.

He who walks in with the bitter scent of tobacco is truly a person who makes you feel at ease.

A person who gave me strength just by talking to him or walking next to him.

How could you not like it?

“…ugh.”

Still, was that a bit harsh?

Hongryeon touched her slightly red face. Even though she did it to the person who always protected her in her fantasy, in her own image.

Such a rambling confession.

A kiss based solely on momentum.

iced coffee. This is not what I thought.

In a better place, in a more romantic place.

I wanted to confess to him more beautifully.

While covered in sweat and having a hard time, I leaned against him and confessed.

“…Ahaha.”

But I felt like something heavy in the back of my mind had become considerably lighter.

I always wanted to let him know how I felt, and I was afraid of being rejected by him.

However, I felt much more at ease because I had resolved that desire, that greed, even though it was in my own imagination and for him who had created it.

That’s why Hongryeon laughed.

Thinking back to the soft smile he gave her inside of her.

iced coffee.

I miss him more today.

Not long after Hongryeon left, Chaejin slowly opened her eyes.

Without even having time to straighten out her long flowing hair, Chaejin stared blankly into space.

“…heh.”

I can’t control the corners of my mouth that naturally loosen up.

That’s because he knew that he was there in his mind, even in that scary, cold, and lonely prison.

iced coffee. Really. I can’t stand you.

You tried to save me even there.

Of course, he said it was he who saved him, just like he did all this time.

Yuwol saved himself with just a few words.

Chaejin gently touched her neck.

The leash that was fastened in the image.

It was an important symbol of meeting him.

That’s why I couldn’t cut it off. Rather, it is just something that should be cherished.

Chaejin was thinking that far.

“ugh.”

My face turned bright red. In the end, when my thoughts about June were overflowing and I didn’t know what to do, I remembered something I had done without realizing it.

-Pukpuk!

I cover myself with the blanket and kick it away.

Even though he was a product of his own imagination, how could he do something like that to him?

-Pukpukpuk!

Chaejin, who had been kicking the blanket as if it would tear a hole, turned around.

And then he flopped down on the bed and struggled.

“Ahhh…!!”

The heated face does not return.

“…What are you doing? If you wake up, get out quickly. I have to practice in the morning. If you passed the Mirror Secret Mirror, shouldn’t you see the results?”

At that time, Chae-jin suddenly came to his senses when he heard Chae-ryun’s voice coming out of the room.

It must be hidden.

No one should ever know what happened in the mirror secret world.

Uh, no matter how I confess, that kind of confession.

He gives me his leash and treats me as his master… ahhh…

Of course, when he handed me the chain that was supposed to be around my neck, my whole body was thrilled.

still.

still.

This is definitely not something a virgin who has never even held a man’s hand, let alone a relationship, would do.

What if he finds out about this and thinks he’s shallow?

And what if that pushes you away?

The red face turned white.

but.

Still, she had nothing, but she was definitely there.

I couldn’t stop grinning while fiddling with the white neck that was connected to him.

***

I thought about it all night.

Hongryeon and Chaejin, they both have such feelings for me.

Both were beautiful women radiating their own charm.

To be honest, I would be lying if I said I didn’t like it.

If those people like you but you say no, does that make you a man?

I also have good feelings towards them, so it would be right to be happy.

“Umm.”

In any case, they didn’t seem to have any intention of telling me their feelings right now, but it would be soon.

And eventually I will have to choose.

The problem is this.

They both like me so much that they have things about me in their images.

“Umm…”

Then there was a knock on the door. Is it already morning? Everyone will be worried if I’m late for dinner, so I guess I should go quickly.

I headed straight to the restaurant, where I ran into Hongryeon.

“Did you sleep well?”

For a moment, I flinched when I saw myself, but when I saw her brightly smiling face, I unconsciously remembered what I had imagined in my head yesterday.

– ah. Ugh… is it really…?

Hongryeon hugged me, shedding tears of joy. Just like it did in her image.

She clung to me like a cat craving affection and rubbed her face against my chest.

– I’ve always thought about it. That you are with me. When I’m with you, I’m just ‘Hongryeon’. Hongryeon and Yuwol living together like that. I. Since becoming Hong Seong-moon’s great disciple, I have given up and abandoned many things… but alas. Good thing I didn’t give up on you.

She said while holding me, with a melting smile and tears of joy pouring out.

– you. Good thing I loved you.

This was my reaction when I accepted her confession.

It’s just my imagination, but it’s really sweet.

And after that sweetness, the opposite imagination naturally followed.

– okay.

It was a voice like a knife cutting into the spine.

She didn’t cry. It’s as if even emotions have been completely excluded. He was just looking at me with an expressionless face.

– …also. I am Hong Seong-moon’s ambassador, and I have to be the sisters’ older sister. And he had to be the martial arts sword and inspector of the martial arts alliance.

Hongryeon wrapped herself in the duties and responsibilities she had to have.

And with that, ‘Hongryeon’ was being erased.

– I knew what I needed. I knew what I had to do. I knew these feelings weren’t what I needed. If I had known that keeping me as ‘Hongryeon’ would be this painful…

From an expressionless face.

A single tear flowed.

As if giving up something precious within oneself.

In doing so, it is as if they are trying to completely erase the existence of Hongryeon.

– It would have been better not to know from the beginning.

Wow Mr.

When I look at the face and imagine it, it feels so real.

“Huh? Why is your expression like that? Where does it hurt?”

At that time, Chaejin approached me, holding my arm. As I face her always brightly smiling face, the thoughts I had all night create the situation.

– …Really?!

If it had a tail, it would have been shaking so much that it would fall off.

Even though she was shedding tears of joy, she had a bright smile on her face.

She was wiping away her tears with the back of her hand and trying to smile somehow, but she was hugging me tightly and not knowing what to do.

– Ah… I’m so… happy. Couldn’t it be a dream? flaw. Hmm… always. I’ve always dreamed of this moment. The day when I can be by your side, who always acknowledges, affirms, and trusts me.

There was no strength in the arms holding me. She gently rubbed her face against mine, wanting to feel me a little more, but worried that I might get hurt.

– Hehe. My everything. Only you complete me and only you lead me. therefore…

After gently kissing my lips, she smiled with a tearful face.

– i love you. forever.

And, of course, the opposite naturally followed.

There was an abandoned puppy standing with a devastated face, tears flowing from its clear black eyes.

His shoulders slumped and his face full of frustration.

Chaejin was staring at me and crying.

-…I wasn’t even trusted by you… I wasn’t even accepted by you…

Chaejin sat down without even being able to wipe away the tears that flowed. And covering his face with both hands. He spoke in a low tone as if he was spitting out.

-In the end, I was just someone who wasn’t trusted or loved by anyone… I was bound by chains that you didn’t give me…

She looked at me mournfully, putting her hands around her neck as if trying to tear off an invisible chain.

– Is it worth it anymore…?

This is not it.

This is absolutely not the case.

Last night, I tried to think about assumptions and variables, but when I thought about what I saw in their images, it seemed like it would be more, not less.

Perhaps he will become completely imbued with the demonic spirit and become a rampaging demon, lusting for blood and death.

‘I’d rather kill you and run away with him than lose him to you!’

He might start stabbing.

no. This is absolutely unacceptable.

A scenario is a scenario, but I can never see them ruined like that.

So what should I do?

Actually, I already knew the answer.

However, it is unclear whether this is possible or not.

In the end, I have to do better to make that possible.

I’m going to have a hard time in the future.

Still, whatever.

Wouldn’t it be better for me to suffer a bit rather than create a world where someone gets hurt?